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Michael ~N~ Valerie

Mike and Valerie







Michael Roe ~N~ Valerie Igals

11.27.2001

"A site dedicated to my Baby"




From Michael

ONLY SOME!!! From Michael 2 Val143 xoxo awwI am going to miss the OLD Michael I fell in love with.,

Here we go...

HEY SMILE SWEETIE :)

Hey baby i cant make it b/c of work sorry we'll get together soon ;~)

FINE U WILL NOT GET A CALL FROM ME

HEY BABY CALL MY HOUSE WHEN U GET THIS

> HEY BABY ITSMIKE I LOVEYA ALOT ILL CALL YOU LATER

R U GETING THESE? I AM WORRIED ABOUT U VAL. I REALLY NEED TO TALK 2 U PLEASE CALL ME

NOPE I AM NOT GONNA CALL PLEASE STOP TEXTING ME

R U GETING THESE? I AM WORRIED ABOUT U VAL. I REALLY NEED TO TALK 2 U PLEASE CALL ME I KNOW U R O N THE NET SO CAN U CALL ME

CALL ME BABE

I LOVE U SWEETIE

BABE I THINK I HAVE TO WORK TONIGHT AND I AM IN EARLY TOMORROW I MISS U BABY

COULD U AT LEAST TEXT ME BACK?

WHY THE FUCK R U DOING THIS? WOULD U PLEASE GIVE ME A CALL

U 143 VAL I FINALLY REALIZED WHAT I HAD

THANKS BABY:)

EMAILS FROM MIKE

Hey baby, i am writning u an email jus like u asked:)

I love u bye baby:) love mike

Hey val it is mike call me at woodloch. xxx-xxxx ask for me i am not getting off till 1200 midnight so call me love mike

> Hey baby i promised i would write u tonight and i > did:) i understand and i > love u a lot. I will talk to u tomorrow in persona > bout the way u fell ok > baby? i love u and i will talk to u later. Call me > in the morning when u > wake up. By baby i love u a lot and i miss u > dearly:) > I love u baby goodnight > love u > michael:)

All of these are very sweet baby and i love tyour ideas:) Hey you made me a mix cd and i made some too. I don't think we ever listened to a thunderstorm together but lets some time:) I can't wait to talk to you later today and see you tonight:) I love you baby with all my heart:) LOVE always and forever -MIKE-

All of these are very sweet baby and i love tyour > ideas:) Hey you made me a > mix cd and i made some too. I don't think we ever > listened to a > thunderstorm together but lets some time:) I can't > wait to talk to you later > today and see you tonight:) I love you baby with > all my heart:) > LOVE always and forever > -MIKE-

> Hey baby, > I just wanted to say that i love you with all my > hear t and i am sorry that > i didn't get to email you lastnighht when you called > me. I went baack in my > romm after you called me and my comp was fucked up( > turned out to be a > corrupt program) I couldn't get on lastnight to > email you and i am so sorry > but that is no excuse. I love you and i am really > sorry. I had to wait to > email you this morning on my lil brothers comp > because i can't find the > corrupt program. Maybe we can try to find it > tonight when we do something. > I am so looking forward to seeing you and hugging > you and kissing you:) I > hope you had a good nights rest lastnight. I know > that i dreamt about my > baby( which is you by the way) I aam sorry that i > haven't email or written > to you in a while i am sorry if that bothers you > that i don't email or write > because I should do it more often. Thank you sweety > for bbecoming so nice > lastnight after our lil fight. So what do you wanna > do tonight?? I am not > sure what i work tomorrow but here are our few > options: > 1. We go to the movies > 2. Work on your comp and mine and just lay next to > each other > 3. Work on my car:) > 4. Play video games > 5. Your choicce whatever you want > There are just a few ideas on what we can do > tonight. I know that i will be > happy no matter what as long as i am with you my > sugarplum:) > I appolgize that this email wasn't super long but i > haavve to leave in a > little while so i have to go take a shower( i will > be thinking of you in the > shower and for the rest of the day:) I miss you and > wish you were here with > me now:) I love you baby and i hope you have a good > day:) Try to call on > my cell onetime through the day if you can. I love > you > Love always and forever > -mike- > p.s. I miss you baby > p.s.s. smile for me and have a great day:)

Hey baby, I just wanted to say that i love you with all my hear t and i am sorry that i didn't get to email you lastnighht when you called me. I went baack in my romm after you called me and my comp was fucked up( turned out to be a corrupt program) I couldn't get on lastnight to email you and i am so sorry but that is no excuse. I love you and i am really sorry. I had to wait to email you this morning on my lil brothers comp because i can't find the corrupt program. Maybe we can try to find it tonight when we do something. I am so looking forward to seeing you and hugging you and kissing you:) I hope you had a good nights rest lastnight. I know that i dreamt about my baby( which is you by the way) I aam sorry that i haven't email or written to you in a while i am sorry if that bothers you that i don't email or write because I should do it more often. Thank you sweety for bbecoming so nice lastnight after our lil fight. So what do you wanna do tonight?? I am not sure what i work tomorrow but here are our few options: 1. We go to the movies 2. Work on your comp and mine and just lay next to each other 3. Work on my car:) 4. Play video games 5. Your choicce whatever you want There are just a few ideas on what we can do tonight. I know that i will be happy no matter what as long as i am with you my sugarplum:) I appolgize that this email wasn't super long but i haavve to leave in a little while so i have to go take a shower( i will be thinking of you in the shower and for the rest of the day:) I miss you and wish you were here with me now:) I love you baby and i hope you have a good day:) Try to call on my cell onetime through the day if you can. I love you Love always and forever -mike- p.s. I miss you baby p.s.s. smile for me and have a great day:)

> VAL, > Hey baby whats going on?? not much here... i am > upstairs right now while you > do your plaster project downstairs. i just wanted to > say that i love you and > i miss you a lot:) so whats goin on this weekend??? > are you staying over > sometime during the week??? i dunno i hope you do > well on your project and i > just wanted to say that i love you a lot and be > good:) > by baby > love mike

Hey baby I just wanted to say hi and that i love you w/ all my heart:) I hope you had fun lastnight and i missed you. Hey look forward to today because i am, ok baby:) Hey do me a favor:) Try to remember to call me when you wake up ok?? i love you a lot. Well i hope you had sweet dreams and i love you:) Later baby love mike

ONLY SOME Texts/Emails from Val 2 Mike

xoxo

Use the house phone and call me back.

U do know if U don't want 2 talk 2 me u can tell me and not ignore me =) --Luv Val

I hope that U get this when U 1st wake up. I love you. Have a good day so you are not mean. Finish that letter and I love you. Please never 4get that. Treat me like U love me/hold me dear. Take away all my fears. I love U so much. Be the Michael I fell in love with/I'll be in UR arms 4 all eternity. --~*Valerie*~

I know that u did'nt even leave the rock yet/that's y u r now not even answering ur cell. I'm not dumb sweetie. I want 2c u 4 more than an hour 2night/was looking forward 2 this all day long. I am trying MIKE! 143! PLEASE! MIKE! =)

He said that if we pay the 43 dollars it cost him to list the item then everything will be ok

Be careful and aware of black ice. The temp/outside is roughly 25 degrees and is supposed to go to 19. So... be careful driving out there babes. have fun chillin' @ chris'. I hope that you stop by. If you don't them just gimmie a two second call to lemme know. I don't want to worry. I love you cutie-pie. Love-Valerie

Michael are u alright? Let me know if something's wrong or if there's Anything bothering you ok? ANYTHING. NO matter what it is. I'll always B here 4u. Just wanted to let you know that/ that u can talk to me about anything in the entire world NO MATTER what it is alright? Buh byez. Love Val

MIKE! DO NOT GET THE TIRES RIGHT NOW! INSTEAD OF PAYING A LATE FEE! I will give you the money! COME BACK! Don'T PAY THE FUCKING LATE CHARGE!!! LOve val

Damnit Mike! Again you said that you were coming right over! Then you jumped in the shower?? Could'nt you call?? Instead of lying? I don't udnerstand you sometimes. Plus steve is up there already er on his way you said! Talk to you later. You are here now!

143/I was going 2 ask if I called Prince Charming's pizzaria and I would like 2 order the Michael Roe special with no cheese or anchovies but with alot of spice and everything nice. The special Michael sauce at no extra cost. And can it be delivered it a box, still fresh and hot?

Please take the cheesecake and prime rbi out of your car b4 they spoil #1. #2 eat 'em for dinner, do not let them sit around in the fridge forever or throw them out. I got them for you. =) Ok I love you schnookums, sugarplum. ~*Valerie*~

EMAIL
I love you. But you are going to be mad at me but I HAEV TO SAY THIS! I TOLD YOU SO I TOLD YOU DO I TOL DYOU SO! YOU SAID THAT YOU WERE GOING TO GET AN AWD CAR! YOU SAID THAT YOU WERE NOT GOING TO GET THE CAR THAT YOU DID BUT OOOOOOOOH NO YOU HAD TO b/C it has a TURBO! WELL I HOPE YOU FINALLLLLY LEARNED A LESSON! *I am always right* j/k I am sorry . I had to say that. I had to get it out of my system. =) ok I love you buhbyez darling

I miss you soo very much. I am sorry for trying to suffocate you and all kinds of stuupid things. I am obsessed with you. But I guess that tends to happen when you fall completely head over heels in love with someone like I have for you. I can not control myself. I think about you constantly and always want to be in your arms and watch you smile at me as I smile back at you .

More texts to Mike Thank god your nose does not look too much like your dads yet! =) Right now, I think you are georgous

Your fingers are like the stems from the most intricate long stem roses (with no thorns)

umm hahaha umm strong and handsome wee wee?

your ears are cute and umm fuzzy like your hair

Call me when you get this. =*(

Staring into your eyes, makes me the luckiest person in the world. I get to see a glimpse of heaven not visible to anyone else but me

umm.. your toes are umm.. cute and tiny

Cell again

umm.. your hair is fluffy hehe

The way you smell drives me to the brink of insanity. I wish there was a perfume called Roe by Es De Michael Roe so I would never have to only remonise of your sweet symphony

Your kisses feel like the softest satin ever so delicatly wisping across my lips

If you are not a dream, I never want to go to sleep again

If you are a dream, I want to stay asleep forever

I'm sorry for the bad things in these past few days. I just feel as though my heart breaks when I am without you for even 2 seconds. I love the wispers of your sweet breath and kisses upon your sweet sweet lips

I wish that you were sleeping with me here right now and I within your arms Michael Gerald Roe

I want to be with you forever Michael Gerald Roe

I can not wait to see you Michael Gerald Roe

I miss you Michael Gerald Roe

Call me if u ever have the time away from ur hectic schedule for a friend, if u do not think that you have enough. But only if u can find the time, to care.

