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//name: kris kagaoan
//age: 18 //dob: december 31, 1984 //location: la jolla, ca //school: ucsd - marshall! //occupation: college student and professional bum //email: krispexcereal@yahoo.com //aim sn: awok2remembr //message: how many licks does it take to get to the center of a [brown] tootsie pop? |
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Friday, November 28, 2003 | |
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it feels awesome to be home once again. things have settled down here better than i expected and im so loving this extended trip at home. what sucks is that im sick... - head ache - fever - tonsilitis (sP?) - waking up to bloody noses almost every morning - aching back what else could i guy ask for?! 2 days left, and im gonna try to make the most of it before finals week comes around. i'll fill you people in on this awesome week when i get back to my lonely dorm @ ucsd. but until then, FAWK SAN DIEGO! im such a city guy [dante bascoc's character from what some people at marshall have noticed, due to the fact i room with a black guy and a white guy and im the filipino...what tv addicts.. oh wait, i am one too] peace people... kuh - risk // 11:36 PM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Sunday, November 23, 2003 | |
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ohkae, let's get something STRAIGHT, i AM NOT GAY. i like FEMALES, which would make me STRAIGHT. so to those who have been wondering or thinking or believing or spreading rumors otherwise, get it into your non-fickle minds. im pretty tired of this sh!et. kuh - risk // 3:15 PM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Friday, November 21, 2003 | |
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FRIDAY NIGHT, absolutely not doing anything, so in my frustration of being trapped in my apartment, i started looking at my yearbook and just wanted to put a smile on my face. i've kept in touch with a few of my high school friends from loyola aka lorenz, ed, and a few others. but reading some of the things in my yearbook made me just smile so i thought id share it with you.. the loyola guys that read this will smile if not laugh at some of the stupidest things in here [transcribed word for word as written in my yearbook].... "Kris con K, yo wutup kid. it's been mad cool ebing friends with ya. You made my kairos hella fun. it's no doubt you're gonna do your thing and make that cash flow, cuz you know i will (legally or illegally; you know how black peeps do it). But check it, enjoy yourself in wahtever, or whoever, you get into. Peac kid, stay up! One. That half Ni**A named B.J. aka B Sweets aka Byron -_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_- Kristopher, if you have 1 apple, and i have 2 apples, together we would have three apples. =) Been great knowing you and i see endless potential in that little head of yours. I'm sure the society of Jesus is very fortunate to have such a fine person. You'll make a great Jesuit. You're the greatest. Peace out playa. Clarence Funtanilla -_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_- Kris, 4 years have gone by. We had good memories. We had the West Co - Eagle Rock connection. They couldn't touch us. You and me had the best style of all these fools. I'll seriously miss you. You were one of my best buddies over here. Call me up anytime. Nogales 4 Life Chuck -_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_- loyola was just awesome. i miss the island boys and the pusoy dos playing and the MUCHO MACHO BURRITO. the one thing i lack down here in sd is having that sense of brotherhood. some of the guys were just full on dope. from Jason, Jon, Clarence, Prado, Chuck to Joel, Ian, Joey, Raymond to Andrew, Paul, and Coconut [Michael], to Pat, Theo and Ivan to JP, Edgard, Lorenz, Sully, Paul Lee, Jeff, Lok Ming, Brian the island made its presence known. the new task at hand is to make that same connection here @ SD.... now thats gonna be difficult.. kuh - risk // 9:53 PM // GUESTBOOK // |
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i've made a new friend... MUSIQ. he's gotten me through long nights of not doing homework and just been there for me through the restless nights of tossing and turning in bed trying to fall asleep. im just waiting for his new cd to drop, cause for sure that will be off the hook. speaking of friend, i talked to my snapple elements partner today, oh how i've missed her. she makes me smile. 'nuff said. all i ask is to be able to get through this weekend. i need to write this paper and i can go home for thanksgiving a happy camper. my first quarter in college is almost at its end. i have a lot of mixed feelings about it. but maybe last night settled some uncertainty. will i stick around to see my sophomore year at ucsd occur, not sure yet, but i just have to make the best of this year. in other news, i'm just waiting for mark to make me a new template. the THEME is just awesome. i was sitting in my living room and one of my apartment-mates played this song that i haven't heard in like forever and a year. it brought back some good ole memories of a week in may of 2002. and the lyrics could not be more perfect for my changed attitude now a days.. with KRISmas rolling around the corner, i've been wondering what i'm gonna buy people. but before that happens, karizsa reminded me that we're turning 19 in a few weeks. gosh we feel old. that's lolo status already. who woulda thunk it? GO LAKERS. can't wait till the 21st of December. should be an awesome day, from what i plan.. let's just hope everything follows through. and who said money can't buy happiness? i'll be pretty damn happy that day watching the dream team. nuff said.. kuh - risk // 12:01 AM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Thursday, November 20, 2003 | |
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 Seer The ULTIMATE personality test brought to you by Quizilla kuh - risk // 10:50 AM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Friday, November 14, 2003 | |
