Wednesday, April 30, 2003
     
i got this from uni friends page that one of my friends posted and its just really nice, meaningful and fitting especially for this weeks occasion for me and for life in general.

: : Get a Life : :

Commencement Speech

This is the commencement speech by the writer, Anna Quindlen, to the graduates at Villanova last year.

It's a great honor for me to be the third member of my family to receive an honorary doctorate from this great university.

It's an honor to follow my great Uncle Jim, who was a gifted physician, and my Uncle Jack, who is a remarkable businessman. Both of them could have told you something important about their professions, about medicine or commerce. I have no specialized field of interest or expertise. I'm a novelist. My work is human nature. Real life is all I know. Don't ever confuse the two, your life and your work. The second is only part of the first.

Don't ever forget what a friend once wrote Senator Paul Tsongas when the senator decided not to run for reelection because he had been diagnosed with cancer! "No man ever said on his deathbed, 'I wish I had spent more time at the office."

Don't ever forget the words my father sent me on a postcard last year: "If you win the rat race, you're still a rat."Or what John Lennon wrote before he was gunned down in the driveway of the Dakota: "Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans."

You will walk out of here this afternoon with only one thing that no one else has. There will be hundreds of people out there with your same degree; there will be thousands of people doing what you want to do for a living.

But you will be the only person alive who has sole custody of your life. Your particular life. Your entire life. Not just your life at a desk, or your life on a bus, or in a car, or at the computer. Not just the life of your mind, but the life of your heart. Not just your bank account but your soul.

People don't talk about the soul very much anymore. It's so much easier to write a resume than to craft a spirit. But a resume is a cold comfort on a winter night, or when you're sad, or broke, or lonely, or when you've gotten back the test results and they're not so good.

Here is my resume:

I am a good mother to three children. I have tried never to let my profession stand in the way of being a good parent. I no longer consider myself the center of the universe. I show up. I listen. I try to laugh. I am a good friend to my husband. I have tried to make marriage vows mean what they say. I am a good friend to my friends, and they to me. Without them there would be nothing to say to you today, because I would be a cardboard cutout. But I call them on the phone, and I meet them for lunch. I would be rotten, or at best mediocre at my job, if those other things were not true.

You cannot be really first rate at your work if your work is all you are. So here's what I wanted to tell you today:

Get a life. A real life, not a manic pursuit of the next promotion, the bigger paycheck, the larger house. Do you think you'd care so very much about those things if you blew an aneurysm one afternoon, or found a lump in your breast?

Get a life in which you notice the smell of salt water pushing itself on a breeze over Seaside Heights, a life in which you stop and watch how a red tailed hawk circles over the water or the way a baby scowls with concentration when she tries to pick up a Cheerio with her thumb and first finger.

Get a life in which you are not alone. Find people you love, and who love you. And remember that love is not leisure, it is work. Pick up the phone. Send an e-mail. Write a letter.

Get a life in which you are generous. And realize that life is the best thing ever, and that you have no business taking it for granted. Care so deeply about its goodness that you want to spread it around. Take money you would have spent on beers and give it to charity. Work in a soup kitchen. Be a big brother or sister. All of you want to do well. But if you do not do good too, then doing well will never be enough.

It is so easy to waste our lives, our days, our hours, our minutes. It is so easy to take for granted the color of our kids' eyes, the way the melody in a symphony rises and falls and disappears and rises again. It is so easy to exist instead of to live. I learned to live many years ago.

Something really, really bad happened to me, something that changed my life in ways that, if I had my druthers, it would never have been changed at all.

And what I learned from it is what, today, seems to be the hardest lesson of all: I learned to love the journey, not the destination. I learned that it is not a dress rehearsal, and that today is the only guarantee you get.

I learned to look at all the good in the world and try to give some of it back because I believed in it, completely and utterly. And I tried to do that, in part, by telling others what I had learned. By telling them this:

Consider the lilies of the field. Look at the fuzz on a baby's ear. Read in the backyard with the sun on your face. Learn to be happy. And think of life as a terminal illness, because if you do, you will live it with joy and passion as it ought to be lived.

There's Always A Moment That You Know Is The Moment That Changed Your Life.

...see i told you its nice!
im too tired to write a synopis of what happened monday grad! and party! and yesterdays JAMVA! city outing to celebrate us! maybe i'll write them offline and might post it here.
we do learn new things everyday! i just have to remember them.
currently: unemployed. so i betta start looking for a job very soon. now?! lol... cya :)
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Monday, April 28, 2003
     
yepee! i just graduated today! "bachelor of computer science". i am so happy! i have a degree!
i'll tell you more later...
here is a pic! (only took 8 digitally since i used a normal film for the rest) i'll try and scan some more but for now its just these. enjoy!
i am so happy! :)

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Sunday, April 27, 2003
     
first of all... for the person who wrote this to me...

Date: Friday, April 25, 2003
Time: 2:23 AM EST
Submitted by: dj_mixtape
Email address: djmixtape@hotmail.com
URL: site
what: hello, a few week ago I wrote to you about obtaining a rip copy
of the mixtape of dj demo and dj peter gunz, I will trade anything for
those 2 albums, thanks


i am so sorry but i dont know how to rip those albums. i have tried emailing you several times but the email address you specified does not exist bcoz i tried 3 times and all 3 we're returned so i couldnt contact you. sorry.

on other news i changed the pic on the corner. why? to make a long story short. a change to tlc and also tlc are releasing those songs at a later date since they are planning (rumour) to repackage their 3D album. i am actually looking forward to it coz maybe we get more songs from it... bonus tracks and what not. so yey!

so... this is called souvenir. meaning...

souvenir ( P ) Pronunciation Key (sv-nr, sv-nr)
n. A token of remembrance; a memento.
[French, from Old French, to recall, memory, from Latin subvenre, to come to mind : sub-, sub- + venre, to come; see gw- in Indo-European Roots.]

souvenir
\Sou`ve*nir\ (? or ?), n. [F., fr. souvenir to remember, fr. L. subvenire to come up, come to mind; sub under + venire to come, akin to E. come. See Come, and cf. Subvention.] That which serves as a reminder; a remembrancer; a memento; a keepsake.

souvenir
n 1: something of sentimental value [syn: keepsake, token, relic] 2: a reminder of past events [syn: memento]


there are 11 pics so check them out. it was gonna be just 4 pictures but 11 seems more for me. (so refresh and a random pic appears) it was a fight between memento and souvenir and you know who won! it basically represents experieces, places, people, items etc. that makes us the way we are.

