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THE LIFESTYLE OF A FEMME VOX? - by Fonda
Hey, this is not a showband article so better end reading this and go back shaking your booty in the club! Bwahahahahah! I just want to say I’m so proud for my fellow metalchicks out there! Whether you sing in a gothmetal band, grindcore band, or death metal band as long as it is metal, I SALUTE YOU! Not all girls can do what we do. But there are ups and downs of being a femme vox.
I am going to discuss this out of what I’d been through. I grew up in a family were my dad is a freaking religious apostle. Seriously, he has this high position in our church. I’m way jealous with those girls who have parents that’s into music and doesn’t mind their daughter playing in a band. I’m so unfortunate, bare with me, I know most girls have my kind of situation. They forced me to sing in a choir, to the point that I became the head of the damn choir! Trust me, I was a lousy leader. But today I’m thankful for it, because of the whole choir thing, I was able to control my voice whether fal seto or the growling ( be it using my head, throat or diaphragm ). But I’m not saying I’m that good! Trust me, I’m not. I was Sadako when I was a kid, i suck so bad in mingling with my same age. I guess that’s one of the reasons that my hate for people is what makes me like rock & metal music when I was young. I have been pushed around, laugh at, called with various name labels, etc. it was a tough childhood.
Even when I was a kid, seriously, I was into heavy music. I’m so glad I have neighbors who are a hippie and an oldschool music listener. But I was way thankful to this lady who came into my life who is a goth. I told myself her music was my kind of music, since I came from a choir and a mixture of heaviness on orchestral music sounds good for me. I love the color of black, looks sexy. It was hard being “me” when my parents are around. So when I went to the Philippines to take my Degree there, I was fucking thrilled coz my parents would be staying in KSA. Four years going independent! Damn liberty! And so I met my bandmates in the university.
I’m not going to tell our band bio anymore, don’t worry! Within those years until now, I have observed the hardships that us femme vox goes through. In a band like mine were I’m the only female specimen, you DO get the attention a lot from the crowd (don’t deny it girls, don’t you just love the attention?!). But behind those attentions, we’ve been struggling with our life. Like me, until now being in a band is still a big issue for my dad (mom tries to comprehend). I argued with them like a zillion times, it even came to the point that they embarrassed me infront of my bandmates. I maintained my grades in school in order for them to shut their blubbering about my band. That’s another story. We do get disapproving look from the society, like we’re a sassy bitch or like our parents haven’t disciplined us pretty well and so on. To those entire sexist, I’m raising both my middle finger to all of you!
And who ever said that girls in bands are flippant?! We take singing in a band seriously. In an all-girl rock band, I bow my head for you in finding same girls with your same kind of love for this kind of music. But in my case, working with guys is a fun thing also coz they may fool around most of the time, but when its time to get down and rock, they act like real men! And you will treat them as brothers with their hilarious opinions about us girls. But there’s a hard part about it. Since I’ve been with a various line-ups of bandmates, sometimes you wouldn’t know if they really want to play for your band or to play because of YOU. A whim they say. Yes, some do it because they have a thing for the vox. Whenever I find out that’s the reason, I absolutely remove him from our band ( unless he’s gorgeous, I can handle that!). There is always a positive and negative effect if there’s a spark between you and your bandmate. Let’s start with the negative. First, if you guys are a couple and you have this lover’s argument, one of you will not be in the mood to jam unless both of you are professional to set that aside. Secondly, the jealousness. You are guarded during your gigs and you wouldn’t have a chance to actually talk to some guys even if your purpose is to make friends only (vice versa). And then, once you guys break up, playing inside the same band wouldn’t be the same, a feeling of awkwardness. The positive effect? You guys have the same crazy love for the metalmusic! You work much harder because your are inspired, and you can brag to your friends that your hot guitarist is your boyfriend ( like in my case! Ha!ha!).
I get labeled all the time as a bitch. Better to be called a bitch than a whore, there’s a big difference. They say sex, drugs and alcohol is part of the whole band thing. I’ve been through all of that. Getting drunk and my body splattered across the floor, having 28 piercings, going up on your boarding house’ fences during late night gigs, blah, blah .But when you sleep with men, you are being called a fucking whore. Hey, do you think guys are the only one’s who can taste?! Girls can have a lot of fun also you know! And I hope I’m correct in generalizing this, but I believe metalhead girls write songs pretty good. I’m not saying this because I’m a girl, but our struggle for acceptance is harder compared to men.
