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November 8 22:02

Intraspective.

I look at how much I've really worked this week, I studied this Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, and up to today, more or less succesfully, what I constantly worry about, however, is the hours that 'dissapear'. I frequently have to make use of every second, so I hate it when I even lose an hour in a week.

I mean generally, there are good or minor excuses, like today I talked with Marie (don't get to talk much) for about 2 hours. It's worse with my Grandfather, I've been able to talk with him 5 hours straight with his Wife haggling him straight (say the word Republican to him and he'll start off on the story of how he came to vote for Eisenhower). I spent another hour wandering the Physics halls (pretty spaced-out and aimlessly, I didn't even really think about one thing in particular, I just worried about stuff), because the teachers weren't in, and when they were it was an hour's worth of questions for the two (that wasn't a wasted hour at least). If I'm really good in a day I spend a half-hour of the routinal internet (mail-forum-English Wikinews-Spanish Wikinews), this is usually an hour to an hour and a half, however, because I end up checking the mail and forum twice, and the Austrian Forum, Physics Forum, Math forum, and Capitalist Forum at least one (the last four hardly anyone ever posts, so I don't spend a lot of time there). Also, very strangely, I find I eat /incredibly/ slowly. When I get home I make a lil pizza or cuporamen, which takes about 5 minutes, although I find it takes me about 40 minutes to eat it? Temporally, it doesn't make a lot of sense, but that's what happens (I analized how I eat bread, I tend to make them into little balls and eat them one at a time, very slowly, sometimes I can get the peanut butter to stand up without any bread support). And then there's the random ten minutes I spend making this, which I try to cut down, but if something's really on my chest, I gotta say it somewhere.

Or there are other many special cases, like Yesterday it took me about an hour to vote (finger hovering indesively over the touch-screen, took me about a good 5 minutes to press "cast ballot"). Then there's all the time given to driving, I try to make it worthwhile by thinking about some topic on the way, if you have any good problems send me them, I like to try to think about them while driving; typically, if the topic isn't involved enough, or most of the time I resolve to think about a problem I come to a conclusion that I need to look up something or some identity to continue, thus 'resolving' the problem and my mind wanders off.....And when I get back home, I never find enough time to look up the identity!

I've gotten quite good at making my mind play midis, I usually just start with the opening line of Tocatta (STILL AN AWESUM SONG!) and just Jazz it, however, if I get to involved with it, I end up just composing rather than thinking at all. Then there are all the times I fantasize and daydream rather than think.

A lot of times if I get a good idea, I'll start REALLY overdaydreaming the idea, like I start dreaming that I do lectures on the topic, &c.. For example, a problem that I resolved on trying to solve earlier (it's on my list-o problems on this page), was to find a closed form solution to ∫e^-x2dx. I know Feynman had created a way to solve it with definite unbounded limits using a coordinate transformation. So the idea was to create a generalization of Feynman's method, maybe there is an exact procedure (that would end up as some sort of kernel maybe?) that would generally transform ANY problem to a closed-form solution. However, in order to continue thinking about this, I needed to review material on Jacobians, thus the problem was 'resolved', and this allowed me to whistfully daydreaming about giving lectures which I named, "The Greatest Fucking Method Ever", because I argued in my mind that everyone would expect a pretentious name like, "The Use of Jacobians in Ordinary Lagrangian Transformations to a General Method of Solution for Closed-Form Integrals", and how hilarious it would be to give a simple yet funny name like, "This Method Kicks Ass" or "Integration by Parts is for Losers" or "Jacobians are dope!" or.....(I spent a lot of time having fun with this name idea) (if I ever send anything into a journal after I might be able to get published once, I'm sending a few in with those names). Well, you can see how I went off from there.

I just worry when I get only 6 hours of real-work done outside classes and having to bath and eat and stuff.

November 8 10:06

November 6 17:54

I made a pledge to myself that really narrows down who I'm voting for: I won't vote for anyone who has negative campaign ads. For governor, at least, I can't vote for Nussle or Culver. Forcing me to go 3rd party. Seeing as how I'm an extremist asshole -> Libertarian for Governor, I checked out the names earlier, but I'll make sure to write them down before I go, since my memory is so bad. 8P.

Next up is Tom Latham, for a different reason. He's replied to all my mail, even though all my mail definitely implied that I wasn't old enough to vote yet. I sent him mail about my thoughts starting at second grade, and he's replied. If I didn't vote for him when I finally get the chance my 2nd-grade-old self would be sad 8(.

Anyone who is an incumbent in Boone I'm voting against, and if there's no challenger I'm putting down Sam Fischer (the Moingona Guy). Because of the gravel pit scandal, and what my mother has had to go through with them, and other occurances of corruption. And because wasn't there a promise to build another underpass in the works? Which is also why I voted for Philips the-write-in last mayoral election.

Well, there you go.

November 5 21:55

The individual melodies are simple, just repeated notes or scales over and over again; but then it's leik, '"Z0MG! I PULL OUT A 5-PIECE HARMONY ON YO ASS!" And I'm completely overwhelmed trying to identify the five pieces that are PLAYING AT THE SAME FXING TIME! Then there's a pause, and zomgwtfhhoanadwlmaoz0r!!!!! KICKS ASS! Must find more songs, "coming down to a 5-part harmony" on the same instrument played by one person...Are there any Beatles songs that do that?

Anyways, must go back to repairing teh hw-buffer.

November 4 21:35

Here comes more crappy self-analysis. I notice that during the week I seem to be work-able fairly well, I experimented a little bit more and found 7 hours-sleep w/no caffeine to be an optimum compared to 8-hours.

Ohhhh, the maté can -_-. I've lost it, and the more I think about that can, the more I keep believing that it's the source of all my troubles. With the maté can, I can thrive on 4-hour sleep. If I needed to stay awake during the day, I'd just take a little bit from my pocket almost like one would carry marijuana or something and chew on it. It was the only way I was able to get the moobie done. But I've lost it, I'm faced with restraining more hours to sleep, unfortunately -_-. Coffee, as I've said before, causes these incredible ulcer-like symptoms to me. But, surprisingly, not cappuchino, unfortunately, those cost moneys 8(. If I had my maté can, I'm sure I would've been able to have done the moobies this past summer.

Oh maté can, how I miss ye.

That wasn't the real point of this rant, however. I'm able to keep steady work until at most 3 on Friday. There's this friend of mine who forces me to visit him by various means (he's pretty ingenious in that department, otherwise I'm sure I'd have perfected the full-work-week by now; it always involves some form of blackmail or another, the latest is feeding on my incredible talent for forgetting things, wherein I will forget some item at his house that is rented out that is due conviniently the next Friday, never fails), which always inevitably leads to him leading me into a trap void of anime and videogames until 3 whereupon I wake up in a daze on Saturday.

Although, what's more interesting is what happens on Saturdays, like today. After heavy influx of anime/gaming, i.e., joy and happiness upon Earth. I get incredibly depressed on Saturdays, thinking about, or lazing about because I'm dozing on the thought of the Incredible Friday. The effects are similar to going cold-turkey after having been dependent on some sort of anti-depressant. I usually only get 6 hours worth of work done on the whole of Saturday (using a 1 a.m. schedule); but I seem to rebound by Sunday, and go once again.

But of course, I want to utilize even Saturday, because I'm an evil bastard. The only thing that I've realized, is that even though my mother isn't here today, and the house is completely empty, I've probably accomplished the same amount of work as last week. Next week, I'll just go to Ames. Either way, I have to finish up thermo and give myself a mock-test.

Thermo and Mechnix test on Thursday, LA and Stat exams on Friday, 8(.

November 2 9:43

I'll maybe create a design this Friday, and post a wish-list of parts ^_^.

October 31 22:52

Yes, centrifugal force does occur with a Lagrangian Transformation, and we'll probably do it in CM on Thursday.

Coupled pendulums follow a coupled linear set of simultaneous equations, therefore it's an eigenvalue problem just like with coupled-harmonic oscillators.

Here's a proof sketch for the uniqueness of the secondary operation. Let's do it by reductio, assume there exists an operation that has only one other operation that makes it a ring, that means that this set is constrained enough such that other operations can't be defined; crap, forgot where I was going with this 8\.

I usually do the problem of the week, which is typically a big enough problem (although simply stated), to keep my mind active. If any of you want I can post up the problem of the week each week and my solution to them (last week's was pretty easy).

I'll make sure to archive what I have here this weekend, it's getting pretty messy to load up on dial-up (this page is up to 172 KB now)

Either way, I'm trying out a new technique, of which the following that I hope you ignore is part of.

Today:
Study CM TH...well, sleep now 8|.

Tomorrow:
9-10 Stat Class
Compile Notes
TH Ask and finish TH HW
PDE Ask and finish PDE HW
12-1 Tutour
HAND-IN STAT HW
3-4 TH Group(Those above two problems in TH and PDE will probably last me until 4)
New Stat HW
Study CM TH (Go over my old HWs and slns this night)
9 or 10-11 Study PDE (for thar be a short quiz tamarry! It's only over one section, and I already went over it yesterday, and did an example problem for it today)

Day after:
8-920 TH
10-11 LA
11-1220 PDE (Get that Kohlaas guy to start up a group on Sunday)
1-2 CM
Hand-in shit
If I found any problems in old HWs, yeah, punch them up for every point!
Compile Notes
Read new TH
Read new PDE
Read new LA
Read new CM
4-5 Putnam Study
CM and TH Read and go over notes and shitz
7 LA Group
(No new HW since Exams are next week, yay and boo!)

Friday
9-10 Stat
10-11 LA (hand in LA HW)
Compile Notes
New LA HW
If I can focus CM and TH example problems

Saturday
Thermo day

Sunday
CM day (probably the Kohlaas group meets around here)

Any extra time in above, finish ridiculously hard PotW.

October 31 9:30

BEHOLD THE GRAND BALLAD OF COACH WATERS!

COACH WATERS OWNS YOUR SOUL, HE HAS HAD A PROMO IN TEH PHORUMS.

October 29 18:28

Yup, fortunately, I went to Ames to work (I'm getting increasingly frustrated at both of my homes watching incrediulous (made-up!) amounts of TV), and it started out pretty good alone (two problems in about an hour and a half, unlike yesterday, where it was two problems for eight hours). However, I then met a Physics group that was doing both of my Physics classes! Incredible luck! ^_^. I have pretty much all my Thermo and CM done, and my reading is finished for Thermo! (yays!). I now have an incredible four and a half hours to double-check stat, do LA homework, and get aheads in teh readings! (yays! ^_^).

October 29 0:39

Here comes the intraspective pity train! (choo-choo!)

So, I got thinking about what really made me happy in life (ARGH! Cliché lines!). The dream was: sleeping, watching random anime, dreaming, and daydreaming. Which made me wonder if at all I had any other desires. This culminated in a large 5-10 minute period, following with a slow rolling "Nope" in my mind. But what if I did just do that: watched anime all day? I know a friend of mine who does that, he just reads and watches anime. Doesn't have a job or anything. Would I really want to be that?

Instead of the thought turning into a, "Well, I guess my life is better!" cliché-thing, it pretty much just hanged. But nevertheless I'd rather not do it. I don't know why, there's no motivation to not do it (every motivation seems to be for it), it's just because, Applejack's Theorem. So, let me talk about my vague understanding of Confucianism (you shouldn't talk about Religion or Politics, and I think I already talked about Politics!).

I read this book called Li Xiu (sp?) a long, long time ago. Basically the title could be read as, "Chinese Ethics for Kings and Kids!" Which lead me via reference to "The Analects." There's nothing big in it, no story, just a collection of a lot of second-hand quotes, with a take-what-you-can-from-them deal. All Confucianism is (El Feppy's take on it, it's not like there are many sources on it here in Iowa), is just a small little code of ethics, the only reason for them is via the Golden Rule, and that's about it. The only mention of anything close to some God goes something like, "How should I pretend to even know what the afterlife is, when I don't even know what life is?" So, in that sense, it's inherently agnostic.

But this was leading somewhere else, I have two choices: to keep doing what I'm doing for some reason, or to just jump off, move far away, and sleep. However, I do know (from what little I know about Physiology, I don't know a lot about medicine) that the whole 'giving into your desires' jazz doesn't really work out well in the end. Let's say sex made a person happy, being human, s/he'd want more of it, and it wouldn't just be sex once a week that would make him/her happy, but sex twice a day. You see that if that should happen, then it would get to the point that even if s/he had sex once a week again after having it twice a day, that once a week would be so little, that s/he would be seriously unhappy. However, if the same person had only had sex once every year, each time it did occur for him/her would be much more enjoyable than once a year. The same would probably hold for sleep.

But there has to be a reason for why I chose to suffer by Mathematics in the meantime. Which gets me to think that I do love it, because I bear to suffer by it.

However, there's then what I'd want myself to do. I may want to sleep, but I want myself to want to work, because there's a chain of reasoning for such work being good, ethically and otherwise.

I think the want to want would be the ego, and the want would be the Id. Either way, the whole of my intraspective ponderings, and the problem each and every time, is I want the Ego to win. And so I come up with these puny tricks: moving the things I like to the weekends, duct taping my videogames in boxes in places that either require me to get up or stretch to get them. Including all these other things I've tried that have had moderate rates of success or failure. Each time, frustrated that I can't find the one thing that could just boost my willpower up instantaneously, instead of gradually.

[/pity train]

October 27 23:46

October 27 11:06

My Linear Algebra teacher has also seen the spam skit (which I've inferred, because of the incident today).

We were discussing span in Linear Algebra today.

Put one and one together, funniest math class evar.

He purposively tried to say the word span as MANY TIMES AS HE COULD. Most profs would leave the thm as so:
"Therefore, if S₁ is the subset of S₂, the span of S₁ is a subspace of the span of S₂."
But no, he had to gives examples, kickass monty-python spam-like skit examples:
"So then, well, you can also work this if the sets are the same. So the span span of S is the span of S. And similarly the span span span span span is the span span span, span span is span, span span span span span span: span span. And also, span span span span and span is span span and span is span. And you can take this to span span is span span span span and more span which is also just span span and span with span."

Which, I assure, every word also has double meaning theoretically, FUNNY AS HELL!

Too bad I was the only one there who apparently saw that skit 8(, I was the crazy-man in the corner laughing my ass off.

(after class he came up to me and whispered, "span span and span")

October 25 21:54

O.K., to the main point. We define scalar multiplication as a function that takes the two values, a_r and v_s, and if a_r=a_i, v_s is mapped to the lowest element in our previously defined C which is mapped by the inverse function of our previously created one-to-one function to the 'lowest' vector in V v_j. With this, a_i is effectively our zero element. For all the other elements of A, let there be the identity mapping of each element of V to itself.

Some other random questions I've had that I'll document here. How much weight can those fucking ceiling tiles hold? (I want to break and check out what those things are anyways) Does an appropriate coordinate transformation lead to a centrifugal force term? How similar are coupled harmonic oscillator and coupled pendulums? Given two sets and a definition for either vector addition or scalar multiplication but not both, is there always a process for the other? Is it unique? I also found the actual method of solution for ∫ e^-x2 dx via Feynman. Is there another coordinate transformation that will give a general solution to this integral? And does its integral have any residues? Given an integral, is there a process that will determine the best coordinate transformation?

I find that when I don't write these down, I usually forget these questions ^_^, which fortunately and unfortunately leaves me with the most difficult ones.

Don't know why I didn't try doing this before 8\.

The other thing, I started going through some of my old text files. I didn't know I had that many! X_X. On this computer I think there are 22 megs of unique documents. On my stick another 6 megs of unique files? On my other computer I don't know, but I'll just say the same amount I have here, say 18 megs unique? And then there're all the megs I have on this website, I don't know, 10? 56 total? This is probably an exagerration, however. It doesn't matter, but I'd like to know what the hell I have written about.

Right, I did my purpose here, gotta go back to work.

October 24 19:33

The schedule (tentative):
Math 301 3 Group/Field Theory MWF 10->:50
Math 414 3 Real Analysis (the notorious class, remember the story from Nancy of her getting a 28% on the last test and getting the highest grade because of an insane curve? Yeah. A lot of people plan on taking this one twice) MWF 11->:50
Phys 306 3 Wave mechanix (GUITAR! 8P) TR 11 -> 12:20
Phys 362 3 Intermediate Mechanix = I want this class for ONE reason: tensors TR 12:40 -> 2
Engl 314H 3 I hate English -_-, I don't care what it is. MWF 8 -> :50

Alright, what I actually wanted to post on.

