Here are some poems I have written... Lemme know what you think if u wanna...
Never Saw It Coming
Heartbreak crept up on me.
Unexpectedly it came.
Now I’m without you,
Alone to deal with my sorrows.
Why’d you have to do it to me?
I thought what we had was good.
The next thing I know,
You say you want to leave me.
It just doesn’t make sense.
One minute you love me,
The next you’re not sure.
But what about what I want?
I fell for you so hard.
Now I feel like I’m crashing,
Crashing down into the floor.
I never saw it coming.
Will you come back to me?
Try to make it work?
Someday? Somehow?
I don’t want to be without you.
By Christina 4-20-03
Sometimes
Sometimes I feel unimportant…
Not to everyone,
Just her.
I know she loves me.
I know she cares,
But she’s in love with Becky.
Her heart belongs to Becky.
Not me.
I lost my heart to her.
I hope she takes care of it.
Sometimes I worry…
Worry that she’ll lose her grip,
And drop my heart on the ground,
Forget about me,
Walk away,
Never to return again.
My heart would shatter into pieces.
And I would be left to pick them up.
Sometimes I feel unimportant…
Sometimes I worry…
Right now…I just feel lost.
By: Christina 5-20-03
Life is a True Reality
Life is a true reality,
Loving someone who’s in love with someone else.
It hurts to think about it,
But it’s real.
I’m happy for her honesty.
That she feels comfortable enough to tell me.
But imagining her loving someone else hurts.
Because I want her to love me.
Maybe someday…
Maybe sometime…
She’ll love me,
The way that I love her.
Until that day,
I’ll wait.
Wait for her love,
And our life to start together.
But it still hurts.
I love her,
And she loves someone else.
Life is a true reality.
By: Christina 5-20-03
Paths Of Life
Things happen in life.
Things you can’t explain.
Some things you don’t want to.
My life hasn’t gone as I expected,
It might be a good thing.
Or maybe it’s bad.
My path for life keeps changing,
It turned once for the better.
And it made me happier than I’ve ever been.
But how long can that possibly last?
How long until my heart shatters again?
I hope it never comes.
I’m finding myself falling deeper.
Deeper into her eyes at night,
Knowing I may never find my way out again.
Sometimes I want out.
Sometimes I want to go farther.
Right now I just wish I had some answers…
By Christina on 6-1-03
Another Heartbreak
Love is a crazy word.
And being in love is even worse.
It’s funny how people toss around the word love.
Half the time they don’t even mean it.
I met her, enjoyed her, loved her as my friend.
The day that I got her was a happy day.
We shared two happy months,
Then she left me.
I started falling in love with her,
And for what?
Heartbreak a second time?
She never felt for me the way I did for her.
Making love with someone…
It’s a powerful thing right?
It’s amazing how many people can fake it’s truth.
I always made love with her, but she never did with me.
It’s a shame.
A shame to have wasted two months.
Two months for what?
Another heartbreak to come?
Relationships just aren’t worth it anymore.
I’d rather be alone.
By Christina on 6-3-03
Contradictions
The world keeps spinning around me.
Yet I stand still.
I go nowhere.
Time is endless, yet it is standing still.
Life has no meaning,
Yet I am still breathing.
Why?
Why can't I disappear?
By: Christina on 12-17-02
You
There’s something about the way you laugh
The way you talk
The way you smile
The way you look…
You just make me feel warm all over.
Just being around you,
Makes me feel so happy,
So Complete.
Without you I would be nothing.
You make my world make sense.
I don’t know what I would do without you in my life.
Nothing would make sense.
That’s why I’m so glad I have you.
I love you baby!
Let’s stay together forever.
By Christina on 12-24-02
I Need You
I wish you could see,
What you mean to me
For it is far greater than anything you can imagine.
My love for you is never-ending.
Yet the thought of losing you arises in my head,
And it makes me sad.
To think of the wonderful feeling we were given.
Why put that to waste?
What if you are the only person I am to love?
I don’t want to lose my chance.
I need you with me.
I need your love.
I need your touch.
I need you.
By: Christina on 12-17-02
Alone
Someday you will realize your mistakes.
But I will be gone.
And you will be left alone.
Alone to contemplate yourself and your stupidity.
I will go on.
I will live.
And there you’ll sit.
Alone.
Life will pass us by years at a time.
I will be happily married.
And where will you be?
Alone.
Wishing you had done it differently.