So to end this, we are grateful for the respect that we get from the crowd, the support especially from our fellow metalchicks, and the warm embrace for letting us prove to all that girls can rock real hard as well!!!!!
HAIL TO ALL GIRLS WHO PLAYS IN A METALBAND!!!
COVERING SONGS OR MAKING YOUR OWN MUSIC? - by Fonda
COVERING SONGS OR MAKING YOUR OWN MUSIC?
I wrote this article spontaneously. I was writing a new song when my mind drifted away thinking of the band that I met along the way during my college years. They were so good doing covered songs by metallica, pantera, megadeth and so many more. But, for the past 2 years they’ve been playing, they never made their own composition before. Yeah, I supported them during their gigs since they are my friends, but they disbanded after 3 years of playing in a band. I did ask them why they never made an effort of writing a song. Their answer was that they don’t have time for that, and they are only good in covering songs. I don’t believe in those lame excuses…
I guess its ok to do cover songs but once in awhile only. But remember, your band should make your own identity as a band. It’s a great feeling if you are being compared to foreign bands, like if they tell you sound like dying fetus, megadeth, mayhem, etc. but do you actually have plans to be known as the ruler of cover-up band music?? Hehe.Wake-up! Be different! Be nonpareil! It wouldn’t sound nice if you do cover songs and you sound sour! A trying hard wanna-be if they tell you that. That would be embarrassing, that’s why I suggest that you should do compositions. Seeing a band do a cover song all the time can be really tiring no offense. Yeah, you guys are good but you will do better if you will come up with original compositions of yours. Because that song you will write comes from within, or base from your personal experience, opinions, or perception in things.
For bands that do compositions, I don’t like bands who sing without even putting much effort on the lyrics. Hey, whether you growl and people doesn’t understands it, who gives a shit right?? But the thing is, its better to sing a composition were it meant a lot to you! If people sees how you actually sing it with passion, they will actually ask you the contents of your song. You want to deliver a message, that’s the point of the composition. When I write songs, most of the time I’m pissed with the society, or way depressed because I cant find a drink, killing politicians, blah blah. I believe all of us can write songs, there’s no good excuse to that.
You don’t need a good lyrics with all those dictionary-found words in which you think is appealing. As long as the meaning of the song you wrote means a lot to you then that’s it. The system of a composer in a band is that, everyone can write a song, ask suggestions from his bandmates whether it sound okey or if they have a few suggestions to make it sound good. Me and my guitarist in the Phil. from my CDG band made a good teamwork. When I feel like writing lyrics, I write it down shows it to him, play it in my guitar and he will fix the whole thing. Or, he will show me some riffs and he will ask me to put some lyrics on it. And then we practice it. As long as all of you in a band understand each other very well, nothing to it.
To see the plaudits of the audience means a lot. It’s an unstable moment within a few minutes of playing that they can actually relate to your compositions. In a band, you don’t need to get the best guitarist, best drummer, best bassist and singer. I have learned that the most important thing is the bounding of all of you to create a good music. I sincerely suggest, ROCK THE UG SCENE WITH YOUR OWN COMPOSITIONS MY FRIEND!!!
MY POINT OF VIEW ON WHY YOUR BAND SHOULD STAY UNDERGROUND - by Fonda
First of all, once you play in a band, what is your real reason in playing for a band? For the fun? Trend? to be popular? to pull out hotchicks or cute guys? To be a rockstar? And, is there even a dress code for people like us??
Underground bands doesn’t want to achieve fame with the benefit of getting money out of playing music; but to achieve fame in a way not to earn money from it, but the respect of the metal listeners and musicians, and because passion is what drives them to play music. Who even have this obnoxious thought that mostly UG bands are rich that’s why they don’t need the money anymore?! Money is just a fucking paper with the greedy picture of our president on it. Being in a band is about releasing a feeling inside of a person, whether it is hate, anger, your fuck-up high on that moment or anything like that. When I was playing for Coup De Grace, feel I’m in my real world! its like going to a place where people like us are being embraced and accepted by the society. Don’t you just hate the idea that mainstream bands even though they suck, public still embraces them since they are the “in” or ternd band? People are seem to get hooked-up with these bands? They give you this fake smile and says “thanx for your support, do buy our album” which actually means “thanx for your money”. And I do wonder if they write all of their songs. And you call yourself as musicians??