Yes, but it's not unique. Let me create some notation: L over n is like sum over n only it lists the variables. Let the vector set V={L from n=1 to k v_n}, and the field the vector set is over be A={L from n=1 to k a_n}. Let's define vector addition to be a function that maps each of the two elements chosen in V to an ordered set C one-to-onely and chooses the minimum from that set, the properties can be checked and they are satisfied. Scalar multiplication, I forgot, back to you tommorrow 8\.

October 23 15:00

For ANY given set, is there an addition and multiplication that will make it a vector space?

October 22 0:53

So I started listening (and am still listening, very long) to the Brandenburg Conciertos.

Holy shit.

I know Paul McCartney has 1337 playing ability (Blesséd be The Taxman!), but this guy just railed off a minute-long like.....64th note solo? In the middle of an insanely long composition. Damn. The ancients have us pwned o-o.

Mood shifts all over the place, so if you don't like one minute, just wait. It's like Iowan weather with mubik ^_^.

Extensive use of trills, I'm pretty sure even Scott's cheeks would either explode or at the very least split in half.

More syncopation than Latin mubik (yes, more than Latin mubik).

I think this defines my next mood 8P, wait about two weeks for the next change.

Combo Random Brandenburg + insanely Heavy Metal possible? So many possibilities 8o

October 21 0:26

MML has the worst fear-inspiring monster (not plural), because (I'm not kidding) it's invisible. I mean, the see-able versions of these fuckers are worse enough, they take forever to take down, shoot a crap load of stuff at you, move incredibly fast, and do insane amounts of damage. Fortunately, they aren't very agile, but this only means you can take on one at a time, and only if you can SEE them.

The dungeon was full of them, and maze-happy -_-. At first it was kind of a nightmare more than a happy 'hey, I'm able to play videogames' dream. Then, something switched, and I decided I wanted to kick ass, so I went into Patton Drive mode, and played actually half-way decently. Twas cool.

Oh, on Tropico, with enough population it's possible to create a completely media-revenue driven state, or to create a prison-state (the media driven one is surprisingly simpler). The next thing I was wondering about was whether it'd be possible to keep a COMPLETELY uneducated workforce? Have no HS, no college, keep HS and college worker's pay equal to uneducated, and don't import any educated labourers. The 'installed-by-the-KGB' trait would be a necessity, I know that much. Someone try it, I'd be very interested in hearing the results 8D.

Going to try to edit some Wikibooks now.

October 18 11:20

The gravitron thing, it turns out spin really is what you think it is. Even though you don't count it as a degree of freedom (well, I guess you kind of do). Which, to make a long story short, means the magnetic field manipulation doesn't work. My Phys 222 prof said that spin was the magnetic moment, which made sense with at least me thinking, "Well, if I knew classical mechanix, and I saw these particles exhibit magnetic moments at rest, I would also say it'd have to be due to some movement of the charge, and thus the concept of spin would arise." I'll probably learn about it in either Quantum or Modern anyways.

The bookshelves are better to think of with dominos. I currently have a debate on this one, so I'll leave it to later.

Also, as you may have noticed, I got caught up a little since the Scott excursion last week and the three exams last week 8D, yays. I can get sleep now.

October 16 15:26

Next is the 'bookshelf idea'. My biggest fear is being crushed by a bookshelf (ironic seeing as how I spend so much time at least at the ISU library), which is why I like the piers: the bookshelves are bolted down into the floor ^_^. Either way I had a discussion with someone else about domino-ing bookshelves. Thus: domino-ing bookshelf f6 is a new project.

Finally, gravitrons supposedly have spin 2, right? That's a hell-a magnetic moment. So if I redo the Cavendish set-up, only with a large magnetic field, the gravitational field should be different, right? This idea is the one I wanted to get down, you can prove the existance of gravitrons this way 8D.

October 13 11:21

Yeah, in case you hadn't noticed:

Fliky and Fephisto's
Shitty Webcomics,
(It's all about teh service!.....
Go to hell)

A.K.A., I made a deal with the devil 8(. This website was intended originally as a project page for random shit little strips, blogs, whatever we wanted to put up here, I forgot the reasoning for both of us using the website; but that's probably because there was no reasoning.

Some "Awesum quotes of teh Weak":

"What? Oh come on, all of you are tech-savvy, you've gotta have some awesum software to graph that."
"Sorry, my phone's video card doesn't support Graphix 3.0."

"This system will only work near T_C.....Actually, it won't even work near there."

"What do I have to do to get people to come to class?! Change my shirt?!"

"When I was in college we had an intermural soccer team called 'The Spinless Bosons', but whoever read it said, 'The Spineless Bisons'.....It was probably for the best."

Also, yesterday was the awesumest day evar. I was strolling around hungry again because I'm cheap and food costs money, and I was about to die at about 3, I had to make it until 7. Anyways, I entered the Stat building because I needed to collect some homework from the teacher, and I'm whining in my head about the dreariness of life and how hunger sux, and how awesum pizza is.....
I look to my left as I enter the building.

There.

On a markerboard.

Was written:

"Free pizza! Help yourself!"

WHOA! 8o

WHOA! 8o

WHOA! 8o

WHOA! 8o

WHOA! 8O

I swear, there were like 7 boxes, not all filled, but it was kickass, it satisfied well until 7 (COINCIDENCE?!), the God(s) have smiled upon me ^_^.

October 8 3:02

Friday was pretty much out of my hands, for various reasons I finally had to 'meet' and 'talk' with 'people' _{*cough*one person*cough*}. I hate doing that -_-.

However, early this morning I should've been able to work, but it wasn't until after 6 until an hour from now that I really continuously worked. And that was only in a VERY secluded place. It was nice, dim, COMPLETELY QUIET (I could actually hear the wind for once), and I could work continuously without getting stabbed with the oft-repeated line: "are you doing homework?"

It's getting to the point where someone comes up and says something to me, and I'm like, "Ugh, I have to reply don't I? Could I please just go ahead and be rude, and not say anything, and continue with my train of thought?"

Either way, that wasn't what I was going to discuss. I believe I spent a good 2 hours writing random stories (like the one below) and replying to various forums (the Austrian Econ forum, mathz, etc.). That really isn't an excuse, however, what I need is a good excuse that'll allow me to skip out of those engagements without anyone caring, then I'll get another 6 hours to work (there also was an interlude of about 30 minutes where primal urges tried to force me to get serious into playing a random videogame, but after a while, I held it back, hurrah for the superego!).

October 8 3:01

THEN I WAS WALKING DOWN THE STREET, AND THERE WAS THIS VERY FUNKY CAUCASIAN THERE, SO I SAYS, "HI FUNY CAUCASIAN!" AND SHE'S ALL UP ONS AND SAYS, "WHAT YOU GOT AGAINST ME, HUH?!" AND SHE PULLS OUT THIS SWITCH-KINFE! AND I'M LEIK, "SHIT! SHE'S GOT A SWITCHKNIFE!" BUT THEN I STARTED SAYING, "IF YOU HAVE A SWITCHKNIFE, WHAT STOPS PEOPLE FROM OWNING SWITCHBLADEKNIFES?!" AND SHE REPLIES, "SWITCHBLADEKNIFES ARE FOR LOOSERS!" BUT I REPLY, VERY WITTINGLY, "THAT SWITCHBLADEKNIFES ARE THE GREATEST CREATIONS EVER KNOWN TO ZUES, ODIN, OR GOD." AND SHE COMES BACK QUICK FROM THIS ASSAULT AND SAYS, "NU-UH! SWITCHKNIFES ARE EVEN BETTERER! I HEAR THAT TONY DANZA CAN BE KILLED ONLY WITH A SWITCHKNIFE, AND THAT SWITCHBLADEKNIFES WILL ONLY MAKE HIM STRONGER!" TAKEN ABACK, I REPLY, "NO WAY!" AND WITH THAT NEARLY IMPENETRABLE VERBAL DEFENCE I HAD MADE SHE FOUND A CRACK AND REPLIED, "YES WAY!" WE WENT ON LIKE THIS FOR HOURS, BUT IN THE END A RABBIT CAME UP AND OUTWIT US BOTH CONVERSATIONALLY, AND WE WERE SO SAD THAT WE BOTH FOUND SEPARATE ROCKETS: I WENT TO THE SUN BECAUSE I WANTED TO GO SOMEWHERE WARM FOR THE SUMMER, AND SHE WENT TO INDIA SO SHE COULD BUY SPICES AND SELL THEM BACK IN EUROPE AND LIVE A LIFE OF LUXURY. THE END.

October 3 20:23

October 3 19:01

Anyways, some projects for me to remember: Physics on a bed-sheet, experiment to see what the fuck a nutating/rotating dish actually does (i.e., do the rotational and nutational frequencies even integer multiples of one another?).

Going back to study LA until 9, and then I'll study CM until I go to bed.

October 2 20:40

(Comes in to take the test, he hasn't slept in four days, and just got off of work).

(Prof balbs a bunch of instructions, and the test is passed over)

(Henry looks at the test, he writes his name on the correct spot.....)

(The paper goes WHITE, and the words dissapear)

"Uhm."

(Holds the paper up to the light and squints, can faintly see some black lines)

(Sits in dismay for a while, trying to read the paper)

"Fuck it."

(Hands the paper in)

Prof, ".....Aren't you going to write anything?"

"Why? I can't see the paper."

(they walk to the hallway, talk, and eventually Henry has to go to a psychiatrist)

Some background: around this time, some suicide notes from stressed students hit the news, and were going around.

Psychiatrist asks some questions, Henry's response to nearly all of them is, "Look, I just want to go to my bed, and sleep." "Have you had thoughts of suicide?" "Just let me go home and sleep, baludo."

Eventually Henry asks, "Look, why the hell are you interning me here?!"
Psy, "...We've been receiving suicide notes."
"Well do they look like they were written by a foreigner who can barely speak English?"
Psy, "...No..." (they let him go, he gets some sleep, barely passes all of his classes except Thermo. The Prof offered him to take the test later, but he went ahead and retook the class, aced it, and that's history. He still has nightmares to this day.)

Anyways, just a reminder to myself to study for LA Tuesday and Thursday. And I'll try checking AE just once a day instead of three, and SU once a wekk instead of once a day.

September 30 17:21

Oh well.

September 30 2:08

It's rather short today.

September 28 18:41

I've been wanting to just watch anime and play videogames all day for a while now, and what happens in meh dream?! I do just that! Best sleep evar! I even got to play the non-existant sequel to Earthbound, twas fucking awesome! After about an hour or so of playing that, I played Tropico on a grand nation-scale 8O~~~. It was leik, SimCity 4 meets Tropico, fuxing awesome. The anime was the best too! It was about two ethereal puppets, one dressed up like Trenchie with an automatic shotgun, and the other was Sargeant York with Patton's pistol and his trusty M1 Garand and they duked it out.

Best. Battle. Evar.

I can not being to describe it 8o~~.
I have hope for tonight too! Because the anime in my dream was so fully detailed, the credits had trailers for other anime! So I'm thinking tonight I get to watch one called 'Free Air' which is about some guy killing random stuff with a sword. GRAGH! SUCH AWESUM PLOTLINES!

Anyways, today was also, "Battle with teh profs" day. I'm a math major, right? So all this approxiamation absurdness finally got to me, leading to argument!

Unstylized Version:
Prof: And so we use a Taylor expansion/partial derivative chain rule to get this, but since the reservoir is large, we cut off these terms.
Me: Aren't they cut off because if you continue taking derivative of those partial derivatives you'd get 0, since BLA and BLA are assumed constant?
Pause
Prof: It still works with the expansion.....(or some other excuse)(goes on)
After class
Me: I still don't believe you.
Prof: Why not? I mean the expansion works.
Me: My primary major is math, so this little part of me gets really pissed off when you make these nearly obscene approxiamations, like a cube to a sphere for small volume.
(someone else who has already entered the class is laughing)
Prof: Well, yeah, but in Physics we need to do these approxiamations, in order to prove something that's actually useful!
Me: Oh! Damn, that's a cheap shot!
Prof: Well you took a cheap shot at me first, either way, the expansion works.
Me: Yeah, I know that, but since BLA and BLA are constant, if you continue them, they should turn out constant.
Prof: (draws picture) If we consider the entropy function like this, the first derivative'll get us this slope, the only reason it's constant is not because they're constant, but because we're considering this point (bla-bla, an argument that I'll have to think about).

STYLIZED (i.e., in my mind):
Me: YO BITCH YOU CAN'T DO DAT!
Prof: WHY NOT HO?! I GOT THESE FUNCTIONS LEIK THEY'S MY BITCHES!
Me: IT'S OBSCENE YO! COWS AIN'T NO MOTHAFUCKING SPHERES!
My Possy: MM-hm!
Prof Waves gun around and shoots me in tha balls!
Me: AH! DAG YO! YOU CAN'T DO DAT!
Prof: I just did BITCH! Go eat dirt!

September 27 10:15

GUESS THAT ASSUMPTION!

Damn, that class just gets so fucking ridiculous somtimes. So, we're doing a triple integral over a cube, and he says, "Now, as a cube, this integral would be a real-pain....." Then someone called it, the spherical cow approxiamation, and I'll be damned, "Yeah, so we'll approxiamate the cube as a sphere....." XD, at least in mathematics we don't make ridiculous assumptions.

Another one is, we've spent the ENTIRE lecture building up the Debye theory, which is basically just lattice vibrations, and so is almost entirely analogous to this photon gas we've already built up. In fact, nearly every assumption makes it so that our phonon case is identical to the photon case. All except for three things: a factor of 3 instead of 2 to account for the 1 longitudonal and 2 longitudonal 'polarizations' with phonons compared to the 2 polarizations of tranverse action of a photon, the speed of sound as a factor instead of the speed of light, and this upper cut-off limit due to the fact that the shortest wavelength of a possible phonon is restricted to where each particle is in opposite places relative to its partner. And he's repeating the importance of this upper cut-off over and over. Each theoretical value we get that's pretty much damn identical to the photon case only with this cut-off instead of infinity, he makes sure to mention it's there. FINALLY, we get to the energy function, the real thing we were after, and the intermediary values are just bunk. And I quote:

"Now, evaluate this."

Pause, we note that the only method available to us is numerical integration.

"Now, we can only do this by numerical integration, however, we could do this before because this upper limit, the Debye cutoff, was infinity, and we note that if the temperature was small enough, which is the case we're looking at, that we can approxiamate this as infinity..."

Me, "Whoa! What the hell?! We went through all this crap with you telling us to mind that stupid cutoff, and you approxiamate it to infinity?! Why couldn't we just do a proof by similarity and appropriately replace the 3 by a 2 and the c by a c_s?!"

Him, no pause, "Yup, you could do that."

Laughter ensued XD ARGH!

September 25 19:13

Recently, for about a week or two, I switched from Lucretia Mac-Evil/Lady Madonna/Nothing-from-Nothing mood, to Undo/Orange Range/Ride on Shooting Star/those weird Japanese songs to Chicago-Fest 2006, and now recently, I decided to go back to the roots of SnG:

ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ

I should've switched back to SnG earlier.

September 23 12:53

So, Wednesday I had this horrible fucked up Stat test. Of course I studied for it, I study for all my tests fairly hard, you dick. I went over my homework thirty-thousand times, the works; but I absolutely sucked. There wasn't near enough time -_-. Needless to say, I probably flunked this; and it leaves the question of even whether or not I'll be able to stay in Honors or not. So, I'm kinda depressed and stressed and shit. Of course, whenever I'm depressed, trying to work on problems during Friday kinda goes down the flunk. I do what I usually do when I get depressed: there is this huge stack of anime and manga in a secret corner of my room, with a pschological, "break in case of emergency" sticker on it. I pretty much just suck on that and feel fine again later, and its more or less worked again. I've still got a good chance to get a good grade in the class, but I feel like Erb at the end of his Calc class, "Dude! All I have to do is get a perfect score on this last quiz, and I pass!" I'm not THAT deep in water though 8P.

Pretty much my last hope is two observations:
1)No one turned in that exam early.
2)3/4 of the class didn't turn up on Friday.

Either way, I gotta keep trucking! Even if I get C's in every class and lose all my scholarships, I'd be willing to try all my life to get that fucking graduate degree! I gotta do it! Gonna go study now~~~~.