on a less cheerful note. my parents went to the doctors, mum to get a blood test and dad to get his results for the blood test and lets say that even our family doctor got angry at my dad. all the levels are high and its just scarry. hearing it when they came home kinda shocked me. i nearly flipped. i got so scared ...so much. i wish that my parents have great health! so starting now our family is gonna change their diet plus be more active. my parents kinda loosened the diet and exercise stuff recently and i guess its back on.
it made me wonder what teri said about how she sees her parents now since her scare as well. i really thought about what she said and other things like those cancer/health commercials like the one that bec mentioned and its scarry and sad. nb2me: everything will be ok! dont be too obsessed.....

my graduation is tomorrow and i am really looking forward to it! im excited but i feel kinda tired....so i'll try n sleep early. i dont know if im gonna get all of the stuff they have (plaque, frames, professional pics etc), maybe just a couple since its so expensive and i already got a ring (ohh.. did u see smallville? they had class (graduation plus dad said it looks kinda like the phils one they had.) ring day too and plus i got it the same price as theirs... what a coincedence!).
hopefully it stops raining... cloudy is ok but not rain. plus my parents has also started cooking and stuff for tomorrow. my sister rearranged her room and my brother just came home from catering (friends' family business... he helps sometimes). i was suppose to go out with friends today but it was postponed. please be sunny tomorow!
btw did i say my graduation is tomorrow! lol! yey!
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Saturday, April 26, 2003
     
hey! i got a ring! a graduation ring! (kinda traditional) my parents gift for me and it is soooooo nice! we went to Cabramatta and looked at so many stores... my feet got sore but its all worth it. we also got some food coz my parents decided to invite relos and show me off! lol no...jk... they wanna do somethnig for me so its all cool!
oh yeah! Ahuh! it looks so nice and i am so happy! looking at it makes me smile... lol. thanks mummy and daddy!
plus i got this from teri's page and it looks supa cool! battle it!

Arvin's
Battle Imp
is
Who's your battle imp?
Irid
Backstabbing: 4
Dodgin': 9
Guts: 10
Magic Mojo: 5
Smackdown: 7

Will your battle imp beat Arvin's?
Enter your name and fight.


movie: jet li - contract killer (dubbed in english - pretty good! action and martial arts)
about to see: ghost ship (should be scarry)
later :)
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Friday, April 25, 2003
     
its really cold today. the weather is really gloomy and rainy, makes me all sleepy and all but we still had to clean but its all done now and its good seing everything clean clean.
ate marlyn and kuya conrad came over bcoz ate wanted to see of she can pass the learners test online and she has so its cool.
my brother drove today with my dad for the first time (he passed his learners wed) at same place where he took me, my sister and my mum when we started learning but the difference was that my brother drove home which was purty good.
yes about last night again. its true what they say about the really good gets copied. maybe the best compliment is getting copied bcoz a lot of people copied the technique "fusion" used at last years competition. go fusion go!
yeah they got home 3am and my parents couldnt sleep. i cant believe they can do this coz i dont, as in drive around and be around somewhere that late but the time is changing and they are less strict, what can i do i am the eldest. they get away with a lot of things that i got in deep trouble for when i was younger but i wont go into that right now. gonna go watch seinfeld. layta!
btw. from cybertlc its L-E 1 year.
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i am soo proud of FUSION!!! my brother Kevin, my sister Carla, my cousin Ian and the rest of Fusion which are Emma, Jhellene and Mark!!!! they performed really well! an absolutely brilliant dance!!! but they we're robbed with the title coz the frecking so-called-judges cant judge. they should just go to hell and eat shit!

we got there 40mins early and the place was kinda packed already with teens (mostly filo) and my mum and dad were one of the few parents/relos there. i was thinking, i wished i went to these places before... they seemed happening, as in it would be great to have a night out with friends (some arent into this) once in a while but some are just too much. we know what that means right? if no... super tryhard and super lovy-dovy. if yes continue...

-just got back from washing stuff we ate for midnight snack- btw i love these filo crackers called sky flakes!!! mmmmmmm

back to the story, it was 6:30pm and Boman Hall opens at 7. all of a suddent these twits.. ohh i mean security guards said the most impossible words you can give to a crowd of young people eager to get in... "form 2 lines" as you know the crowd went biserk and most of the people just started pushing like crazy. dad who doesnt take crap pushed in and me and my mum stood behind him. he was responsible in getting all these people in front coz they were behind us and they just followed our lead. go dad! 10 pass 7 they actually opened the doors (did i tell you i hate waiting) my mum got in first coz the girls didnt need to get scanned (umm they also have the ability to conseal weapons maybe their bf's....hello...). it was quite quick to actually get everyone in.

just b4 8pm the 2 hosts went "blah blah blah...... this and that" and the comp started. some dance and singing were added extra to the program and it finished around 10:30pm we got outside and then my bro and sis and the rest of the dance group plus all their friends wanted to stay for the disco (i miss out coz i dont know anyone there...*sob*....danced at home instead and you know what? "i still got it!"). the familia drove back home and carla and kevin left to party with friends! so lucky!

after my dance and midnight snack i am here. my headache is gone i think and im just dwnldn some music.

also saw kuya Loui with his own dance group! they were very nice too! and oh yeah.. one of them danced a tribute to TLC and Left-Eye. heeha!

bouncing with:
>> justin timberlake - rock your body (video version)
>> mandy moore - cry
>> disco montego - are you talkin' to me
>> 50 cent - whats up
>> avril lavigne - i dont give a damn
>> vanilla ice - ice ice baby
>> j lo feat ll cool j - all i have
>> missy feat ludacris - gossip folks
>> n.e.r.d. - rockstar
>> mis-teeq - scandalous
>> snoop feat pharrel - beautiful
plus + so much more....
nb: i dont need to add tlc here coz u know i listen to them 24/7!

i want a favour from everyone who has read this post and that is please go comment something like "hi" coz i wanna know who actually read this stuff i write. please! kthnxs!

i mean i would like for people to read stuff i write, maybe its an ego thing or actually just like to be heard. i mean if no one read this i dont really mind coz i enjoy writing it and definetely will enjoy reading it later on.

why i write online (right now)
1.) for me coz i actually make an effort to write here and end up writing more than i usually do...
2.) its fun and something to do... hobby?!
3.) share what ive been up to and thinking/feeling... with family and friends and others out there... but of course some stuff i cant say here or when im not online you dont get to read...lol .. sorry... unless they are really good or i really want you to read it.
4.) record memories and thoughts
5.) get me creative or an outlet for me...
6.) my little place on the web
7.) aslo maybe learn things on the way
thats all for now... i think... why am i explaing this... coz it matters to me!

