…And so I sat. Alone, wary of the world outside the monitor before me, my eyes went crossed as my mind took an alleged break from reality. My mind began to wander as if I had fallen asleep, yet I still maintained a general focus in the screen in front of my eyes. Meandering conversations with beings that may or may not have existed outside this steel box, pop up adds with a single symbol, and a sore back were all I had at this moment. Then a small voice came along. Her message subtle and spoken in riddles…but I understood all too clearly, I just refused to accept what she boasted, for the lack of mutuality in conversation limits the area of expandability. The lack of knowledge of coping with such an event on my part mislead the overanxious being into a valley of twists and turns, from which escape is near impossible.

    As it always seems to do, the seemingly innocent situation became a quick burden of uncontrollable and unforeseen consequences as yet another outside voice invaded the space around my existence, only this time it was an all invited guest. A guest to set the wrongs to unconditional rights, and to aid in my escape from the steel box that shackled me to the emotional crimes I had elongated and often times denied. She was nothing short of an angel sent to set the path to righteousness. However I may deny the existence of the divine, I cannot expel the shear power held within this savior, for to do so would be to deny the very fact that I exist where I do at this very moment.

    My savior would come into my life at unexpected moments, and tended to leave in much the same fashion. Although an interest in my salvation she seemed not to express, life itself seemed to pour from this angelic child with every word she uttered. I cannot express in words alone the feelings that tore up my insides that fateful moment when she called my name. Never before had such a light ascended to such a begotten being. But there she was, within an arm's distance, her eyes piercing my existence like red-hot pokers of bliss and pride. There was a sweetness in her voice that seemed to expel the evils that lie in every direction…there was nothing there but her… Suddenly every question of the virtuousness of humanity seemed all but forgotten…this being was sent to me to show me the meaning of life, I am truly certain of nothing more at this point than that very fact.

    So we traveled together for but a short time…she would close windows and open doors, unlocking the answers to any question I might express. Yet of course, as all things do, this time of insurmountable joy and discovery came to an abrupt end…and just before she left my side for that very last time she whispered into my ear but four words…four words that have sealed my fate ever since…four words that inverted my heart… “You are my angel.”