September 21 9:33

September 20 17:15

September 19 16:20

I manage to starve off gurgling sounds from down under btwn classes by drinking shit-tons of water. However, phsyiologically it brings about some interesting interactions. There is a point in hunger where your mind acts like it would w/lack of sleep. And sometimes like w/sleep-deprivation there comes a 'runner high' where your body is like, "fuck it, you obviously aren't listening to me, I'll stop now," only this pretty much always happens with hunger.

Now as far as mental capacity goes, as far as I've tested on myself, the only detriment is the point inbtwn where you're hungry and before the 'runner's high'. Unlike w/sleep deprivation, where even though there is a psychological effect that you're working harder, you're getting less done overall, at least for me, than you'd get if you'd slept and the concepts you're studying would take about 5 minutes to understand than 5 hours; with food deprivation, you can still think very well after the initial stages, so long as you don't feel fainty.

The real hell is both food and sleep deprivation, or even worse, when you lack food, water, and sleep. When you lack all three you're pretty much an empty hulk working on determination alone. When you lack food and sleep you're pretty much a Jew, hating yourself, and talking to yourself about how horrible your life in. My body has this amazing ability to fit my emotional state with my physiological state, which often reaches a state of contradiction because a large part of me likes seeing myself miserable, so when I am miserable, that would make me happy, which would turn the miserable-is-awesome sense off, and make me miserable again, and make me happy again.....a warning to you all, examination of yourself in such a manner can bring nervous breakdowns, I believe I've said that before, but I say it from experience! 8D

There was once where I went without water for one day, without food for two, and without sleep for three; but there was an incredible fire of determination! (bonzai!)

The only other thing to mention is the 'hat test.' This is what I determine as the most important test for the utility of a hat, here is the method:
1) Wear your hat.
2) Enter the ISU Library.
3) If the constant negative gauge pressure btwn the library and outside doesn't cause your hat to fly off when you open both doors, the hat passes.
One door the hat has a halfway utility value.
Neither door the hat is probably a baseball cap.

Note that utility is not the only way to measure a hat's usefulness according, at least, to my definitions and grading. Either way, here is an approxiamate scale:

Utility Level | Similar Hat Type
1 | Greek Fisherman Cap
2 | Mad Hat
3 | Fedora

September 18 11:20

September 17 20:17

Anyways, here's my miny project. ∫e^-x2dx. It's definitely possibly, since it's a common Gaussian form, and the definite integral from 0 to infinity is known (√π). So, the POA is to use some complex analysis, since I know by the structure of the problem that there's got to be residue on this fucker. There was one other problem, oh yeah. I was working on thing and found a strange relation that appears to be the number of photons, but is too strange to be that way, I might post it later, after I doublecheck to make sure I'm not doing something too fucked up.

September 14 20:18

September 13 21:19

O.K., some free time before I go to bed (a rarity!), so I'll dib at Endgame again. Actually, upon studying Wikipedia, I'll be looking at Louis de Branges' claimed proof in detail.

September 13 20:28

But I've come to ask you for help on a different matter. I have this friend, let's call him Bob. I worked with Bob in Physics 222 as a group, Bob was a big help, I count Bob as a friend. Bob is now having trouble in Math 267, DiffEq, which I've passed (the fucking bell curve, half the class fails type) and am now in Math 385, Partial Diffeq. What I have is a debate of conscious.

This sounds so stupid, but Bob is willing to pay me $20 a week to help him; but I can't take his money! 8(. And I can't say "No, I'm too busy Bob, go to hell." 8(. Ha, I spent 8 hours on a simple problem that I haven't finished yet, and this is my biggest worry in life?

September 13 13:32

(coshx+sinhx)^n=coshnx+sinhnx

It's kind of trivial...

September 13 10:14

Generally I go hatless, but for utility I like the following:
The Swiss Military Cap
and
The Greek Fisherman Cap

The Swiss military cap looks like a paper boat. Only, the greatest thing about the Swedes is that they've got this whole 'compacting' ideology (swiss army knives, etc.), so through a bit of origami this paper boat cap actually folds out into a full ski-mask type hat. Best of all it's made of wool, so it's quite cozy, and I belive has some spare that covers up your neck quite well. However, the thing I like about navy caps (the upside-down boat design), is that 1) you're forced to stay awake (otherwise it'll fall off, which makes it good to think with) and 2) the design utilizes the wind to actually pull the cap snugger (word?).

The Greek fisherman hat, however, is of the utmost utility. The point of a baseball cap (at least from my point of view) is to keep the sun out of your eyes. However, one of the great disadvantages of a baseball cap is its horrible design, any bit of wind whilst looking a tidbit up and whoosh, the cap flies away. The Greek Fisherman cap takes lessons from aviation history. It's like how it took so long for the trailed-back wings to take flight. All the Greek Fisherman cap does, is instead of elongating some plank-like portion to keep the sun out, is tilt it downward, the plank-like portion know only has to be significantly shorter to keep the sun out of one's eyes. Not only that, but because it's tilted downwards the wind only helps to keep it on (if your head is tilted back, more weight is shifted unevenly to the back of your head, but with wind, and the tilt, this new wind-force will usually counteract the force at the back). Other advantages, the Greek Fisherman cap doesn't work with the baseball cap's hemisphere-encovers-your-head design. Rather, there is a little ring at the bottom and flexibility at the top of the hat, that allows one's fitting problems to be just fitting the ring, which means its rather flexible head-size-wise. Also, because it costs less due to less plank-space, it spends it on other awesome areas: like making the ring a more-gripping material, like a thing strip of tough leather, or filling out the hat with a nice comfy warm wool, and then filling up the outside of the ring (if you're going fancy) with little aesthetically-pleasing embroidery or friezes. GREEK FISHERMAN CAP PWNS ALL!

The only other hats I wear being: military helmets, random beréts, and the Italian navy cap, and the infamous Mad Hat. The Italian navy cap sux, it's a bland brown, goes with a straight-out plank-baseball-cap-like design, and its ring structure does not allow enough flexibility at the top to really allow the hat to fit so well. The Random beréts fit, and are mostly meant for randomness (let's let everyone know I feel Communist today, etc.). The military helmets I'll only wear when I feel danger (like driving, or going to Scott's house). The Mad Hat is for special celebrations (last day of class, U.S.S.R. collapse's anniversary, etc.).

That's all.

September 12 20:28

September 11 20:45

Just so I don't forget, the even and odd extensions of a function say nothing about completely converging, only on the interval the function is defined. Took me the greater part of an hour to realize this.

September 10 19:58

September 9 22:09

I was sitting in that little study-afería inbetween the entrance to the Physics hall and th Physics lecture room checking over this Classical Mechnics homework for the third time and I'm checking it over with this guy who is working on them at the same time.

I had noticed, that the whole time I was checking them, I had been talking to myself quite vociferiously. Talking to myself is quite a normal habit for me, when I can't think straight, I say it aloud so my ears can pick up on it, and I can doublethink what I'm saying, it also allows me to think about multiple topics at once, while I've got my head thinking about something while some random song is stuck in my head, I can talk to myself about something else at the same time to think about minor things I have to do and let my subconscious think those through.

Anyways, I have been thinking about these problems for a while, so I'd keep whisper-yelling at myself if I did something wrong (out loud), and then calm down because it turns out o.k., or because I know what to do. I'm also frantically leaning back and forth on my chair like it was a rocker, and occasionally throwing my pencil down in frustration every once in a while.

By the time I needed to leave did I realize what had happened, I wasn't about to notice (probably due to poor eyesight), when I noticed the person I was talking too had a slight nervious twitch in his voice. You know, like he was hesitating from saying something, or glad that I was leaving.

This was when I looked up, originally (not too long ago in my opinion), the study-afería was pretty full, two or three people at each table, all that was left now was 7 people huddled up against the wall on the far corner of the room's table away from me, everyone else had left.

Of course, I found this hilarious, so I laughed out loud, which probably didn't help my case. The last table's group of people pretty much left, and when I said thanks to the guy I was working with he jsut waved with his head downwards to the desk.

So, I laughed some more psychotically and left. 8D.

September 8 13:00

September 6 21:39

Over at the Physics forum there has cropped up an interesting gedunken that has the potential to prove special relativity from items just in Classical Mechanix! (z0mg!) The author of the idea (to give credit his name is.....uhm.....unpronouncable, go check out the Stumble Physics Forum) He's invited people to double-check his work by doing the gedunken themselves, which I will attempt.

In side news, I've never really noticed how much time finishing the Problem of the Week has really taken me o-o.

September 5 12:18

Anyways, we took this small detour in Thermo, we came up with this definition for temperature that was pretty abstract (the partial derivative of U with respect to entropy with all other extensive variables constant), so he's trying to bring it back to real-world examples.

My Thermo class has a bunch of geeks (like mua) who try to screw up the professor's details on minor details, on the first day of class he's explaining this system of this block moving against another block in space.
Prof: So, what happens to this energy?
Geek1: It escapes as radiation.
Prof: No, well, uhm.....(draws a circle around the two blocks), it has an adiabatic wall around it >_> <_<.

Prof: So, in what case could the excess spin not be zero.
Geek2: If the number of particles are odd.
Prof: Er, well, dammit.

Prof: (relates all bell curves to a Gaussian)
Geek3: Isn't a Poisson Distribution also a bell curve that isn't a Gaussian?
Prof: Well...yeah -_-'

Back to what happened today: Prof: So, just to connect this abstract definition, what are some examples of temperatures in real-life.
Geek1: Zero Kelvin.
Prof: .....Well, yeah.....O.K.! MORE REALISTIC EXAMPLES!

Ahh, but this is the cream of the crop, so eventually we get sidetracked to temperature scales somehow, and someone asks what the hell they decided 100F was.:
Prof: Well, 100F is defined to be the temperature of a bovine's rectum, (laughter), I'm serious!
Me: Who the hell would be that bored?! It's a nice day out, so some idiot decides to put liquid mercury in their cow's ass?
Geek1: Because the wife wasn't willing! (hilarium)

September 4 20:07

September 3 23:43

So, in all, I didn't get a lot done 8(, at least I got my written homework pretty much done, just gotta read now, if I can finish my reading before night's end, then I shall be somewhat happy. Tommorrow comes VIM. Night all.

September 2 22:20

August 31 21:40

1) Project V1 Rocket:
Learn VIM, seriously, I could program so much faster, which is becoming a skill extremely useful, ESPECIALLY for LaTeX. I could save an hour debugging my proof files just by having it recognize $ errors for me. The time spent learning VIM would definitely be worth it, even if I spend 10 hours trying to perfect my VIM skills, by 10 proofs (which should come rather quickly) it will have been well worth my time. Hell, even if it's 100 hours to learn, it'd be worth it, seeing as whole I'm probably going to have to do more than a thousand proofs before I graduate undergrad. However, from what I hear, VIM isn't too hard to learn.

2) Beg Henry for Windows Programs AGAIN so I can complete Yggdrasil this WEEKEND!:
If I could just get my grubby hands on a windows 3.11 and 95 disk and CD, I would have the ENTIRE WEEKEND to myself, ALONE, in teh house, to quietly widdle away, networking my computers (i.e., my best friends in the whole wide wuniverse!) together. Then the computers could have LAN orgies all day long. And I could use their combined powers to make all sorts of crafty programs to shortcut my work (like, get Mathematica, and use the combined processing power to do all sorts of shit for me, create batch files to do all sorts of tasks). Best of all, I'll just ship the files and programs and shit to the comps upstairs, and I can finally live in my room. Alone. In peace. No blaring T.V. (I REALLY wish Henry would stop watching Celebrity News >_<, I really crank up my headphones around then). The speakers actually turned on with Chicago instead of on my headphones.
Oh-ho-ho, but best of all, is that this solves the internet-browsing and computer-game playing problems that occassionally cropped up in the Summer for little bits of time. Using the same principle of 'throwing-my-games-in-a-duct-taped-box', if I wanted to browse the internet, I'd have to go all the way downstairs, turn on the median computer used as a router, and connect the shit up there. If you up the cost...8D. EAT IT, ID!

August 30 21:43

Either way, I've came here to inundate y'alls with a probelm I left with my Thermo teacher that he forgot to respond to me about so far (and I forgot to remind him). Bla-bla extensive, intensive variable, we're covering this material, entropy is a function of the extensive variables, the extensive variables are ALL invertible to one another (which was the other question I asked, and which he replied after a day, "Yeah, so I found you can do that, but it's useless"), and a restatement of a famous law of Thermo: the partial of the potential energy with respect to conventional entropy is always greater than zero (the entropy of any composite system always increases).

Now, the problem I posit is mostly graphical. We can show a graph of the sum of the two systems in the composite system and get this neato S v. U graph and see that it would approach this maximal entropy 'hill'. Therefore, on U v. S graphs you can think of it as a harmonic oscillator searching for the local minima of a U v. x graph. However, a much made point in U v. x graphs is stability criterion, notably, unstable points, like being able to roll a ball up a hill and having it stop RIGHT at the top and STAY there, for all eternity. This is what I'm wondering, wondering whether there is such a thing as having the entropy function satisfy instability criterion at certain points, if this is so, then it would be a case where the second law is broken, so I doubt this is the case.

August 28 13:50

I don't remember if I've mentioned this before, because I'm too lazy to look it up in the compendium, whether or not I said that I had a proof that it's possible to prove or disprove the Riemann-Zeta Hypothesis with a transform, either way, I do, somewhere.

Also, if you haven't known, I'm very unknown as to my own music styles. I don't mind S&G, but I really liked them when I was 12 or so, and at times I have an S&G phase. What I like is very dependent on time and mood (currently it's Lucretia MacEvil, or Lucretia McWhore, or my favourite name: Trumpet Fest 2000).....Heh.....

Music preference=f(mood,time)

Bwaha, that's hilarious 8D.

-2πi(French music)=∫f(x)/(x-x_0) dx

8D, this is much fun.

Anyways, I've been exploring music combos. Because it seems that my preference for what is played after a certain song (when I feel like listening to that certain song) is stable. And since playing a song can change my mood, it's more like:

f(mood,t(normal time,time song played))

Either way, I've been trying to collect these combos, Blackbird -> Maybe I'm Amazed is one. I'd like to take out "Carry that Weight" from the Long Medley, and test its combinations also. "Another Morning" seems to have some lead-in possibility, I think Trumpet Fest 2000 -> Another Morning was one I liked. Anyways, gotta go back to work now.

August 22 16:17

On the Bus:
"So I was talking to my dad, and he's all telling me how I shouldn't drink and do crack, but eventually he just calms down and I tell him to send me more money....."
Well a Junior, to the bus driver: "O.K., but if I'm in Gilman, how can I get to Pearson?"

Gotta study 30 pages in Thermo, 20 in CM, and 50 in Partial DE; type notes; do problems for Partial, and let's see if I can do that before I go to bed.

August 20 21:10

I did manage to do one thing productive today, for some reason I wanted to do an integral, so I took out a sheet of paper and doodled some random polynomial on there.

You know how sometimes you get a COMPLETE brainfart? I did, it's like I forgot all of Calculus, even though I just finished teaching it up today. However, there's a great blessing when you know the concepts instead of the methods, oyu can build it up from the foundations. However, when I finally finished, everything came back to me (which is pretty odd now that I think of it 8/), and I noticed the perculiar method by which I went about it, I ended up using the Fundamental Theorem of Algebra somehow. Oh well.

May the new School year be blessful and productive for you all!

August 19 20:22

Anyways, finishing up this part of Project Endgame: Search for the Ultimate Function.

Last time we joined our hero *cough*hardly*cough* as he did everything roughly and non-rigourisly and began to wonder whether O(x) had some self-referencing problems!

So, as rabid Soviets are chasing my back, and I have to go all crazy noir while imaginary peoples step up to do the what nots I wonder if there's a true cause in life, whether the trophy is for the bophy, or if that's what it's all about! But will the jello become a bit yellow and whether your mother is quite, here we go now! I have a car but she's named Faye that's why we like the jazz! With the hipping and the hopping and the bipping and the bopping, that's why Elvis CONQUERED THE WORLD! BWAAAHAHAHA, what's this talk about the cats, would you like a MAP of the CAT!!!!!

.....

Okay, so if we're to define this by the Axiom of Separability.....A being the set of all functions, and B being the set of all ultimate functions.....well, B is a subset of A at least. O(x)={(x,y):(x in A),(y in B)}, dammit, this doesn't answer my concerns, I really should do this a helluvalot more rigourisly x-x. My fear is that by definition O(x) is in B, and thus A also. The only way to have an ultimate ultimate function is if it's its own ultimate function. However, by the definition of zero according to the Von Nuemann Universe, O(x) wouldn't have any zeroes, thus its ultimate function and thus the ultimate function itself would have to be a null set, this contradicts our original definition of O(x), so by reductio ad absurdum the ultimate ultimate function doesn't exist?

