Ali's Poems
MY DISREGARDED HEART
We were two of a kind
My sweet angel and me
A pair like us was hard to find
Both in love, both sincere, both determined in this cruel world
With you, everyday of every year
One thing was always clear
Our hearts were full of love
Love I never thought would become a dream
Times have passed me by now
Far quicker than I knew
I was too slow to realize
That we had grown apart
My darling, feel the coldness
The heaven we once shared is falling
My prayers all seem to fail
My endless cries fade away unheard
You are no longer my angel
The pain of loss is unbearable
reality becomes disbelief
But, there is no turning back time
The same bliss I'll never have
My soul and heart are torn apart
Always hoping, never to find
All is lost, all is behind
These days I know no love
Only the darkness, till the bitter end
God has disregarded my heart
Until the grave I'm forever alone
EVERY NIGHT...
I see you...yes it's you!
I have found you finally
This is too good to be true
You are so real to me
Please stay, I know you will leave any instant
Every part of my body is exploding
I would give anything not to lose this moment
I can't help but stand there staring
Looking at you knowing this will not last
I can see your face slowly fading away
And the pain in my heart rising fast
Like a dagger twisting in my chest as you go astray
I'm better off dead than live with this pain
I stop breathing and I awaken
Only to find myself alone and filled with tears
Breathless, motionless, and full of fear
Knowing tomorrow night I will have the same fate
I want to scream and show this cruel world my hate
I need a cure, an escape, so I look above
And ask God what I have done wrong, why I fell in love?
SOULED OUT
The piercing torment of loss
Has turned my life into a seesaw of chaos
Without you the smallest challenge wears me out
To the point where I want to scream and shout
The thousands of tears I've cried in despair
Why don't you notice me, why don't you care?
You left me in this harsh world all alone
Oh my love, how quickly your heart turned to stone
How could you leave me in the cold
In hollowness, without anyone to hold
Before everything was so upbeat and sweet
Now I'm begging for mercy, ready to accept defeat
Because my life became empty the moment you walked away
So all I want is to walk through heaven's Gateway
Every second, I pray it's my last breath
I plead to you, bring me forth to my sweet death
I'm tired of suffering, I no longer want to cry
No more, it's time for me to say goodbye
WONDER
I follow the footsteps you left
Thinking how you must have felt
If you looked above, on the trees
If you saw how the sun slowly leaves
I wonder if the wind might have blown
If it played with your hair, like it plays with mine now
How your eyes would shine in this light
Like the moon in this lonely night
I stay out watching the sky...
While this dark moon reminds me of your eyes
Tomorrow I'll walk again on that street
Cause I know that's where you used to be
And I'll try to feel your heartbeat
Your scent and the sound of your feet
My beloved Dream
You are so far from me
I can cry, I can scream
But you'll never come back to me
LIVE TO DIE
I never thought I'd be like this
That I'll find bliss in a sinner's lips
I want to stay alive
So I can die into your eyes
I'm breathless of your touch
I'm burning up so much
My soul's on fire, full of desire
I'm fighting between death and life
I want to survive, I want to feel alive
...So I can die into your eyes
IN MY ARMS
Rest my love, close your eyes as you lay
You will never feel hurt again by those who betray
You have suffered so much cruelty in this world
In my arms is where your warm, never to feel the cold
You've tasted the pain, touches you to the bone
Sleep my love, with me you are never alone
In this world you've sensed the dilusion
Only in my arms you will find heaven
If it's the smell of purity you have craved
Then here in my arms you will be saved
Can't you see the brightest sunrise is coming?
Come closer, it's time to fall in my arms my darling
EXPLORATION
Only in life
Can you learn to live
Only in Hate
Can you learn to forgive
Only in sickness
Can you learn to heal
Only in friendship
Can you learn to feel
Only in loss
Can you learn to gain
Only in love
can you learn true pain
BEYOND REMORSE
What if the thing you wanted most in life
you know you can never have?
What if the thing that pleases you most in life
You no longer know how to get?
What if the thing that brings you the most happiness in life
You know you would never possess?
What if the moment you always dreamed of
You know you could never capture?
What if everything you envisioned in your future
You know you would never gain?
What if...