Now, you can dream high for your band, but a record label from big music companies?! Those Capitalist?? Man, you will turn out to be their puppet I’m telling you this from experience. Before, I would not deny, that JB music sponsored us and other bands also to play for a mall tour. After playing in a battle of the band, they ask if we can play in SM Fairview. We were thinking of getting new instruments that’s all! Steal from them! But fuck, when we where there, they ask ME to wear a shirt printed on it was the sponsors of the event! I’m not into wearing big shirt during performance because I’m not comfortable. But fine, I wore it. Then they suggested that we sing a goddamn evanescence song! I was about to explode and ready to get out. But we respect the owner of the studio we used to practice; he was there, so we pushed through. When we were at the stage, we made an impetuous decision to sing a mellow composition of us ( few growling of course ) and a cover, they told us a kittie would be fine, not to noisy they say. Ha!Ha! in fairness, you should see the old granny banging their head infront. They even offered a record label after, but that was the last of it. Eat your goddamn money. No one can tell us to change our music base on which kind of music genre is selling lately. Fuck it! You know those bands that changed their music! What a disappointment! If you say that’s the only earning you can think off, well, there are many ways! Don’t prove to hypocrites we good for nothing!
About the whole outfit, there’s no dress code. You are not implemented to wear black all the time or band logos printed on it. But in my case, it’s just my love for black colors ever since I was a kid. But don’t be a nitwit to actually wear a goddamn jersey and bling bling shit! ha!ha! unless you dress up that way in a gig just for the fun of teasing hiphop crap. Whoops, if you are a numetal listener, better stop reading this article! heh3x. I don’t like the idea of the whole mixture of rap and rock music, the combination for me is terrible. Even HC music, not a fan, it’s like rapping in a fast phase and hard background only.
So, rather than listening to mainstream radio station, why not check out D.I.Y. demos from better bands?? Or even Indie radio stations? You can get a copy from UG distros or even during UG gigs, bands promote or sell their independent demo for a cheaper price or most of the time for free! Like Trendcrusher, Putanginamo zine, AEA zine, etc! Better band reviews coming mostly from UG bands across the world! These fanzines can promote your DIY demos worldwide, no kidding. Rather than going to ‘mainstream’ gigs with various rich sponsors with a fucking expensive entrance, why not a UG gig?? For free most of the time! 50 pesos is the minimum! Go get messy and you wouldn’t bother hitting each other while headbanging because you wouldn’t see a rich Paris Hilton bitch crossing that place! Oh, maybe groupies. Go get sloshed! And if you haven’t been to a UG gig, they DO get foreign UG bands to play.
In final, play in a band out of your love for metal music! FUCK money and FUCK capitalist, and wake up mainstream bands, those music labels are earning a lot from you!!!
HORNS UP!
GIVING GOTH A BAD NAME - by Fonda
I remember that after our band performance, an audacious man approached me. “ Goth ka di ba? ( U r Goth , right ?) so pwede ba makipag 1-night stand syo ngayon? ( So can I have a 1-night stand w/ you now? ) . I smiled… and kicked his balls. Fatuous lad, what a crass question.
Being a Gothchick who plays in a band doesn’t make me a whore or a slut. Media scrutinizes us too much. It’s not judicious. Plus, I get squeamish seeing pathetic bitches in the internet posing nudity and labeling the website as Goths. They dress like one, but it doesn’t make them as Goths. Why are you giving Goth a bad image?
The perception of Goths being witches, vampires, sadists, rebels, masochists, cults, suicidal, or satanic is totally balderdash. Not all Goths is into those stuffs. These are otiose in order to be a Goth. We are different individual as well where we can choose what to believe in. True that Goths embrace of what other people fear. Why always in black? It reflects our melancholy and despair. A line was even stated “ We are so sad it makes us happy”.
What a ludicrous thought if you see a band dressed-up in the so-called “gothic”, it makes some think they are gothic already. I respect them as an artist. Goth music is mysterious and desolate, some grotesque. It can be gothrock, neofolk, new-romantics, batcave, industrial, EBM, classic, ambient, or dark (Evanescence is not dark, ok?! ). And I have to say, I don’t like the idea that Lacuna Coil has turned mainstream, quite disappointing. Now lots of poseurs out there claim themselves as Goths, it’s becoming ubiquitous; I am so scared that it is becoming a trend in the Philippines and some other parts of the planet! We should and must remain underground. We shouldn’t care if we are de trop by our community, who cares about what they think!