8|.

August 19 2:31

Still wondering.....

O.k., I have a plausability of an ultimate function, but what I'm really wondering about is whether there is a transform, a UNIQUE transform, that turns EVERY function into their ultimate function. Ohhh, what a powerful transform that would be! That would be a gem much more than that of proving Riemann's hypothesis!

So! Onto whether it exists! I know that there is a set of functions, and a set of ultimate functions, and thus there can be a mapping between the two sets. However, is the mapping a function, really, in other words, are functions' ultimate functions unique? The only way this could be so is if the function was a multiple-valued function, which technically isn't a function, the normal function has unique zero-mappings, thus the function function must. Thus, such an ultimate ultimate function must exist. So, given arbitrary f(x), let O(x) be the ultimate ultimate function, O(f(x))=╝.

.....

O(O(x))? Nah, I'm not seeing any self-referencing.....'Cept for mapping itself....>_> <_<

So we have the UU function O(x), and so long as K is arbitrary, I guess it'd be possible.....

OH SHIT! SATURDAY! THE T00NZ!

August 19 1:51

Right, now to the grand finalé! If I can do this my soul is only half relenquished!

.....

The other half is because I must finish that moobie.....I'm seriously considering hiring someone to do that -_-'. There is a persistent guilt from it, that or pay everyone at least for their time.....6*8*10....$480 8(.

Okay, let me forget about that for the moment, like the story of the Mathematical Toothache.....

A useful property would be if it told us something specific about the zeros. In my uber-simple case, let's say it is able to simplify the RZ function to that of a function that is a sequence telling where each zero is, i.e. a mapping from the 1st zero -> complex coords, so 1 is the first zero, 2 is the second zero etc.. I'm going after the basic question whether RZ is provable or not.

If it's provable, then the definition of such a formula should exist...I've just done that 8|, although there's probably a much more rigorous way to do it, I'm not after that.

Now the next question, whether such a transformation above results in the Ultimate function ╝(x) (yup, I didn't just mash out a random ASCII symbol, alt 188). All that needs to be done is make K arbitrary so that:

Rz = [(Lots of derivates) ╝]/K

Is true. So, it's not impossible.....

x-x, I widdled away on just a half pages worth of shit! Gragh! Trivial!

August 17 17:17

AE: Logic problems.

Nerding: The underlying goal is pretty much complete.

GR: Stuck without a good source.

So what I have been doing? Retreating to my room every hour to play Zelda, only to have me say to myself, "What the fux am I doing?!" And going back downstairs to try to force myself to do a project that's stuck or doesn't exist, which makes me do random completely useless MUSH coding or forum-whoring wikireason, austrianforum,Stumble's Logic/Math forums, and Google's Logic forum. Then I end up in an abysmal cycle of checking e-mails forums, wikines, random wikipedia articles, and playing minesweeper waiting for shit to load (I've gotten about three victories and three losses (two due to dumbass mistake like, "z0mg, it already HAD three!", another one because I had only 1 mine left and guessed wrong -_-, that's happened to me 3 or 4 times now)) over the past couple of days). But dammit, I want at least one flight of theoretical fancy, so here comes Endgame at yo bitches faces!

Here's the idea, that a Kernel transform will tell us something about the Riemann-Zeta function. I got this idea after seeing a proof about the Riemann hypothesis involving the Laplace transform.

So we ask the general question of whether a transform of a function ∫ f(t)*e^(st)ds. Well, to put it more generally, let's ask if any convolution (stupid keyboard only distinguishes between one type of multiplication X_X) of a function with a kernel function K: f*K. No...∫_-∞^∞ K(s)*f(t)ds would probably be more appropriate. Actually, we might as well generalize this to ∫∫ f(t)*K(s,t)dsdt. Or further generalize it to ∫...∫f(t)*K(t,a_1,a_2,...,a_n)da_1da_2...da_n.

(This is crap)
What would be nifty is a function that maps a sets of all available functions paired with all available function-representing lines and map them to a function that's 1 if the line holds all the zeroes, and 0 otherwise. With a few examples, we can show that such
(/this is crap)

How do we really define such a transform as being 'useful'? We would like the transform to indicate to us, somehow, about some useful property of the zeros of a function. At least through the transform, the zeros will be preserved. bbl

August 16 12:40

Mechanix: What I've already done in Physics, teh fux? 8|

Lin Alg: After the basix, I've already done the main concepz in my Lin Alg notz.

Partial DE: After the intro chapter it immediately goes into something I don't recognize (yays), crap about Fourier series and orthoganality (which I can see shit-tons of tie-ins of trix from Complex Analysis, awesums). Anyways, that's all, I'll pretty much be focusing on Partial DE, but I really want some other project, that's like, ubernew.

August 15 0:28

Due also to the nostalgia, I have revisted my love of WWI. This all happened during the first year (not full year, just 1914), the events at Las Malvinas are intriguing.

And this is just 1914!

Defense of Serbia!
Austrian occupation of Loznitsa!
Battle of Jadar!
Serbian invasion of Syrmia!
Austrian invasion of Serbia! (hahaha! Austria sucks!)
Montenegro invades Bosnia!
Serbian occupation of Semlin!
Battle of Vishegrad!
Battle of Drina!
Third Austrian invasion of Serbia! (maybe this Stack of Doom'll do it!)
Battle of Grahovo!
Belgrade lost!
Battle of the Ridges (Austrians pwned, AGAIN!)
Serbia KEEPS ON PWNING THE DUMB FSCKING AUSTRIANS!

Defense of Belgium!
Battle of Liege! (Big berthas attacking forts!)
Battle of Haelen!
Germans occupy Brussels, much brusselsprouts abound!
Siege of Namur!
Tamines massacre!

Pre Battle of Frontiers!
Battle of Mulhouse!

Battle of Frontiers Era!
Invasion of Lorraine
Battle of the Ardennes!
Battle of Charleroi
Battle of Mons!
Siege of Maubeuge!
Capture of Sédan!
Fall of the Le Cateau-Esnes Line!
Battle of Le Cateau
Fall of Longwy
Battle of Guise

Uh-oh! Paris!
Laon occupied!
Paris bombarded!
Battle of the Grande Couronne of Nancy (Woods?)

z0mg! Huge fscking lines form! (September 1914: The Race to the Sea!)
Siege of Paris!
Battle of Ourcq!
Capture of Rheims!
Capture of Pont-á-Mousson!
The First Battle of the Marne! (z0mg!)
Taxi Cab Armied!
Germans surrounded at the Marne!
Still a fscking close call!
The Germans BARELY lose!
Battle of Fére Champenoise!
Siege of Troyon
First Battle of the Aisne!
Occupation of Arras!
Battle of Noyon!
First Battle of Albert!
Siege of Antwerp!
Occupation of Malines!
Occupation of Ypres!
Teh Canadians come!
Battle of Yser!
First Battle of Ypres!
Battle of La Bassée!
Capture of Messines!
Capture ofWyteschaete!
Capture of Hollebeke!
Battle of Roye!
Battle of Vimy!
By November 22nd, the Western Front is trenched up and ready to go!

Let's Get this Party Started!
Rnadom attackage on Ypres by everyone! Germans fall back!
Battle of Givenchy! (Indians on the Western Front!)
First Battle of Champagne!
Christmas Truces!

Battle for Africa! Bombarding of Dar-es-Salaam!
British invasion of Nsanakong!
Battle of Abercorn!
Battle of Nsanakong still raging!
Battle of Kisi!
Battle of Raman's Drift!New Guinea invasion of Freidrich Wilhelm!
Boer Rebellion!
Battle of Ratedraai!
Occupation of Duala!
Battle of Tanga!
Rebellion pwned!
Invasion of Angola (cause the Portuguese are in this too!)

The Ruskies invade!
Battle of Stallupönen!
Russian invasion of Galicia!
Battle of Gumbinnen!
Battle of Frankenau!
Austrian invasion of Galicia!
Improvised German bands in Poland!
Battle of Krasnik! (The Austrians win one!)
The Ever Holy Battle of Tannenburg! (HINT: THIS IS MY FAVOURITE!)
Failure of the invasion of Galicia!
Failure of the invasion of East Prussia!
Failure of the invasion of Serbia! (z0mg, Ruskies SUCK!)
Battle of Grodek!
Battle of Lemberg!
Trench forms along Stanislau!
Battle of Tomashov! (btw, the Austrians suck too!)
First Battle of the Masurian Lakes!
Second Battle of Krasnik!
Battle of Rava Russka!
Battle of Sredniki
Siege of Osovyets!
Battle of Jaroslav!
Siege of Przemysl!
Battle of Niemen!
Battle of Augustovo!
Occupation of Lodz!
Russians start pulling back!
Battle of Warsaw!
Battle of Kasimiryev!
Russian combeack!
Battle of Sambor!
Retake Lodz!
Battle of Bakalaryevo! (The Russians pwn for a while!)
Siege of Przmysl!
German invasion of Vistula!
Battle of Plotsk!
Battle of Soldau!
Second Battle of Warsaw!
Occupation of Petrokov!
Battle of Bzura!

Battle for Pagodas!
Japanese bombardment of Tsingtao!
Siege of Lungkow!
Siege of Tsingtao!
Battle of Kiaochau!
Tsingtao Finally captured! (This was Japans pretty much major role in WWI)

Some Islands!
Battle of Herbertshöhe!
Battle of Bougainville!
Japanese occupation of the Marshall Islands!

The Waters Rage!
Battle of the Gulf of Finland!
Battle of Heligoland Bight!
Random Subs everywhere!
British subs do some pwnage too!
HMS Pegasus v. Kònigsberg! (Battle of Zanzibar?)
Tahiti Papeete v. Scharnhorst and Gneisenau!
Battle of the Bay of Bengal!
Bombardment of Madras!
Battle of the Dutch coast!
Battle of the Cameroon River!
That E.9 British Sub comes again! v. Destroyer S.126 at River Ems!
Battle of Peterhead!
Battle of Holland?! (4 German destroyers v. HMS Undaunted and her destroyers

off of Dutch coast!)
German Emden v. Kamasaka Maru (Japanese lose)
The Emden rulz! v. Zhemchug and random shipping!
Turkey bombards Odessa, Theodosia, and Novorossisk!
Battle off (seriously, off, not of) Chile!
HMS Sydner finally sinks teh Emden 8( (Battle off Cocos Island!)!
HMS Niger suck by sub!
HMS Bulwark blows itself up (ammo explosion!)!
Battle of the Falkland Islands (This brings up something interesting, what if the Germans won this battle? 8D, interesting What if history! Argentina joins WWII for the Falklands? There's a good chance they would.....)

Teh Caucasus!
Occupation of Bayazid!
Battle of Kprukeui!
Battle of Sarikamish!

Teh Mesopotamia!
Occupation of Fao!
Occupation of Basra! (yay! Teh oils!)

Teh Lawrence's Arena!
Turkish advance toward Port Said!
Egypt is now a British Protectorate!

Random Airage that I want to report!
Farman MF-11 bombardment of Britain!

Random Cool Crap!
Turkey declares Jihad!
Stock Market closed from July to the end of November!
President Wilson goes crazy trying to ask for peace about thirty-thousand bajillion willion times!

August 12 20:40

On a side note, I have solved teh play-vg-because-it-will-test-a-theory problem:
Delegation!
That said, any Halo stories will be appreciated and I hear on SimCity 4 that a College/Musuem/Library gives the same level of education needed for High Tech only slower.

Furthermore, for project Nerding I will only do the pages it looks like we'll go through (maybe 9 chapters a piece?) and skip problems on the stuff I probably already know (chapter 0/1).

It is a constant battle.

August 10 23:40

I haven't been doing well on the goals either 8( between watching Civ4 replays and playing/planning OPIGs like a madman and driving back and forth to Ames to do shit, and generally acting like a lazy asshole 8(. This really saddens me.

However.....

I have come up with the ultimate project, behold yon nerddes and bow upon the greatest of this project:
Project Udder (yes, udder) Nerdde:
-Do all the little problems in my books before skoo starts 8D.

Now if only I could do it, must achieve teh zenness.

August 7 22:48

I believe the real problem is the lack of projects. I have AE rigourisation, that I really want to do, but am hung up on debates on the Google Logic Forum (I'm a forum-whore, pub35.bravenet.com/forum/2938756291 (I've memorised it )8), www.austrianforum.com, Google Logic/Math forums, StumbleUpon Math/Logic/Physics Forums). This is probably the direct reason, and I can't really decide any new project, I've tried reading up on the classes I'm going to take (I've done Lin Alg a year ago technically, in my book 8|), but the Wikibooks books are usually shitty, for example, the Statistics Wikibook has lots of good info, if you're a meorising computer. The Wikibook just gives the formulas: this is the formula for standard deviation, this is the formula for this measurement. But it rarely tells the reason behind the measurement, what the measurement means, or anything. 8|. That and bureaucratic verification holds are keeping me from getting my books 8(. That and I can't sell back my bokos because the bookstore will give me a whopping $6 for them X_X. So, dammit, I want a project, and, dammit, FINE, I'LL EMAIL NANCY 8(.

Anyways, right, the experiment neavú. It's like this: during HS I could do insane shit because I drank coffee like a mothafucker and only got 4 hours of sleep. I then got this horrible medical reaction from coffee now (if I'm to drink as much as I did), and thus went crazy performing psychological experiments threefold to make up for it.

Now, maté has the same caffeinated effects, however, carring it, producing hot water, etc., is not the easiest of tasks (and it feels weird noticing everyone watching you drink it). So, the plan is to just take the stuff raw and chew on it. If it works, then I go on 4-hour sleep brigade and SURELY die when I'm 30 8D.

August 6 1:27

Imagine, you've got a gal on a park bench that's been raped before, but you're not necsarrily going to do th-ZWTFOMG GET YOUR MIND OUT OF THE GUTTER-at to her! Here and now you're going to perform a heartoctomy where the hearts get transfered, this is why the cream soda is important...YOU SEE IT'S AN IMPORTANT PART OF LIFE, LIKE SCREWS, BUT I'LL TALK ABOUT THE IMPORTANCE OF SCREWS LATER!

ANYWAYS! Park bench, girl strapped down, creamed soda. Ask anyone about this situation and they'd be leik, "zom, untie the poor hewpess girl," and probably the other 1 out of 10 would say, "just between you and me, I'd do her >_> <_<." BUT YOU'VE LED THEM ASTRAY! You ask what type of cream soda they would have, the cream soda is therefore not independent of the hormones of people! Do you see? DON'T YOU SEE!

Another example, you're going to run over a guy, BUT WHAT BRAND OF CREAM SODA DO YOU HAVE?! The cream soda is a dependent variable dpending on the conditions of your mind! It is in this way that screw companies control the world, much leik our just used cream-soda-analogy.

Yes, screws.

Think about it, you read the news, you look over them without passerby, but they aren't there. They're an important YET INVISIBLE part of soceity! There's only on way for the screw to gain such clearance, with an SEP field, and yet such mastery of this technology denotes via the cream-soda analogy that they, indeed, the screws themselves, CONTROL HUMAN SOCEITY!

DO YOU THINK WE'RE ALL ALIVE HERE?! HUH?! WELL-

*sips more maté, ahhhh, good stuff*

WE'RE NOT! THE CONTROLLING ASPECT OF SCREWS IS DUE TO PART OF THEIR TOTALLY FACE-ACCEPTED BLANK VALUE! IF WE NOTICE THE SCREWS WE WILL DESTROY THEM! VIVA LA REVOLUCION!

But that's not all, back in the 1900's the history books gave all the attention to steel, but, what's this? NOT SCREWS?! WE HAVE BEEN FALSELY TAUGHT THAT SCREWS ARE INDEED MADE OF FERRITIC MATERIALS! SURE THEY RUST, WHICH YOU PROBABLY HAVEN'T NOTICED, BUT THAT'S ACTUALLY ORGANIC GROWTH DESIGNED TO SIMULATE RUST, THE SCREWS HAVE HORMONES THAT SIMULATE FERRIC MATERIALS AND SCREW UP OUR TESTS, WHEN WE ISOLATE THE SCREW TO FIND OUT WHAT IT'S MADE OF, WE ARE DISPOSING THE PROOF OF THE LIVING ORGANISM OF THE SCREW!

