This guh Maria: Jenn i got tooken too the hospital yesterday.
ms x tickles: why.......:'(
This guh Maria: why do you think?
ms x tickles: what did you do to yourself?
This guh Maria: i can`t even remember .. all i remember was laying in the bathroom w/ a knife in my hand.
ms x tickles: are you gunna do it maria..?
ms x tickles: kill yourself?
This guh Maria: i`ve already tried once. and i`ve thought about it ALL night. and i don`t wanna live my life this way.
ms x tickles: so.. you are?
This guh Maria: i`m gonna try.
This guh Maria: did you read that long comment i wrote too you?
ms x tickles: yes i did..
ms x tickles: and the other one you just wrote
ms x tickles: that hurt me
ms x tickles: you didn't have to be my bestfriend this whole time if you didn't want too..
This guh Maria: sorry. but you know, i really cant live my life this way anymore.
ms x tickles: if it was hurting you.. you should of just told me
This guh Maria: that wouldn`t solve anything. but i do know what will solve something.
This guh Maria: ** everything
ms x tickles: what?
ms x tickles: by killing yourself?
This guh Maria: leaving.
ms x tickles: thats just gunna make it worse
This guh Maria: i wanna leave.
This guh Maria: i don`t wanna live anymore.
ms x tickles: leave as in die..?
This guh Maria: i don`t wanna hurt anymore.
ms x tickles: maria..
ms x tickles: you have a good life
ms x tickles: don't waste it
This guh Maria: hah` no.
ms x tickles: hah` yes.
ms x tickles: yes you do
ms x tickles: you know you do
This guh Maria: no seriosly Jenn. don`t say that. cos' that's not true aiite?
ms x tickles: KILLING yourself is just gunna hurt you more
This guh Maria: i fuckin` know
ms x tickles: so DON'T DO IT
This guh Maria: but i just wanna fuckin die now!
ms x tickles: i've thought about this too..
This guh Maria: i don`t wanna live anymore !!!!
ms x tickles: and its your life.. if you wanna waste it.. go ahead.. i'm just gunna be praying for you if you decide to or not..
This guh Maria: i`m not wasting shit .. i thought if u read all my comments .. and my blog on my xanga u would understand. but i was wrong.
ms x tickles: no
ms x tickles: i do understand
This guh Maria: if you do just let me do this to myself.
ms x tickles: GOD gave you life.. you shouldn't waste it over something that can be fixed
This guh Maria: IT CANT BE FIXED
ms x tickles: YES IT CAN
This guh Maria: GOD DOESNT WANT ME TOO HAVE A NICE LIFE .. HE WANTS ME TOO SUFFER .. TOO SACRIFICE .. TOO HURT!
ms x tickles: just becuz you don't have som1 to love right now? it can't be fixed in the future?
This guh Maria: THAT'S NOT THE REASON JENN!
ms x tickles: DON'T SAY THAT
This guh Maria: THE REASON IS BECAUSE OF MY WHOLE LIFE!
ms x tickles: GOD GAVE EVERYONE LIFE SO THEY COULD LIVE A HAPPY LIFE
This guh Maria: MY WHOLE FUCKIN GAY ASS LIFE!
This guh Maria: THAT DOESNT INCLUDE ME FORSURE
ms x tickles: YOU DON'T HAVE A GAY LIFE
This guh Maria: COS IM NEVER HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This guh Maria: NEVER!!!!!!
ms x tickles: YES YOU ARE
This guh Maria: NOOOOO JENN .. IF YOU ONLY KNEW! I HIDE ALL OF THIS BEHIND A SMILE. BUT U HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH PAIN!
ms x tickles: i'm sorry for not understanding my bestfriend after all these months..
ms x tickles: i'm sorry
This guh Maria: AND I WILL DIE SOON. EVEN IF IT'S NOT KILLING MYSELF. JENN I`M GETTING MYSELF SICK BECAUSE OF THIS. I NEVER EAT, I NEVER
SLEEP. SEE I`M CLOSE TO WAT I WANT.
ms x tickles: this is your choice.. I only have an opinion about it
ms x tickles: i can't do anything
ms x tickles: NO
ms x tickles: YOUR FARR
ms x tickles: WAY FARR
This guh Maria: if i am .. i wish i wasnt. and i`ll make it close.
This guh Maria: cos' i really want too leave.
ms x tickles: maria.. what are you doing to me?
ms x tickles: my besfriend wants to die..
ms x tickles: WTF AM I SUPPOSE TO DO!?!?!
ms x tickles: SIT AND WATCH MY BESTEST FRIEND DIE!?!
ms x tickles: WASTE HER LIFE!?!?
This guh Maria: LET ME BE HAPPY FOR ONCE!
This guh Maria: THIS IS WHAT WILL MAKE ME HAPPY.