What happened 2u? The other night you made me promise I would try 2 spend more time w/u & now I smothered you? Well, despite how much in love w/u I am. It's over between us. I don't need some1 2 be mean 2 me. I have been trying. But ur just 2 busy now mr. popular and have better things 2 do. Well... I guess that makes me 1 less thing.

I am getting off of the computer, so you do not have to type back. Call even collect. please Mike.

Michael * I almost typed baby but that would'nt feel right if you actually were'nt my baby*, I am worried. Please lemme know that you are alright. =*( ~*Val*~

Please, I need to talk to you. I want to know that you are alright. Please Mike. Reguardless of how things are between us, let me know that you are alright.

E-Mail 2 Mike Mike, You coulf'nt have gone to NY yet b/c the funeral is tomorrow and you said that you were not going to take down your new car b/c of the milage. At least call me to let me know that you are alright. I still love you even though you broke up with me, Or I broke up with you, whatever. I still love you and wether we are together or not I wnat to know that you are alright!

More texts... mike, Steve was trying to get a hold of you today but he said that he could'nt.

Michael, I left messages at your house and your cell phone.

Michael. It hurts. Please.

E-mails Mike, Thanx 4 being honest about her! It was expected. She's prolly a good fuck since u were'nt getting nething from me. I loved U and got shitted on the entire way. You're right I am stupid and worthless, it showed by staying with someone who could'nt show me their love if it was'nt store bought and unless they were constantly hurting me. Let me know if u want ur things back. Valerie PS- I told U I found ur class ring. It was on the floor with the heart you said u would'nt continue 2 break,

Love you babe

I am just sending this out to everyone to commorate the one year anniversary of I Valerie Igals and Michael Gerald Roe. We have bene through alot. And through it all, the thick and the thin the Michael that I love; the Michael that I adore is back. I am extatic. We've lasted this long. =) There is no telling what the future will bring. I just know that I am glad we stuck through it all to find this eternal love. Just a note to everyone... No matter how tough things may get sometimes, if you really love someone with all of your heart stick with it. Stand by their side. And they will return that love with an overflowing cup of joy and love. Don't listen to anyone. Follow your mind, heart but most of all your dreams. I have and finally my dream has turned into a reality. I've found the one person in the entire world that makes me feel complete. Michael Gerald Roe, you are my love, understanding, happiness, my everything. Thank you everyone out there who has gone through this past year with Michael and or Myself. Dreams really do come true. (Create your own special Disneyland). Don't give up! ok enough of Val-time babbble. I love you all. Valerie Janice Igals

"5 minutes with you could not compare to the year that we have spent together; this past year with you has been more important than anything; no matter what I want you to know that I will always be in love with you"--Mike

I love you so much. I have fallen so completely in love with you.. sometimes I wonder... Am I really in love or is it just an obsession? Or am I in love with an Obsession. or had I once had a friendship with you of which turned into love then Falling in love which lead to obsession of the one whom I have fallen in love with. Whatever the reason. Whatever the case. WHatever the cause. I will always be here.. or there for you. NO matter what. I love you soo very much. I fell ike I can not begin to say it enough. NOt a day goes by, a moment, that I do not think of you or crave the essence of being held in your arms. It is like a perfect locking system. We fit together so well. And so perfectly. Now that I have actually let you into my life. I simply can not imagine anything without you. I can not sleep, think, talk, dream, anything without you or without you and your thoughts and just you. You occupy my entire mind. It seems as though I am constantly flooded with visons of your adorable face, the way that you smell, your smile, your warmth, touch, caress, embrace, words,, just everything about you. You are what keeps me holding on each day by day. ----> CONVO FROM AIM! (READ THIS PART AGAIN! ) I love you Mystical7V: GO TO BED! Mystical7V: this is why I wonder..hmm what chick is he talking to? Mystical7V: jk Mystical7V: I just get so paranoud and I ma sorry Mystical7V: that is my problem not yours roedaddy99: what? roedaddy99: i jus got cereal Mystical7V: I am just always so afraid that there is someone out there always trying to steal you away from me roedaddy99: i am laying down in like 5 min Mystical7V: I just get so afraid that I am going to olse you roedaddy99: i am dling a movie so the comp will be on Mystical7V: B/c you are soo perfect.. .and.. and... I want to hold onto you ,, and everyone always says that nothing perfect lasts forever.. but I want this to Mystical7V: I want to be with you for as long as you will have me. roedaddy99: thnaks babe roedaddy99: go to bed u have work Mystical7V: I get so jelous of everyone around you even those not around you.. and so paranoid.. that I freak on you about the dumbest little things i am sorry. I really have to learn to put myself in check Mystical7V: But it is so hard.. b/c I have now realized just how hard,, just realy how hard I have actually fallen for you. Mystical7V: I have to keep reminding myself that I have to stop and be dilligent and patient b/c the harder i try to keep you the further away that I am actually going to push you if I keep on beig so freaked out the way tha I am Mystical7V: maybe I should'nt be saying all of this to you Mystical7V: MAybe you will think that I am weird roedaddy99: go to sleep baby Mystical7V: or psycho Mystical7V: or crazy Mystical7V: or just plain stupid Mystical7V: Please don't Mystical7V: even though I reall know that I am psycho roedaddy99: shut up and go to sleep Mystical7V: You'v made me psycho Mystical7V: I can not breath without breathing in your essence ---> ok.. umm what you just said hurt.. even though it was'nt much.. but I was in the middle of telling you so much stuff and all of these emotions that I have for you and you just toldme to shut up. i am sorry. buh byez. Goodnight. ---> ----Val

I love you Mr. Wonderful. *Mwa* I miss you like the delicately spun threads of sunshine miss springs array of colors. Love, ~*Valerie*~

I would wrote my own lov poems but it is sooo very late. But I had to send you these 1. b/c i love you and 2. I miss you 3. Can not get you off of my mind 4. Thoughts of how much I love you keep running through my mind. I am so happy that we have decided to BOTH put all of the bad past things behind us. I love you very much and you mean more than anything in the world to me. I want to be with you forever or for as long as you will have me. Whichever comes first. I am yours for all eternity and beyond, as long as you want me to be. Like I said, you are my everything, my whole world is consumed by thoughts of you my love. Butterfly's Writings Uplifting Love Poems -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A something in our conversation everyday, As slow as the wax melt away Which softens me. A something in our sharing day-to-day, A depth-an ocean-a perfume- Which elevates me. And within our crack into the night, A something so transporting bright, Which brings warmth to me. Then veil my too imperfect love, Lest such human nature drives your affection Away from me. So looking on-the-night-the morn, Conclude our wonder chatter, And I meet, in my nest Another of your enlivening laughter. That was a Poem that I found and thought of you b/c I love you. Next is one that I had generated especially for you. =) *Wink Wink* My dearest Michael, If only you knew how wonderful it was for me To see you shoving your lips toward me. I felt there would be a deep void in me for cycles on end. But now that you're home again, I know we'll be lovers forever.

Mike, I could not wait "till I spoke with you again 2 tell you this... I love you. I listened to the song and I cried. (I'm A cry baby, you know that) That was the sweetest thing that you have done for me in a long time and I appreciate it so much. I love you more than anything. I want to be with you for as long as you want me. Which I hope is until the "verge of spontaneous combustion"-quote from the track after the one you had me listen to. Also I wanted to AGAIN wish you a wonderfully perfect Anniversary. I wish that I could spend the entire day with you making it special. But I will get to see you after work. YAY! I love you sweetherat.I dunno how many words I can type here before it cuts out so I am going to go now. Love for all Eternity, ~*Valerie Janice Igals*~