Everything you wanted
Everything that pleased you
Everything that brought you happiness
Everything you ever dreamed of
Everything you envisioned in your future
You had it
and you lost it?
THORN-FILLED GARDEN
My thoughts are seeds that I hope to grow
In this world where soldiers fight, yet the king is the hero
But who am I to judge
All the hate, bloodshed, unjustice, and carnage
Ripping through our lives, leaving us with hearts full of hurt
Hearts that turn hostile, as we all must grow through dirt
Walking barefoot in this thorn-filled garden
Virtues unseen, honesty stolen, morality hidden
No flowers to rejoice the beloved smell
Heaven an illusion, I want to wash my hands of this hell
Once in a blue moon a flower appears
But one finds many insects near
And hardly spring arrives with one flower
While lack of rain has the flower sucking the life from the ground deeper
No Freedom, just running and fighting to stay alive
No life, No happines, just waiting for the bitter end to arrive
Because everything must return to the garden for new growth to begin
khob bezar inja tozih bedam yezare dar bareye chie in sher. Titlesh ke yani Baghe khardar ke manzooram bishtar irane vali donia ham mishe goft ye joorai
khate aval yani ye tokhm mikham bekaram ba in harfam ke grow kone yani hame beshnavan. baz tokhm kashtan rapt be garden dare ;)
khate 2vom manzuram ine ke tuye keshvare ghalat, puldaraye ghalat va ghodratmandaye ghalat ham ziade. Unai ke vaghean zahmat mikeshan be hich ja nemiresan va ye seri adam ke hich kari nemikonan moft mikhoran va midozdan az jane mardom harfe avalo mizanan.
khate 3vom yani man ki hastam ke judge konam in mardomo va in keshvaro? aya in kare khoda nist?
khate 4om va 5om ke in hame unjustice, bloodshed, va carnage (ke carnage va bloodshed manish daava va khunrizi nist ke masalam chaghu bekeshan hame be ham, ba inke in karo ham mikonan, lol. manzuram ine ke hame doshmanan ba ham. masalam hame hasudan, maleto mikhoran, poshte saret harf mizanan, kotaket mizanan, va gheyre ke ziad hast...) va in ghalbaye adamaro dare kharab mikone va dardnak mikone.
khate 6om yani ghalbaye ma ham hostile (vahshi) mishe be morure zaman ke bozorg mishim through dirt (jamee)
khate 7om yani tuye in jamee bozorg shodan eyne in mimune ke dari ba paye lokht tooye in baghe khar dar rah miri. Hamash zarjo azab keshidane ke akharesh daghun mishe adam.
khate 8om yani virtues (khubi) nemibini, honesty ra azat steal mikonan, yani majburi honest nabashi ba bazia, va morality (dorost raftar kardan, ensan budan) ra hame majburan hide konan va neshun nadan.
khate 9om yani hich goli nist tuye in bagh ke adam lezat bebare az bush. Hala gol manzuram adame khubo dorost hessabi hast.
khate 11om va 12om yani har az gahi chetor beshe ye gol (adame dorost) peyda mishe. vali dor ta doresh pore insect hast. Insect manzuram jameye bad va ensanaye bad hast.
khate 13om yani hatta agar ye golam (ensane dorost) peyda beshe, hich vaght SPRING ba ye gol aghaz nemishe. Spring yani jamee khubi ke mituni lezat bebari azash. (baghe ghashangi)
khate 14om yani chun barun (mohebat) kam hast in gol (ensane khub) majbure ta unja ke mitune abe zamino bemike (yani adamaye jamee majburesh kardan ke unam mesle una beshe va bishtar asib beresoone be jamee)
khate 15om, 16om, va 17om yani ke hich zendegi nemikonan vaghean in irania. Faghat as sob ta shab jun mikanan ta ye nun ruye mizeshun bashe. Akharesham mimiran va miran tuye khak va hamin sarnevesht montazere bache badi hast.
Resurrected
Is this who I am, to be punished by my past?
All is the same, although time has passed
All the good that I had, benifted only others
Like a tree that does not consume it's own fruit
But offers it and ends up empty
However, I have awaken from my toxic dream
To rule my world how it craves to be
The path is clear, the sun is bright
Watch out cause the world is mine!