thought1 : you talk and write about it, you take the time for it....... then........ it matters to you!!! you dont do things that dont mean anything to you??? (maybe jobs that u hate but need) on the other side maybe they are just not really showing how they feel for some the reason (shy or private). so the question is .......if you dont do anything about it, does that mean you dont care for it? (make sense? btw that was an offline thought)

though2 : i cant make everyone like me and i dont expect to like everyone. i am open-minded and give people a chance. i am nice and yes i believe "love thy neighbours" but like me i get irritated easily on little things....but i am not that bad. i am pretty reasonable but it goes both ways - 2 to tango. is that hyppcritical/contradiction? i dont know. i dont care! is that hyppcritical/contradiction?...lol

have a great ANZAC day long weekend! remember all the diggers that kept this awesome country free!

regards and cheers!
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Wednesday, April 23, 2003
     
i didnt want to admit it but now i do. i expected a lot from friends but not because i have issues its because they are my friends. i love how family stick together (well mine does) and its just really comfortable. although in time friends become family too!

it seems like friends are a bit harder to keep together especially if they are new. family is easier coz you have no choice they are family no matter what - you will always be related. in friends some just stray away and you cant help that, its their choice. thats why i am always hopeful about it. friends forever like family. but still effort is still needed for both (depends how close u want to be). they are family... the one that you choose as Viv said.

Paulo seems upset on some people in group the last time I spoke to him about people lying rather keeping stuff from each other (like thats Smallville episode where Lana goes "lies keep people apart") and my unifriends are'nt keeping in contact as much as we "expected" so thats kinda weird but i am hopeful for both. Does time alter perspectives? But the usfriends is good... hopefully see each other on sunday for a movie! ohh... its all good we can work all this out, not a big drama. im cool with it!

i talked to Meb last night and one topic is "starting again". like just having a suitcase in a new town, a fire destroying everything and throwing journals/sentementals away (like i did). would i do that again? probably not but i am tempted, she said somethnig about "thats where u come from and those are the thnigs that trigger memories and make the person you are now:" would i throw that away. no. but starting from scratch, it seems like a weight have been lifted, i wouldn't say burden. seems free-r.

Roya and Hosai might come see us graduate coz they called asking for time and venue and how things are. But maybe they have work/class just like family and relos (maybe a party with all of them later). I 've called people (friends who are graduating too) and some arent home but so far i guess we will just see each other there since we dont really know the place and hopefully before the ceremony we all just get excited about it all. It should be fun!

some friends quotes i found while looking something about God.
+ real friends doesn't mean you have to talk and see each other everyday for as long as you will be there for each other in times of troubles..
+ friends are persons whose hearts stick together even though they're far from each other..
+ once the package of friendship has been opened, it can never be closed. it is a constant book always written, waiting to be written, waiting to be read..

here is the God one.
+ if God answers your prayers, He is increasing your faith. if He delays, He is increasing your patience. if He doesn't answer, He has something better for you.

neat stuff!
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Hey! I have brighten up the page by changing the opacity to 100 and made some colours stronger so its all bright now, hope its clearer to read. Plus my sentense is trying to get formal and all so I am using capitals and stuff like that, which is semi-hard getting used to coz I usually carry on like the way I do right now. I prefer the other where I type without a hoot but I'll try this once in a while.
I have been calling people (nice talking to them too) about meeting up before the graduation and I still need to call a couple more, plus I'm getting calls and people asking when it is and stuff.
As I said earlier I am excited about this day. I have worked so hard for this day to come. I went to uni for 4 years and did so much work, had so many ups and downs and stressed a lot about many things. Sometimes I felt like giving up but people around me helped me out, they helped a lot - both friends and family! Thank You! I don't feel like this is just a paper anymore. I feel that this is the reward for the hard work that I went through and I am so proud of myself. This is a great achievement!
After this day I start something so new...*scarry* ...Employment. Hopefully the knowledge I gained will be put to use (maybe not). Blah blah blah... I know...but I worked so hard to "finally" graduate! I am just so proud of what I have done! Thank God!
My brother is going for his Learners so I wish him well and we got the tickets (dance comp) already so its set! I cant wait! (i was going to show u the pics of their custume but the pics didn't turn out good... i'll try and get another one)
Meb had goodbye on her page and I was like "What does it mean?" and basically she has stopped blogging and "might" be back later/whenever. I cant say I don't care because I do. I love reading what my friends write. But if that is her decision... its cool, I cant force her to write. Just like my other friends.
I am going to sleep now, its late and all but people need the phone during the day which kinda suck ergo, (therefore?! Bec version) I stay up. But I get to sleep in (for now) and thats hella ghetto good baby! lol
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Tuesday, April 22, 2003
     
just watched the last few minutes of baskeball with my siblings. phoenix vs san antonio with the overtime. omg, it was crazy! sa had plenty of freethrows to finish the game and at the last 5sec ph shot a 3. score 95/96. i love tight games, or the ones where someone is trailing and they catch up, have an over time and wins the game. that would be wild to watch. i dont really follow it, i rather watch it live.
yeah sydney kings won the australian bball season for the first time! awesomeness! go sydney go!
and michel jordan played his last game i think last week, he's retiring for good. legend! ok thats the basketball news for ya.
btw i put the frame back up coz it looks neater that way.
im still downloading the damage mpg!!! 2 hours left....grrr.. finally i'll have it forever! muaahhhaha...lol
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Monday, April 21, 2003
     
there are more but these are my favourate from the quiz below...

+None. You have neither sins nor virtues. You just are.
+What is essential is invisible to the eye.
+They are important to one you love, so they are important to you.
+Where you can be loved and love others.
+A place that has a familiar smell, feel, or sound.
+Magic and life and wonder.

ok gonna watch the damaged video again... maybe try and get it instead of streaming it al the time...urghh.. i hate the
also spoke to viv and i think i got her wired up with what to wear on graduation day... lol... it'll be cool.
and the reason why the tape came out before was not bcoz it doesnt let it stay in but bcoz i pressed eject in the remote... duh.
plus im starting to really like that song by silverchair - across the night. and the video is pretty eerie yet comical.
wow my 3rd post of the day... i need more hobbies...
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trivial stuff: got back from the shops with my siblings to buy more of their dance custome and get parents a present, but didnt have enough time coz dad waited in the car and mum stayed home to sleep [long sentense]. now my folks are watching a filo movie and sibs are practicing.
i've changed the page a bit, i took off the tag board coz i cant find a way to save those posts and so i dont need the frame anymore and changed the pic to tlc again with hands up. its the next single to be released in australia so u betta get it! the remixes are so so hooottt!
this is a really nice quiz!
prince.
You are the little prince.


Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz.
brought to you by Quizilla

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my dad wanted the map (www.whereis.com + uws parra campus map) to get to the my grad place next week *arghhh-excited* so im here.
updates are that: my parents anniversary was gooood! it was just us and charlene and her folks. and for reason we seem to go to buffays for a lot of celebrations.
dropped over at relos and got some veggies and chat
watched back2back jet li action movies - legend of the red dragon -and- meltdown. which is pretty funny and action packed.
we didnt end up going to the grotto, Berima, coz too many people are sick and the weather is kinda bad to go, since its mountainous and muddy and not enough cover and pathways so we're gonna go another day.
thats all. lazy long holidays and a bit of cleaning as usual. siblings have been practicing as much as they can plus eating a lot coz mum's been cooking a lot. ok gonna get some more food. l8r!
ps. btw family and friends and me are eggcellent! im so happy! :) bye!
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Saturday, April 19, 2003
     
make sure u guys backup your stuff offline. i just did and i am pissed coz usfriends lost like half a year of post and since the old angelfire account is gone i cant get it back and i am pissed about it. my one (this page) and unifriends are ok and got it backed up but half only half of usfriends is was backed up.
ive lost my journals, i actually threw them out and its sad so im used to it. just make new entries. nothing else we can do. start again

::intructions for back up::
*use ftp to back up your blog through angelfire.. basically download all the monthly archives you have to from angelfire that is made by blogger. but b4 you do this go to blogger and then to archives and press republish all.
*and to back up ur yaccs comments. log in. go to control panel. click more>>. and (choose which way) then press export.
*for live journal you also have an export button and you can save this in you pc. not sure though.

~ Amiel - Love Song
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Friday, April 18, 2003
     
found this....duh..

"You know the world is going crazy when the best rapper is a white guy, the best golfer is a black guy, the tallest guy in the NBA is Chinese, the Swiss hold the America's Cup, France is accusing the U.S. of arrogance, Germany doesn't want to go to war, and the three most powerful men in America are named 'Bush', 'Dick', and 'Colon'. Need I say more?"

-Chris Rock

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good friday today...... we cant play music or go loud and crazy......but the dance group practiced here so i just listened to their music. i need to at least control that since ive been eating a lot.

about my post yesterday i keep forgetting that we have these things called human instincts or just instincts. (is that different?) anyways, as teri pointed out its how you feel about a certain thing and you just know then and there that it is either good for ya or maybe harmful. its built into our system and also maybe we have a guardian angel guiding us. i gotta listen more to my instincts (intuition? is that the same?) rather than what society dictates.

hey but some crazy people have psychotic tendencies and maybe listening to their instincts can lead to hurting themselves or other people. see maybe thats why we have law and order ie society (civilised people?)

most of my arguments can be very boring, you already know (im a late blommer..lol), repetitive and it goes around in circles and maybe i dont know what i am talking about (seriously i need to get out and learn and experience more stuff and get my opinions semi-concrete) but hopefully it gets you thinking, coz i think a lot. im trying to infect you...hahaha

just watched star trek - nemisis and found it pretty good. i am not a star trek fan (i am a stargate fan though!!!) and i understood the story pretty well, i like the message about "to better yourself" and i shall i mean i always try and do better.

i'm kinda sad to hear that TLC is gonna be performing maybe their last performance ever (but this will be the first time they will perform live without lefteye). makes me feel pretty sad and i want to see it (better if L-E was there).

for some reason i have all these new cd's to listen to but all i want is to listen to tlc. i am seriously getting really addicted.

'not so quick'

three tiny turtles
swimming steadily south
looking like lovers
not needing night

wet wasted wallpapers
placed properly parallel
co-ordinating cut cushions
haven't hanged high
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today was the last day with charlene since i am going to start looking for a proper job soon and plus they found a new babysitter who is also taking care of a little boy thats is the same age as charlene (how cute is that) so its all ok. we had a little feast before they left, mum made aroscaldo and they brought fish and chips. i am gonna miss that baby girl (and of course we are gonna visit).

my bro and sis's dance is finally finish both the moves and the music mixed. so they just have to practice a zillion times to make it all perfect. i will be watching them! mum and dad are going so i guess i have a ride. i hope they win.

i was talking to viv the other day and it got me thinking about a few things, one about people's behaviours and how they come to think that way. i should really take up sociology or psychology or something.

there is this page and i asked "how/can you judge someone in 10 minutes" and "how would you like to be judged in 10 minutes"

+so i asked my bro and sis "can you judge someone in 10 minutes"
>>bro: yes
>>sis: you can make a judgement
+so i asked my bro and sis "how would you like to be judged in 10 minutes"
>>sis: they're usually right
>>bro: who cares

now for me i think i am very judgemental and i can judge u in 3 seconds maybe less. my uni friends know that for sure coz they say that to me in my face (i dont mind... i actually like it that they are comfortable enough to say it to me and plus i listen to them) plus i am usually very critical (i know i am) and i can actually hate someone in 5 minutes. depends on my mood. thats really bad to say (im trying to change) and the thing is that i am usually wrong (i shouldnt say wrong coz they are still like that but later i find that they are more than that) and i end up feeling so stupid and recently i try and give people a chance.

see smoking a big no for me and that really turns me off. when i meet someone who smokes i go "see ya" but recently i found that a close friend of mine smokes and i cant say "go away". i can look pass that .....see its weird. oh well.

i dont like for someone to judge me in 10 minutes but i cant help that coz they're still gonna do it. i do. but i try and give people a chance coz no one is perfect.

urghhh. see the other question from this other page goes.... "someone you love and about to marry cheats on you. would you give them a chance?" i would say no! ... maybe one chance? ...

but all in all its not just black and white.

*Jackson Five - I Want You Back*
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Thursday, April 17, 2003
     
i found this...
>>http://academic.brooklyn.cuny.edu/english/melani/cs6/nobody.html

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I'm nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody, too?
Then there's a pair of us--don't tell!
They'd banish us, you know.
How dreary to be somebody!
How public, like a frog
To tell your name the livelong day
To an admiring bog!


As you probably noticed when you read this poem, none of the themes that I discussed in the Overview of Dickinson applies to this poem. That list was not meant to cover every topic Dickinson wrote on, nor does every poem she wrote fit neatly into a category.

Dickinson adopts the persona of a child who is open, naive, and innocent. However, are the questions asked and the final statement made by this poem naive? If they are not, then the poem is ironic because of the discrepancy between the persona's understanding and view and those of Dickinson and the reader. Under the guise of the child's accepting society's values, is Dickinson really rejecting those values?

Is Dickinson suggesting that the true somebody is really the nobody? The child-speaker welcomes the person who honestly identifies herself and who has a true identity. These qualities make that person "nobody" in society's eyes. To be "somebody" is to have status in society; society, the majority, excludes or rejects those who lack status or are "nobody"--"they'd banish us" for being nobody.