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ok. sorry, i couldn't read your last post so i had to check by posting? anyway, yeah i'm new at this blog thing... like a virgin, yknow. oh btw, it's margie. kris and i had a talk bout friends and friendships and as yall can see in the previous post, before my "checking" one, he blogged his frustrations out and vented to me online. ok bud, i'm just going to talk to you through this post bc that it'll be easier for me. think of it as a public letter. so here we are again talking about friendships right? Kris, the friend, the "bad boy," the generous giver, the one who puts alot of effort in his friendships. My friend, sometimes you got to let things flow, you got to let things breathe, you got to let things go. I'm going to be completely honest with you because true friends are the ones who tread on soft ground; they will dare to tell you things you may not want to hear. And sometimes it seems as though you, like you said, try so hard to develop friendships by giving it your all, but when it comes to relationships and such, things have to work out naturally. You are right when you said that friendships are about meeting halfway. However, meeting halfway doesn't necessarily mean having the both of you put as much effort as the other. With friendships, there has to be a willingness that you feel. If you feel that you have to try, that it's almost a burden, do you genuinely want that friendship? Because if you do then you can't expect anything in return. You can't be impatient about not getting what you think you deserve. You give yourself freely to another because your friendship with that person is important to you. On the otherhand, you don't want to be in a relationship/friendship with someone who seems to be doing all the taking, leaving you with nothing. I'm sorry that this is so broad, but I don't know who you're talking about and what your situation is exactly, so I am making this as general as possible. I don't know. It's like you know who your real friends are, your soulmates, your inspirations. You can get along without them, but you wouldn't want to because they make you feel good about yourself and about life. It's not like you depend on them for everything, but you know that they will be there during those times when you really need someone. Take for instance Monica! Now she's a true friend. Like you told me, you guys click. You get along very well. As friendships come, your friendship with monica is one of the best. You appreciate her and she appreciates you. Why would you want to "try" with someone who doesn't appreciate you? Ok. I'm hoping you are not expecting way too much, because even you know that you have high expectations when it comes to having friends. lol They're human too and they make mistakes. All I'm saying is that why would you want something to fit when it can't? It's like girls. They have different body types. They should wear clothes that fit according to the body types they have. A girl who doesn't have a nice stomach would not look as good with a tankini or whatever than a girl who has a toned one. I mean, it's just not flattering. It's awkward. It just won't fit right. I'm not saying that you are a girl or that you have a stomach!!! lol haha. no. But yes, things are meant to be and aren't meant to be for a reason. Who knows? Maybe it's the timing that sucks and maybe later it'll happen. But if it wasn't meant to be, then let that be. It's better for you anyway. I'm sure there are other people who are more compatible with you. People fear loss. They fear it because they are not sure how they'd be able to handle it. They even fear losing the things that weren't good for them in the first place. In time, you'll look back and be grateful for your experiences even with things that didn't quite fit. Just don't force something. It's bound to break. Oh my. It's late and I usually go to bed at 10 30 to 11! wah because of you!!!! Hello! I let you know that i was here already and you still had to call?!?!!??? why?!?!?!! jk. staying up to write this for you is all good. that's what friends are for! be grateful for your true friends kris. even the ones who you don't even see as true friends. don't let those go bc you'll miss out. luv yah bud. take it easy. remember. it'll all be ok. like we all say in meteor, "you got this." kuh - risk // 12:04 AM // GUESTBOOK // |
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hmm ok i have to check something kuh - risk // 12:00 AM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Thursday, November 13, 2003 | |
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why is being friends with someone so frustrating? it's like damn b!tch, what the hell.. i'm trying.. but then i get slapped and pushed away.... i can only goo so far... the dynamics of friendship... soo complicated... kuh - risk // 11:56 PM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Wednesday, November 12, 2003 | |
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simply said, i miss..  kuh - risk // 11:13 AM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Tuesday, November 11, 2003 | |
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i have so much hw and studying to do, yet i find things to keep me from doing it.. i've only left my apartment once today to grab some food from OVT and ive been in my room all day TRYING to study.. i fixed my links [took out some of the old blogs and sites that don't exist anymore] and i added SA to my daily reads.. so check her out.. kuh - risk // 5:05 PM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Friday, November 07, 2003 | |