Hey babe, I just got in a few minutes ago and eventho I am hella tired and wake up in about 3 hours I needed to email you. I miss you so much. You have NO IDEA how painful it is to leave you at night or anytim. I cry because I am so in love with you and I wish that I could spend every single waking moment and closed eye moment with you for the rest of my life. I do not know what I would do without you. I do not want to even think about what it would be like if you were not there. I love you so much. I am SO much in love with you. You mean everything to me. Dispite on when/how much we argue... I would not trade you in for anyone or anything. You are so special and the greatest gift that I could have even been given . I do not know where you came from or how you got here. But I know that the heavens do not have anything close to what I feel towards you. You are more precious to me than you will ever understand. I am always going to love you and never ever will I forget about how you have changed my entire life and shown me the world in a completley different light. If ever your feelings do change about me no matter how I feel I want you to know that I am always going to be here for you. I may have to hide my feelings foryou in order to be your friend, but deep inside I am always going to feel this way about you. That will never change, I promise. Times I said that I wanted to break up with you I think that I said it b/c I knew that our arguing was putting both of us through alot of grief which hurt me even more to see you go through and I don't want you to ever be hurting. I would rather see you happy no matter what. You are one of a kind. I am so thankful that we found each other among the sesspool of the world. =) I owe sooo much to you my love. Anywayz.. that was to make a long story short. =) I was looking at Avril's lyrics to her songs and pretty much all of them fit me. I am gonna meet her someday. She thinks like me. It is awesome. But I bet millions of other kids acrossthe world think that too but ah well... here you go. You HAVE TO read these and tell me what you think about each one baby ok? I love you with everything that I am. "Complicated" Uh huh, life's like this Uh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is Cause life's like this Uh huh, uh huh that's the way it is Chill out whatcha yelling' for? Lay back it's all been done before And if you could only let it be you will see I like you the way you are When we're drivin' in your car and you're talking to me one on one but you've become Somebody else round everyone else You're watching your back like you can't relax You're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to me Tell me Why you have to go and make things so complicated? I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated Life's like this you And you fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty and promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it no no no You come over unannounced dressed up like you're somethin' else where you are and where it's at you see you're making me laugh out when you strike your pose take off all your preppy clothes you know you're not fooling anyone when you've become Somebody else round everyone else Watching your back, like you can't relax Trying to be cool you look like a fool to me Tell me Why you have to go and make things so complicated? I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated Life's like this you and You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it no no no Chill out whatcha yelling for? Lay back, it's all been done before And if you could only let it be You will see Somebody else round everyone else You're watching your back, like you can't relax You're trying to be cool, you look like a fool to me Tell me Why you have to go and make things so complicated? I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated Life's like this you and You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it no no Why you have to go and make things so complicated? I see the way you're acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated Life's like this you You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it no no no ------------------------------------------- "Things I'll Never Say" Iím tugging at my hair Iím pulling at my clothes Iím trying to keep my cool I know it shows Iím staring at my feet My checks are turning red Iím searching for the words inside my head [Pre-Chorus] (Cause) Iím feeling nervous Trying to be so perfect Cause I know youíre worth it Youíre worth it Yeah [Chorus] If I could say what I want to say I'd say I wanna blow you... away Be with you every night Am I squeezing you too tight If I could say what I want to see I want to see you go down On one knee Marry me today Yes, Iím wishing my life away With these things Iíll never say It donít do me any good Itís just a waste of time What use is it to you Whatís on my mind If ainít coming out Weíre not going anywhere So why canít I just tell you that I care [Pre-Chorus] [Chorus] Whatís wrong with my tongue These words keep slipping away I stutter, I stumble Like Iíve got nothing to say [Pre-Chorus] Yes Iím wishing my life away with these things Iíll never say If I could say what I want to say I'd say I wanna blow you...away Be with you every night Am I squeezing you too tight If I could say what I want to see I want to see you go down On one knee Marry me today Yes, Iím wishing my life away With these things Iíll never say These things Iíll never say -------------------------------------------------- "Tomorrow" And I wanna believe you, When you tell me that it'll be ok, Ya I try to believe you, But I don't When you say that it's gonna be, It always turns out to be a different way, I try to believe you, Not today, today, today, today, today... [Chorus:] I don't know how I'll feel, tomorrow, tomorrow, I don't know what to say, tomorrow, tomorrow Is a different day It's always been up to you, It's turning around, It's up to me, I'm gonna do what I have to do, just don't Gimme a little time, Leave me alone a little while, Maybe it's not too late, not today, today, today, today, today... [Chorus:] I don't know how I'll feel, tomorrow, tomorrow, I don't know what to say, tomorrow, tomorrow Is a different day Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready, Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready, Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow And I wanna believe you, When you tell me that it'll be ok, Yeah I try to believe you, Not today, today, today, today, today... Tomorrow it may change [4x] -------------------------------------------------- "Naked" I wake up in the morning Put on my face The one that's gonna get me Through another day Doesn't really matter How I feel inside 'Cause life is like a game sometimes But then you came around me The walls just disappeared Nothing to surround me And keep me from my fears I'm unprotected See how I've opened up Oh, you've made me trust Because I've nver felt like this before I'm naked Around you Does it show? You see right through me And I can't hide I'm naked Around you And it feels so right I'm tyring to remember Why I was afraid To be myself and let the Covers fall away I guess I never had someone like you To help me, to help me fit In my skin I never felt like this before I'm naked Around you Does it show? You see right through me And I can't hide I'm naked Around you And it feels so right I'm naked Oh oh yeah Does it show? Yeah, I'm naked Oh oh, yeah yeah I'm so naked around you And I can't hide You're gonna see right through, baby --------------------------------------------------- "Unwanted" All that I did was walk over Start off by shaking your hands That's how it went I had a smile on my face and I sat up straight Oh, yeah, yeah I wanted to know you I wanted to show you [chorus] You don't know me Don't ignore me You don't want me there You just shut me out You don't know me Don't ignore me If you had your way You'd just shut me up Make me go away No, I just don't understand why you won't talk to me It's hurts that I'm so unwanted for nothing Don't talk words against me I wanted to know you I wanted to show you [chorus] Make me go away I tried to belong It didn't seem wrong My head aches Its been so long I'll write this song If that's what it take [chorus (2x)] Make me go away Make me go away --------------------------------------- "Anything But Ordinary" Sometimes I get so weird I even freak myself out I laugh myself to sleep It's my lullaby Sometimes I drive so fast Just to feel the danger I wanna scream It makes me feel alive Is it enough to love? Is it enough to breath? Somebody rip my heart out And leave me here to bleed Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life I'd rather be anything but ordinary please To walk within the lines Would make my life so boring I want to know that I Have been to the extreme So knock me off my feet Come on now give it to me Anything to make me feel alive Is it enough to love? Is it enough to breath? Somebody rip my heart out And leave me here to bleed Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life I'd rather be anything but ordinary please I'd rahter be anything but ordinary please. Let down your defences Use no common sense If you look you will see that this world is a beautiful accident turbulent suculent opulent permanent, no way I wanna taste it Don't wanna waste it away Sometimes I get so weird I even freak myself out I laugh my self to sleep It's my lullaby Is it enough? Is it enough? Is it enough to breath? Somebody rip my heart out And leave me here to bleed Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life I'd rather be anything but ordinary please Is it enough? Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life I'd rather be anything but ordinary please I'd rather be anything but ordinary please. ------------------------------------------------------- "Nobody's Fool" Fall back Take a look at me And you'll see I'm for real I feel what only I can feel And if that don't appeal to you Let me know And I'll go 'Cuz I flow Better when my colors show And that's the way it has to be Honestly 'Cuz creativity could never bloom In my room I'd throw it all away before I lie So don't call me with a compromise Hang up the phone I've got a backbone stronger than yours La la la la la la La la la la la la la La la la la la la [chorus] If you're trying to turn me into someone else Its easy to see I'm not down with that I'm not nobody's fool If you're trying to turn me into something else I've seen enough and I'm over that I'm not nobody's fool If you wanna bring me down Go ahead and try Go ahead and try You don't know You think you know me like yourself But I fear That you're only telling me what I wanna hear But do you give a damn Understand That I can't not be what I am I'm not the milk and cheerios in your spoon Its not a simple hearing but not so soon I might've fallen for that when I was fourteen And a little more green But its amazing what a couple of years can mean La la la la la la La la la la la la la La la la la la la [chorus] Go ahead and try Try and look me in the eye But you'll never see inside Until you realize, realize Things are trying to settle down Just try to figure out Exactly what I'm about If its with or without you I don't need you doubting me [chorus] La la la la la la La la la la la la la La la la la la la Would you be laughing out loud If I played to my own crowd Try ---------------------------------------- "My World" Please tell me what is taking place, Cause I can't seem to find a trace, Guess it must've got erased somehow, Probably cause I always forget, Everytime someone tells me their name, It's always gotta be the same. (In my World) Never wore cover-up, Always beat the boys up, Grew up in a 5000 population town, Made my money by cutting grass, Got fired by fried chicken ass, All in a small town, Napanee. You know I always stay up without sleepin', And think to myself, Where do I belong forever, In whose arms, the time and place? [Chorus:] Can't help if I space in a daze, My eyes tune out the other way, I may switch off and go in a daydream, In this head my thoughts are deep, But sometimes I can't even speak, Would someone be and not pretend? I'm off again in my World I never spend less than an hour, Washin' my hair in the shower, It always takes 5 hours to make it straight, So I'll braid it in a zillion braids, Though it may take all friggen day, There's nothin' else better to do anyway. When you're all alone in the lands of forever, Lay under the milky way, On and on it's getting too late out, I'm not in love this time this night. [Chorus:] Can't help if I space in a daze, My eyes tune out the other way, I may switch off and go in a daydream, In this head my thoughts are deep, But sometimes I can't even speak, Would someone be and not pretend? I'm off again in my World (la la la la) Take some time, Mellow out, Party up, But don't fall down, Don't get caught, Sneak out of the house. [Chorus:] Can't help if I space in a daze, My eyes tune out the other way, I may switch off and go in a daydream, In this head my thoughts are deep, But sometimes I can't even speak, Would someone be and not pretend? I'm off again in my World Can't help if I space in a daze, My eyes tune out the other way, I may switch off and go in a daydream, In this head my thoughts are deep, But sometimes I can't even speak, Would someone be and not pretend? I'm off again in my World ------------------------------------------------ "I'm With You" I'm Standing on a bridge I'm waitin in the dark I thought that you'd be here by now Theres nothing but the rain No footsteps on the ground I'm listening but theres no sound Isn't anyone tryin to find me? Won't somebody come take me home It's a damn cold night Trying to figure out this life Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you im looking for a place searching for a face is anybody here i know cause nothings going right and everythigns a mess and no one likes to be alone Isn't anyone tryin to find me? Won't somebody come take me home It's a damn cold night Trying to figure out this life Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you oh why is everything so confusing maybe I'm just out of my mind yea yea yea It's a damn cold night Trying to figure out this life Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you Take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you I'm with you Take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you I'm with you I'm with you... -------------------------------- "Sk8er Boi" He was a boy She was a girl Can i make it any more obvious He was a punk She did ballet What more can i say He wanted her She'd never tell secretly she wanted him as well But all of her friends Stuck up their nose They had a problem with his baggy clothes He was a skater boy She said see you later boy He wasn't good enough for her She had a pretty face But her head was up in space She needed to come back down to earth 5 years from now She sits at home Feeding the baby she's all alone She turns on tv Guess who she sees Skater boy rockin up MTV She calls up her friends They already know And they've all got Tickets to see his show She tags along Stands in the crowd Looks up at the man that she turned down He was a skater boy She said see you later boy He wasn't good enough for her Now he's a super star Slamming on his guitar Does your pretty face see what he's worth? He was a skater boy She said see you later boy He wasn't good enough for her Now he's a super star Slamming on his guitar Does your pretty face see what he's worth? Sorry girl but you missed out Well tough luck that boy's mine now We are more than just good friends This is how the story ends Too bad that you couldn't see, See the man that boy could be There is more that meets the eye I see the soul that is inside He's just a boy And Im just a girl Can I make it any more obvious We are in love Haven't you heard How we rock eachothers world I'm with the skater boy I said see you later boy I'll be back stage after the show I'll be at the studio Singing the song we wrote About a girl you used to know I'm with the skater boy I said see you later boy I'll be back stage after the show I'll be at the studio Singing the song we wrote About a girl you used to know ------------------------------------- "Losing Grip" Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you Why'd you turn away? Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there, waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare That's when I decided [chorus] Why should I care Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip, I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place when you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me, you used to hug me But that wasn't the case Everything wasn't ok I was left to cry there waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare That's when I decided [chorus] Crying out loud I'm crying out loud Crying out loud I'm crying out loud Open your eyes Open up wide Why should I care Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone Why should I care Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone Why should I care If you don't care then I don't care were not going newhere Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone Why should I care If you don't care then i don't care were not going newhere AVRIL LAVIGNE LYRICS I am gonna make you a cd with me singing on it to you some of my songs someday. NO matter how bad it sounds you have to listen to it and you are not allowed to let anyone else in teh world EVER listen to it. I'd be so embarrassed . But I wanted to do it for you b/c I thought that it would be a sweet idea. Well I am going to get some sleep now. I love you. Sweet dreams daydreamer! P.S.- Call Joann! Buh byes poofer

