Updated as of Tuesday, Spetember 23, 2003:
My whole outlook on love has changed within the past month. I had fallen in love. It's a beautiful thing, love... when you have it. Not that I've fallen in and out of love... I'm still in love. This girl was a disease... she made contact with me, infected me, took over my existance, and then killed me. Grant-it that I'm not actually dead, I just feel very dead inside. It hurts, it hurts alot to have you're heart crushed by the first girl you've fallen in love with. What's more is that we're just going to be "friends" for now. I had never though a great deal about that line... but now that it's actually been used on me I can honestly say it sucks. I'm not going into great detail about what all happened in this relationship, because I feel as if it is none of your business, and I really don't feel like revisiting the past. What I feel right now, though, is indescribable. I still love, yet it hurts to do so. Quite a pickle I'm in, isn't it? A word of advice to all who may read this: If you're afraid to fall in love, then don't be. There is absolutely nothing to be afraid of. It's the most wonderful thing in the world. And if it ends, don't give up, because there was love and that's all you need.
Also, if you ever read this (you know who you are), Then I just want you to know that even though we may not be "together" anymore; I'll always be with you, and you with me. I still love you the same way that I did, and I always will.