Oh, what's that, I said hormones?! AND YOU SEE THAT WE'RE AT FULL CIRCLE! I CAN MAKE UP CONSPIRACIES TOO! BWAAAAHAHAHARAARARHAHARHA...HARAG...HARAG!!

August 4 23:28

I've been playing a lot with MUSHcoding lately, and am wondering why it hasn't left MUSHing, the code is INCREDIBLY powerful and easy-to-learn. Games can be made rather simply (on one MUSH you can buy a fully working mario-type game, I've even seen 3-hour long movies with it). So yeah, I've been testing out Dalek-creature, and possible codes/games with that, it's pretty fun, the code is very powerful, much more powerful than my experience in C++ coding.

Other than that the Calc class has somewhat taken off. The good thing for me about not being accredited is that I get people who actually care what the fuck they're learning about. I have an Italian (at least I believe so, his native language on Wikipedia says Italian) learning some formal Calculus, and he's definitely is not a slacker, I have to really update my lessons before him. As for the teaching experiment, I'll explain what exactly it is I'm experimenting when my course ends.

The AE formalization isn't going very well, the contradiction still remains, so I've been slowing talking back and forth with a logic group on Google about it (who are pretty much doctorate logicians, first-order logic system, bla-bla). I've also resorted to asking around for good stuff to learn GR, but haven't gotten any decent resources.....I know if I ask Nancy she'd go crazy about it, but I don't want to ask her 8(.....I hope someone else asks for me 8P.

That's all, tommorrow I have to escort someone around. I'll probably lay off the MUSHcoding for a while. I also have to update the course. Get some good sources.....reply to google, among other things. Night.

August 2 14:25

July 31 23:20

Anyways, the reason I'm writing is because of this battle I've been watching for about the past hour between this spider and this ant. The Ant was climbing up the wall beside my monitor and fell into this very well-woven spider's web (the spider, btw, has been living in my monitor, it's O.K. though, we have a symbiotic relationship: I don't kill him, he doesn't bother me). So this spider's been patiently trying to keep this huge mothafucking ant trapped (if he gets him, it's like food for the rest of his fucking life!). The Ant just frantickly turns and spins and thrashes about, and the Spider just patiently and nimbly goes in, repairs the net quickly, and tries to keep the Ant caught. There are times when the Ant apppears to be only on one leg and about to get out, but then the Ant tries to go back up to bite off that portion of the web or something, and gets more of his ampertures stuck. During the start of the battle the Spider went in so he could jab at the Ant or even (very dangerously, but succesffully! I saw him do it once) see if he can wrap him in a web or something. One of them has got to lose enough energy soon. That or the Spider will be dumb and get too close and get bitten. There's also a good chance that the Ant could kill the Spider, but still remain stuck and die himself. I'm pretty intent on watching on the sidelines here, it's a pretty tough fight.
At times it almost appears like the Ant is playing possum.....but I don't know if the Spider is that smart. Also there's a disadvantage from my view because I can't see the net. So I can only assume at times that the net is weakening, because if the net thrashes too much the Spider scurries off to hang on the wall, probably for safety.
Right now it's entered a pattern. Ant stops thrashing, Spider comes in slowly to nibble or test it or something, and the Ant thrashes about again. I think they've done this 20 times since I've written this. It's very intense! Actually, it appears as if the Spider is getting smart (btw, the Ant is abotu 5 times the size of this really tiny Spider, I'd compare the Spider to a dust mote, the Ant is probably a good sized carpenter ant), he tests to see if the Ant is still going with just one of his legs while holding on to the net (and as far away from the Ant as possible) with his/her (I don't really honestly know) other legs. If the Ant is, as I've said, the Spider scurries back a little, lets him calm down, then comes back.

.....

They're still going, but it looks like the Ant is getting tired. He successive time between thrashings have gotten longer, my money is definitely going with the Spider on this one. I doubted at first because I've been watching this Ant for a while before (gotta protect meh propertah!), and he did have the strength to just brute force pull his legs out of the net.

Oh! The Ant actually let the Spider in before he thrashed, he probably didn't see him! The Spider knows about his blind spot! For such a small thing, this is a smart Spider! He came in, and in his blind spot, starting webbing then kicked the Ant in a circle (all while the Ant couldn't reach him, or probably even see him, maybe!), and the Spider entrapped his legs for SURE in a circle of webbing! He's done it to two legs! Oh, this Spider has got him! Damn, that's a smart Spider for being the size of a dust mote!

The Ant is doing something last ditch, he's trying to patiently (since he notice the Spider won't get near him when he's moving I suppose) waving his antenna. I don't know if it's to keep the Spider back, or to try to free himself, or just recon work. It also looks like three of his legs and caught. Yeah, that Spider is going to have some good eating. All the Ant did was just nonintelligently thrash about. Yup the Ant really isn't moving anymore, but the Spider is just being patient, it knows it doesn't have to eat it right now, it'll just come when it's ready, besides I'm pretty sure the net is almost intact, I think the Spider did some intensive On-battle repair there. Yup, I'm going to bed, Spider has won in my book, I'll check up tommorrow morning. Nice battle!

July 31 18:53

July 30 23:05

Gragh! I forgot about OPIGs material! And my Austrian praxeology research! And the programs! X_X!

I feel like a real Professor now: lots of crap to do that I don't have to do. Now all I need is incredibly eccentricity and a mental disorder.....oh, wait, check and check 8P.

I'll just think about independency while I sleep! 8O, zomg.

July 29 22:59

So I've designated Friday to throw suppressed webcomic urges onto, and am recently trying to throw it onto Saturday (Saturday has more time to do so, chronologically just fits better). This throws me into a changing period in which I've turned into Friday-Saturday 8(. Hopefully, I can regain it straight to Saturday, this week feels very wasted, one of my most wasted weeks, and I'm incredibly enraged and saddened by it X_X.

The thing that really takes my time is if I start thinking up a new theory for a game, like the recent example of how I spent my Friday: SimCity 4. Mix libertarian theory with SimCity 4, see if it is a success (it was, insane mothafucking growth rates, I believe I've stated this), test it with an agricultural city, industrial, maybe a commerce mix? Bla-bla-bla, it's just BULLSHIT from the Id clinging to my scientific side to ergo his wants, >_<.

So, the new method I've developed is relatively good to counter this psychological flight, what happens? Ahhh, the bitch counters right back, what if I found a NEW game (plenty of freewares around), I couldn't use mind-imagination-processing powers to overcome it, can't use supply-detrimentalization because it's right on the computer! I welcome you to the freeware: Caesar I. I combined libertarian theory, bam, insane success, I'm actually making money (everyone lives in tents). But it's just how damn creative a loophole that was! X_X, now I have to fiddle around, creating a counter to THAT. For now, the only counter I have is the same counter I have for teh webcomics, which is scrunching it on the same day.

Actually, the best solution lies among one I already have, I'm in Sergeant Bluffs right now with DSL, thus the reason the loophole was executed. When I'm back with dial-up, it can't be done >8D. Tommorrow I should have nothing to worry about, because the work has been scrunched to Saturdays.

Take that Id! Haha! Fuck you!

In other news, I have to tend to Physics job and my students 8(.

July 26 21:58

Teh Non-complete Notes.

I shall go on teh AE research expedition now! Maybe going to slowly, piece by piece, try to swallow GR. Have a nice night (wow, three updates in one day).

July 26 21:26

Anyways, I'm kind of burnt out on GR, mainly because I've found that I have to go back to SR to review not sutff that I once knew, but stuff about SR that I didn't really know about: Lorentz Symmetry groups, Boosts. I understand the Galilean equivalent, but I was somehow able to skip over the Lorentz equivalent (although I did manage to derive the Lorentz transofrmations somehow 8\). Thus, I will go off on some other tangent that suits to meh liking. Declaration of projects!

Project Journal:
Take the rigourised Austrian Economics, look them over for gaps in logic, check independencies, point of spaces, groups, rings, and possibly fields where possible; and basically see if some cool results can be found (meh first TRUE research! 8D, yays).

Project Gargulox:
Work on Doctor Who episode.

Project P-chan:
Make 100 advanced things to attack in teh OPIGs 8D.

Project f6 Mark II:
Find some other randoumnne thing that interests me in teh f6.

Project Bring Back the Baby:
Store what I have learned about SR, GR, and gauge theory in notes for a later time.

July 26 13:35

Other than that, I'm writing this to stave off incredible urges to play SimCity 4. I occassionaly (as ye might knoweth), look into Austrian Economical Theories, so I decided to test them in SimCity 4, very minimalist as possible, only fire stations and roads. It fucking exploded, average 25% GDP growth for a hellalong time with plenty of revenue until I ran out of land. With farmland it went a little slower, average 8% growth, but still, damn. So now I want to continue testing it in the large region filling the outside with farmland (btw, I didn't even take out loans either, so I could probably grow even faster), and then the inside industrial areas will fucking EXPLODE and for once the agricultural demand might be satiated, not only that, but by the time I have 12 large farm regions, and 3 large industrial regions, the population caps should be broken! And my last area (which by then the technique will be perfected) could have insane completely unhampered growth that would allow me to build skyscrapers like that *snap*.

Thus, the reason for my excitement -_-, want to test it so baaadly *complain-complain*. It's really a complement demand for Tropico though X_X, which makes it worse. So know I have to think of something else ot do (partly the reason I'm writing this). What I really want myself to do is read the damnéd GR book! Gragh x-x. Or something on that Gauge Theory shit! Or a Hilbert system or something new.....

If nothing else, then I'll end up fooling around with the axioms of Category Theory (which peaks meh interest). Gragh! If only there was more than jsut Wikibooks and Wikipedia to be good sources! 8(. I'll just go there for now.....

July 25 23:41

O.K., first thing, I hooked up the other hard drive to yonne Alfheim, and she tuke it, and all was gude. There was no Windows 3.11 WFWG, however 8(. Also, I may be able to give that Acer a permanent second hardrive if I could get another little small piece of metal to graft into the box to mount the HD.

Other than that, I checked my e-mail and wikibooks accounts 30,000 times (I got a response for my class, and I'm awaiting the student's response). Then I shuffled off to yonne library, went to the Communist section, and saw a lot of books on "Why Socialism/Communism failed" and "I'm a loser," which made me gladde.

I then frolicked to yonne Soviet Nuclear Physics Journals, opened a randoumnne one up to a randoumne page, and BOOM, bottom middle of the page:

Solution: CP-Violation

I'm leik a little giddy schoolgirl because half of me was leik, leik, "I'm going to masturbate to this book now!" and the other half was leik, "I know what this shit is saying!" and the other half was leik, "zomg, I should take this home and lovy-wovy it to death."

Then I skipped over to yonne maths sections and found a relatively 1337 journal on teh linear algebras that used so much set theory I wanted to go menage-a-tróis with it and the Soviet Nuclear Physics book.

I then got various other books, that I'm probably really going to have to study to understand x-x (teh GR is going slowly, sometimes you have a super-duper breakthrough like with Category Theory, and then you go slooooooowwwwlyyyyy). So I go to the desk and I remember that I can only check out journals for an hour 8(, b00-h00, 8(. However, I'm apparently continued in Honors, so I've got this kickass extended-library loan, normal books I can check out FOR A FUCKING YEAR, and the journals for 24 hours.

I didn't really want to spend gas just to go back tomorrow when I know I wouldn't have time to read them that night or next morning, so I didn't take the journals with (sniff, 8(, wah!). I also did some randoumnne Wikibook editing, might look up on Category Theory, or add an intro for Multilinear Algebra and start up Tensors in there, who knows.

Anyways, gnight.

July 24 23:57

July 23 22:43

Thus began the day of moving thirtythousand computer parts around. The computer was in bad shape, and I managed to get the CDROM, hard disk drive, ethernet card, and power supply to all work and turn on! No screen was produced, I tried changing video cards (after finding some sort of MOLD growing on the card?); but no go, there was no manual for the computer, and I basically have no idea about the position of the jumpers. I might be able to look up the specs if I wanted to; but I'd rather keep the tower to store parts in and rape al other parts, that said.....

The link-up works very well now, the ethernet card was the problem (even though the other ethernet card showed a green GO, but obviously didn't go). That has been what I've been doing all day, at one point I had three computers and parts strewn across the room moving parts and noticing that back hurts when courched like that for extended periods of time. Unfortunately I have to go sleep, but tomorrow I get to install the disk drive! (which might have a Windows 3.11 WFWG! Which would allow me to make a modem connection across the YGGDRASIL instead of a 9-port serial connection without the 9-port serial and needing to read up on tons of Linux 'rtfm').

Trying to half-ass fix the computer was cool (Actually, it only occured to me now that I could probably look up the design specifications 8|), I looked inside and there are all this random wires that aren't even connected anywhere, and I'm, leik, "rip, tear, take this out", leading to this pile of unused wires by the side. I was quite impressed when it started up, beeped O.K. for the important checks (CD-ROM, disk drive, motherboard).

Unfortunately I don't have enough RAM for it probably 8/, if Scott had some extra RAM in his old computer that might help, but it'd be easier in the end to just rape it and load up its hard-drive 8D.....unless I have to reformat the drive 8|. Not only that, but without that I'd have to load up a master-slave hook-up with the two drives, but I haven't been able to find good instructions for the hard disk drive to install the jumpers in the right way (If I had jumpers )8...), the pin assignments givin by Maxtor (it's a 3.5 series Quantum Fireball ST) don't match with the pins I'm seeing, which is a 2x4 display (I believe), with one extra to the bottom right, while the pin display on the PDF show a 3x4 pin chart.

It might be better to start up that puppy, just to see if I could fix something that monstrous (which is basically just building a computer), and to rape its old files on it, which I'm very curious to see 8).

Enough computer braggage, I really got to work more, the past two or three days have been idiotic for me X_X.

July 21 20:19

July 19 15:53

As per http://en.wikibooks.org/wiki/Topology/Set_Theory/Axioms we will take the axioms of:

Empty Set
Separation
and
Pair

(For this is all we need)

By the axiom of pair we have the following operation between sets A and B:

B U C = U{B,C}

By the axiom of separation we define the following operation:

B n C = {x|x e B ^ x e C}

We now define 1:

1 = {x|x e B ^ (E c e B)(x={c})}

Or the set of all 1-element sets.

Similarly we define 2:

2 = {x|x e B ^ (E c,d e B)(x={c,d})}

By the axiom of the empty set we define 0 as the empty set.

We will prove that

(((f,g e 1) ^ (f n g = 0)) -> (f U g = 2)) ^ (((f,g e 1) ^ (f U g = 2)) -> (f n g = 0))

As lemmas we will need:

(f n g = 0) -> f != g (1)

and

(f U g = 2) -> f != g (2)

We shall prove the first via reductio ad absurdum:

If f = g, then by the definition of the operation of n, f n g = f = g and by the axiom and definition of the empty set != 0, contradiction, reductio ad absurdum.

We shall do the same for our second lemma:

If f = g, then by the axiom of pair under the definition of the operation of U, f U g = f = g = 1 by definition of 1, 1 != 2 by definition also, contradiction, reductio ad absurdum.

We now start with the first forward:

((f,g e 1) ^ (f n g = 0)) -> (f U g = 2)

By the axiom of pair there exits B such that B = f U g, and by (1) f, g e B therefore B is a set containing two elements, and by the definition of 2, B = f U g = 2, Quod Erat Demonstratum.

Now we examine the second forward:

((f,g e 1) ^ (f U g = 2)) -> (f n g = 0)

By (2), f != g, and by the definition of the operation of n, f n g = 0, Quod Erat Demonstratum.

And thus it follows after correct definition of the operation of arithmetic, that 1 + 1 = 2. Quod*2 Erat Demonstratum.

July 18 18:59

Thus, I need teh project, -_-, and I should probably uninstall minesweeper (bwahaha! Thus, these must be open, which means a mine must be placed here, which means these are open, and the other flag is here! >XD. I hate going through 3 hours of this shit X_X!). The project must fill the following criteria:

1)Ridiculousy hard.
2)Doable in a couple of days, without sleep if necessary.
3)Hopefully, in a Math/Physics type field.
4)Requires a grand report or notes section at its finishing.
5)Interesting enough to keep me away from the booze/videogames/sex with random objects or people/cocaine/marijuana/etc..