In stanza 2, the child-speaker rejects the role of "somebody" ("How dreary"). The frog comparison depicts "somebody" as self-important and constantly self-promoting. She also shows the false values of a society (the "admiring bog") which approves the frog-somebody. Does the word "bog" (it means wet, spongy ground) have positive or negative connotations? What qualities are associated with the sounds a frog makes (croaking)?

Is there satire in this poem?

Some readers, who are modest and self-effacing or who lack confidence, feel validated by this poem. Why?

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Wednesday, April 16, 2003
     
i came across this during my tlc net time....

trust no one
believe the lie
all lies lead to the truth

so what u think.... pretty cool eh...
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can someone actually find love online? chat version: many have and some are broken hearted bcoz of it and yet i can hardly even find a friend. except casey who introduced me to blogging and so grateful too, she is so nice and cool!
my friend meb said that chat used to be clean and fun a few years back and now most of the chatrooms are packed with horny people well the ones i have encountered, im not saying all coz i know nice people are out there.
i know 2 of my friends who have meet and currently dating people and found love online through chat or something and that probably started off as a friendship. i know another who fell in love then when they meet they just basically dumped each other.
chat used to be fun with friends who i have now and now its all different. they are either not online or chatting with some others.... and can only fit yes no....bye....brb....so im in the middle about chatting......
sometimes i dont feel like putting it on anymore. its like opening the door to a home and no one is there.... expecting something.....like i did b4.... personals and meet is another story......maybe the same
i wasnt gonna post this and just leave it on pdiary but well its here...it doesnt make sense.... just wafffle.....im sleepy.
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Tuesday, April 15, 2003
     
grr...i was pissed last night since all the shows were repeated (friends, malcomn in the middle, sex and the city) and (24) not on. oh and if you wanna start watching 24 (in australia) the break is on so the mid-climax will happen next monday but here is the twist that they say... did they have the real bomb or dont they, do they know the real traitors or dont they.... im excited!
yeha gilmore girls come back on 29apr. (replacing bachelor 2) after my grad. omg. 2 more weeks then i have no excuse and actually have to look for a job. arghhh! so scarry yet excited but i just have to wait. worry later .....when i have to..
right now......its just me, charlene, kev and carla at home. kevs taking care of charlene and they are trying 2 learn some moves for their dance too while i try and do something and i get to sleep in again!
been voting for tlc on countdowns too......well thats my current tv viewing and life (kinda boring right now - i feel like i wanna be an agent like jack baeur on 24 or a secret agent like sydney in alias (when is that coming back?) that will be awesome!)........music wise i am jammin with: [just got them coz they are using it for the elite dance comp]
+dj peter gunz - summerjamz 2003
+dj demo - the streets
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Sunday, April 13, 2003
     
i just want to rave about smallville! i am falling in love with this show. that hot girl from days of lives who plays the new billie was the guest and i've also seen her in CSI where she also played a temptress and she is so good at it! other than that it has a nice story and setting and lessons that are kinda clichie yet bearable, the lead models/actors ie clark and lana are sweet, and the songs they play. they played one of my fave songs in let go album of avril lavigne which is "tomorrow" for the last scene. im gonna get the theme song "save me" by remy zero (been meaning to get it since it started).

i am so hyped with this show, it is now a must for me. although i missed most of the first season and the first episode for this season (vcr cant record and i went to ness and michael's engagement party) it will be part of my tv viewing, even my dad likes it. btw our new vcr/dvd ejects the tape when u turn it on. its like "dont bother me tape, get out coz im gonna sleep" lol....gee im so witty...lol..not...oh plus it can tape a dvd to a vcr. rave 2!

about saturday.....i didnt have to ask paulo, he told me about it and he is kinda down about the whole thing, being the last to know. but we agreed it should not be something that we should fight about, just feel bad for a moment that we are not told while everyone else knows. other than that the semi-house-warming party was purty kewl. i'll be listening to "stripped" and "justified" since paulo gave me a copy -thnx- and maybe give a review. -im getting a deap leg- *shake my leg - change position*

60minutes is another something to watch, mum was watching the "sars virus" interview and its scarry that there is no vaccine. there is also one who contracted the virus and is in our shore already. its spreading fast. the people wearing masks in the interview plus the scenses of a whole city with masks- freaks me out. they say that this is another war. ohhhh... didnt the war with iraq just finished!?

my bro and sis are getting into dancing again, maybe there is hope for fusion. their dance looks cool, they changed the line up. my cousin ian joined so did emma's exbf mark. but michael left coz he felt that he is getting older and need to change some of his priorities, emma, geline, kev and carla are still there. i wanna go see them its in 24apr but i have no lift.

i read becs entry and she was discussing people who think they got you figured out. its crazy to think that we can figure how people are and whats worst is when they parade it in front you and rubs it in ur face as she pointed out. they are basically summing you up. it reminds me of a quote from "bituin" actually not really just a line they said about "the world is becoming a small place" thats basically saying that there is no/less possibility and how you see things are very limitted since its small. actually my sister explained that... thats how i understood it... anyway, see how thick i can be sometimes - while she can grasp thnigs easily..... i like to see world to have so many possibilites and limitless like those computer ads, "hp invent" (i own an hp pc and it rocks!). what if they say that about a person... you are basically this and that and all you can do is this and that...blah... we all have limitless potential all we need is some motivation.

speaking of motivation, meb wrote an entry about it and how we can be motivated to do things, i agree that we have different ways to be motivated and finding one that motivates/inspires us is quite diffucult (for me it is) and when we do after a while we lose interest (well i do) and slowly retreat back in our arse and wait for the next wave. jos said something to me a while back in uni about why people do things? what is our motives?... what motivates us? (if you watch tv mysteries you find things like this at the end when we find the killer or something -Law and Order my fave CSI) and finding that can be easy when you observe and put the puzzle together.... but there are many pieces that may lead to mny different things...lets say if you like food a lot! u can be a chief or a food critique or manage a restaurant or eat a lot or make food scultures....

what stronger than motivation? passion!? ok......that leads to passion. one of my friend viv is so passionate about spike and dru and she can never get sick enough of them and she works tirelessly in her website she built for them. she hopes that she has that for a job. but what if that doesnt work? well she has to find a way or find another another passion and we do have more than one passion and find out find things that inspires and motivates you. then we're back to motivation. basically find a hobby that u really like and find a way to make money out of it (just like one of the topics in oprah)

there are so many facets to a certain topic or subject.... some people write a whole book about passion or motivation....and frankly i have no time to write a book, even though i have a few thoughts about it ok a lot. i cant write them all here. maybe add more later.