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i was on the shuttle last night coming home from julios and normally i'd walk, but i decided that i should just take the shuttle and save my legs the energy. anyways, the bus driver needed to stop for a while at a stop so she would be on schedule for the next stops. as i was sitting there on the bus, the radio was tuned to a station that plays hits from today, the 80s and 90s. the first song they played was a song that means a lot to me: Natalie Merchant - Wonder. Why you may ask does that song mean a lot to me? It's one of the kairos songs when i lead kairos that one of the teacher leaders [ms perez, someone who i admire a lot] used for her talk, being that i was in charge of music, i knew the song that she was going to use, but when i heard it accordance to her talk, i had goosebumps running down my entire body. still to this day, i can't listen to the song without a funny feeling inside of me. that funny feeling i felt last night got me thinking about high school. some of my greatest memories came those four days when i lead. i felt so many different emotions on one retreat that was totally unexpected. i went from feeling like crap to feeling loved. the letters i got from people i didn't expect made me realize i have the greatest friends out there... the only problem is that since high school ended, i haven't really talked or seen some people that matter or have mattered to me in the past. people say i have a lot of friends. i disagree with that assertion. i may know a lot of people, but do i really know them enough to call them my friends? i think not. we said that college wouldnt break up a friendship, and im not saying that friendships have been broken. its just that they are taking a long hiatus, i suppose. what have i got to lose by mentioning who these i speak of are: i have not seen or talked to jason since like august the 10th. i miss my loyola buddy like woah. he is one of my closest friends. we walked through high school together every day. we started our day together and we ended it together. i miss the random things jason would come up with or what we'd talk about in the car ride to school, stopping at jack in the box in the mornings to grub, having the little tobasco sauce in his pocket, sharing a locker together senior year. jason is really my brother from another mother. my mom cared about him as much as she cared about me. it helps that our moms are pretty close friends. even when i called home last weekend, his mom was there and i talked to her. it made me realize how much i miss my cockroach of a buddy. that brings me to chris. so much went on in the last year of high school that i dont know what senior year would have been like without him and jan. the difference between my friendship with jan and chris is that ive seen jan a few times since graudation, and even chilled with him for a bit when we went to UCLA. one thing i take into regard is the fact that me and chris lived quite a ways from each other, we were two different people from two different circle of friends yet we were still pretty close. our friendship, in my point of view, has moved towards an acquaintance with the random "whats up." i ended up texting him last night cause that random whats up has not even occured in the recent past. what happened there? i have no clue.. but there are some good things though: since i've been down here i've kept in touch with monica and gail a lot: two of my closest friends who mean sooo much to me. i love how we can just sit and talk on the fone at the randomest times. i've felt outta the loop yet they make me realize taht im not missing much, and when something does happen they let me know. i gotta love them. i love how i can go home and just hang out with people like gail, gary, ariel and maryanne. all this pondering about friends has been brought about by the fact that ive been getting to know julio more as school starts to progress. i admire how julio is really close with some of his friends and how they have come to visit him. yeah it was nice to have kristina kat and lorenz come, but i really miss my friends and i would love it if they come down. like for instance, monica was asking if i was doing something on sunday cuase shes going to legoland. the only problem is that im going home this weekend [more like tonight]. gail and gary said they'd come visit. so did marvie and a few other people. but seeing joe and jon down here with julio just made me miss my friends even more. thats when i started asking myself where have some of them gone.. and now i answer that question with: i really don't know... kuh - risk // 4:57 PM // GUESTBOOK // |
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Saturday, November 01, 2003 | |
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i totally miss eagle rock halloweens. all the lounging we do on hill drive, walking the streets with the familiar faces each year is something i didn't think i'd really miss this much. halloween here isn't the same. maybe it's because i didn't really do anything... it was a bit amusing to check mark's blog and see that he quoted one of my posts verbatim. ever since i posted that one post about acknowledgements, i've gotten some response from people that i would have never expected. friends from around the country and people back at home i haven't talked to asked how i was doing amidst the hectic fires going down here. the funny thing is that the people or person it was intended towards hasn't gotten the message. the person(s) it is intended towards reads this for sure, but maybe they're just not taking note of what i actually write here. all i wanted to here was just a simple phrase... one word actually. is that really hard to ask for? i've noticed im being pretty selfish lately. i don't wanna share, and when i do, i don't really like it. it's funny cause you expect it from others but when its your turn, its like "woah woah woah.. what the hezzy" i didnt think it was gonna affect me this much, but it actually does. somethings up, i just don't know what it is yet.... i just haven't been feeling it lately. ive turned into the type of person that needs to be reminded a lot lately. insecure am i? seems so. my blogs have turned from a recap of my day and mishaps to a blog about pondering.. i told myself i wouldnt get to this point but isn't that what blogs are for? just to vent out, write about whatever pleases my thoughts? whatever, im in the middle of doing laundry for the first time in my entire life. scarry, but it can be done! kuh - risk // 1:52 AM // GUESTBOOK // |
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updated: 12.01.03
//webcam pics //carly's bday //old school st dominic pictures //random pics //random pics 2 //karizsa and karina's debut //loyola winter formal 2002 //sdym krismas party //imac winter formal 2002 //kris' 18th birthday party //bel's 18th birthday party //carly's debut //krissy's debut //loyola high school prom 03 //loyola grad nite 03 //thanksgiving 03 //UCSD FALL 03 |
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