Candidates:
1)Learning 'bout gauge theory. 2)Go uber-in-depth (instead of the semi-in-depth I've done) into next years classes, this includes actuarial statistics?
3)Draw a random mathematical theory from a hat.
4)Draw random Physics theory from a hat.
5)Continue General Relativity, and make a moobie of it.
6)Ask Scott for some random theory.
Probably the sixth one 8P, but for now, I might continue with the fifth.

July 17 21:57

Might as well talk about teh psychologies. So far, it seems to be working well, and it staves off MOST inefficiencies.....it sounds stupid, but I attempt to daydream any desire. In this way, I've played 5 Civ3 games in about a minute 8P. Usually, my daydreaming skills aren't that bad either (thank you High School!), so we'll see what happens with it.

So, I needs teh new goals now, I'm burnt out General Relativity wise, and RH wise, so I'll turn somewhere else completely. Here comes the list!:

Project Overdue
Remember that Moobie I made, remember how it needed the voices uploaded onto it? I have the computing power now (since my mother lent me her compy for a month 8D), so I might as well do it. Once finished, I will send them to teh voice actors, with notes of apology -_-.

Project Tuba or Bust
Tell me if any of you know of a tuba for under $200 (if you say to join a band, I shall kick ye ass)

Here are the projects that have been cancelled, with pathetic excuses:

Project Alfonso was a Bard:
The library's Guitar for Dummies book has been check out by some other jerk 8(.

Project Endgame:
Not cancelled, but just delayed for about a year.

Tommorrow, I shall sit my ass on yon computer upstairs, and faithfully finish teh voices, after I get my mic back too. Actually, why don't I just get it right now? 8/, bbl.

July 16 18:14

Teh Tensors.

The reason I've been doing this is so I can learn General Relativity. This has been long in the running here, way back with little ol' dipshit me when I only knew simple arithmetic: algebra->geom->trig->calc I->Calc II->Physics->Special Relativity + Logic -> Set Theory -> Real number Analysis -> Complex Number Analysis -> REAL Calculus (I, II, III) -> DiffEq -> REAL Physics -> Real Physics II + Logic -> Set Theory -> Category Theory -> Group -> Ring -> Field -> Vector Spaces -> Tensor Spaces + More Shit = General Relativity. This is teh ultimate goal since I've realized I have another month. However, for now, I will finish up OPIGs stuff, and then go on to sticking voices in teh moobie (since meh mother finally lent me her comp which has teh voices for a month, and since with this equipment over here I shall have enough processing power!! 8D! Wish meh luck.).

July 16 16:42

July 13 18:56

July 12 19:53

The A different Scott's Resume.

July 11 16:32

Well.....MOST....few.....very few.....

or about ten

July 10 22:42

This is bothering me, and this is an outlet, so listen. You know the people who won't listen to logic, yet, I've dealt with one quite recently, I think.

Before I get into that though, I'm teaching a Calculus class over at Wikiversity, so go check it out. Students are appreciated 8P.

Here are the two e-mails I sent him, I do believe in a God, but it's sort of Agnostic:

You give an appeal to your introduction on the page http://www.doesgodexist.org/Phamplets/Mansproof.html that you are to display a logical argument, so for the purposes of peer review, I wish to play Devil's Advocate.

"If you do not believe that you exist, you have bigger problems than this study will entail and you will have to look elsewhere."

Anyone can argue the basis for an assumption, this is an attack on the basis of ethos, and not part of a logical argument.

"Now let us suppose that we made time run backwards! If we are located at a certain distance today, then yesterday we were closer together. The day before that, we were still closer. Ultimately, where must all the galaxies have been? At a point! At the beginning! At what scientists call a singularity!" How is this a proof? It's similar to the following argument: f(x) = 1/x, lim x->0 f(x) = infinity, therefore, 1/0 = infinity; but the process of limiting, or gradually approaching (to keep the language more English-esque), does not imply equality.

"Suppose I attempt to drive my automobile without putting any more gas (fuel) into it. As I drive and drive, what is eventually going to happen? I am going to run out of gas I If the cosmos has been here forever, we would have run out of hydrogen long ago! The fact is, however, that the sun still has 98% of its original hydrogen. The fact is that hydrogen is the most abundant material in the universe! Everywhere we look in space we can see the hydrogen 21 cm line in the spectrum_a piece of light only given off by hydrogen. This could not be unless we had a beginning!"

In order to say this, you would need to say that the rate of consumption would have to be constant, of which I see no proof of.

" A third scientific proof that the atheist is wrong is seen in the second law of thermodynamics. In any closed system, things tend to become disordered. If an automobile is driven for years and years without repair, for example, it will become so disordered that it would not run any more. Getting old is simple conformity to the second law of thermodynamics. In space, things also get old. Astronomers refer to the aging process as heat death. If the cosmos is "everything that ever was or is or ever will be," as Dr. Carl Sagan is so fond of saying, nothing could be added to it to improve its order or repair it. Even a universe that expands and collapses and expands again forever would die because it would lose light and heat each time it expanded and rebounded."

Again, that the rate of entropy would remain constant would need to be said. Also, the question is not this simple, the question of the geometry of space is a factor, and the amount of reversible processes occuring in the universe would need to be factored. Would it not be possible to have, an infinitly long time ago, to have an infinitesimal amount, and today we still head for a point of maximal disorder?

" If we know the creation has a beginning, we are faced with another logical question_was the creation caused or was it not caused? The Bible states, "In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth." Not only does the Bible maintain that there was a cause_a creation_but it also tells us what the cause was. It was God. The atheist tells us that "matter is self-existing and not created." If matter had a beginning and yet was uncaused, one must logically maintain that something would have had to come into existence out of nothing. From empty space with no force, no matter, no energy, and no intelligence, matter would have to become existent. Even if this could happen by some strange new process unknown to science today, there is a logical problem."

How is this a logical problem? We have three rules of logic: the law of contradiction, the law of excluded middle, and the law of bivalence. Unless the concepts of nothing and something implied that nothing -> something is a contradiction, which is averted because of a possibility (although slim) of spontaneous energy generation, then there would be a logical problem. Other than that, the basis of beginning is still thrown in doubt also.

" In order for matter to come out of nothing, all of our scientific laws dealing with the conservation of matter/energy would have to be wrong, invalidating all of chemistry. All of our laws of conservation of angular momentum would have to be wrong, invalidating all of physics. All of our laws of conservation of electric charge would have to be wrong, invalidating all of electronics and demanding that your TV set not work!! Your television set may not work, but that is not the reason! In order to believe matter is uncaused, one has to discard known laws and principles of science. No reasonable person is going to do this simply to maintain a personal atheistic position."

1) the Law of conservation of energy/matter/etc. create models proposed to explain how your T.V. set works, if they are invalidated because nothing created something, you could still use the models, except in cases where you would be dealing with nothing creating something, in which a new model would need to be created to explain this.

2) The Heisenburg uncertainty principle (although this may not be relevant) does allow energy violations for small periods of time.

" If we know that the creation had a beginning and we know that the beginning was caused, there is one last question for us to answer--what was the cause? The Bible tells us that God was the cause. We are further told that the God who did the causing did so with planning and reason and logic. Romans 1:20 tells us that we can know God is "through the things he has made." The atheist, on the other hand, will try to convince us that we are the product of chance. Julian Huxley once said: We are as much a product of blind forces as is the falling of a stone to earth or the ebb and flow of the tides. We have just happened, and man was made flesh by a long series of singularly beneficial accidents. "

I should have brought this up before, as it was done before; but this is the logical fallacy 'appeal to authority'.

"If chance is not valid, we are constrained to reject Huxley's claim and to realize that we are the product of an intelligent God."

I don't understand your argument of determinism -> God in your last paragraph here.

And the second one:

"I am not sure what your purposes are in your long response to my short article. If you just want to argue, I don't really have the time or inclination to argue for the sake of arguing. I will make a few responses to your discussion:"

I understand, and thank you.

"1) I stated the basis of my argument. You deny my basis and then try to operate off your own assumptions. This is an old philosophy trick, but it isn't a response to a plea for common sense. My discussion makes it clear I am dealing with the weight of evidence, not absolutes."

I actually didn't dispell your assumptions, if you read what I wrote, I stated that you were attempting to use an ethos argument to dispell attacks on your assumptions, which is contradictory to your initial plea in your article for an attempt purely based on logos.

"2) In your proof, you divide by zero. That's another old philosophical trick, but it isn't valid in mathmatics."

Again, I actually didn't divide by zero, I was using the mathematical element as an allegory to show that limiting does not imply equality.

"3) The rate of consumption of hydrogen isn't an issue. The atheist is demanding eternity, so any consumption all all applies to my statement. Whether it is constant or parabolic, if you have infinite time, none will be left."

As yet another mathematical allegory, take the the infinite sum of the harmonic series: 1/2, 1/4, 1/8, 1/16,.... if these are summed, it is not infinite, it is 1, a finite number. Hypothetically, if the rate of consumption now is (I take this number as an example) 1/2, and say a second ago it was 1/4, and the second before that was 1/8, even though an infinite amount of time has passed, we have a finite number of consumption: 1. An atheist could argue the same, an infinite amount of time has passed, with a finite amount of consumption.

"4) The fact is that the models I used are used in all of science and engineering. Your objection to models is because you altered my basic operating premise. "

I'm not sure I understand your argument here. Because I used the models in a possible theoretical point where they couldn't be used? Doesn't that prove the original point I was trying to make then?

5) There was no discussion of the nature of God in this piece. This is done in the booklet "A Help in Understanding What God Is" on the site. John Clayton

Is this in reply to my objection of the fallacy of appeal to authority? In that case, I had gotten all this material (I beleieve I mentioned it on the top of my previous e-mail), at http://www.doesgodexist.org/Phamplets/Mansproof.html.

He responded that I was arguing Philosophy 101, and the definition of ethos, he was entirely correct about ethos, and I feel quite idiotic for mixing up ethos and pathos around X_X, that's what probably irritates me the most about this ordeal. He sent me two e-mails in reply, of which (sorry for those who wanted to see them), I deleted, cause I got mad, and like Strong Bad I could yell, "DELETED!" I'm not replying to him, because 1) there were arguments he didn't counter, so it won't do much good if he's just ignoring me/I'll let it sink in, and 2) some people just don't reply to logic.

That's better. -_-.

In other news I took a break from studying Category/Topological/Group/Ring/Field Theory (once I studied Category theory, everything clicked, it was awesome 8D) to play Civ 3, against meh Confucian wishes. 10 hours, I feel horrible for playing that much -_-, and I got nowhere. I was placed in a thin very long peninsula (allowing me to have 9 cities before corruption was insane), I had no water (I had to get an army of workers, two rights of passages, two temporary cities, and a war to get it), and I was in constant war the entire game, somehow still keeping up with the AI, until I finally was able to convince myself that was enough.

Civ 3 is in "The Box" now, btw.

I was planning on trying to make an axiomatic system for puzzle games, but all the mathematical theories are wearing me out, so I will switch gears.....and study Esperanto, y'alls are welcome to learn with meh! 8D.

July 9 10:49

On another note, dinosaur comics are fucking awesome, and wikibooks updated.....incredibly. I now have incredible amounts more insight to group theory (especially after finishing reading the book, or if you call how I usually read 'reading', "Introduction to the Foundations of Mathematics", which is a bunch of philosophical renderings, godel's incompleteness theorems, intuitionist/formalist-logicism approaches, skipped the set theory part because, hell, I took a class on that 8p). I'm also starting a Calculus class over at Wikiversity, so sign on up if'n you want. Although seriously, the "Intro to Foundations" book gives the most awesome concise summary of the TRUE foundations, none of this, set theory, quasi-Euclid axiomatic approach guess how the rest works. But on of the most formal discussions of the axiomatic approach I've ever seen.

It's also nice how two of the books I've written are standing on their own in the bookshelf 8D. Residue Theory and Differential Equations with Linear Algebra, yay! 8D.

Yeah.....back to Wikibooks.

July 8 19:43

Either way, here are some craps:
Another Shitty Story.
Mathematical Foundations Notes again, I just added some more shit to the bottom.

July 8 0:44

July 2 23:43

Austrian Economics reallyfucking Rigourised!

June 24 0:09

Yep, Fephisto is now a legal D&D God XD.

I usually don't like to toot my horn on these things, like declaring "I'm God" (unless it's something like, "Hey, you know how awesome Argentina is? Let me tell you...." *Bore person to death with Argentina stories/propaganda*), but our last game was pretty cool. The battle against Hector took two turns, hella-awesome (ready-action + maximize spell + empower spell + quicken spell + extra quicken spell + multispell + family spell = I can counter enemy spells, do 660 damage with my family spell (caster leveld20s, maximize it at level 22 is 440, empower brings it up to 660), cast three other spells a turn (that's 1980 damage a turn), and move ten feet), . The other Gods were all having a lawn party with lawn chairs out, beer, and acting like white trash.

Argh! I've been so talkative today, I don't like it X_X.

June 20 23:07

June 19 16:42

Blarg

That best way is through practice, however, so off to building a mathematical foundation for Austrian Economics I go!

June 17 20:21

I mean, here's the introduction:

Killer Mannequins.

Now that's fucking jeanyus.

Other than that, project update:
Endgame
Sub=Die-Hard=study formal system structure
Sub=Alan Greenspan=rigourize Austrian Economics
Sub=Surely You're Wrong Gene!=6th Hilbert Problem: rigourize Physics

Other than that, G'day.

June 15 22:28

If anybody finds Hardy's proof on an infinite number of zeros lying on the Re=1/2 line for the Riemann Hypothesis, let me know.

June 15 21:10

Even now as I right this, motivation is draining to write it, but I have until 11, hell, because it's that imnportant I wouldn't mind skipping a day of sleep to study this in depth.

First I have to analyze the Micro-econ aspect of the game here. Despite increasing implicit costs caused with detrimental actions, and even increasing complementary actions, I still have trouble avoiding these actions. Cue 12 hours of playing Fallout 2 for this. The only reasonable explanation for this in my theory is that demand increased despite sever supply restriction and demand substitution. The only thing to keep the theory up is to explain with gestalt why the increase in demand occured.

So why did it? Actually, a very minimal amount of rationalizing occurred in my head, after the first time did I then rationalize. Thus the demand was self-actualizing, of which I can't explain that well in gestalt theory. I can explain effects of actions, why demand is at a set level for an action, effects of social interaction, etc.. But, I don't think a basis for self-actualize, or nearly spontaneous actions is included, because, personally, I don't really believe that much in the word "spontaneous", However, I haven't really analized if there was a past event that caused me to partake in the actions so described.

I think, what may not be a far-fetched idea, is associations back to childhood. I don't have very childhood memories, except for every single videogame I played (in great detail for my mind). I had incredible amounts of free time -> videogames. I have lots of free time -> childhood -> videogames. However, this demand should've always been there, so why should it have suddenly "sprung up"? No, I think there may have been a very good chance that it laid dormant, that that link had been "severed" to an extent because of a lack of "free time" over the years which caused said disassociation. If that's the case, it explains a hell of a lot of my behavior, dormant and then reappearing links in thy psyche.

Either way, there remains the question of whether there is a way to cut or suppress this link.
I don't exactly want to cut off childhood memories 8/, even if it is where many of the gamer tendencies sprung up from. The best tool I have is simply more rationalization. Of course, the link ft -> vg, is a false correlation, it goes more like ft -> most pleasing action. vg != most pleasing. Even though it did plenty of times in childhood, it's a causation/correlation fallacy. There may be extra demand from revokation of memories, but in practice this does not happen. It would be better, more efficient, probably (at least worth testing), to either revoke or vg, as the two do not come in to play nearly simultaneously. I.e., simply the effect is not nearly as grandeous as one would expect.

That seems to work, I'm willing to uninstall the game yet again at least 8\.

There is also a slight problem in allowing this interchange to occur, which again I can imply myself to do by power of great logic and suggestion, which is: this is probably a hell of a lot more fucking efficient 8P.

I think that might cover it for now, we'll see how it goes tomorrow.

June 11 15:04

Well, for now that's another mystery solved.

Now I have to read this article that I believe gives strong backing to Cohesion theory.

June 10 23:20

SATURDAY MORNING CARTOONS!

It's been such a long while since I've been able to catch up on them 8D. But, what was the ONE cartoon I saw, none other than~~~~~

YU-GI-OH! I remember watching that bitch avidly through making moobies 8). Oh, but guess what, apparently the episode I was watching was TEH LAST FUCKING EPISODE?! TEH FUX0RS?!