yeah why cant i just be like my brother and dont complicate things..... coz i seem to make things more complicated than they are... making the topic/subject unbearable...

just some thoughts... my folks are asleep since work starts again tomorrow but they are both taking the next whole week off for their holidays. my siblings are in dance practice right now. ian actually slept over since they came late from a party last night. i feel uncomfortable last week when he slept over again but this week was alright, its how u look at things again... i said... it'll be cool and it did...

its holy week this week - palm sunday today in church but we didnt bring any palms but my parents got some already this morning - so i dont know about going out with friends...

thats the other thing.... recently most of the things that ive been wishing or wanting turns out being true, things seems to be turning out the way i want it...most.... urgh... i got a pop up... that wasnt one of them.... lol... ohhh... i want to walk the dogs but that doesnt really work out... maybe i just think i have super powers or like that simpsons episode when homer prays to god about everything he wants and some how it turns out...

yeah this week its my bro and sis plus charlene and me since holidays starts. happy easter all!

this is becoming really long... the song i was downloading is finally finish... better post this already......wow... not an issue post... its a rave post!

note to self : its good to blog in notepad and then save it b4 posting it coz sometimes the page/explorer messes up and loose all the stuff.

one obsession... i used to want to write about everythnig - a couple of months ago and now its like.... cant... doing something else... later when i remember... so i guess.. if i meant to write it i will remember to...

just remembered something about a conversation with paulo... living simply...(which i remember having the same convo with amali, meb, jos and me in chicken man one night after classes) yeah.....(without the obvious family and friends and food, water, air...etc) paulo cant live without his car, mobile phone and lately chocchip muffin he has for breakfast b4 work and a bit of the net..... for me it seems like everything taste better with coke (so far me, my sis and bec thinks that by having fanta or something orange make it seem healtheir...lol... anyone else feel the same way?... while jos, eugene and sherwin has not drank coke for years...) tlc, music, internet/pc, bed.....i always gravitate to want to lay down and sleep...lol)

this has turned out really long.....good i can read this later in life or for you to read when ur bored or curious on whats up with arvin -me, that is if anyone out there who read my posts regularly... whoever you are.. i really appreciate it that u took the time and hello plus have a great day/night/arvo to you........... but if its just me in the future... hello and i wanna remind you to keep smiling and be happy...awww... sweet....lol

most of the stuff here i might have repeated or contradicted or u already know.........so yeah.....

>>Stacie Orrico - Stuck
(nb: lyrics and clip reminds me off high school crushes)
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Friday, April 11, 2003
     
i was a mess the other day but today i am fine. we got a vcr/dvd player yesterday. finally! we havent been able to rent vidoes and tape and rewind and stuff like that so this weekend i will be taping rage/video hits/smallville and maybe rent some dvd and videos if i have any change left.
yesterday i was living without it and today i am basically making it a part of my life.
"What you don't have you don't need it now / What you don't know you can feel it somehow" - U2 ~ Beautiful Day.
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Thursday, April 10, 2003
     
*** last night ***

i made a new picture for my page. its TLC!!! with the lyrics of their new single - "damaged". this is a very awesome song as many of my friends would agree, actually 3 - jos, viv and meb plus my sister. i cant wait for it to come to australia so i can buy the single and please buy it too!(wherever you are - spread the word) i really want this song to go number #1, but if it doesnt its ok coz its still a hit to me coz i truely relate to it plus the video that i was raving about all week is just so real and touching. so please support this song and tlc! thnx!

i havent written anything long here for some time now. although i have so much thoughts that pop into my head that i would like to discuss-share-store-whatever. its just that i have no time to write - i am either sleeping, watching, out somewhere, waiting for the phone line or the baby wants to play ...and so i have to break my rule which is that i am writing this offline. who gives a shit anyway. ok i can sense a rant coming....

thats another issue ...i have started to curse a lot which i dont particularly like but i have no patience when everyone else dont give a damn except for themselves.

issue 2 is the rubbish in the net/blog. its so fuckin fake and retarted. yes its their page and all but some are just full on contradicting themselves and i wonder why am i reading it, but thats just me i am curious and like to see what others are up to. *wait up the phone is making wierd noises* but i love my friends and a select few others i read that i find...

issue 3. paulo called and i really want to ask him about something but i cant and i wont. this oppurtunity came when he called me this afternoon that he wants me to come over on saturday coz their having a semi-new-house party thing for the people that helped moved their belongings ie dad, i sounded so anxious about the question that he can tell there was something wrong, i am just gonna keep my mouth shut and wait *test my patience*

i said something pretty profound? thnx! bec said it in her blog, although i would say that she is more profound than me, and that is the truth! as well as a few other people i have the pleasure of knowing. well the thing was "there are people who can be a saint to your face but when your back is turned, they become the devil" - this happened one night when i heard a couple of people i know that are pretty sweet and naive and the conversation that they were having turned nasty. i was so blown away that they could think like that and i felt like "so this is the other side of their personality" the trasformation was big, the tone of their voice, that language they spoke and maybe even their face if i had the chance to see it. a lot of people hide this and i was just so taken back coz i have never seen this person act/talk like this in front of me. as for me, i may change a bit... but basically what you see is what you get. even though my head becomes evil i dont let it come out and be it, i know what's appropriate. i think?!

question : you know when you sit there and think bad things about yourself or about other people even though you dont act on it. is that classified wrong? coz i have that all the time, i dont like to think that way but i cant stop my head from thinking it. i can stop my self from acting it out but is that enough?

ok i am venting so much here. and i hope it'll be out of my system.

also just like meb i have been getting really vivid dreams but of high school, i felt that i have come back to my high school from a different school. ok gonna watch comedy inc. which i think is so funny! and eat dinner, mum made sphagetti. yum!

*****a few minutes ago/ an hour ago*******

i was telling my bro and sis off. bro for not getting off the phone and staying up so late then the next day he sleeps in the afternoon and doesnt help out around the house and get pissed off when we wake him up plus other shit. sis for being so lazy and moody that she cant even text people plus other shit. well they both yelled back at me ( ie the tone is higher - not really yell coz my folks would go mad) and the result was dad telling us off and making us go to our rooms.

after 30-50 mins ....well right now bro and sis are watching survivor, mum and dad are asleep and i am pissed.

the moral of the story is that i shouldnt give a shit anymore, this situation happens so many times and in the end i get in trouble and i think "why do i fuckin care. why cant i just shut up and make them live their own life"...... and i usually say... "i dont want to put up with it and they might hurt themsleves plus i am the big brother...i should look out for them".....but now i say.. "i should have known..... i really should mind my own business, only talk when they ask and let them go, i should stop being the older-brother-type-disciplinary coz they are just gonna do whatever they fucking want and if it makes them happy and me dont care unless they waste my time" and right now that sounds good. therefore i dont have to put up with their shit and if they get in deep shit, they know first hand that its their own doing all along. i dont wanna lecture them or tell them what is wrong a what is right coz thats our parents job. i tried and all i get is shit from my siblings and from my parents......and frankly it stops......but of course except when i know they might really hurt themselves since i am not completely careless... but i would say that in a passive, careful tone so it doesnt sound like am preaching or telling them off.... hell what makes me right anyway for all i know i am all wrong...it seems like noone really listens to me anyway.