I am not saying that I’m omniscient when it comes to this. It is my roots and I don’t want to be a taciturn when it comes to defending it. Just be the Goth that you are born to be… don’t act like one if you are not… GOTH BLESS.....
*YOU ARE HIRED; BASE ON YOUR CLOTHES* - by Fonda
Discrimination, discrimination, discrimination!!!! Don’t you want to shout that out in front of all those bastards who looks at you with disgust on their faces?! Sadly, we don’t have the power in doing so, because we need THE JOB.
Yes, people like us, you know what I mean. Don’t bother applying in a prestigious companies if you can’t dress-up nicely in their eyes. Fuck, they should be putting in their job requirement “WE DON’T NEED YOUR TALENT, BUT THE PROPER FASHION STATEMENT”. They will tell us that the only jobs we are fit to do is selling drugs, designing low-cost shirts, be a small-time bar tender, work in tattoos and piercing shops, places where they think we are only good at it as they say. You are bloody lucky if you have a family business to handle, or a “backer” in a certain company so no problem getting a job. Not to brag, but if you will see my educational attainment you will think it was easy for me to get a job there in the Philippines. Of course, mostly call centers doesn’t mind how you look as long as you are conversant in English and their accent. But for crying out loud, it’s not the money for me, it’s about developing my talent and capabilities in a job that I know I am fit to work as well. In other cases you see, before you can even step inside the office, they will tell you that there is no vacancy if you will go there all dress in gothic look with black lipstick on! Or if you are wearing a torn-out jeans and dirty shoes. Your curriculum vitae or resume is worth nothing w/o the “proper” outfit for them to judge you.
Seriously, what’s with the question in their fill-up data that will ask you if you have tattoos?! Does it make me a criminal? Do we become less qualified because of that? Even if you will past the company exam or whatever you call it, they will scrutinize you on your interview. Nitwit questions like “ WHY DO YOU LOOK THAT WAY? WHAT’S WITH THE TATTOOS? DO YOU INTEND TO WEAR THAT OUTFIT IN THIS OFFICE? DO YOU BELIEVE IN GOD? DO YOU TAKE DRUGS?” and it goes on and on which is not the fucking basis on why they should accept you or not (besides the drug question of course ). I myself was force to wear a fucking blouse, high-heels, skirt and remove all of my piercing in order not to please them, but to get the job position. Those companies suck so bad, really. Because if you will work in the company for more than a year, then they wouldn’t even notice what you are wearing! What’s up with that?!
There are 2 ways to win the battle in this kind of discrimination. First choice is to sacrifice for awhile; to blend in or to go with the flow. If you really want that job position so badly and they want you to look “decent” then let it be. Guys will cut their longhair, wear a polo or slacks (just for the short time being! ). Same with the girls, wear something “proper or formal” during working days. You won in this case, how? You got the job you always wanted and sooner or later you can wear your usual clothes. And DO NOT let them change your personality as well. You might be listening to boy bandz once you get hook-up with your lame officemates! Haha!
The other choice is hold on to your rights; wear what you really wear and prove to them that you are qualified for the job. Challenge them to give you even a week to show them what you got and not because of your outfit that they should think less of what you can do. It’s also hard to work if you are not comfortable in what you are wearing. I chose the 2nd choice. Right now I am working abroad in the Middle East, this is my side of the continent. They don’t mind my clothes, as long as I do my job then I get paid rightfully. But it was also a sacrifice for me to leave my band and friends for awhile, we all need to earn a living.
But one thing is for sure, your fashion statement makes a lot difference once you apply for a job! Goddamn the society!!!
* PAY TO PLAY – TOTAL CRAP * - by Fonda
If a fucking band manager or a production organizer came across this article, well then, I DON’T GIVE A FUCK. If this will boil your temper or will deny some of the things I will say, well then, I DON’T GIVE A FUCK still.
There are 2 ways of play to pay. The asshole bandz who thinks they are the fucking messiahs who ask for talent fees ( TALENT?! ). And then there is the production organizer that treats bandz as their sales employees were they let them sell fucking expensive tickets. Which one to hate? Band managers can be a slave or a master. Slave because they are the ones who talks to the production for the bandz payment, books the gigs, and all those shit. Master because they can tell the band what to do sometimes, what decision to make as-if the band can’t make their choices. I know a lot of band managers, some are a friend of mine, and some that I met are a bunch of jerks. Let’s stick with the topic anyways because I am not totally against those managers.