Hoping you can make it better.
But you’ll still sit,
Alone.
Five years down the road…
We see each other on the street.
You smile as I walk by.
But I don’t remember.
I stare at you like a stranger because I moved on.
You feel the old feelings come back.
But I moved on.
So there you continue to sit,
Alone.
By: Christina on 12-18-02
Together Again
Months passed…
Without a word,
Without a thought,
Then you came back into my life,
To take away all the sorrows.
We talked…
About the past,
About the future,
About what we could have done,
To make it right.
Time elapsed…
We realized the feelings were still there,
We still had things we wanted to share.
My heart was hurting,
But you helped me heal.
You said…
You loved me,
You wanted me,
That we could try it again.
I said yes.
And now…
We’re together again,
Free from pain,
Happy together.
Never letting another tear us apart again.
By: Christina 3-30-03
Uncertain
Why do I feel like this?
Everything is suppose to make sense,
Yet it doesn’t.
I feel trapped in a cage without a key.
I am trying to escape,
Trying to find the answers,
But they just wont come.
Time is everything,
But will it bring the answers I want?
It’s all un-certain.
Nothing makes sense anymore.
I want and I want,
But nothing flows right.
Everything sits still.
Love is an interesting word.
What does it mean?
I don’t know what it is,
But I’d really like to find out.
I care so much about you,
Yet you’re so far away,
Completely out of my grasp.
What am I suppose to do?
Follow my heart?
Follow my head?
Do what’s right?
What is right anyhow?
Nothing makes sense.
I’m feeling uncertain.
By: Christina on 12-17-02
That's all the good one's so far.. if I get anything else.. I'll be sure to let you know... but I got some song lyrics for Deb.. if u ever read this...
Dont
Don't walk too close
Don't breathe so soft
Don't talk so sweet
Don't sing
Don't lay oh so near
Please don't let me fall in love with you again
Please let me forget
All those sweet smiles
All of the passion
All of the peace, the heat, the pain
All those blue skies
Where your words were my freedom
Please, don't let me fall in love with you again
Too many times
I've cared too much
I stood on the edge
And say that you held my hand
And knowing too well
I couldn't hide from those eyes
Please, don't let me fall in love with you again
-Jewel-
Can U Help Me
Umm Why, Umm Why
Living on the edge out of control
And the world just wont let me slow down
But in my biggest picture was a photo of you and me
Girl you know I tired our content provide all the
material things I thought that would make you happy
I'm confuse can you make me understand
Cause I tired to give you the best of me
I thought we were cool maybe I was part
But never took time to see!
Can u help me?
Tell me what you want from me
Can u help me?
Tell me why you want to leave
Baby help me
Without you my whole world is falling apart
And I'm going crazy! Lifes a prison when your in love alone
(Oh girl) I need you come back home (you know I need you) I don't want to be alone
Girl I put your love up on the shelf
And I guess I didn't have to go that
Knowing together, cause I hurt you many times
And now your not around
I wish for every moment in time
That I wasted we used it to make sweet love.
Baby be my guide please take my hand
Want you to know that I got you.
If you need it. I don't want to be on the outside looking in
I got to have you girl can't you see it.
Will you help me?
Tell me what you want from me
Can u help me?
Tell me why you want to leave
Baby help me
Cause without you my whole world is falling apart
And with out I think I'll go crazy! Life's a prison when your in love alone
(Oh girl) I need you come back home (you know I need you) I don't want to be alone
(Please stay don't go) To give me another chance I want to be your man
Girl, you got me down here on my knees
Crying, begging pleading
I'll do anything for your love
Would you help me?
Tell me what you want from me
Can u help me?
I don't understand
Girl I just a man
Help me
Can help me
With out you my whole world is falling apart
And without you girl I'm going crazy! Life a prison without your love
Can u help me?
Tell me why, why, why, why, why, why
Can u help me?
Girl I'm here this time because your all I got
Can u help me?
Help me understand why I can't be your man
It's driving me crazy
Crazy, crazy, crazy
-Usher-
If You're Not The One
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
TAKE ME AWAY
this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
this time you burn me with your eyes
you see past all the lies
you take it all away
I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
don't give up on me yet
don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
but don't let
me stay here alone
this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
I've seen enough and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
See what Care Bear you are.
Read my diary... I write some pretty interesting stuff in there.. well at least.. I plan on starting.. leave me messages if you want to. latas
Read my diary.
What is so great about you?
