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//name: kris kagaoan
//age: 18 //dob: december 31, 1984 //location: la jolla, ca //school: ucsd - marshall! //occupation: college student and professional bum //email: krispexcereal@yahoo.com //aim sn: awok2remembr //message: how many licks does it take to get to the center of a [brown] tootsie pop? |
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Wednesday, December 31, 2003 | |
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GO GO GO SHORTY ITS MY BIRTHDAY. WE'RE GONNA PARTY LIKE ITS MY BIRTHDAY! cause damn foo, it is thanks julio and kat for greeting me already on the fone..you guys rock thanks kat and margie for planning that shindig today, twas nice of you guys to do it that way. thanks to jp, lorenz, ed, keith, margie, kat, rose, wayne, aica, jenn, bel, rebbie, chon, therese and julio for showin up today @ kats. even more thanks to LORENZ for that awesome birthday present. seriously means a lot that you did that for me. it REALLY surprised me -=) kuh - risk // 12:16 AM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Tuesday, December 30, 2003 | |
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THANKS KRISTINA FOR THE DUNKS! muahahahahaha.. im a happy boy THANKS KEITH FOR ALIAS! woohoooo! it's only the start, but starting with jennifer gardner {sp?} and dunks can make turning 19 not so bad kuh - risk // 5:41 PM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Thursday, December 25, 2003 | |
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MERRY KRISMAS.. MERRY KRISMAS.. and HAPPY HOLIDAYS! kuh - risk // 12:01 AM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Tuesday, December 16, 2003 | |
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it's sweet to be home again. i'm loving this. im seeing so many of my homies and what not that its just awsome. cant be anymore happier. i've visited the mall three times in the last two days and i havent bought a thing. actually, thats a lie. dianne hooked it up with wetzel today and that was pure awesome. but yeah, today i spent the day with andrew and paul and someone else at the mall. spending time with them made me realize how much fun i useta have with them. the constant stupid things outta andrew's mouth today like the shirt that said muff diving @ quake: only andrew would find something like that. all in all it's just the best. @ the mall today, i found so many things i wanted, yet im waiting for buddy andrew to get em for me. or to see which of them he will get for me. from the dunks @ footaction that are only 50 bucks to the abercrombie jeans to the american eagle jeans, it was funny how anything andrew said to me today, i turned it around and made it about him getting me those items. andrew's a homie... anyways, im off to watch more METEOR GARDEN. im addicted to this damn chinese soap opera. THANK GOD FOR SUBTITLES... give me a call if you wanna chill people... kuh - risk // 12:10 AM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Wednesday, December 10, 2003 | |
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EYE CANDY: UCSD FALL 2003 PICS i'm almost done with my first fall quarter @ UCSD and it's been a rollercoaster i've enjoyed. the last 3 weeks have been awesome. even better, i'm almost done with my krismukkah shopping! i did most of it today, and theres like ONE PERSON i have to get a gift for still. finals have been an experience. it's like AP tests all over again, yet these come 12 times a year in most cases. as we were walking back from the bookstore tonight, mahta, erin, chris, and i were just talking about spending money. and after voicing my disgust about spending $200 dollars in the bookstore, i connected buying all these things with needing to do my laundry. it sucks when you're friends laugh at you. i couldn't figure out why they were laughing, yet they informed that my spending habits do not have to do with me doing my laundry AND they knew i wouldn't do something absurd like do my laundry 3 days before go home. i've only done the laundry once down here and i plan not to do it again for a LONG time. it's sad, my roomies and friends here know me better than i know myelf. oh yeah to KARIZSA and KARINA: i love you guys, HAPPY 19TH birthday yesterday. you know i absolutely cherish our friendships and would go crazy if i didn't have people as dope as you are in my life. REBBIE: happy 20th birthday today! you hit the TRIPLE D STATUS! DEUCE DOUBLE DIGITS. that's P.I.M.P status right there! kuh - risk // 9:01 PM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Saturday, December 06, 2003 | |
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earcandy: OLIVIA OLSEN - ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU. so i finally watched love actually, fell asleep but woke up and it was goood. i gotta stop watching movies when im about to sleep, cause i cant really appreciate a movie. like last night i watched matrix revolutions as i was falling asleep and i didn't finish it till when i woke up this morning. the whole movie effect just doesn't happen that way. anyway, finals coming up. i got one on monday, tuesday, and friday. and then i'm leaving back for home friday. im not scared about any of them except for english. i hate having open ended essay questions. since we've covered so much material in the last 10 weeks, i don't know what to expect really.. time for calc peeps.. kuh - risk // 5:02 PM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Wednesday, December 03, 2003 | |
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this is bs... so i die rich, yet young... i bet that animal attack is from a bear by the name of PAUL KARAIAKOUBIAN... kuh - risk // 10:48 PM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Monday, December 01, 2003 | |