Bandz only becomes a pain in the ass for me when they ask a freaking a bloody big amount of payment, or let’s just say THE WHOLE PAYMENT SHIT. Come on guys, don’t tell me “ that’s the only thing we can do to earn a living” now that’s trying to project that our talent are limited only to music. Bandz must realize that the whole concept of being in a band is about the PASSION. Trying to let listeners know your opinions, experience in life and beliefs. And by doing so you need to get paid?? So much for your fucking passion! Oh, I don’t think we can call that a passion… that’s your GREEDY SATISFACTION. If you have a family of your own, go get a stable job because playing in a band doesn’t guarantee you a lifetime earning. You might contradict me by saying “when I get the enough money I will put up a business that’s why” . Wake up kapatid, the Philippine music industry cant help you with that! Don’t imagine that after a year you’ll have a mansion like those mainstream bandz in other countries. The fact must remain that playing in a band must not be stained with business of money, because if it is a pay to play, it only means you don’t know the whole concept and beauty of being a musician. You never thought of those audiences who would rather see you guys play for free because not all can afford the fucking entrance. Seeing those people banging for your music doesn’t satisfy you? Well I don’t know what will.
Now let’s talk about some of those bastard productions. My friend told me during one of their gigs that they were told to play only two songs because they were not able to sell the tickets! Doesn’t that make you want to kill those organizers?! How the hell can you sell 10 tickets that cost P100 each if you live somewhere far in cavite or at the end of laguna if the gig is to be held in manila?! ( if you are not from the Philippines, it’s like you are from a suburban place and going to have a gig I a city) You do have friends there but they can’t afford the tix (ticket). YOU CANT PLAY IF YOU CANT PAY is the rule of some productions. You cant play if you were not able to sell the tix or use your own money to pay for the so-called “quota”. Our band has been in this kind of situation. In order not to put down some of my friends that I brought in our gig who took their time to go there, I have no choice but to make a strategic move; flirt with that greedy organizer so that our long effort is not wasted. We got in ofcourse ( bwahaha ). Well fuck, I wont do that anymore! Then there was this another bullshit situation that I have been through also. I met an organizer who got a big basketball arena venue for free but still sold expensive tix that he also ask bandz to sell. Even the whole instruments being used are for free since it is own by his friend. He told me that they will use it for their budget next gig. And when he ask for my help to look for a venue in his next gig, he wants a cheaper place less than P1000. I ask him where is the big amount of money they got last gig since there were lots of audiences who went there, well, he cant answer me straight or lets just say he doesn’t want to answer me!
Fucking greedy bastards! I back-out helping him and he even tried to change the story making me look bad. You sickos, bandz like us are not your sales representatives! I do understand that you need to pay for the venue, I used to be an organizer as well. But I never look for a venue that is beyond what I can pay if I know that I might not get the expected audiences, or force bandz to sell expensive tix or not even let those bandz play if they don’t have a guest with them especially those bandz who came a long way. Organizers should promote bandz or let them be exposed, DON’T PUT YOUR GODDAMN MONEY PROBLEM TO THOSE BANDZ!
Pay to play doesn’t have a place in the Underground scene… because it’s a total CRAP!!!!!!!!
A PEEK INTO MY BEWITCHED LIFE: - by Fonda
This is a very personal story that I had shared with some of my friends, and I guess it doesn’t matter if I share it with you. If you find it unbelievable, well, there are plenty of people that can prove that these things really happen. I even mentioned some of their names ( I hope you wouldn’t mind if you are reading this). Anyways, I don’t fucking care if you believe it or not.
I always felt that I am a natural witch… haha! I guess some felt that way too. But I have proof to back it up. I don’t have much of an experience seeing ghost when I was a kid, except the time when the tv turned on. After we watched, we plugged out the entire socket and cleaned the living room before going to bed. It turned on after awhile. Me and my auntie heard it from my room, we went there and plugged it out again. Others are not-so scary encounters. My friends who have been to our house find it creepy. They should, an ex General died there, and found out he was dead after 2 days when the neighbors noticed that he never went out of the house. If I get scared with our own house, well that’s fucked-up isn’t it? Well, enough with the haunted house.
