today is july 9, 2003. we went to my aunts oh joy i didnt want to go and my dad said it was going to be a family thing. oh yeah if it was a family thing y wasnt he there??? i think erica is mad at me i kinda sense it. i mean i wasnt mad at her i was just kinda pissed that she told me when she slept over my house i could go to maine with her next time she went but no she picked taylor over me. (omg here i am crying again) she always picks taylor over me (not that i have anything against taylor or nething i mean she is one of my best friends.)mabey if we go on vacation this summer my mom will let me bring taylor.
i told erica and sam that i was over cory. i tell myself that every day but my heart jus keeps saying keep going for him well my mind is saying dont look back at the past look on forward. they should noe i am obviously not over him. i cry almost every night i really need someone to talk to. i need to go to tay's tommorow.