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EYE CANDY UPDATE: CLICK TO SEE THANKSGIVING 2003 after watching the last episode of the OC [episode 12 about lukes dad] i started to think about the last couple of days, thanksgiving break in general. i've come to the realization that ive regressed in life a bit. people have come out of high school attempting to "fit in" to a certain group. some have succeeded while others have failed in their attempts to do so. fitting in wasn't a concern of mine in high school. i had my friends and i was content with that. from the guys at school from monday to friday, to the sdym crew on at least wednesday nights for sure, to everyone else on the weekend nights from the imac girls to the sdym people to the old school saint dominics grade school barkada. but despite all of this, i never really associated myself with just one group and one group alone. i was a floater. in each group, i found my knack as i'd like to believe and saw that i didn't need to really fit in. people accepted me for me, not because i was a charity case they wanted to adopt, or so i believe. people accepted me because i was someone they saw something they liked or wanted to share something or wanted to learn something. thanksgiving made me realize how great high school was for me... TUESDAY: margie and i left early to go back to LA, despite classes and what not on wednesday, we just wanted to be back. the funny part is that margie and i didn't have our normal car ride conversations that are always awesome. we just sang songs to ourselves, to each other, to whoever wanted to listen. we sang the same songs over and over, and i could honestly say that it was one of the best car rides home i've so far witnessed. not because i opened up my whole life to margie and she returned the favor, not because margie gave me the best advice ever or i listened to her plead her case about things, it was the bomb cause we were able to be ourselves genuinely without a front or a mask. in the past few weeks, i've gotten closer to margie more than ever in the last ten years. she has been there to listen to me bitch and moan about the stupidest things, about my insecurities, about how bad i've felt lately, she's always been there to make sure i'm doing fine, and i miss that about high school: being surrounded by so many people that care. of course i know my friends all around care about me, but having margie here is different. it seems as if all the people ive grown close to in high school has transformed into one person at the moment. don't get me wrong, for the people like gail and monica who i still keep in contact with, you guys are awesome. even though we talk everyday almost and it seems like we haven't missed a step, it's different when the person is someone you see almost on a daily basis. i use to be hesitant to tell margie things, but now she has proven to be my wall that i need to lean against when i don't know which direction i should take in the path of life. i don't think anyone has to prove themselves to other people. it's plain stupid. the only person you have something to prove to is yourself. as long as you can sleep at night with a clear conscious and know that you're being true to yourself, it doesn't matter what others think. i use to think that poeple had to prove to me that they were trustworthy enough for me to confide in them. with margie, it was different. she didn't have to do a thing. over time i noticed that she was that kind of person that i could be frankly honest with. you can't go off of other people's incidents with people to formulate you're own opinion about someone. i know it's easier said than done, but im seriously trying to change things and live by that philosophy. i've gotten to the point that i don't care what others think, or so i believe. all i care about is what i believe. it's not me being egocentric or all about myself, it's more about me looking out for myself, or my best interests. margie has called me on it that sometimes im too involved with other people that i forget about the person that is nearest to me: myself. WEDNESDAY: i travelled to loyola early in the morning after spending about almost 2 hours in line at porto's to buy some breakfast for some teachers that have missed my porto boxes filled with cheese rolls. as soon as i got back to loyola, it felt like i never left. noticing how the school has changed in just a few months, i was able to navigate my way to an old friend's class room. as i walked into Burr Hall, Ms. Perez was talking to her sophomores as i glanced in. she somewhat stopped class for me to acknowledge i was there and it was the nicest thing how she introduced me to her class. after giving her class some busy work, we sat at the back of her class room just catching up on our busy lives since that graduation day in june. despite the frequent emails, it was nice to see her face to face. there is only so much that can be translated through email, instant messaging, text messages and whatever else there is in the world that takes away from face to face conversations and confrontations. being able to see her mouth tell me things was soothing to my ears. walking the hallways was a most memorable occasion. seeing teachers poke their heads out of their classrooms to say hi to me, embracing me with greetings of the college life, and accepting me back into the community like i never left was just an undescribable feeling. the most exhilarating moment of the day came when i was hanging out in my normal spot during class, also known as campus ministry, when a good friend of mine, matt le blanc, walked up in there with his air force uniform on. the coincidence that both of us would visit loyola at the same day is slim to none being that he now resides in colorado. seeing matt for the first time since graduation was just awesome. it reminded me of all the guys i got to know throughout high school. it's one thing to meet people, but it's another thing to grow close to some. it made me realize how much i am at fault for not continuing some of those friendships past graduation. there is so much a person can put into a friendship, the fifty fifty approach, yet if i don't put in my fifty percent, how can i expect someone else to return the favor? i've been stubborn of late to initiate that fifty percent, i admit, yet there are some cases that i feel even if i did, i would not be met halfway. talking to monica about that sunday night during the early hours of the morning as both of us