I fiished this.. just scroll past the parts that you already rad that I had filled out or commented on last time.. or red it again b/c you love me so much. But in any case read the parts that I finished. I love you babe and can not wait until I see you again. Wait.. I will delete the parts that I sent you last time b/c you already have them.. and only include the parts that I did ot finish last time. So you do not have to worry about scrolling and Schtuff. I love you. >Make an ornament with a picture of both of you for the >Christmas tree. (That is adorable... remember this one next x mas) >Play tag. (we play wrestleing .. wait we played tag that time that we fought and we ran around after each other outside.. icky I would lik eto forget that night.. b/c i loveyou babe.) >Wash and wax your partner's car, and leave a little >note on the dashboard. (I have never washed your car but I have left you notez on your windshield and on my own dash for when you got back into teh car and even a drawing that one time) >Plant a garden together. (I should have left the rose for us to plant together) >Leave a mushy message on voicemail. >Stay at a hotel for the night, just because. (we shoul done night.. it would be kinda cool) >Make angels in the snow.(I wanted to do that this winter so badly but we did'nt get the chance.. maybe this winter we can) >Every time you say "hello" or "goodbye", seal it with >a hug and a kiss. (MOst of the time we do.. well good-byes anywayz we do.. rarely on hello do we anymore.. I miss that.. but hey I will try to too from now on to do that too) >Take a drive in the country. (haha we live in the country ) >Spend the evening looking at the stars -- and make a >wish together. (we have done that a few times. even when it was so cold.. I love you babe. those were awesome and so romantic and make me feel all warm and muchy inside.. I love you soo very much.. you are so special to me... I got more than I wished for when I met you) *hehe member the night of the meteor shower? what ws one of your wishes?) >Cast a playful wink any time, anywhere. (hehe I would look like I had something in my eye tho) >Think up a list of silly little pet names for times >when you're alone together. (I have.. cottonball, my lil cheesy pouf, clyde.. etc...) >Read poetry to each other. ( I have written you poetry.. does that count? I used to all the time) >Celebrate your half-birthdays together. (yours was in March.. mine is in May.. we just missed them.. and we forgot about our 1/2 anniversary 6 months =) But I still love you. I am sorry that I did not remember until it was too late) >Put a picture of both of you in your wallet. (I wanted to put one of the stickers in there but you did not give me any you stole 'em dork hehe) >Buy that favorite book or CD for no reason at all. (system of a down) >Send a care package to work filled with treats like >food, photos, candy, a love note, heart-shaped >confetti, etc. ( I remember the flowers you left at work.. that was sooo sweet) >Go out for the evening and tell people you're on your >honeymoon. (awwwww) >Take a hike together and carve your initials in a >tree. (that is cute.. spraypainting them count =-) ) >Write a thank you note for all the things you take for >granted. (I've done that in an email before to you.. actually a few) >Make a fire in the fireplace and roast marshmallows. ( I do not have a fireplace and neither do you, well downstairs anywayz. and if it were upstairs.. your parents would freak. lol) >Tape your favorite TV show and spend the evening >talking. (that would be nice) >Do the dishes together, then apply hand lotion to each >other's hands. (we have odne that.. both actually but not one after the other.. you have helped me wash the disghes here and at my bro's house.. and I rubbed lotion on your hands b4. amongst some other places too.. like your legs and arms and umm cough cough haha ) >Write a love letter to your partner and cut it into >jigsaw puzzle pieces. (whoa that is an awesome idea.. I have to remeber that!) >Decide on secret signals and use them to communicate >with each other in large groups of people.(*Smile*) >Schedule a regular mid-week "date night" for just the >two of you. (we hang out every night) >Do the laundry together. (You have come w/ me to do that b4) >Romance Theater Weekend: reenact each other's favorite >love scene - hers on Friday, his on Saturday. (cool idea!!!!) *JUST NONE FROM A PORNO MICHAEL! HAHA IF THTA IS WHAT YOU WERE THINKING!!) >Call your partner at work and ask for a date. (haha I have calle dyou and stuff b4.. but that is a nice idea.. I hafta member that one tooo) >Pretend you haven't seen each other for a month. Act >accordingly. (a month?? WE CAN NOT EVEN LAST A DAY) >Send a written invitation to do something special. (Ohh I lkike that idea I hafta meber soo many of these) >Take turns reading to each other. (awww. sleepytime stories) YAY!! NOT OUTTA IMPORT CAR MAGAZINE HAHA DORK! >Stand outside the window and sing a romantic song. ( I think I would cry if that ever happened. it would be soooo incredibly sweet and like back in teh old days when cvhivalry actually took place in the kingdoms) >Hide favorite candy in your partner's coat pockets. (hidden it in your lunches and car and stuff and room) >Put a tape recording of your voice (saying anything) >in the car stereo and turn it on so it plays when the >car starts. ( You don't have a tape player) >Go to a drive-in movie. ( YEA!! Sometime soon when I have a weekend night off) >Get up to turn off the last light after you're both >comfy-cozy in bed. ( You alway smake me do that lol) >Hold each other tight during a thunderstorm. (I love it when I am in your arms.. but I am the one who is alwyas holding on for dear life during the storms.. at my house anywayz.. at yours you can not hear anything when we are in your room) *Even tho I love thunderstorms) >Make a tape recording of favorite love songs. (that is cute, but i'd feel weird b/c I saw the cd's of love songs alreay in your cd case and figure dthat they were from *someone*) >Leave a bunch of bananas on the kitchen table with a >note, "I go bananas over you!" (haha adorable.. Or oranges saying orange ya glad these were'nt banannas?*) >Hide love notes in a magazine.(someone already did tha for you.. i did it till I found out about that then I stopped.. plus you never notiiced when I usedto do that.. so that is why I stopped too) >Declare your undying love via a telegram. *they still send telegrams?) >Make a romantic dinner together, and serve it on your >finest china. (Our families are always home.. or I would tak ethe china out and make everything beautiful for you) >Surprise your partner with a big kiss on the neck. (we have both done that too each other) >Give unexpected compliments. ( I love you so much babe. IU always give you compliments but maybe not as much as I used to or should.. I am sorry about that. .You have the best kisses and I love your hair when you first wake up in the morning you are soo cute an d your eyes all squinty.. just not when you leave it like that haha just when you wake up.. you are so adorable) >Share an ice cream cone. ( what about those dot things that I had never had until I met you and we went to Florida?) *THEY WERE AWESOME!!) >Have a picnic on the living room floor. (at the lake? the floor thing is cute too.. we hsould go to the park) >Draw a silly picture of the two of you. Frame it. (I have drawn them b4 but never framed it) Ok this is the end of tha thing i suppose.. I love you sweetheart LOve Always and Forever, *~*Tink*~*