I will start with my story there in the Philippines during college years. People scrutinize me by the way I look, so what. If they wanted to have spirit of the glass in our boarding house, I am always present. They approach me saying that they need a psyche or a witch or whatever they want to call me. I don’t think it is a malediction or a gift, I accepted it, that I know. I don’t have telekinesis, not the typical that can fly objects, just destroy it sometimes. Seeing dead people, not my cup of tea, although on few occasions I had already. Read minds and feelings, yes I can. One time, when I was staying with my friend, he wanted to smoke while 2 of our friends are already resting. I said not in the room. He tried lighting his cigarette, the lighter seems empty he thinks. He took the lighter from our dead-sleeping friend, it didn’t work. He went to the other room to get a see-through lighter where you can see the gas inside… didn’t work. He looked at me and told me to stop it. Half grinning, I told him to smoke beside the gate outside and it will work. It did. I never wanted his place, I get strong vibes. I heard evil whispering voices one time and he pulled me out of the room. When we had this discord while the component is on, he made me ratty and then the player broke. Sorry about that. One time, he really wanted to test my so-called powers. He asked me to read his mind and tell him his deepest secret. I thought it will not be harmful. When I touch his forehead and hands while speaking of the sacred words, I started to see something. It was blurry, and I know he was “making out” with somebody in his room, which looked familiar. When I realized who it was, I pushed him away. I told him what I saw…he got scared. He was fucking somebody RELATED to him. I don’t want to tell you guys who, because you will be shock as well and he wouldn’t like the idea of me telling it. He explained, I try to analyze it, and accepted it. So it was OUR secret. ( Don’t worry, I didn’t mention your name).
One night we were drunk in our boarding house. I was wearing my crucifix (with the head of the Beast in the middle and so on). One of drunk-mates said if there is a ghost in the room. I used my crucifix. It pointed to the bed where 5 of them where sitting and they started to move to the other bed half screaming. The second try, it pointed again to the bed where they are sitting again and they really shouted full blast. I said lets take some rest since we are all the drunk and have class the next day. So after my class and went back to my b-house, one of Drunk-mates said Sheila went home in the morning to her province.. since her father died last night of a heart attack. I went silent. When she went back after a week, she approached me in my room and said “You know what, on the night we were drunk and looking for spirit, I guess it was my father” and I know it was.
I went to Olongapo with friends for a beach outing. My bf was from that place also that time. He introduced me to his family. At his place, I saw him touching my crucifix without my permission. I got furious; I said that he is not allowed to touch it. When we went back to Quezon city, I got busy at school. He started demanding to much time, and I got irritated and I broke-up with him. His name is Jay. His mother texted me and told me give Jay a chance and hope that I can visit them if I am not busy, I said I will try. The next week, walking on my way to class, a friend of Jay approached me and asked if I am not going to visit the funeral. I asked what funeral, and he replied “Jay’s mom”. I called him up. He said that that his mother got electrocuted while washing clothes when the wire went loose and touched the water on the ground. I asked my friend Shell to hide my crucifix and I will get it from her soon. When I was at her place along with our friends, she got really angry when I told all of them the story. She said “Fonda, you are a bitch, why did you let me keep that thing?? I don’t want anything to happen to my parents” and she made an overseas call to her parents that very instant just to check if they are ok. So all eyes on me. One of my warlock friends Marco who was there got disappointed. We buried it and say the spells.
I can go on with lots of story on how my ex broke up with me because I scared him off after I asked for rain, canceled his basketball game when I wanted him to stay long at my B-house, and the final was when I found him on the bar after Yami (his name) lied that he was going to his grandma. During that night I went out with my best friend and my bro’s gf. He broke up with me on our monthsary! Haha! Then there’s this time when I was chatting and the guy from Italy thinks I am fake and so he asked me what he was wearing and his status with his gf. I ask him to put a pix on his YM for me to observe. I’m telling you, it gave me a headache while trying to concentrate. Then, I told his situation with his gf, what he was wearing and then I said “Turn your music up” he fucking freaked out and never chat with me again.