tried to write our papers we talked about how crappy some people have made us feel. trying to be friends with people has backfired and has made us feel like crap cause we're left with the undaunting feeling that maybe we're working for something that is a lost cause. past posts on this blog of mine has talked about the dynamics of friendships. as margie put it, i've attemped to be friends with people that probably don't really care about the friendship and i've overlooked other friendships or attempts at people being friends with me cause it was not what i was looking for. thanksgiving has made me realize, she's more right than i'd like to admit. wednesday night at randy's reminded me how much i've overlooked people that have tried to be my friends. past the fun and games we had playing texas hold em with the guys and taboo with everyone, it made me FOCUS on how lucky i am to be surrounded by some of the greatest people. from randy, gail, tanya, herbie, monica and bobby to name some of them, they have been nothing but supporting to me. they've been there for as long as they could have been and still remain there for the times i need to call upon them. i miss the sdym family feeling. as monica reminded me in her thanksgiving email, FAMILY means that i must FORGET ABOUT ME because I LOVE YOU. the sdym people are a part of my extended family. THURSDAY: turkey day served as a way for me to realize that i'm a lucky guy to have such a supporting family. a family that believe in my capabilities who all see my potential to become whatever i want to be, it being a doctor or an engineer or whatever my heart desires. the constant asking of how school is going and the affirmation that they believe i can do whatever i set my goals to shows that i've not been forgotten. at times when i think that my family forgets about me since i'm no longer constantly there, i've noticed that they are just making due with what life has given them. they have enjoyed the time they spent with me each time i visit home, but everyone goes on with their life as do i. i need to realize that life goes on when we're dealt a lemon instead of an orange. we may not get what we want, yet we must make due with what we're dealt. it's like texas holdem, either you play the hand or you fold. it's time to be like sam farha and play almost every hand like you have the best hand, even if it deserves a little bluff here and there. i hold the cards in my own pocket. no one can see them the way i do except for myself. FRIDAY through SATURDAY: growing sick as most of your friends are away at a theme park having a fun time as i spend more time with my family made me realize how much i do love my family. i may not get along with all of them as well as perfect families on television, but then again, no one is perfect. why strive towards perfection when its unattainable. again, make due with what you have, and get as close as to that level of perfection as you can. being sick sucks, especially when you're far from home. no one to tend to your princely needs as being home with your mom making you soup, or your best friend stopping by just to make sure you're as comfortable as comfortable can be with tonsilitis. i miss that feeling, yet i haven't been open to the chance of something happening here in san diego close to what i have grown accustomed to back at home. i've viewed san diego as a stepping ground for higher endeavours yet maybe this is the right place for me, yet my expectations of this place has been dismal. my time in san diego has not been a waste. im doing fine in school, ive met a few people here and there, yet i like to believe that this place has been nothing but a hell hole for me. i've made that hell hole with my mind, distorting the reality around me that i'm doing well here. people thought i'd flourish in san diego cause it was the right setting for my personality, yet my personality has changed a bit. i'm not the same guy in high school that would go out of his way to meet new people to hang out with, talk to, or just meet in general. i've become a victim to my own circle of patheticness. SUNDAY: everything culmintated well with a quick thirty minute visit on hill drive in front of a house i've grown close to. it was sweet just sitting and catching up with karina and karizsa. it's been ages since we've all sat down and just talked, yet it seemed to pick up where we left off. me and karizsa laughing, and karina talking about whatever comes to mind. for REAL friends, no time is lost no matter what the calendar shows between last visits or conversations. i've been pretty insecure about who are my friends lately and who i've lost in the process, yet i haven't lost anyone. i know that when i do see jason or chris, things will pick up where i left off. with new friendships, whatever happens, happens. the course i take in this journey is one that i will not regret. i've been trying to fit into this college scene yet maybe i should stop trying and see where it takes me. i should apply the same mentality as we told that awesome kairos 47 group: forget what you heard about kairos and experience it for yourself. i should just forget what i expected from college and just live each day as a new day with different things and opportunities to offer me. even though i may not feel like flying anymore, i'm not gonna give up my wings in a sense. here goes it all. different mentality, different game, different outcomes... kuh - risk // 2:04 AM // GUESTBOOK // |
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 Morpheus ?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ?? brought to you by Quizilla kuh - risk // 1:01 AM // GUESTBOOK // |
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updated: 12.01.03
//webcam pics //carly's bday //old school st dominic pictures //random pics //random pics 2 //karizsa and karina's debut //loyola winter formal 2002 //sdym krismas party //imac winter formal 2002 //kris' 18th birthday party //bel's 18th birthday party //carly's debut //krissy's debut //loyola high school prom 03 //loyola grad nite 03 //thanksgiving 03 //UCSD FALL 03 |
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