*calming down*

i was........... gonna write about friendship and what bec said........so here is a bit........bec posted "There is a huge world out there full of strangers who would judge us by simply our actions so we don't need our friends doing it also. Everyone needs a haven away from judgement and everyone needs to know they can go somewhere for support." which is very nice more profound than what i write and i totally agree. we need to sorround ourself with the people who care and gives a damn and throw away the rest coz we dont need them even though they might think they are our friend ......coz some so-called-friends act more like a stranger and even worse an enemy. isnt there a sex and the city episode called "frienemys" what was that about?... i forgot.

ok stop with all this i need sleep and my sanity back. i am just really furious right now. please excuse this post. night.


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**** today ****

well everything looks normal now. i have calmed down, i was gonna edit the post since it was basically over but dont fell like...

yes the post from b4 ie yestersay....was made by charlene

please vote for damaged! thanks!
http://www.mtv.com/onair/trl/votevideo.jhtml

ps. my offline post seems more dramatic... lol... im ok now. oh. am i using the i.e. right?!

ok later!
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Wednesday, April 09, 2003
     
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Monday, April 07, 2003
     
i just wanna try this (wbloggar). i havent been using it coz it stuffs up so i am just trying this out.
note to self : people (most) act different infront of other people. they maybe a saint in your face but when you are not looking they become the devil.
.... it worked!
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charlene loves tlc - no scrubs video. she does not move or wanna get off. she sits and watch it all. one time we watched it 3 times in a row. she likes to bounce with it! its so cool. i got her addicted to tlc! plus she can understand things now and mumbles a lot, shes a cutie and loves to explore too (just liked bec's pet mice) i also noticed that the lines in here hands are similar to mine. well since im not a palm reader i cant tell the difference but close enough but yeah thats cool number 2.
what i need to do is start reading books again ......bec is now reading again (this book recommended by teri which is the adult version of snow white)... and teri reads books in 5 hours. omg. i need to break the reading drought too coz reading is always good plus i need it.
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Sunday, April 06, 2003
     
i was gonna write this thing here but it was better suited here. - "freely"
wait... been thinking *think* everything is everywhere and i think i'll just have everything in the same box ie here. forget the rest coz im just resaving it in blogger from blurty.
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freely [06 Apr 2003|10:26pm]
its funny how u say things to people you are very close to
and therefore very comfortable with
and you just laugh/smirk at each other
and its understood without judgement or dismay
the feeling that they trusted you and told you
and know that they are alright
that they just gave themself away without a care
and u know that they fell the same way
it makes you just wanna scream how happy you are
in finding people like that in your life
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i thought wrong [27 Mar 2003|02:23pm]
and you said that u were my friend
i guess i really dont know most of my friends
they either dont trust me or that
we are not close enough for them to tell me things
what did i do
i know what's going on
dont think im blind or stupid
rumours i hear around me
i am always the last to know
i guess its different now
i thought you were my friend
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parting [17 Mar 2003|01:46pm]
seems like ur drifting away, where have i been
why does it feel like its about to end
your acting so different like its been all pretend

do u see what i see
coz i cant see forever
do u feel what i feel
coz i think its all over
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still a home [08 Mar 2003|02:40pm]
[ mood | awake ]

lonely and consumed i sit here contently
listening to the song i wrote for me
the strong wind blew and the window opens
the cold came when the music softens
it plays mellow as the room grew colder
i wanted to close it shut but i didn't bother
the fire grew weak from the wind sweeping in
its dark outside, nothing could be seen
i wrap myself tighter prayer for it to stop
i took a sip of the hot chocolate from my cup
i waited for someone to do it for me
i realise that it was up to me
it was my house all though i am all alone
i closed the window of my home

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just a dream [25 Feb 2003|10:07pm]
i ended thinking about you all night long
but the next day i realised that i have been dreaming of someone else
how could i be so wrong
i never wanted you to come, but u came and slipped into my mind
i tried to push you away, but its seems i pulled you closer
i wasn't even bothered, by the time i know it, we were together
walking to the park and in the beach. it seems that u were really meant for me
but i woke up and thought a little, ok a lot. about you and me, how it should be.
u were messing with my head that i forgot that ur with someone else.
and now what should do. fight for you. i dont think so. coz it was just a one night stand or whatever and i hope that i dont dream of you ever.
i should get over it.
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i feel like i've been torn a part, there are pieces here i dont know where they go [23 Feb 2003|10:43pm]
[ music | 3D-TLC ]

veryone gets a little piece of the action
dont forger, its your call
make sure, u tell me, what gives,
you satisfaction
coz am i bring it to you
breathe in breathe out
am i bring it to you
uh huh, uh huh.

forget all ur inhibition
all we tryin to do is a simple selection
so what turn you on, what makes you scream and shout, make you wanna go on all night
coz you know its gonna hot here
oh please, baby
you gonna be all sweaty
do it, to me......

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:::::five simple rules to be happy:::::: [23 Feb 2003|10:41pm]
[ music | 3D-TLC ]

> free your heart from hatred
> free your mind from worries
> live simply
> give mire
> expect less
...and always be thankful fro your blessings.

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looking for you in me [23 Feb 2003|10:40pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]
[ music | tlc- quickie mix ]

where am i to go, i want you near
everytime we're closer, there goes my fear
of you.....of us....of what ....could be

so you looked for me, who did you find?
now you think im lying, but im not that kind
i do..... love you...and i hope....u feel...it too

baby close your eyes and think of me
i'll dream of you, my fantasy
please when u see me dont look away
i know it'll work out one day

i am wishful thinking
trying to promise myself
it will be different tomorrow
i wont be by myself

i'll have you and you'll have me
we'll have each other like it should be

**********

i feel am lost. will you look for me?
i am drowning and need saving. please hurry.
if i find you i would hold on to you forever
i just hope we meet soon coz
if u dont come now i plan to move out of town
to find another you.

