Heart broken!
I hate therefore I exist.
Laying in the gutter.
Putrid water washed over the dragon in my soul.
Flames die in the water.
My life is going into nowhere.
Wishing.
Granting fucked up states of consciousness>
Floating in oblivioun.
Wating for nothing!
Draw my sword to fight your demons.
Waiting for my mind to expand.
Roam free.
Through the plains on which I exist.
My mind in meltdown produces pretty colours.
Psychedlic delusions of grandeur.
Seeped in through the cracks in my brain.
Reinforced drywall doesn't keep the insanity out.
Skipping through consensus reality on butterfly wings.
Lithium is my best friend.
Keeps me from getting in to trouble with the mice that run through my head.
What are friends for?
Grandios mountains of headstrong women.
March with the cats against wrong.
Bad kitty!
Tolerate my existence.
Hold my breath for the day I am happy.
Die blue.
Gosh!
Living through my heat stroke.
I need water.
GRRRRR!
Just an urge to knock you out.
Fist balled up in the interest of self preservation.
Walking through the door.
Flat on my ass.
I see stars.
Waiting for the day when I will see all that is Nothing.
Cold steel violently shoved through my ear.
I want to be cool.
In the days where nothing is as it seems.
Red letters spell out e-t-e-r-n-i-t-y.
Entity of my father.
Haunting memories of childhood.
Running through the grass on orange fingers.
God help me!
Murder and kill all that is right and good for a small fee.
Peanuts really!
Leaving off in the middle.
End comes to close to home
Must leave to see.
Brown stains on my eyelids.
I see life as shite.
Come close to hear my cxpulsions of...
Elipse.
Licking my lips to taste blood.
One of these days I will slip milk into your coffee and make you taste motherhood.
Genius laughing.
Concepts of humanity flitter through the hole in my ass.
Can't see without believing.
As tangible as forever.
My heart.
Dries out like raisans.
Fruit salad washes away the pain.
Years haunting my exile.
Into the distant morning.
City bus traveling to hell.
Wanting to turn back.
I see wings of infinity traveling on a fly.
Boarded up in this thought process.
Swinging from trees.
To expand my mind in nature.
I use my fatigue to see other realms.
I wash away dirt with sand.
It gets the soap out.
Nuclear explosions rock my world.
Amazing technicolour sunsets.
I lay my head down to cry.
In the airport.
Flying away to oblivion.
See clouds from the top.
Fluffy white orgasms.
Burst forth from the tip of the universe.
Listening to the wish of beurocratic nonsense.
Fishing for conversation from a shallow well of strangers.
Listening to the dreams of a hundred love sick chihuahuas.
Standing alone at the brink of a fishes sight.
Changed my day to see the smoke signals of a rotting native.
I see illusions of humanity.
Marvin the Martian is destroying my world.
Nightly.
In dreams of extasy.
Deliver me unto my hell.
Oh wait.
I am there.
Morning sickness at night.
Restless dreams of consciousness.
Locked in a box.
I am dead.
July 14, 2000
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