Well I went out tonight hoping I'd see Devin cause yeah I really wanted to... eventually after awhile of walking around and such we seen him & Joe. So Joe said they were gonna get a beer... anyways lets just say for most of the night Devin would be like.. Im gonna get get Joe I'll be right back and then not come back or he was talking wif some girls I I said come dance with me and he said he will in abit and never did... yeah I wasnt very happy cause I liked him and all but then I think... why do I like him? he lives far away from me, he has a SUPER busy life... plus hes a bad kisser lol I dont care about that but still I wonder why I am so stupid. I felt sick all night then when this started I felt even worse cause my nerves were all crazy. Vanessa tried to talk to them both cause Joe likes her and such so I dunno...Devin mentioned something about his life being busy which is true but I dunno... maybe thats the last time I will/talk to him :( ugh I suck. I always pick the wrong ones. WHY oh WHY do I have such bad luck? man he is sooo hot too and perfect :( at least I kissed him I guess .. meh... Im just not very happy right now. Dwayne was there trying to help..awww and I seen Eric too... :D!! some guy there I think liked me but he came to me when I was pissed off and felt like ugh so I didnt wanna really talk to him. He just stood beside me for like 10 mins smiling and staring at me... it was odd. He wanted to help me out but I wasnt happy and didnt really feel like talking much I guess... Ahhhhhhhhhh I think I make myself go crazy...seriouslly I do. I think I should give up and I know I should but I dunno..im stubborn I guess... oh well thats it for now I dont feel like really typing anymore cause Im sad. bibi
Tim Deluxe - Just Wont Do