*******

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little sweet poem that i wrote [26 Jan 2003|02:53am]
[ mood | creative ]
[ music | aaliyah feat timberland - are that somebody ]

play me
sing me a sweet song
take me
dont leave me all alone
do that
thing that makes me smile
feel so
very good deep inside
can you
dont stop the music
i want
to dance all night long
with you
is where i want to be
lets stay
together eternity

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the things we say [23 Jan 2003|01:53am]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | old songs ]

all i do is wrong
all i do is wrong
nothing i do is ever right

u make me feel like im worthless
u make me feel like im made out of s***

what makes you think i could f*** care less
arent you suppose to be there for me


****** and 5 minutes later *********

i get angry and crazy
say things i dont mean

frustrated, narrowminded
im acting obscene

>> and the story continues all over again ...

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another day [22 Jan 2003|04:02am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | tlc - 3d ]

what to do
so many things
so many opportunities
lets get started

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[life has so many up and downs, but for some reason i havent touched the ground] [22 Jan 2003|03:57am]
i can see you laughing at me already
and we havent even started the race
its ok because i have already won
i have already seen your ugly face
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how ironic [22 Jan 2003|03:56am]
i want what i cant have. i preach yet i lack substance?
maybe not....there is still time for me
>>so they say
repetitive, contradictive, boring, annoying, snob
does anybody really listen - or - are we all so involved with ourself.
who really knows it.
"I DO"
i just get distracted*
be...... happy, smart, nice
"blah"
id, ego, super-ego
today. right now!
*ummm*...really
we see what we want to see. we hear......or listen
...........left
sometimes. okay. [try]
*breathe*
moments (like) these. connect
just like that.
Move
it.
another.
*wink*
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new and cool [22 Jan 2003|03:33am]
just want a place to write
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i am sitting here waiting to stream the damaged video again..... if you wanna see its here and u need realplayer plus patience for it to download. i was kinda shocked when i saw it coz it was pretty real, dramatic and mature. its a beautiful song and i thought it'll be about pretty people with pretty things and pretty wardrobe. i thought this coz people in the message board say rumours like that but i actually really like how it turned out. very thought provoving and the puzzle, shaking cam and actors saying parts of the song plus the little symbols thing was goood.
i was kinda sleepy and have a bit of a headache but i wanted to see the video again and maybe get the mpeg version so i can see it a million times offline. i am tlc obsessed and proud of it! coz they are the greatest!
i am watching damaged video again! i love it! it has a mini story (which concetrated on the actress) and seems like there are so much symblisms so i fell like analyzing it. too tired i'll just watch it a few more times. lol. ps. if u happen to see it.. tell me what u think.
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"The only way to make temptation go away is to give in to it." - Ocsar Wilde
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"Two thousand mockingbirds equals two kilomockingbirds." - Anonymous
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+ DANCE as though no one is watching you
+ LOVE as though you have never been hurt
+ SING as though no one can hear you
+ LIVE as though heaven is on earth
~unknown.
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Friday, April 04, 2003
     
the weekend is here again..soon! i have stuff to do, sleep to catch up on, maybe read a new book, chill and veg, places to go to, watch 2-3 vcds, 3-4 hours of butuin! friends and family time plus my time. gonna sleep soon after i save some pages to read offline. too tired to stay and still have to do things tomorrow. what else... its getting cold. ok dokie :)
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Thursday, April 03, 2003
     
22: people say that life is downhill from now on. whatever. they can just think that .......coz i dont.... even though i know that everything is going so fast. this week has gone so fast just like we have finished 1/4 of the year already, but we still have so much time. there is a reason why we only have the time that we have. dont focus on the fact that its downhill from now coz u start to feel like "whats the point?"... we still have "so many oppurtunities!" may you be 23 or 83. there is this quote from evander holyfield that has nothnig to do with this age thing but a life thing - "if you quit every time things don't go ur way, then you'll be quiting all through your life". so enjoy ur day!

edit: i thought blogger messed up but its the same topic as above so dont bother.
the week is nearly finished again and its april that means a quarter of the year had gone by so much. from conversations i have with various people i keep saying the things that i plan to do later on in life like adventure, travel, career, investments maybe a business, helping others, a family and ..blah blah.. then they would say "hey ur getting old" omg. i'm only 22. they say that its downhill from now and i say... get real... get a clue.. coz i dont believe it. i have enough time to do the things i want and dream of, God willing...
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Wednesday, April 02, 2003
     
i am having such a great night! after dinner which was leftover and spam mixed with egg... yum!!! honestly it was delicious! dad bought some neurofen for me coz i was feeling feverish and getting the bad cold, now i am feeling a lot better.
during dinner we were all talking about the memories we had during our 1997 holidays to phils coz our relos are (tungi family) going there this friday for holidays. i am so jealous! we reminisce about the things we did during that wonderful trip, all these came up coz a song was playing (filo jam compiled by me) "forever blue" by cacai velasquez.
we as in me, my bro and sis had different memories on what we were doing when that song played there. now we might be going there next year and the whole saving discussion came followed by what cute thing charlene did today. plus we looked at digital pics of her which are so cute! here are couple of me and her!charlene and me [ps. these pics are added in the frame on the left under pics-snapshots plus a new pic of me with a haircut! dont get excited its the same style.] i liked how ate esper (charlene's mum) said "happy new hair!" when she saw me!charlene and me again
mum and dad just finished writing labels on the presents for phils while us kids were watching survivor amazon. talking about tv, there are so many shows are on right now! sex and the city, 24, CSI just came back, smallville is coming back on saturday but still waiting for alias and gilmore girls plus amazing race!

question: i watched sweet home alabama and it was good. i just didnt like how she waited the last minute to decided. i cant do that... if i am not sure i am gonna pause it and not let it go like wild fire. its just bad... but thats moives for you, they neeed some sort of drama.

bec style: what did i learn today 1? - i dont like hornbags and i am very cold and detached i need someone to melt my heart...lol. (ie my head rules my heart?)
what did i learn 2? - perception is reality... if you think the way you do about certain subjects, that is how it will turn out. today i was thinking the baby will be so annoying since the routine is gone (eating, sleeping, etc. time) for the last 2 days since she is feeling sick (cold) but i said i am not gonna let this get to me and just see what happens and be cool about it and it all turned out purty cool! daer ya gaw!
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Tuesday, April 01, 2003
     
those religious people that knocks and talk about god came today (they come and talk to me and sis once in a while). well today me and sis didnt open, we tried to stay quite with charlene which was scarry....coz she sometimes laugh....lucky they didnt suspect a thing...we think.... i know about God already and i have no guts to say that i am with my beliefs and go find other people. plus they were so nice
another issue was that last week for 3 days we didnt play loud music coz they might come and then i realize how stupid was that so the music is back on!
btw. charlene hair is in pigtails right now...so adorable!

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