I will finish the 101 thing later or tomorrow sO i can get some things donw. I love you babe,. Sorry about all the typos w/ the letters and punctuation. I have fat fingers and I am too lazy to correct the nistakes. lol Thank you babe for the email and the phone call today at work. The Michael that disappeared is back again! YAY!! I am soo happy. It is great! It is wonderfully fantasic. You have no idea ho whappy that Makes me. I missed him soo much. Thank you. This is the bestest present that you could have ever given me.. The Michael that I fell in love with. I hope he stays aroiund for a while. thank you babe. I love you sooo dearly. I hate when we fight. We always say that we won't anymore.. but this time.. let's mean it. It is human nature to get annoyed er mad etc.. at another person but we were taking it too far .Both of us. But I am hella glad that things finally are back to normal and hopefully are out of both of our systems now and have ran their coarse. I think That we just needed to both realize.. patience truely is a virtue and you need the time/space to be you as well as vice versa. I really enjoy hangng out w/ you alot just not all the time b/c then it gives us things to talk about when we are back together and I am happier b/c i get to see you again. It is like.. ever have to much of your fav food? It is kinda like that . You love it and think tha it would be great to eat it all teh time.. but then when you do you are like egh ya know? But if you do not have it for a while you enjoy it so much more. You know? I think that I explained that riht. oooo I think that I heard thunder. B/c when we are apart.. I can not wait until we see ecah other again but if we are togehter all the time than I don't get taht desparation to see you. Granted maybe we have'nt seen each other too much this week.. but don't worry baby. i love you more than ever. And I would never ever leave you for anyone else in the world. I would never even think about. You are all that I need. All that I want. No-one in the world can compare to you in my eyes. You make me feel emotions that can not even be describes and some that I have never exeprienced or ever felt before. It's magical when I am around you (and we do not fight haha). I hate it when we fight soo much. The reason that I said that I wanted to not be with you any longer last night and AT THE TIME meant it was b/c I was tired of fighting and tired of you getting hurt. I do not intend to hurt you even tho i realize that I have. I do not do it on purpose. .HOwever I understand that I have and I am truely sorry about that. We have to learn to be more patient with each other. I am sorry that I do not always listen to what you have to say about some things. Communication is not a problem in this relationship. Lord know sthat. We communicate in some way or another. Talking, yellin, physical emotions . etc.. Just sometimes I guessthat we need to be able to compromise on things ya know? I keep saying we b/c I knows that I too am to blame. EVerything happens for a reason, that's why we take our experiences and learn from them. EVeryone is different and not everyone is going to feel the same way. And what someone thinks can not be be forced upon someone else. I love you so much babe. And I am going to try to work and give my all i nthis relationship, to help mak eit work. I notice that lately you have been trying harder too and i thank you for tyhat. Don't worry it has'nt gone by unnoticed. I may not havbe always said something about it but I have notice it and I am tryely grateful to have found you. I see it when I look into your eyes and when you talk to me now sometimes. You are so sweet and wrote me that wonderful email that made my whole day feel soo wonderful and put the biggest smile on my face. Like when we fight now .. you will hug me or ask me for a kiss and just smile when it is all said and done. Don't give up. We can continue to mak ethis work. Other than last inght the fihgt, things ar egoing wonderful and i am as happy as the day that we first met gaain. Well first met again and started to like each other. hehe Not the 1st time that we met. B/c You were mean and stuck up lol. And I was a bitch. Hah. baby.. You do alot for me and thank you for that. I try to do as much as I can but maybe it is not enough.. I should od more. I am sorry that I don't. I do not want to hurt you. Nor do i want you to get hurt in this. I care about you sooo very much. And You have no idea how you affect me. It is alright now that you did not email me last night. THat one email made up for it and more. I can not tell you how happy that made me. I am sorry to hear about your computer. Have you downloaded anything to your computer lately? Including songs or videos? That could be it. Or perhaps you bough a new prog for your comp and another program does not agree with it. A long time ago when I 1st got my computer everything was going fine then I downloaded this chat thing calle dpowe wow and it did not agree w/ anything on my computer and would fuck everything on here up. LIke my browser di dnot work at all along with other things like icq and yahoo... etc.. Hat is another possibility. I am looking forward to seeing you too. I have to take a shwoer toniht and make a little bit of improvement in my room b4 I do anytyhing however. It shuold'nt be too late. My dad wants me to stop by the police barracks asap. B/c I STILL have not recieved those papers yet in the mail and my liecene plate expires next month! I had cramps so bad tody at wo.. I was almost in tears. But my daddy picked me up some midol at he store and that help soo much.. you have no idea. I think hat girls w/ that time of month should be sent to an island like tha kinda in jurrasic park for a week.. put in a caged area and all. haha we go psycho and weird. I is crazy shit. I am sorry for getting so upset last night. I just.. I dunno THta is something that makes me Feel REALLY awkward if someone can hear me other than you or know about it. well notreally know that we do.. but if they knew details tahn I would feel soo weird. I am not really the kinda kiss and tell person. An X best friend of mine bugged the room that I was in one time w/ baby moniters and her along with two other peopl elistened in and I got soo pist and freaked out and I got soo upset. It is personal. You know? That is just how I feel. ( I am reading yor email as I am writing this .. well readyin it again so I can respond to what you have written) I can not wait till I see you ither. Your sister is funny. I hafta hang out w/ her sometime again. She cracks me up. Plus she is hella easy to talk to. Who was that other girl that was there last night? Wes's g/f rachael is well.. umm.. different than I expected her to be. But she's nice t ome so that's cool. The exhaust looks so funny and ghetto no his car.. like .. I dunon .. I do not like his car it looks so old and weird. .but to each their own I suppose. What else is he doing to it.? Gina lowered the proce of her car fr om 2 thousand to 500 b/c it is a piece of shit so she is gonna just sell it as a parts car. It needs a new engine and burns oil hella bad. Black shit comes out the exhaust constantly. Opps I spelled her name wrong. I meant Jeana er some weird shit spelling like that. well.. tonight.. I wanna take a shower, clean my room a lil well tidy it some then.. umm... well out of the ideas that you chose.. hte movies sound cool, so do video games, and work on the comp So I guess I'd say... this sounds cool 1. Movies 2.or Video games 3.or work on our computers 4.or pool If we go to the movies do you wanna ask chris/missy if they wanna go with us> we have'nt done that in a long time. If you don't really feel like having anyone else around., than I understand an dthat's still fine by me. well I am gonna go so I can get done early and if you decide to go to the movies we are not hella late and miss it. Ok baby? I love you bunchez upon bunchez. Talk to you later sweetheart. LOve Forever Always, Tink

I did'nt get to finish filling oout the lil comment things after each thing b/c It was after 4 and I was doing it while I was waiting up for you but a round 4 sumthin I decided to get to bed. so... I'll finish it in a fe wmonutes. I love you soo much. The other email that you wrote to me was pretty long . It was te bestest email that you have ever written to me. Thank you. I love you sooo much. The old Michael is back. The one that I love and adore and miss every second of each day. THank you babe I missed that. I miss you so much. I can not wait to see you later on. Chris/Missy stopped in t the store today to see what was up for tonight and if U wanted to chill out w/ them. I was like I dunno. I'll call 'em later and tell them that Ihave plans to chill out w/ you. I love you babe. You are the greatest!! Love, Tinkerbell

>From: xxpunkadellicxx > >To: roedaddy2000@hotmail.com > >Subject: I knew would would'nt *TRY* > >Date: Thu, 30 May 2002 00:38:58 -0700 (PDT) > >MIME-Version: 1.0 > >Received: from [216.136.131.185] by hotmail.com > (3.2) with ESMTP id > >MHotMailBEBF221300584004318BD88883B9812A0; Thu, 30 > May 2002 00:38:59 -0700 > >Received: from [204.186.117.229] by > web11203.mail.yahoo.com via HTTP; Thu, > >30 May 2002 00:38:58 PDT > >From xxpunkadellicxx@yahoo.com Thu, 30 May 2002 > 00:39:48 -0700 > >Message-ID: > <20020530073858.39256.qmail@web11203.mail.yahoo.com> > > > >Thanx for trying. I even called you and woke up up > >over an hour after you said that you would get on > to > >talk to me and write to me. You apoligized yet did > it > >agian.. yup yup.... Thanx.. well I am not going to > >wait up for you ever again. this is what i WAS > >writing to you! > >101 ways to put a lil romance in your life > >(baby I found this on the net.. we did alot of 'em) > >*READ THIS!!* PLEASE > > > > Remember to say "I love you" and "I need you" > often. > >We say I love you > >hella often.. but we do not tell each other the > need > >thing. > >Well Michael... I need you in my life. > > > >Walk hand in hand in the rain. *we walk han and > hand > >but in the rain, > >I am usually the one staying out in it and you run > >away to get out of > >the rain. hehe* > > > >Write a love poem. * I've written you tons* > > > >Call a radio station and dedicate a favorite song. > * I > >was thinking about doing tha the other > >night* > > > >Write "I Love You" in lipstick or shaving cream on > the > >mirror. *Thought about it but you would > >flip out* > > > >Hide love notes in a lunch box, briefcase or purse. > * > >I have done that > >in your room, and food b4, and car, all over the > >place* =) > > > >Make heart-shaped cinnamon toast for breakfast. > *haha > >I have made you > >breakfast b4* > > > >Place a love note in the personals section of the > >newspaper. *do the ads at yahoo count?* > > > >Take a carriage ride around the city. *maybe > someday > >but right now I do not have the money* > >(It is like over 50 dollars for just a few blocks > in > >Manhattan!) > > > >Plan a surprise getaway. * that would be cute.. but > we > >planned Florida and that LONG road trip > >that we went on. BUT IT WAS STILL EXCELLENT!* > > > >Do your mate's household chores. * You want me to > >split wood? help me rake hehe j/k* > > > >Write notes on future dates in their date book ("I > >love you," I miss you," etc.) *If you had one than > I > >would* > > > >Make reservations at a favorite restaurant. *THat > >would be cute too.. (cough cough.. fresnos is nice > or > >don pablos.. anywhere that has hella spicy stuff > !!!) > >yours is that place with the hot wings.. windsor > inn i > >think =) > > > >Let them choose the movie. *YOU ALWAYS DO hehe* > > > >Give a foot massage. (my feet tickle and so do > yours* > > > >Make a heart-shaped bookmark, and place it in their > >book. *I made you a heart shaped thing that I > >painted does that count*? > > > >Pop in a romantic music CD and slow dance. ( Itried > >but you just laughed) > > > >Throw a just-because surprise party for two. > *picnic > >at the lake count?* > > > >Buy a stuffed animal for your honey. (we hav edone > >that lotz) > > > >Read each other's horoscopes. (Lotz) > > > >Make a list of the top 10 things you love about > your > >partner. (I have odne that a few times and it is in > >your room hanging up.. > >one of 'em) > > > >Display it in a prominent place. (your room) > > > >Tattoo your mate's name on your body. (I won't till > if > >I am wit the person for hellla hella long.. > >I fi ever do that) > > > >Make an album or scrapbook of your favorite > memories > >together. (I have odne that a few times) > > > >Go camping together and only take one sleeping bag. > * > >we were gonna camp one night* > > > >Send a mushy message in a bottle...a balloon...a > >sandwich... * A cloud count*? > > > >Cut out a silly cartoon that you know they'd enjoy. > >(Good idea.. drawing one count? I have done that) > > > >Shower together. *haha done that) > > > >Dim the lights, and snuggle together on the couch. > >*yay! I love that... but it ALWAYS leads > >to something else* > > > >Be the first to say "I'm sorry" and kiss and make > up. > >( I love you baby) > > > >Give each other a full-body massage. *done that a > few > >times hhehe to each other* > > > >Kiss every hour on the hour all day long. (That is > a > >wonderfully cute idea) > > > >Send a gift basket of indulgent items. (cool idea) > > > >Write "I'm hot for you" in the steam on the > bathroom > >mirror. (cool idea) > > > >Ribbon wrap your bed with a big bow. (that is cute) > > > >Fill up the gas tank of your partner's car. ( done > >that for me tons of times. thanx babe) > > > >Act like teenagers. Maybe even pierce something! > (duhh > >tons! we ar teenagers) > > > >Show up with a bouquet of flowers -- for no reason > at > >all. *that is cute) > > > >Play Scrabbleģ together, using as many "love" words > as > >you can. (cute idea) > > > >Run a warm bubble bath for your partner, with lots > of > === message truncated ===