I tried to stop reading minds and those stuffs after all those experiences. The very last time I used it is when my husband’s mobile is stolen from the house of my former friend. He wanted me to use my witchcraft to find out who did it and why. I told him I am no Sherlock or whatever but he insisted. So, I made my ritual at the place including all of those people who where there on the time it got lost, except for my husband who went to work. I have the dead petals, candles, drawn a pentagram, thread, pin and so on. Before I started, I made it clear to my so-called friends that who ever did it, I will make sure their life will be a living hell and that I will never be a part of their circle of friends because I felt betrayed. I had the deck of cards, and asked questions. Some were laughing, and some knows what I can do. After getting what I wanted to know, I went out. I cut my communication with them, and they even posted on their site that I was fucked-up. Later on, that motherfucker tried to steal the cp of one of them again, and confessed after being caught. Even though he never confessed to the mobile he stole from my husband, they have known better now. They lost their house, got really broke, split-up, his gf got another baby with another guy, and blah blah. Things are now ok, so they say their sorry and all. We forgave them, even the thief, and I told his gf things will be ok, that I promise. You guys know who you are, I will never mention your names out of respect.
Cult or Coven, I didn’t last long for me. Books of Spells? You don’t actually need to memorize or have the whole collection of it. Words can come naturally. I think I lost my capabilities. Whatever is the case, better think twice in making friends with me especially if you intend to fucked me up at the end. Witches, Wiccans, Warlocks, psyche, etc.. are just people as well. My life is bewitched, and so can yours…
INDEED, I AM BISEXUAL - by Fonda
I can’t help it, I get attracted to male and female species! And I don’t think I am a sinner because of it.. and so what if I’m a sinner!!!
I can still remember when I was 8 or 8 years old, 2nd Grader. I had 2 female crush and 2 male crush. Chixie was a chinita with her cute curly hair and perfect smile. I can’t remember the name of the other girl that I like, I freak-out just by talking to her. She was half Filipina and half Indian I guess. My 2 guy crush was Gary and Ferdie. Gary was the boy who defends me from bullies and Ferdie was the artistic boy that I like. He seems gay it doesn’t matter! Some might say that society and peers made us this way. Hell no! At a very tender age, I didn’t know the term Bisexual yet, but what I do know is that I like a girl also. Some get attracted to same sex because they felt less pretty than the girl they like, Well I don’t think that’s the whole basis of being Bi… For me LOVE CHOOSES NO ONE AND COMES IN DIFFERENT FORMS. What I’m trying to say is that, is that if you felt this feeling of liking or being inlove with your same sex, then love made you feel that, and nobody told you to feel that way, and same gender should not be a problem.
When I was a junior student, I had 3 girls fighting over me! How did that happen? Long story. But let’s say I am pretty sweet when I like a girl, and those girls wanted my attention only for themselves. They know I am Bi, no big deal. That time I cant find a decent guy. But I met my serious bf in my Senior year in college. It wasn’t hard for me to tell him that I am Bi, he kinda likes the idea actually. I had played in every basketball Intrams my whole High school year, so he knows I can be a bit boyish.
In my college years in the Philippines, I had been to a lot of good and bad relationships with guys! Fuck it, I was active with my Coup De Grace band that time it doesn’t matter to me. I started trying out for BSBA Dept Basketball team when I was in Junior at the University. Because of it, I found my first and real girlfriend! She’s Bi also who plays basketball in another Dept. and damn, she was hot!
Only a few close friends of ours knows about us as a couple. Yeah, we do kiss and more.. haha! None of your business.. not really. I won’t say any further details. Kissing doesn’t have much effect on me, but body contact does.. I can still remember this one occasion,when she attended her grand ball because she was a year ahead of me. She asked me to fetched her. When I went there and saw what she was wearing, it made me fucking drool! And then she left her date. Our relationship lasted a few months because she started to dress up like a guy. No offense, I don’t want a Butch, I want the same Bi R-ship.After we broke up, I had a boyfriend. Most of my past bf and even now, they don’t mind if I will have a crush or a gf, they even fid it sexy. I hate it though when they ask for an orgy. I don’t share my gf, or the other way around! Sometimes if I go to a mall and I see a pretty girl, I will tell my bf “look, hot chick on the loose!” but, if my bf looks at the girl in a different way, well, I ended up beating him..
Homo or Bi, or whoever you are.. Don’t let anyone treat you differently! Yeah, I am fucking human still! I don’t give a bloody shit what other people think! All I know I like both sex!
Fuck sexist! INDEED, I AM BISEXUAL!!
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