Marie would always make fun of me for watching Yu-gi-oh, because its like a really glorified animated series of Go-Fish, but, meh.

But ANOTHER good show cancelled?! WTF?! What are they going to do next? Cancel Pok�mon? Come on, let the obsessive basement-watching hippies have their poroper Saturday morning cartoons here! 8(. We'll protest on you like Kent University if we have too! You've already cancelled Kirby, assholes.

Until 2...I don't really remember what I did 8/. Either way, Henry left, Robin came, and I began to work on the O'' = asinO problem. However, I was completely demotivated, I had come up with an approach that has incredible potential to work (by expanding sinO, solving the differential equation once with just the first term, then the first and the second, then add the third, and see if there would be a pattern, and voila! Answer!), I noticed a possible problem with defining an infinite binomial expansion; but I remembered it being covered in Complex Analysis, so went for the book, but the motivation to continue the problem left!

Of course this lead into a daydream about solving the problem (I frequently daydream about doing things that I haven't done, which ususally makes me thinks I've done more than I actually have 8P. You know the routine, I'm imagining myself giving lectures around the world and giving myself too much credit, people let me insult Frenchmen, blabla 8/). I think I spent about half an hour daydreaming 8\. Either way, I got the programming itch again, and decided to check out creating a simple C++-programmed bot. So I checked out about 30,000 Wikipedia articles, borwsing some, AI consciousness, old WWII Mark computers in England, random browsing shit.

Then it was 7, and I hadn't really done anything, but my motivation was totally killed, and I ending up talking with a shitload of bots.....That wasted an hour, then I daydreamed about giving speeches about irregular warfare (I don't know why, no one was in the house, so I just started giving sermons to my cats with many cusswords and mucho body language about random battles in history 8|), which wasted another hour.

Then, I'm leik, omg! It's Saturday! How abouts I do something Saturday-ish. So I grab Pile-O-Anime(tm), and continue watching Ai Yori Aoshi.

This sums up that venture:

AND IN THE END IT'S 11:42 AND I HAVEN'T REALLY /DONE/ANY-FUCKING-THING THIS WEEKEND?! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRR
RRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!

June 8 7:46

June 7 22:17

The Death of the Short-Lived Search for a Converse-Implicator

June 6 21:20

June 4 0:38

I've done relatively well today! Tommorrow I probably won't do as well. Either way, I've been trying to solve a verying old pendulum problem in Physics. I'll probably end up watching an hour or so of anime to wrap up the day/reward.

June 2 22:58

Check out the midi, I like it at least.

Project news, Yggdrasil is still sick, those damn nggvills, or whatever they're called, are eating on the roots again. I got them to ping each other ONCE, and then it backed out. I'm going to try to get a copy of 95 somewhere for Alfheim. Anyways, meanwhile, the truth program I wanted Yggdrasil to work on is coming slow also. I also ended up with two hours of videogaming (still! X_X, it just goes to a game I DIDN'T uninstall, gragh). It seems that days of great sucess are hampered by days of little success, it saddens me. I remember one week last semester I was able to work/eat/sleep pretty much straight, no distractions, it was great.

Although it might help if I had more projects, it makes me feel overwhelmed. So here's an updated Project list:

Project Yggdrasil:
* Get Windows 95 copy.
* Use MS-DOS networker to secure Nidavellir<->Niflheim (I'll be doing this last, obviously, the toughest job 8P)
* Get a wireless router and secure Niflheim <-> Asgard

Project Alfonso-King-of-Spain-Was-A-Bard:
* I'm onto C/G7 chords! 8P.

Project Endgame:
* Solve Riemann Hypothesis (easier said-than done XD)
Sub-project Ramen (trying some theoretically useful ideas):
* Explore Converse-using tautology
* Find out dependencies of RH
Sub-project I TAKE YOUR FUCKING BULLETS!:
* Program tautology creator

That's all I'm doing right now, and for the moment that's all I'll think of, may add another one tomorrow.

June 1 22:45

Imagine vector spaces, only instead of fulfilling the laws of vector spaces, they follow the laws of basic arithmetic: associativity, maybe commutivity if it's an Abelian group, etc.. That's the quickest way to describe it and leave out a lot of details.

Furthermore, Project Endgame is going fairly well, I've discussed via math forums and it seem that the dependency-narrowing-of-scope method is theoretically OK!

Project Yggdrasil is so-so. I've got a reasonable form of Linux Alfheim and Niflheim can run that's easy to use and I almost forgot I had: Knoppix. I believe I've acquired a Windows-oriented file-transfer system that can do good with Nidavellir. However, I don't think I'll be getting a wireless router anytime soon, so using Asgard (Is that what I decided to name it?) as the runner-boy for Niflheim<->Alfheim isn't going to work. Thus, I'll ahve to get actual file-transfer going instead of "maybe-it's-transferring-processing-speed." I spent 8 hours trying to link those two bitches up! But they fucking won't! It doesn't make sense either! The hardware is PERFECT! Both LED check for the network cards are A GO/GREEN!!!!! The router says GREEN also!!!!! There is a perfect link-up! So even WITHOUT set-up protocols I should FUCKING BE ABLE TO PING THEM A-FUCKING-GAINST EACH FUCKING OTHER! NOT TO MENTION I /DID/ HAVE PROTOCOLS SET FUCKING UP ANYWAYS! ARGH! I'm REALLY not seeing what the fucking deal is!!!!! I'll get some randoumn internet person to help me out, anyways 8/. Once I get those two connections set-up, I'll be as happy-as-a-lark, and I can Project Yggdrasil pretty much done (if I get a wireless router, linking it up with an XP machine is a breeze, a msall pocket of air in comparison to what I'm been trying to do).

I can then write a converse-method-finder program as Project Yggdrasil's first task and see how all my other efforts and projects thus-far contribute to Project Endgame. 8D.

May 30 22:58

Some bad news:
I need to get the wireless router to get Yggdrasil to be fully functional....for under $16.

It's a luxury item anyways, and it's not really bad news per se, it'll hopefully get teh going in the future, anyimte, not in a big hurry. (although the dedicated processors would be nice.....don't have to worry about waiting a fortnight for programs anymore.....)

May 27 20:19

I got basic Group Theory, the structure actually isn't so different from Linear Algebra's Vector Spaces. So it wasn't too hard, although I wasn't able to go through the loads of concluding theorems.

I'll have to stop the economic simulator due to Mises's calculation argument.

This leaves two things, Yggdrasil and the ever continuing quest towards the solution for RH.

Engame, Garand, Yggdrasil

It also leaves the willpower problem unabated.....still 8/.....I believe if I continue demandsubst-friday, demandcomplmnt-Wiki, supply-subtrct->Muad'Dib's House.

So, chugging along ignoring other issues like Patton, the attempts for RH:
1) Independence testing
2) Converse-Use Proof
3) Tautology Creater (Need Yggdrasil)

I believe my time would be better spent with 1 and 2 at the moment, at least I would have a direction for math-learnages.

OK! I gotta do this shit! No more fucking slacking damn off! GRAGH! X_X

May 23 20:20

May 23 (Only 8 more days until freedom is stripped 8(!) 0:14

Other than that, I been reduced to hiding the batteries to my remotes and duct-taping shut a box with all my videogames. That's sounds pretty severe, well, it is, 8P. Other than that, the D&D is awesome 8D, level 4 Cleric now!

I've also made 2 minutes more to the moobie, I believe I've also found my reason for why I've been so slow to continuing it. Usually I try to go for 1/2+ average frames/second, I've been far overdoing this on the last 5 minutes, I think maybe eeven hitting 0.5 frames/second. The last hour only had 10,000 frames total I believe, but I can't really want to make it 1+ frames/second. The whole reason I made the moobie was to stress how all moobies should be battle-porn, and it didn't really turn out that way.

BTW, Feppy dies in like, the first minute.

Other than that, I've been extremely tired lately, even after sleeping for 12 hours, I end up napping midday. Either way, it really frustrates me, after getting a lot of work done one or two days in a week, I end up laxing off.

I fucking hate it.

Well, I get it somehow, give me a ring ifn' ya need something~

May 18 15:15

I really got stop playing that game 8/.

May 17 2:51

Go look in the essay conpendium.

May 16 23:16

May 16 22:45

May 16 20:39

May I also add that I can act like a hippy dazing off to midi music: -_- (zenz0red).

May 16 2:39

Yggdrasil:

Reassessment after finishing M16 A1 and A2

Subject to change, of course.

Wish me luck, seriously.

May 13 14:25

Damn this wasting time shit, I had a single goal, to solve that damn mother fucking RH. I was hoping to use Yggdrasil to devote constant computer time to a randomn logical expression program; but as long as the fucking ONE ETHERNET CARD doesn't work, I'm sol. I'm taken the screws in and out of those mother fuckers over and over agains, reinstalled so many OSes, just wasted so much fucking time! X_X.
Either way, I'll deadline it, and hopefully that'll have some psychological effect. By the end of tomorrow I'll try to learn all of Lin Alg, and by the end of Monday I'll learn as much Group theory as I possibly can. After that I can continue on programming. If I can finish the program on Tuesday night, then I'll take fucking $50 and go out to some gosfrosaken used computer store and go ahead and buy some shit.

May 13 1:55

Hey there, I decided to make a short story.
This is it.

May 11 22:37

Finally, fucking finally, I found a distribution of Linux that works on that bitch Nidavellir. Now I just need to wait another week for the Loco Linux distribution to finish loading so I can dl it onto Alfheim and Hel.....

In other news, yeah, shut up, fuck you, I'm not gonna tell you about that shit.

May 4 22:24

Done, now all I need to do is teh projects.
I won't be continuing the movie, I tried working today on it, but in 100 slides I killed everyone and ended the movie. No way in hell I'm going to release that 8/.
There remains Yggdrasil, RH, and guitar. Some people may like it if I learned to play guitar, but fuck them, I got to stick it out to finish teh research I guess.
I really want to play Tropico, but I know I mustn't, back to reading 8\.

May 3 11:15

O.k., I've got one test left. Another intraspective writing, so turn the blind eye.

I don't know why I feel so stressed out about the tests I've already taken, I didn't get any bad grades, no CDF, I'm still in line with Grad School; but there's sort of this lingering feeling, "Oh, you asshole, you could've done better."
It sort of meshes the line between whether what you did wrong, is it because you really did fuck up big-time? Or is it rather because you skipped something from lack of attention. The problem is that the former has no real coping mechanism, the latter you can deal with, "Oh, hey, yeah, just doublecheck it once more, boom, easy fix." The first is more like, "Oh teh fux0r, how is it possible in only a 24-hour time table a day to be able to fix something like that fucking shit?" It requires efficiency analization and shit like that, that really only a FUD economist or psychologist could handle, and really isn't worth the fucking time to study for some gay-ass "self-improvement seminar" or bloated up bullshit like that.
Really the sense of nervousness comes from "That's it, I'm done for, nothing else possible to do, worked 24-7, and still can't get where I need to go." It's motivation kill thats the problem. However, if someone else who works hard does as well as you, then it's a-o.k., because you've got this relating thing going on. But when you do as well as a junkie-sexomaniac, or even some average person, or just anyone who worked less than you, your soul justs wisps away. I guess the best way is to remember the circumstances around the events.

May 1 0:46

As a present for y'all's (I'm sure there's some sort of anniversary for this website), I've put a small link for a random midi above the tabled main page, enjoy.
I really should study this week, so I won't be updating or checking the ph-orums.

April 29 22:35

First of all, I apologize for the current background, but, it was just so damn funny.

Ok, apparently it DID lead to a partial collapse 8/. So ignore this as I go into another dumbass "self-analysis" thing.

So I'm trying again at pushing back the Saturday-Sunday barrier, but with very limited success. I can repel videogames; but this is only due to a self-inflicted association I made with myself and self-reciprocating patterns. It makes sense and is consistent with the ME part of my theory so far, because repressed demands lead to higher prices, bla-bla. The only real-way that I can get out of this stumble-uponing googling cycle that I've found myself into today is by some better way of substitution to essentially allow myself to do the actual stuff I want to do while actually wanting to do it.
Anyways, identify the problem: very minimal studyage. The cause is a demand substitution from other repressed items. As far as ME theory goes, I'm stuck at the moment, and the best option is to keep trying, as eventually the demand subtition effect of the items that I've been doing today will end up minimal. However, doing this gives means to the use of cyclical distribution, so it won't go down over time, but rather became level in a way consistent with my resources. This is why I tried supply-constraint, but only minimal supply-constraint can be achieved. The best option is of course demand constraint at this point, because more shifting of demand into other possible areas of susbtitution would still create leveling scenarios/probably not really solve the porblem, but switch it to a problem viewed less harmfully even though its potential to be so is still there.
Thus to control demand via non-substitution techniques I'm resorted to G-theory. Of which how to do this is restricted yet again, essentially what I'm doing is utilizing complement-demands, which is definitely the key to complete manipulation.
So then, yes, I know I'm left with the problem of demand-complementation and G-theory and exactly its invariance on how it works. How exactly do I lead complementation? G-theory is based on a webbing idea, which is due to that of concepts, and that is due to the logic if-then structure of thinking left behind as evidence in our memories. The true problem is creating if-then structures to concepts that we want logically linked and associated. It is theoretically possible that some concepts CAN NOT be linked! In which case.....a logical fallacy might be possibly employed. Although a logical fallacy pointed at oneself seems ridiculous, I believe it's worth a try.

April 26 21:42

Uhm.....wtf? Don't...I don't.....there's nothing to do? The homework's done? Wtf?

So this is where the whole Psychotheory fails, I wasn't really planning on NOT having homework, I mean, I usually have endless bounds, and now, it's like, foosh. I finished my homework until Finals now.....All that's left is to study.....and I already made a fucking Residue Theory book on wikibooks.....I guess I could make the Linear Algebra with Differential Equations book to study for DE.....Yup, well, that's about the only thing left.

And about a week from now is this amorphous blob called "Summer." In which I'll have something called "Free Time"????? I'm just.....I'm just so confused.

What's going on?

I'm taking a Spanish class at DMACC during the Summer for some 'ore creds/show off to family. It's one of those tearjerker "Before my Grandmother Dies" reasons. She's an awesome Grandmother.

My cousin Marcos says she's a witch, but my cousin didn't pass Calc I in a community college and is majoring in "International Diplomacy" or something like that. Uhm.....Marcos if you're reading this, that's....ok, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it; but Elsa's kickass.

My other cousin Pia.....well, we'll see what happens when she goes to college; but she definitely inherited her Father's genes: she doesn't talk, at all. Well, she talks a lot in Spanish. Actually, the truth is, is that I'm more or less a black sheep compared to everyone else there; so I can't really relate when any of the older cousins ask me about my social life (because it's non-existant >_> <_<).

My uncle Pablo is like, funny as hell. The first time we met him he was wearing a polka dolt dress.....I feel very sorry for his wife. He also really likes Menem, and talks about how awesome he is (he did this insanely ingenious trick that brought inflation down from 10,000% or some crazy-ass number to -3%). He probably votes Peronist, but there's this law that you can't tell who you voted for (for the same reasons as creating the Australian ballot, it's weird, but it stops tyrannical coups), so I don't know. Farmer, Roman Catholic, 2 kids, funny guy.

My other uncles are like, fucking dead silent. Julian doesn't talk, nearly at all, well, he just smiles a lot, he's a mechnical engineer at Renault (the only car manufacturer in Argentina, wait, I think there's one more, Pedot? Or something like that? The country is so fucking protectionist that everything has "HECHO EN LA ARGENTINA" on it). Him and my Father.....

O.k., so this is going to be a family history rant huh? Let's do it.

My Grandmother's ancestor's came from Italy from the province of Milanesio (My grandmother's maiden last name) during WWI to escape the war's horrors (and Argentina was economically well-off and comparable to many modern nations at the time, probably even the U.S.). They came and farmed in the village of Las Perdices.
My Grandfather's ancestor's also came from Italy in a province neighbouring Milanesio. The story goes that there were three brothers, they were all musicians. Things weren't going well in Italy, so they went to Argentina. After a while, they got mad at each other or something, and each one of the three went to a different part of the country, one in Las Perdices. The family staid there since.
So the first two boys were Julian and Henry (my father) in that order. They were born when Per�n was in power (after he came back from Spain), and remember when Evita got kicked out and the Junta was installed. They ended up going to a boarding shool for Blue Collar. Mechanically inclined, they built a car and stuff, played soccer, you know, the typical. Actually, I think they were in a boarding school when Evita was kicked out, the government shut down (and since the government was pretty socialized, everything shut down, the buses, but they kept the telephones running for a while for obvious reasons), so they hitched home.
Either way, there's a very good technical school, the best High School in the nation I believe, which was Private under Renault at the time. Henry and Julian passed, after they graduated, one took the job the company offered them. My father decided he had a year before he was drafted, so he vacationed here, and when his father called to check up on him, he said he wasn't coming back. ISU, then I kept him from getting drafted but being able to nationalize 8P.