Thanx for trying. I even called you and woke up up over an hour after you said that you would get on to talk to me and write to me. You apoligized yet did it agian.. yup yup.... Thanx.. well I am not going to wait up for you ever again. this is what i WAS writing to you! 101 ways to put a lil romance in your life (baby I found this on the net.. we did alot of 'em) *READ THIS!!* PLEASE Remember to say "I love you" and "I need you" often. We say I love you hella often.. but we do not tell each other the need thing. Well Michael... I need you in my life. Walk hand in hand in the rain. *we walk han and hand but in the rain, I am usually the one staying out in it and you run away to get out of the rain. hehe* Write a love poem. * I've written you tons* Call a radio station and dedicate a favorite song. * I was thinking about doing tha the other night* Write "I Love You" in lipstick or shaving cream on the mirror. *Thought about it but you would flip out* Hide love notes in a lunch box, briefcase or purse. * I have done that in your room, and food b4, and car, all over the place* =) Make heart-shaped cinnamon toast for breakfast. *haha I have made you breakfast b4* Place a love note in the personals section of the newspaper. *do the ads at yahoo count?* Take a carriage ride around the city. *maybe someday but right now I do not have the money* (It is like over 50 dollars for just a few blocks in Manhattan!) Plan a surprise getaway. * that would be cute.. but we planned Florida and that LONG road trip that we went on. BUT IT WAS STILL EXCELLENT!* Do your mate's household chores. * You want me to split wood? help me rake hehe j/k* Write notes on future dates in their date book ("I love you," I miss you," etc.) *If you had one than I would* Make reservations at a favorite restaurant. *THat would be cute too.. (cough cough.. fresnos is nice or don pablos.. anywhere that has hella spicy stuff !!!) yours is that place with the hot wings.. windsor inn i think =) Let them choose the movie. *YOU ALWAYS DO hehe* Give a foot massage. (my feet tickle and so do yours* Make a heart-shaped bookmark, and place it in their book. *I made you a heart shaped thing that I painted does that count*? Pop in a romantic music CD and slow dance. ( Itried but you just laughed) Throw a just-because surprise party for two. *picnic at the lake count?* Buy a stuffed animal for your honey. (we hav edone that lotz) Read each other's horoscopes. (Lotz) Make a list of the top 10 things you love about your partner. (I have odne that a few times and it is in your room hanging up.. one of 'em) Display it in a prominent place. (your room) Tattoo your mate's name on your body. (I won't till if I am wit the person for hellla hella long.. I fi ever do that) Make an album or scrapbook of your favorite memories together. (I have odne that a few times) Go camping together and only take one sleeping bag. * we were gonna camp one night* Send a mushy message in a bottle...a balloon...a sandwich... * A cloud count*? Cut out a silly cartoon that you know they'd enjoy. (Good idea.. drawing one count? I have done that) Shower together. *haha done that) Dim the lights, and snuggle together on the couch. *yay! I love that... but it ALWAYS leads to something else* Be the first to say "I'm sorry" and kiss and make up. ( I love you baby) Give each other a full-body massage. *done that a few times hhehe to each other* Kiss every hour on the hour all day long. (That is a wonderfully cute idea) Send a gift basket of indulgent items. (cool idea) Write "I'm hot for you" in the steam on the bathroom mirror. (cool idea) Ribbon wrap your bed with a big bow. (that is cute) Fill up the gas tank of your partner's car. ( done that for me tons of times. thanx babe) Act like teenagers. Maybe even pierce something! (duhh tons! we ar teenagers) Show up with a bouquet of flowers -- for no reason at all. *that is cute) Play Scrabbleģ together, using as many "love" words as you can. (cute idea) Run a warm bubble bath for your partner, with lots of lit candles. ( we do not have baths) Meet in the park for a picnic. (or at the lake?) Hold hands. (I love you) Leave a trail of rose petals through the house, leading to a romantic candlelight dinner. (that is cute) Make a donation in your mate's name to a special cause or charity. -- cute Pick up their clothes from the floor -- without saying a word about it. -- done it Watch an old black and white romantic movie and share a bowl of popcorn. --cute idea Reenact your first date. -- AWEOSME IDEA! Surprise your partner with tickets to a special event. -- gonna lol An unexpected hug can brighten any day. -- I love you babe Buy a silly, impromptu gift. -- done that i love you babe Send an email just to say "I'm thinking of you." -- tons by teh wya you said that you were gonna get om tonight to talk to me and write me an email and you have'nt* ok I just called you and you said that you fell asleep just now and that it why you had'nt. See? I dunno Just lil things like that bother me. Please "try". I love you babe. Bring home a balloon bouquet. (maybe i will make you one.. that its a cute idea) Serve breakfast in bed. ( you have done that for me b4) I love you babe... look! I calle dyou and you said that you would writ eme an e-mail.. and you would talk to me.. but guess not. NOt that Important to you or something . Well I am not going to finish this than. nor finish reading it. You can do it yourself. BYE

Make an ornament with a picture of both of you for the Christmas tree. Play tag. Wash and wax your partner's car, and leave a little note on the dashboard. Plant a garden together. Leave a mushy message on voicemail. Stay at a hotel for the night, just because. Make angels in the snow. Every time you say "hello" or "goodbye", seal it with a hug and a kiss. Take a drive in the country. Spend the evening looking at the stars -- and make a wish together. Cast a playful wink any time, anywhere. Think up a list of silly little pet names for times when you're alone together. Read poetry to each other. Celebrate your half-birthdays together. Put a picture of both of you in your wallet. Buy that favorite book or CD for no reason at all. Send a care package to work filled with treats like food, photos, candy, a love note, heart-shaped confetti, etc. Go out for the evening and tell people you're on your honeymoon. Take a hike together and carve your initials in a tree. Write a thank you note for all the things you take for granted. Make a fire in the fireplace and roast marshmallows. Tape your favorite TV show and spend the evening talking. Do the dishes together, then apply hand lotion to each other's hands. Write a love letter to your partner and cut it into jigsaw puzzle pieces. Decide on secret signals and use them to communicate with each other in large groups of people. Schedule a regular mid-week "date night" for just the two of you. Do the laundry together. Romance Theater Weekend: reenact each other's favorite love scene - hers on Friday, his on Saturday. Call your partner at work and ask for a date. Pretend you haven't seen each other for a month. Act accordingly. Send a written invitation to do something special. Take turns reading to each other. Stand outside the window and sing a romantic song. Hide favorite candy in your partner's coat pockets. Put a tape recording of your voice (saying anything) in the car stereo and turn it on so it plays when the car starts. Go to a drive-in movie. Get up to turn off the last light after you're both comfy-cozy in bed. Hold each other tight during a thunderstorm. Make a tape recording of favorite love songs. Leave a bunch of bananas on the kitchen table with a note, "I go bananas over you!" Hide love notes in a magazine. Declare your undying love via a telegram. Make a romantic dinner together, and serve it on your finest china. Surprise your partner with a big kiss on the neck. Give unexpected compliments. Share an ice cream cone. Have a picnic on the living room floor. Draw a silly picture of the two of you. Frame it. Mystical7V: thanx for the email (so short tho =*() And you will forget about talking to me about it.. it is sometimes so much easier for me to write rather than talk Mystical7V: that is why i used to write to you instead of taklin g Mystical7V: b/c then I can get out what I have to say This Sux I am going to be soo tired in the morning. b/c tonight i want to try to clean my room up a lil which prolly wont happen b/c I am hella tired already but I wnat to clean it up so bad.. tom. night maybe.. i will not do anything at all just start moving my schtuff like my art things out to the poarch and all or if i do hang out . hang out with you fer a lil an dthan chris/missy fer a lil then come up and start wrking on my house and schtufff. I was talking to pam today at work and she said that it is different depending on the laws of your community (what we were talking about w/ the building of a house and all) so we will see. I am going to try to talk about it with my dad the next time that I meber. What is your schedule for work the next few weeks? It seems like you hardly work anymore. Do you not work and tell me that you do like with what you tol dyour dad about the Olive Garden? lol How can I hate you so much at time and be reayd to end everything then the next want to spend my rocking chair years with you? lol I love you baby. Write back soon. I mis syou and I love you so very much ~*Val*~

Hye mike, I am sorry that I have been weird lately. I dunno what it is to be honest. Just edgy and all kinda stuf fyou know what i mean? I guess that it is alot of factors. ANd I am wrong for taking them out on your sometimes. You need your breathin gspace sometimes. just like me. I have'nt been home lately,, and you know that I feel bad about that.. not being home at all actually. jkust home to take a shower ad change and that is about it. every night after work I go to your house and we go and do sumthin then back to your house etc.. you know? Tonight I just i dunno.. I wanted to hang out with you b/c tomorrow night you can not stay out late and are gonna be chillin out w/ ryan so.. I wanted to just chill out with you tonight.. SO that is why when kat called I said that I dunno. I figured that you would tell them the same thing but you wer ejust like ok.. and that just i dunno kinda bothered me a lil b/c it was like ither chill by myself or hang out w/ everyone. Ya know what I mean? I dunno. So I guess tom. night I am just gonna chill out with some of my friends fer a lil while just me and them. I have'nt done that in a while ither. DO not tak ethis the wrong way. Please babe. I love hanging out with you. I love you with everything that I am. But sometimes I just need time laone time to relax and forget baout the stress and things. And other times I wanna just chill out w/ my friends and of corase the times that I get to be with you. I like your friends.. they are always nice to me.. I just feel weird aroiund them b/c they are your friends not mine you know? so I get all qwuiet unless my friends are there too like the night with kat.. b/c then i can be me again you nkow what I mean? Like last night I was all quiet and I just felt really weird. Around my friends I do not care if I look er sounds dumb er anything like that. but around your's If I am myself they'll be like you are weird .. or annoying or sumthin you know? where as my friends won't b/c they all know me and that that is me. You know what i mean? SO I just sat there. I did'nt play the game cuz I suck at it.. evne tho I like playing games and schtuff. i dunno. And I was surprised that they were there b/c I was looking forwarded to watching that movie with you. Haha I have been for about two week snow. Tat is why we rented it. So then you were like they are only gonna stay fer a lil while and then we can watch the movie but they wer ether efor a while then we were both too tired to watch the movie and we both hadda wake up hella early so just went to sleep. Y a kow? So I kinda figure dthat it would be cool to watch the movie tonight but you already said ok to kat an dthem so I wa slike ok nm. Ya know? I did'nt want you to break plans that you made and look like a bad guy er anyything so I was like ok i will just chill out alone tonight then and do my own thing at home i guess. I dunno.. just... If you make plans dpn't break 'em that is all. And be honest with people. whenever peopel hang out you are like i dunno even if you know that you alreay have plans ya know? You don't break plans with other people please do not break them with me. I dunno how to say what i mean with out sounding like abitch b/c that is not what i want to be or sound like. Btut i guess that my communication skils are'nt exactly the greatest and need a lil more practice. If we make plns just tell people maybe some other time i have plans tonight er sumthin.... no one will hat eyou or get mad at you. If they do then fuck 'em. they should understand that you prevciously made plans you know? It is like me saying ok i will go t the movies with you then calling and saying hery wanna go to twin rocks with me and everyone else? I dunno. You won't understand. This sounds all wrong. it is sounding like I do not want you to hang out with your friends but that is not how i intended it to sound at all. I guess that i dunno what I am tryin to say. Even tho your friends are nice I would just rather hang out with my friends or at least both of them. Hey! Maybe i'd feel better if you got your friends and i got my friends and we all hung out together.. maybe i'd be ok after that b/c i would be bale to be me for once around them and not feel as awkward after that. You think? Wanna try it er not really ? I dunno your friends dun really have anything in common with my friends tho. Your party and mie well play air hockey and pool and bowl. lol Well I will write to you again sometime soon. I guess. I am sorry if this sounds and come out completely wrong babe. Hopefully it did'nt but you know that it always does. So if you get mad or anything then you know that it was misinterpreted b/c i wrote it wrong heh. I love you. I just wrote this to you to try an dhelp you understand me more and why I act the way that I do sometimes. That was you don't think thta I am just out of wachk or acting like abith.but rather you'll understand why I do and act and say teh things that i do. OK well I am gonna go now. I love you. buh byez. ~*Val*~ O yeah.. btw thank you for sticking up for me tonight when I told you about what heppened. That meant alot to me and I really appreciated it. I was/am proud to have you as my boyfriend and i know that you really do care alot about me and show it. Thankx cottonball. You mean the world to me and are so special. DOn't even let anyone ever tell you differently. You are difinitely... one of a kind.. =) Love for... a long long time, =) ~*Valerie*~

