Who is the real Jeff B?
"I have walked the edge of the Abyss.
I have governed the unwilling.
I have witnessed countless empires break before me.
I have seen the most courageous soldiers fall away in fear.
[I was there with the Angel at the tomb]
I have seen your
future.
And I have learned.
There will be no
more Sadness.
No more Anger.
No more Envy.
I HAVE WON.
Oh, and your poet
Eliot had it all wrong:
THIS is the way the world ends."
Extract from The Cortana Letters
A friend
once told me that I have the most relaxed and laidback outlook on life he had
ever seen. He doesn’t know me as well as he evidently thinks, but he does have a
point.
A long, long time ago I came to the realisation that there are some things that
I have no control over, and that worrying about them would only get me more
stressed than I already am. So I let go of those things that I have no true
control over, and decided to live my life free from their constraints.
As Chuck Palahnuik said in Fight Club: let that which does not matter truly slide.
It is very liberating, but it gives you a lot of time to think about
deep, philosophical things, like the meaning of life, the universe and
everything. That can drive you to drink, but no philosophy is 100% perfect.
Thus endeth the lesson.
For years, I've lived a double life.
In the day, I do my job - I
ride the bus, roll up my sleeves with the hoi-polloi.
But at night, I live a life of exhilaration, of missed heartbeats and adrenalin.
And, if the truth be known, a life of dubious virtue.
I won't deny it - I've been
engaged in violence, even indulged in it.
I've maimed and killed adversaries, and not merely in self-defence.
I've exhibited disregard for life, limb and property, and savoured every moment.
You may not think it to look of me, but I have commanded armies, and conquered worlds.
And though in achieving these things I've set
morality aside, I have no regrets.
For though I've
led a double life, at least I can say - I've lived.