The third kid, Gustavo, was the troublemaker. You know, get in fights kind of a guy. He went white collar (my grandfather ran two businesses: the farm, and a sort of H&R block; the H&R block went to Gustavo). Not very good grades, but because he helped his father out in his business, he could operate one of the first computers in the...hell, either the province or the damn country of Argentina (it was an old mother fucking punch-card system). Because of that, when he was drafted he didn't go to Las Malvinas; but to a warehouse. So he stole one type of every kind of ammunition, beat up his drill sergeant in a bed case, and did shit like that. After he had a kid, he went Roman Catholic and became pretty well off.
When Pablo went into school they asked him if he was like the last one, or the other two. Pablo went Agriculture, took the family farm, that sort of a deal. I think he or my Grandfather was Vice Mayor once.

Elsa is very religious, insanely religuous. The whole country is Roman Catholic.

Anyways.
I guess I'll do that DE book.

April 17 10:43

LET'S BLOW UP IRAN!!!!!

April 17 10:40

Network-centric warfare, missile platform warfare, terrain-suitification warfare, and knowledge of Asymmetric warfare.

The combination of all four of these warfare theories, COMBINED WITH A $400 BILLION BUDGET, WILL ALLOW THE UNITED STATES TO PWN THE WORLD!
BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

April 16 20:27

Guh, psycho-pace is gradual, I have made leeway however! Techniques appear to be working, but for now I must study.....

April 16 0:30

? Scythian genocide of Cimmerians 7th century B.C.
222,000 Roman genocide of Helvetti's 1st Century B.C.
1,000,000 Roman genocide of Gauls (some 800 cities were destroyed) 52 B.C.
62,000 Roman genocide of Carthage 149-146 B.C.
1,100,000 Roman genocide of Jerusalem 70 A.D.
500,000 Albigensian Crusade, French genocide of the Cathars 1209-1229
1,000,000 Genghis Khan's grandson's Hulagu's genocide of Islamic citizens of Baghdad
1,600,000 Genghis Khan wipes out Herat
18,400,000 Genghis Khan's Chinese genocide The rest of how much Genghis Khan killed is like.....Herodetus accurate.
80,000,000 Islamic genocide of Hindus, Buddhists, etc. in Inda 979-1596 A.D.
It is hard to determine how many died of disease, and how many diead from actual murder, but the genocide of Natives by Europeans in the Americas:
38,763,000 (1492-1900 A.D.)
War of the Triple Alliance: 300,000 1864-1870 A.D.
20,000? Tokugawa Shogunate genocide fo christians 1637-1638 A.D.
3,500,000 (3 mill RCs, and 0.5 Jews) The Deluge in Poland 1648-1662 A.D.
333? Black War (Tasmanian genocide) 1800s A.D.
10,000,000 Congo genocide 1800-1920 A.D.
1,000,000 Phillipines (Teh Americans are guilty!) 1899-1913 A.D.
75,000 Herero and Nama genocide (10,000 Nama) by Germans in South-West Africa 1904-1907 A.D.
2,000,000 Ottoman genocide of Armenians 1915-17 A.D.(The first modern genocide! With dead-body-piles and machine guns!)
20,000,000? Commie purges, the Great Purge, etc. 1921-Stalin's death
15,000,000 Holodomor genocide by the U.S.S.R. 1932-1933 (via mass-starvation, very efficient)
600,000? Crotian genocide of Serbs 1941 A.D.
11,000,000 The infamous Jewish Holocaust 1933-1945 A.D.
3,000,000 Bangladesh War, genocide of Bengali, Hindus in East Pakistan 1971 A.D.
1,700,000 Cambodia, a typicall Commie purge 1975-1979 30,000? Argentine Dirty War, don't like the government? Die. 1976-1983 A.D.
8,000 Bosnian genocide 1992-1995 A.D.
937,000 Tutsis/moderate Hutus by Hutus in Rwanada 1994 A.D.
2,000,000 Darfur 1983-present

Other genocides for which numbers really unknown: Kurdish genocide, Tibetian genocide, anything in any country with a Communist history, etc.

Total:
~213,817,333 and climbing

Modifying Churchill's statement:
That only thing we have to fear is ourselves.
8P

April 14 21:17

'Kay, things are a little calmer now, thus do I post.

First I'll talk about the psychological shit that no one gives a damn about/I don't want anyone to read but post it here anyways. I believe it's working so far, I think I'll just give a full post when the semester ends anyways. I'll probably be able to tone back until Sunday, and even further later on.

Other than that, it leaves me pretty bored, playing videogames for hours on end, the incentives have been changed.

I'm going ahead and investigating the possibility of the creation of matter from light "bending in on itself," it doesn't really bend in on itself (I've no idea of the description of what it'd be doing); but it's a good analogy. I'd also like to try a shit-ton of Linux distributions to help get Yggdrasil working properly, but that requires either finding some time during the day when I'm not doing hw at ISU to dl distribs. or being in social contact with someone. I usually don't get around to the former and dislike the latter.

Although it is pretty central to future plans. I'm planning to continue Goldbach Conjecture research, but can't go forward without Yggdrasil running 8/.....well, I might be able to make the program now.....although not too much of it, because I'm predicting that it will use much processing power.....

So for now, I'll watch some anime, then read wikipedia for an hour, and sleep.

April 4 13:16

Dear Europe,

Stop being so fucked up. Your insane social welfare &c. makes such a tax burden on your soceity unbearable. Your high unemployment rates? Natural (for those economists out there, pun intended). May you see that your high levels of regulation for your labour screw you in the ass. Your low growth? Your high government expenditure. I won't go through the economics of it. Why? You have the fucking Austrian School of Economics, hell, you're the fucking birthplace of economics! You should damn well know why you're economy slowed down.

Loosen up your regulatory policies a little (check out some books from your Austrian School), replace your incredible subsidies with Pigovian taxes (he's from the UK, go ask his grave), forget about your Maynard Keynes economic corrections for a bit to pay off your debts, stop screwing non-EU countries it's not a non-sum game (go see Adam Smith, over in England), and you'll be fine.

Sincerely,
Your Former Friend and new-found Enemy,
An American

P.S. Except you France, do the opposite of what was said here.

April 3 10:56

A short history of Argentina:
May 25 1810 Independence
Juan Manuel de Rosas tyrant until 1853
1833 Fucking UK whores
1853 Unionists set up democracy
1862 Bartolom� Mitre first pres
1930 Yrigoyen, democracy replaced with military democracy, Uburu
1943 Actual dictatorship, Peron
1955 Peron ousted, unsuccessful presidents, eventually Frondizi president
1962 Military Democracy until 1973
1973 Peron returns
1976-1982 Military junta again, Dirty War (Henry's time)
Menem
Fernando de la "Ruin"
"Time of One-Thousand Presidents"
Kirchner

April 3 10:29

Gotta love them military dictatorships:
The junta looks like a fucking Boy Band. Way to go Pinochet, looking cool.

April 2 17:17

The most powerful weapons in the world, I hear they're in a museum in Spain somewhere.

Colada

Tizona

April 2 16:44

The best page evar:

This is it.

March 31 10:15

March 27 22:56

I am the Sandy Man
Watch me move withthe sand, I am sugar now
I am the sandy man man, moving like sand
I am sugar now, watch me be sweet among the lips of those dull
I am the sand man
The sandy sand man
The sandarific sandific sandestined sanclandestined sand with the sandiest sand sand sand sand sand man
I move like a pretty flower!
I move like a boat!
I am the sand man
Watch me wiggle
Watch me jiggle!
You all giggle!
The Sand Man


I wrote a song once, called it, "The Man in the Sand."
I do not like sand, for I am not Green Eggs and Ham
Sand man
Play it Sam
I am the fan man
I fan the winds
I am the sand man, who comes before the fat man
The fat man is phat
That's all there is to say about that, fucker.

March 27 10:37

Bla.

March 21 13:31

BWAHAHAHA! As I am typing this message, the computer is doing my god-awful maximization problem. After fiddling around for a week, we simplified the problem from ten to nine dimensions. The computer that I am typing on must take 362 partial derivatives, and then take the determinant of the nine by nine matrix of those functions. And this function isn't pretty, with, to start! It's ugly and has all this nested shit! The program is still running 8).

Ok, I'm going to have to move this project to Honors' computers. 8(. Hopefully, I can beg the people upstairs to lend me a computer to use overnight.

March 21 12:33

Just a funny event to report:

I was walking down this hallway, and noticed this flickering light, very spontaneous, and would continue its randomness for seconds at a time. So, I walked up to it and said, "Let there be light!" Spreading my arms to the light fixture in the appropriate matter; and, whaddayaknow, it beamed up and stayed ok until I went into my next class. Someone has a real good sense of humour out there.

March 20 10:03

Well, I'll report next Monday whether or not it works.
I also think we should destroy Carthage.

March 18 0:26

So, now I reach my last hurdle. This is the last step, the step I've been trying to take all along. Analyzing all my past techniques, essentially limiting supply, upping savings to limit demand, have not change any of my gestalt. Also, the techniques are essentially temporary, the moment I stop using them, gestalt takes over.....

The key step is how associations are made, or, at least, that is a heuristic guess. From what I've created in gestalt theory, is that every concept is linked with another, and that *somehow* these links have varying degrees of strength, measurable by FD.

So, dammit, what are even the possibilities for how these links are created?

To do this, I must analyze some actual situations. The concepts, even though I may not have heard of them, exist, although their effect to other concepts is zero, because there is no link. Thus, we are sure that it is these links that do the work.

What, then, changes associations within the links? The only thing I have to go on here, is observations, unfortunately, and not a hard chain of logic. Whenever a concept is called, it affects all other links. This, I believe is the root cause of associations: a sense or thought calls up certains concepts, which simply because they are called, affect other concepts. Also, if I may continue my heuristic guesswork, it appears reasonable that FD should be conversable. A link can be measued by FD, and with the FD of a concept the link can be affected too. As for why some links are affected less than others when a concept is called, I make more guesswork: I don't think it's a constant relationship, for example, each time a concept is called, all relating concepts increase FD by one, otherwise we would be going nuts receptatively. Rather, it makes sense that it is dependent on the current FD of the linked concept and the concept itself.

From these overwhelming amount of assumptions, it may be possible that activating certain concepts in certain order and with correct FD could result in wanted changes.

The true test of whether this works, however, is if it stands up to my earlier made contradiction. Would this way of working allow me to freely change associations?

As far as I can see it, I have only discussed a way to add to associations, this further suggest that FD might be relative; and because it is relative, any action's possibility can not be entirely eliminated, which correctly breaks our assumption of "freely changing associations." Also, since this may work, expect experimentation ^_^, and then, hopefully, a more logical/evidential chain of reasoning.

March 17 22:49

Assume I did have the ability to freely change my gestalt/subconscious (I gues they're pretty much the same thing, although, in my opinion, gestalt gives a way to explain subconscious). Then I could change my association on "changing associations." I could even change it so that I would force myself not to change it. Then I would not be able to freely change myself: Contradiction, reductio ad absurdum. This result disturbs me -_-.
Although, my hope is that I used the word "freely" in my assumption. If I can find more clarification for "freely".....

March 17 15:28

Now's when I do another one o' thems stupid intra-reflective pieces, so just ignore this and read the next rant 8p.

I come back to the working question again. The purpose, etc..

I guess the purpose is simple enough, and stated over and over again by myself in many other rants. Whether the goal is maximal welfare or maximal technological advance, you can't work hard for your own benefit; despite what Ayn Rand says, game theory is probably much more supreme in this case. Simply because it isn't a zero-sum game.

Then again, we have came to a point in wealth, that compared to kings of the bygone past. A man, if he wishes, can get a Ph.D (provided he works all his life for the fucking scholarships) and then have enough wealth to build castles or whatever-the-fuck. Why should we go further?

Looking at it from a psychological/microeconomic viewpoint. We need to find first the common goal of human beings, and this would be the keystone of every gestalt, the rosetta stone from which personalities are borne. So we look at other beings, ants, or whatever, to get an idea. They share a common characteristic of survival; but humans do not. If it were needed someday, if the human race were threatened to extinction by.....some race of mutants, who the hell knows, then our main goal would be survival. However, in a sense, we have achieved survival, much in the same way that one's goal to eat an apple has eaten an apple. So, what then? We go to our next desire, our next common goal. This leaves the aftermath of the evolution of a surviving species, which is all the pleasure inductions that were originally made to help us get this way.

Pleasure from food, originally an incentive made so we wouldn't starve, taken to excess. Sex is much the same. Of course, we've found how to eliminate the pains too: condoms, etc..

Leaving me to correct my earlier self in that the common goal was survival. Rather, maximal benefit is the much more suitable explanation for common human behavior. Even suicide.

Even those in self-sacrifice, they sacrifice for something else, e.g., martyrdom(sp?).

Even if this is the case, a more base question arises, which is, why is it that our primal urges haven't been satisified? Why /exactly/ is it that our need for more wealth grows, and is this really a problem?

It is not a problem, for if it were removed, the human race would undergo a nervous breakdown trying to search for a new common meaning to life.

So, then, the unsatiability of welfare. We can think of its place in being the key concept of humanity, to be humanities demand. Then by microeconomic theory, we know that its demand can't be zero, by thought experiment. Even if we had a product, that every single human being on Earth despised, we could still imagine a human being that could like it, and, therefore, if the human population were infinite, there would be a demand for all things. There exists a zero demand due to the fact that the human population is finite. Aggregate demand is a different story, in such a case, the aggregate demand would be negative, wanting to get rid of it, but in this case we are looking at a different kind of demand. An absolute demand, and aggregation of positive demand for something. The aggregate positive demand for anything, then, is always positive, no matter how small.

Then, by empirical law of supply and demand, we have, naturally, a supply for this; but, also empirically, over time, that demand will rise, no matter the case. The reason for this, is because, first, there exists no perfectly inelastic (or elastic) item. Thus, by the nature of positive aggregate demand (due to positive nature, if it were inferior, then the curve would first go down, but then become superior after some time, as those who actually want the item due to positive aggregate demand will demand it) a person's wealth is still split within consumption and savings. Savings affects supply, affects demand, affects consumption, ad infinitum.

Then there comes my odd goal, for the sake of argument, is there, theoretically, a way that I can reduce my own wealth to zero?

I have two choices, to save or to spend. If I spend, it still affects supply, allowing me to spend more. If I save, the same damn thing happens. The real way to do it is to carefully analyze the curves, trying to find some way to get negative growth. However, even then, demand will never reach zero in any superior good that I wish. Also, in any inferior good, limiting growth would be detrimental to such a goal. The only possible way, would be if I were to somehow change every good I feel to be superior, to an inferior good, then when those curves are satiated, the growth (when demand expands, it will be backwards since it's an inferior good) would be negative with nearly no work from me.

And then would require a self-hypnosis manipulation that I have no idea how to achieve. 8/. I have three days to think about it.

March 14 14:20 (3.14!)

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March 14 7:48 (3.14!)

Happy pi day! Anyways, to celebrate, I have a new text game featuring my non-school life in the programs link, have fun!

March 12 3:00

Ok, so I ended up making a text game, look under programs. Have fun.

March 11 19:39

If you want an idea of what I'm trying to do, I have an older similar program (that doesn't quite work like it should) under the programs link.
The main problem is that economics is so round-about, capital demand affects affect capital price affects capital supply affects capital supply. Do that with several products all intertwined, I've had to simplify it a lot to do something with it. Also, I'm not using the base program I used before, simply because I'm guessing there are too many bugs. Forum.

March 11 18:45

Ok, instead of spending all day trying to load NetBSD on Hel, maybe I should go ahead and try to write the program, since I already have the appropriate compiler 8P.

March 10 18:24

Stuck in a new Economic Position statement under the blogs. check it out.

March 10 16:46

Ahhh, archived.

I'll be making a full Bush rant series soon.

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