that was adorable Love, ~*Val*~

Mike I love you alot too babe.. miss you. c you soon. =) thank you

I just wrote you a hella long email now I have to do it all over agian b/c the comp fucKED up. New pass is vallovesmike exactly like that ok? well here i go to start all over again there are proly gonna be hella typos b/c o my finger but ah well I hop that you understand. Love always and Forever Val

ok baby.. here we go again.. argg it was soo long where do i begin now this sucks argg.. ok so anywayz. .. I told you about the new password. Listen tooday was absolutely perfetc in eah and everyway. And thank you. I just got so confused about what to do. THank you for giving me the time that I need to think things through. it really did men alot o me. more tha you know. I understand where you were coming from and I also understand where I was coming from. I do not know who was right or wrong during that situation parked in the car. Perhaps we were both right. I think.. I mean I can see where if the tables were turned abound and you wer ein my predicament at th etime then I would feel hurt also. I mean it would hurt thinking that you were unsure as with what todo. I love you with all of my herat please baby remember that. The flower meant so much t ome. it felt soo perfect that single instacne I wanted to remain paused in time with you forever. it was so perfect b/c I once again felt a sthough you were doing something out of your heart and out of love. I am not saying tha the other thing sthat you do are not out of love er anything I just had felt lately that the only reaon that you would do sweet things (lately) was in order to get something back. it was getting insane. For the both of us. It was beginning to like like a competition and we each each others competitor. Like I did this.. this.. and thiss for you do this.. this.. and this.. for me. yaknow? rather than doin gsomething b/c we love eacb other it was like I did this so that is unfair if I do not get something in return.. ya know.. of equal or more than greater value. We should so things and say things to eac hother without expecting something in return . Do it for the sake of doing it. Say it for the sake of saying it. That did not coming out right but I hope that you know what I mean. this is just liek an example.. not saying that this has ever occured just giving you an example of what i mean.. you do not want to give me a massage but rather than doing it b/c you know hat it will make me happy you do it b/c you think that I will do something in return hat will mak eyou happy that I do not want to do just b/c you did something for me. I do not want things to b ethat way. i want things to be like.. we'll i iwll give a back massge even if I do not want to just becasue I know that you will enjoy it and that alone in itself will make me happy. Understand. please do not think that I am solely directing this towards you. That was only an example of what i mean. In the future I am no going to think of myself at all.. well except when it comes down to my own beliefs and values. But your smile is the only thing that i need. I do not want nor will expect anything back from you except a smile or a kiss. that is all. No more I did this.. or you did'nt do that.. that is wrong.. both of us included. know what i mean now? I hope so. Granted it is wonderful to be happy and to make yourself hhappy but happiness is even greater when it can be shared. Happiness is even more splendid when you make someone ele happy and gain happiness from then rather than ones own gratification. See what I mean? prolly not... but I hope so.. Like the flower was perfect. I can ot accentuate that any more than I already have. It meant so much to me. i wanted really to simply pause time with you at that exact moment. Even if I did'nt show it. I wanted to bust into tears of joy and happiness at that specific moment. Also I was wron gabout complaining thta you did not sit with me when we went fishing. I had the wrong expectations in my head. You can not read my mind. And I got upset b/c of tyhat. I was'n thinking about how wonderful it was to even go fishing I was simply being greedy and selfish thinking well.. he di dnot even sit with me.. he did not even fish with me when he came back from his house. I am sorry. THat was wrong. B/c I di dnot thank you earlier I am thanking you now. thank you for taking me fishing. I was fatastic. I am sorr ythat I was all hissy when you trie dto be nice and help me with the fishing line and schtuiff an dcomplined. You were trying to be sweet and helpful and I did not see that at the time. I was letting my ego get the best of me. I do apoligize fgo that. Going fishing with you was really great mike. thank you. we finslally got to go hehe and it was jst.. wonderful. THank you . An dthan kyou for bring back chips and a drnk. you thought of me. THat was really sweet too. Thank you babe. It makes me sad when I think about the missed opportunities i passup to say thank you and to remind you abbout how much you mean to me and how important the simplest things are to me than sometimes get overlooked. Like when you put your arms around me in the car. I want tyou to know.. b/c I often neglect to tell you.. thta means hella bunchez to me. I feel all jittery and warm inside and it makes my tunny get butterflies and I love it so much. It is like a term of endearment. THank you. lil thing slike that i guess have passed me by. Please do not think thta just b/c I do not comment on things all the time that they go unnoticed. Like when you make funny faces to cheer m eup. On the outside it may not look lik eit is helpin gmuch but on th einside I am cracking up an dlove you that much more. THank you. An dthank you for that night that we pulled over next to the bar and it began to rain. THat was the well that wa son eof tyhe most important memopries that I hav ein my mind. That night was when I felt the most loved than ever before . .things like that .. that may seem to simpleto you.. affect me more than you reaize. THat night is when I felt th emost safe.. the most loved. the most cared and bout and comforted. I think that was the most perfect memory that i have in th eentire time of our relationship . I mean purple cabbage and manhattan was wonderful too but nothing could ever compare to that night. before thta I thought hat I was in love with you. But after that night I was completely convinced. I was convinced that i was .. that i had completely fallen in love with you and wanted to be with you for as long s you will have me. When I break up with you on and off again and when I say that I do not want to be with you.. a part of me think that to be the truth at the time but yet another part of m eknow sdifferently. The rason i do that is b/c I get soo upset... 1. Not understanding how we could hurt each other so much if we love each other so mch2.. I do not want to make you unhappy and when I feel that I am I feel terrible,, and it brings soi much pain. SO when I say that I do not want to be with you it is usuall b/c i do not want to be with you b/c I am bring you unhappiness i feel and stuff like that.. I do not know how to explain it but I hope that I have well enought that you understand. Ok where was i? (turned on aim) to see if you wree there. Whoa! the grammar in that sentence is hella scewed up. ah well. And soo.. As i continue.. I forgot what I have written already and what I have'nt so I will prolly repeat myself alot in this letter to you. I dunno if your email has a cut off limit and plus i had better send this b4 the comp fucks up again I will continue in another email listen when I said today that the past 5 months were a wate of mt time I was wrong. They were far from a waste of time. I have learned so much in these past few months. I have learned from you and about yself also. Thank you for that. For without you I would have never learned as much as I have. Thank you for sharing everything thing that you have with me thus far and I hope to continue to learn and share new experiences with you each and every day that we are together. Another reason for me making the decision that I had today is something taht you said in the past that reminded err I remembered I me excuse me.. You said one time that we wre argueing.. what are you going to do when you get married?? youcan not divore the person over something stupid each and every time. An dyou wer ecompletely right. Remember back when we were youger? People would hav eone dumb argument and break up and that woul dbe the end of it. well we ar emore mature now. Not tosay that we still are'nt immature. but we have progressed. it is a natural process for human existance. So is change. We have changed our aspects of the world and our ways of thinking. As we grow older I realise this and so much more. You wer eright.. but not only in the aspect of marrage to someone. But in relationships. You can not break up ith someone constantly. i do not mean you directly but rather indirectly aas a general statement. ok? Things happen. Shi\t hits the fan. You live you learan and you progress. That is part of the problem that we have been having laltely. rather than making mistakes which everyon eis entitled to do.. we have'nt been correting them. ya know? like you EXAMPLE:You know that some of the things that you say hurts me and afterwards you apoligize but then repeat them over again andthe same cycle continues. Why llet it. Understand that a mistake was made and correct it . I am not singleing you out. simply giving an example. Ya know what i mean? Seriously. people make mistakes. it is human nature. And it is not a mistake if we learn form it and chose not to purposely repeat it y aknoqw? whence it is repeated it continues to be a mistake and so on and so forth. Let me know things.. not in a manner of unruleyness but in a peaceful and repectable manner and i will strive to correct it and learn from it. You know that a majority of my friends ar eguys. I used to stay over their houses all th etime. And nothing ahppened. We ae friends like brohers and sister. Yaknow/ but you told me that it made you feel uncomfortable. So even tho I do not agree.. in a way I am trying to see where you are cmoing from and rather than be like hey mike nothing is going to happen and say that you do not trust me i will respect that it makes you feel uneasy and not do so. reguardless. I do ont wat to make you feel uncomfortable. And o I am looking at it from two points of view and I have decided not to stay over any guys friends houses without you being there. reguardless on what I feel. You know what I mean? I am sorry also for in the past fucking up our schooling. Idid not make it to clas somedays and neither did you. I held you back and that is my fault. Ther eis nothing that I can notw do to change that but I feel terrible about it. I hope that you can forgive me for that. Like today. You needed to get to class and I held you back from that b/c of my meeting. You could have made it to class if we left directly from penn dot ot marywood. i do not know why we did'nt. The thought di dnot even cross my mind. That was fucked up. It should havebeen a first priority. like ok I got my shit done here time for mike to go to schhol and get oto class. U know. Being in a relationship is about having someone there for you and being there for them. it is about having somene t confide in somene o talk to someone to take confort in and vice versa. We have been neglecting that lately too. We have been thinking about out own happiness instead of each others. (except today.. today was perfect thank you) I think I said all of this part already hehe. opps my bad.. err I mean sorry. err I hate when people usedto say opps my bad. babe. you are my boyfriend and my best friend. I need you and I hope thta you feel the same way as everything that I have been saying. it is just that I figured thta if I wrote everything the way that I ma now.. even if it comes out wrong,, which I hope that it does'nt you will semu understand and I will get alotta things offa my chest that have been bugging me. i do not want to feel that there are things that I can not talk to you abpout. I want t be able to talk t oyou about anyything . Anything. Without fear of being critizized or judged or anything like that. Just understood or someone to listen even if not to answe or respond. Just someone to talk to . I don't really have that any more. ya know? you are all that I have left. All that I have to talk to. I have my dad.. but there are limitations o what I can and can not talk to him about. I do not want to have that with you. brb hafta change my bandage with my dad. I will continue this another time Love always and forever, Valerie