This guh Maria: being in a much better place.
ms x tickles: maria..
This guh Maria: :'( DO YOU THINK I LIKE LIVING THIS WAY?! NOOO JENN I WOILD GIVE EVERYTHING TOO CHANGE IT .. BUT I CANT!!!!!!!!!!
ms x tickles: your gunna regret this.
This guh Maria: I HAVE TOO LIVE LIKE THIS!
ms x tickles: YOU CAN CHANGE THIS!
This guh Maria: NO JENN. I JUST WANT TOO DIE.
ms x tickles: PLEASE STOP SAYING THAT
This guh Maria: IT'S THE FUCKIN TRUTH!
ms x tickles: ok.. before you GO.. tell me what I'm supposed to do..
ms x tickles: tell me
ms x tickles: i need help
ms x tickles wants to directly connect.
This guh Maria is now directly connected.
ms x tickles: 
ms x tickles: that was me lastnight
This guh Maria: dont.
This guh Maria: don`t follow me.
ms x tickles: NO
This guh Maria: NO JENN!
ms x tickles: i made a desicion..
This guh Maria: DONT FUCKIN FOLLOW ME .. DONT.
ms x tickles: IF MY BESTFRIEND IS GUNNA DO IT
ms x tickles: SO AM I
ms x tickles: were 1 remember?
This guh Maria: NOOO I NEED TOO MAKE MY WAY ALONE.
ms x tickles: WE GOTTA DO THIS TOGETHER
This guh Maria: JENN NO.
This guh Maria: THIS IS MY LIFE NOW. DON`T DO WHAT I`M DOING.
This guh Maria: UNLESS U WANT ME TOO LIVE, SUFFERING .. SACRIFICING. CRYING 24/7 .. HURTING EVERY SECOND OF THE DAY.
ms x tickles: I WANT YOU TO LIVE.................................................... EVERYTHING IS GUNNA CHANGE I PROMISE YOU
ms x tickles: YOUR SO YOUNG STILL
ms x tickles: YOU HAVE MUCH MORE TIME TO LIVE AND BE HAPPY
This guh Maria: no jenn.
ms x tickles: BUT YOU WANNA WastE THAT BY ENDING YOUR LIFE NOW
This guh Maria direct connection is closed.
This guh Maria: if i die, without even killing myself .. sorry.
ms x tickles: I HATE CRYING OVER YOU
ms x tickles: PLEASE STOP IT
This guh Maria: YOU DONT NEED TO!
ms x tickles: YES I DO
ms x tickles: YOUR MY BESTFRiEND
ms x tickles: remember?
ms x tickles: I LOVE YOU
This guh Maria: there's shit i never told you .. cos i didn`t wanna scare you ..
ms x tickles: AND CARE FOR YOU SO MUCH
This guh Maria: but now`s the time too tell you ..
ms x tickles: ok. tell me
This guh Maria: when i was still back home .. ever since my hurt started .. all of this b/s .. i got tooken too the hospital almost every single week .. i pass
out in school mostly everyday .. i sometimes need to get fed my a tube .. i always have these times when i can`t breathe and i have too be rushed too the
hospital .. i have alot of problems Jenn. i`m sick.
ms x tickles: :'(
ms x tickles: WTF
ms x tickles: why didn't you tell me??????
ms x tickles: OMG
ms x tickles: :'(
This guh Maria: :'(.
ms x tickles: maria.........
This guh Maria: ..
ms x tickles: whu sickness do you have?
This guh Maria: i`m just weak like that. that whole thing happens too me .. either passes out .. cant breathe .. cant think .. cant eat .. cant sleep ..
ms x tickles: :'*
ms x tickles: **:'(
ms x tickles: MARIA..
This guh Maria: ..
ms x tickles: I LOVE YOU
ms x tickles: .............
ms x tickles: alot..
This guh Maria: i love you too. Jenn ..
ms x tickles: i'm sorry
ms x tickles: I'M SO SORRY
ms x tickles: I'M SORRY!!!!!!!
This guh Maria: you know what's scary .. i`m just too weak. how much do you wiegh?
This guh Maria: :'(
ms x tickles: i wiegh 99
ms x tickles: you......?
This guh Maria: i don`t wanna .. say.
ms x tickles: tell me
ms x tickles: please..
This guh Maria: 69-75 .. it changes weekly i guess.
ms x tickles: OMG
ms x tickles: OMG
ms x tickles: OMG
ms x tickles: maria.. PLEASE
ms x tickles: please
ms x tickles: don't end your life
ms x tickles: please..
ms x tickles: for me..
ms x tickles: FOR ME
ms x tickles: I love you..
ms x tickles: i can't stop you tho..
ms x tickles: GOODBYE
ms x tickles: I love you..
ms x tickles: :'(
