i hate this stupid ol' angelfire blog shit! i want blogger back! that's it...i'm going for it. i'll just make a pretend name and all. nevermind. i don't know. i wrote the previous entry thinking it would be private. but i'm coming to the realization that this isn't private as well and that just means it'll leak one day. there's only one site i know for sure that's private and that's diaryland.com or something. the fact that it has "diary" in it's name is kinda...EEK.
so...i'm tired. life's shitty. i don't know what to do. academically, i'm very scared...for life. man, in november, just months away, i must submit college apps. WTF?! wasn't i just in 2nd grade?? BIG SIGH. but i guess we should take life a day at a time... just let me believe that for now. today i went to the dentist...with my family. the whole lot of it. crazy. we were like a whole vietnamese mob looking out for each other running back and forth between...umm...whatchamacallit, stalls? something like that. my younger brother was supposed to have his teeth pulled out today; i was scared for him. ironically enough, when i thought it was over, i found out they hadn't done it yet. so all that stress that he and i were under, thinking he would have his teeth fuckin' pulled out...was for nothing. oh well, he survived...a cleaning! the more ironic part was that my parents and i promised him (oh, a promise...) that if he made if out of the teeth-pulling without whining or fretting and whatnot, we'd buy him games and all. crazy. and even though he didn't suffer through any removal of teeth, he still got games! another funny thing is that while purchasing his games, my dad was seriously considering something that was $100 vs. something that was only $30. HELLO?! financial crisis...yes. man, what a father, eh? spoiling us and all. WAIT! i didn't get anything. =\ i went to the dentist, too. haha, luckily i'm not the jealous type. i tried to enjoy the games with my brother, but it only gave me a headache. plus, i ate too much junk stuff today. no wonder my teeth are...wait, we're not going into that. hmm...so, a plain sunday? maybe. but i think it was an adventure that i went through today.
so how am i feeling? weird. tired, for sure. but emotionally i feel detached. but in a good way...at times. i wish my parents would let me go out more. they can trust me. i won't do anything BAD. bad. okay, i won't do ANYTHING bad. but...they're who they are and i'm stuck at home, continuously cleaning my room. i feel like i have been cleaning it for centuries but it's never clean. ironically, i'm only 17. BOO-YAH. must find a new home for this blog stuff. sorry angelfire. keep it real.
so...i'm tired. life's shitty. i don't know what to do. academically, i'm very scared...for life. man, in november, just months away, i must submit college apps. WTF?! wasn't i just in 2nd grade?? BIG SIGH. but i guess we should take life a day at a time... just let me believe that for now. today i went to the dentist...with my family. the whole lot of it. crazy. we were like a whole vietnamese mob looking out for each other running back and forth between...umm...whatchamacallit, stalls? something like that. my younger brother was supposed to have his teeth pulled out today; i was scared for him. ironically enough, when i thought it was over, i found out they hadn't done it yet. so all that stress that he and i were under, thinking he would have his teeth fuckin' pulled out...was for nothing. oh well, he survived...a cleaning! the more ironic part was that my parents and i promised him (oh, a promise...) that if he made if out of the teeth-pulling without whining or fretting and whatnot, we'd buy him games and all. crazy. and even though he didn't suffer through any removal of teeth, he still got games! another funny thing is that while purchasing his games, my dad was seriously considering something that was $100 vs. something that was only $30. HELLO?! financial crisis...yes. man, what a father, eh? spoiling us and all. WAIT! i didn't get anything. =\ i went to the dentist, too. haha, luckily i'm not the jealous type. i tried to enjoy the games with my brother, but it only gave me a headache. plus, i ate too much junk stuff today. no wonder my teeth are...wait, we're not going into that. hmm...so, a plain sunday? maybe. but i think it was an adventure that i went through today.
so how am i feeling? weird. tired, for sure. but emotionally i feel detached. but in a good way...at times. i wish my parents would let me go out more. they can trust me. i won't do anything BAD. bad. okay, i won't do ANYTHING bad. but...they're who they are and i'm stuck at home, continuously cleaning my room. i feel like i have been cleaning it for centuries but it's never clean. ironically, i'm only 17. BOO-YAH. must find a new home for this blog stuff. sorry angelfire. keep it real.