I love you baby with all of my heart and can not wait until i see you in the morning when we go to school. Tonight was perfect. Tjank ou for helping me wit hthe bandage. the claw hehe. Don't forget to feed speck and timmy tomorrow. We can stop at the pet store on the way home. You are coming with my to the doctors this week right? those places are scary. =) I love you babe. O yea umm what day do you wanna go with me to get fishing licences? Across the street from john's sells 'em. I can not wait until I quit john's. hehe. I hafta hook Kim up with Yakum. Haha just remember what kim said about angela lmao. Anywayz. Please do what you om and dad said to. I do not want you to get into trouble. Although you know that you are always welcome here if you get kicked out hehe. =) When are you staying over. Tomorrow night? I would have asked you to tonight but you had alotta schtuff to do . Get your paper done babe. And start the paper for Modern Belief. I still hafta start mine. I MAY BE ON THE DEANS LIST! WOHOOOOOO!!!!! That is awesome! Well i hope that steven gets offa the copm soon so i can talk to you . If you still had your Similar to every night this summer. Except umm.. wait nm nope it will be hella similar. I missyou and want you. Come over! Spend the night babe. UGH! steven is stilll on the net. What is he doing ? ? I should be like please get off i have to talk to mike so he can coem oever and we can have sex in the rain on the wet grass now. =) Rainy days are nice. Nice for snuggleing haha i sound like a Maxwell house ommercial. Well I am going t ogo now. I think I may stop back at your house for umm a cup of coffee .lol plus my hand hurt\s really bad and i forgot to get the IBIPROPHEN from your dad tonight. Well I love you prince charming. You are the sweetest thing. Some people wait their entire lives searching for someone tha they can love with all of their heart and never find them. At only 19 I have found you. From the moment that we met again. I knew that here was something . In a way I wish that I got to kow you better in study hall that year. But then we would not be where we are now. Either that or we would be that much closer. It was so weird when we remet again . Finish each others sentences. We are exactly alike. It is freaky sometimes. Execpt when I wanna listen to the comedy channel on Xm hehe. Rupert says hello. He misses you too darling. Are we gonna wor at that place this summer? It should be fun. We hafta take another road trip soon. Wit hmy car hehe. I love you my best friend. my love. lover, soul mate, deepest emotion, my happiness, my pain, my tears, my smiles my fun my everything. Love always and forver ~*Val*~

> Hey this is gonna be a semi quick email.. I hafta take a shower and get ready to go to work. Tonight do you just wanna meet me after work at my house or at twin rox? we can splt sumthin w/ a candle for out anniversary and you can help me w/ my schtuff for school. I just hafta finish this 5 page thing.. we can work on it and the essay for english so All i have o do is type it out which is hella fast/easy and then i hafta do two drawings for english which to is hella easy. It will give us a chance to celebrate, work on my school stuff, see each other, get some sleep, and visit the rock b/c we havn't in so long. well gimmie a call at work or stop in. I love you babe. please do not forget that. And do not ever get upset. You know that after this week everything is oing to be alright. Wednesday is our last day of school. then vacation where i am gonna try to see you as much as possible and things will be getting back to normal until finals week that is hehe. Then we can study together and all. What are you going to do about that class? Are you going to still try to drop it ir.. get an F? just curious. Well i love you lotz and miss you too . Can not wiat until I see you. Take care babe and be careful bunny poops. Love always and forever, Val P.S.- thank you for understanding my situations A poem that I found... sounds like me.. hehe Attention Deficit Disorder To Douglas from mum I am a kid with ADD It's not something you can catch Sometimes we donít understand the way I act Some days are good some days are bad My concentration is up and down My temper is hard to hold I sometimes act on impulse Not thinking of the ending Some things I remember Other things I donít Leaving familiar surroundings Can become very scary Making me wary to try new things Now I'm on some tablets Which seems like such a drag I know they are there to help me I take them every day Sometimes I may act different Looking like dag My life is never easy I take each day as it comes As each day comes along and passes by I know its another step forward And the wiser I become Haze If the answer is YES for your entire life (either since early childhood or puberty, and ever since), place a check next to symptoms that may fit you. Is everything at home and work (or school) in unfinished piles? YES Do you have a long-standing history of not being able to stay on task? YES Are you easily distractible? YES Do you seem to alternate between not staying focused and being so focused that a bomb could go off without you noticing it? (Attention Deficit Disorder)YES! ALL OF THEM ARE ME! Do you have a history of feeling really great and then getting yourself in trouble because of feeling so great (and being somewhat out of control and feeling invincible)? (Bipolar Disorder) NOPE THAT IS NOT ME Are you moody? YES Are you angry all the time, with spells of rage? YES/NO Are you empty and bored even doing something you enjoy? YES Do you get paranoid under stress? YES (Borderline Personality Disorder - BPD)UHOHH

> > > They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to > > > > appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to > > > > forget them. Nope, I am never ever staying over ever again. j/k. I like staying over. It is great and hella fun and I love you alot. I just hate staying over when your dad is there in the morning b/c it is such a pain in th ebutt and I am always paranoid and schtuff ya know? I hate hiding. And running and hiding in th ecar and stuff like that. Ya know what I mean? You wrote alot blaaaah poopie head. I am sorry about what happened today. I should have ran outside and told you i am sorry. I fucked up again tho. I was supposed to pick up my schedule this afternoon. And did i? nope. That sux hellla bad. I am already getting pink slipped into one of my classes. I REALLY hope that I can get into my other classes. I am sorry that your car is messing up. I love you sweetie. Even when you are mean. Ok well.. maybe not when you are mean.. kidding. When you love someone you love them unconditionally. write me another vemail hehe. I really like toget letters or emails from you. sorry about all the typos. I am writing inda fast. Which is usual. well I gotta go. I love you schnookums. *sings* you are my sugar plum honey bunch plumbly lumbly umpkin. you're my sweetie pie. Your my cup-e-cake gum drop snicklemesnickem pure. The apple of my eye. ok buh byes poopsie terd fart sniffer. Can we still go fishing sometime? if you do not want to just tell me. I do not want you to do anything that you do not want to do . O yea the next warn day that we have.. do not make plans. We are doing something . okiez?

Love always and forever, Valerie

I love you and I miss you. Sorry, I am just depressed b/c I was so looking forward to hanging out w/ you and ither you staying over here or me staying over there. You said that you wanted to spend more time together. And we have not hung out in a while. I said that it was ok.. but honestly.. i felt poopy. Like I do not care if you hang out w/ your friends and stuff and that's cool,people need to han gout with their friends and stuff.(I miss that hehehe)I just felt hurt b/c I thought that we had plans.. and I just felt like I got dropped. it's Saturday night . yea I hafta do my paper but that is why we were gonna hang out today and tonightand I was gonna do my papers tomorrow (Origionally) But i dunno. I guess that I am writing this to you b/c I just felt hurt and that bothered me. I am sorry. And then I thought that maybe we could hang out after you got back from the windsor inn but you said that you were at someone else's house so I was like I guessthere goes that idea and when i mentioned stoping by your house you said that it was too late and schtuff and you would not get home till late. but last night you wanted me to stop by and that was after 2am so i figured that you just wanted to tell me in a nice way that you did'nt want me too. And I thought that if I went to denny's with some friends of mine from Marywood and Penn State that you would be like "yea that's cool. I am in Scranton so I'll drop by" but... I dunno.. i am dumb i guess. So I dunno, just depressed and hurt. i am sorry for telling you this but it was what was on my mind and I wanted to tell you. (we hafta still be able to communicate to each other ya know? ) well I love you, buh byez. ~*Val*~

sugar, I just woke up a lil while ago. i am so sorry. My dad just told methat you called also. I tried to call you back but the line was on the internet bc the answering machine did not pick up and you did not pick up your cell phone so I am assuming that You are online. I love you alot. and I am sorry that I did not wake up early this morning. I miss you and i love you alot. Love always ~*Val*~

waaa. Baby.. you said that you were gonna be on the comp so that I could talk to you but you are not. waaaa. and waaa snif sniff waaa you said that we were gonna go to the movies tomorrow and to the flea market but I said that I hadda work.. waa but i do not have to work until 4/ =*( Love Val

Lemme know leave a message on aim when you are leaving... if u get this message. if ya bro is on and awake ask him toleave a message for me.. thankyou i love you

 

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