Now that everything's done, seems like things should go back to normal. No more reports, no more projects, no more anything. I'm free to do what I want to, ie nothing. As usual, I've got large amounts of guilt at the moment. I haven't worked on Kamil's dragon, nor did I attend the Republican expose last night. I'm a terrible person, and I can't deny it. Just look at the fact that I've had to give Dani apology flowers so she can check every time I have to say that I'm sorry. Self-value has raised a bit, but I think I got too cocky and am comfortable with feeling bad at the moment.

Today is just one of those days...I'm slowly draining myself to nothing. There's no need for an explanation, there was no confrontation. There was just that deep down feeling that something wasn't right, that I'm not where I'm supposed to be. Maybe it's just guilt, that I didn't do what I should have. Maybe it's anxiety for something that I've forgotten, or could it be that today just isn't my day? What seemed to be a perfectly good day has ended with me feeling terrible and ready to just run out the door for a while, returning when I'm finally ready to return. Trying to explain this all to Dani has made me realize that I never want to try to explain this to Dani again. This isn't really the sort of thing you talk about I suppose, it doesn't lend itself well to explanation. Thanks anyway for listening Dani, I appreciate it.

Almost there...
I have, officially, one final paper to do for this year. The RAF in the Second World War, shouldn't be too bad. It's a shame that I've put it off for so long. Oh yeh, I have a spare copy of my story that was born with it's back upside down, so I'm dumping it on Dani(as will every other printing error). Poor Dani, she's going through a tough time and I keep pickin on her with that sorta stuff. I'm sorry Danielle.

So Freakin Hot Out...
The heat is pissin me off. The good news is I'm done with my AP tests. The bad news is I still need to write a report and make a poster board for my independent study. I did get outta school early today, but I ended up going back for the hell of it. I figured I'd get to see Dani and I did, we went to her house to study precalc. And by study I mean we talked for an hour and a half, so it was more fun, but it was talking to Dani, so that kinda evens things out...heh, you know I'm just kidding. But we coulda gone to the beach, only Kamil didn't bring his car, so that kinda sucked. But I suppose it worked out in the end.

Inactivity will be my downfall
Tonight I've come to realize how much I hate not having things done. I'm sitting here, thinking about all the stuff that I didn't do, and I'm just pissed about it. How did I get so far behind? I honestly don't know. I figure things will end up working out for me in the end, hopefully.

And the intentions are still not doing me well
Found out today that Rich is going to DC this weekend, so it's just gonna be Sam, Chris, and myself, but that's not that bad of a thing...the fact that I don't have a ride, however, screws things up. I don't want to bother my parents about it, it feels weird. Anyway, I'm totally behind in all my work, I'm only doing 4 campaign posters because I'm lazy, and I'm stuck talking to Danielle of all people...Wow, My life is sad (And I'm not kidding Dani...or am I?) I had to save another quote for her, that's like...a hundred so far because I'm just that witty.

Why things fall apart
Somehow, no matter how good my intentions, I never seem to get around what I want to. I still have yet to finish the TARS piece, I haven't worked on my story at all, and I need to make posters by Wednesday. I haven't gone on my daily walk, I haven't even thought about what I'm going to do with anything. Things kinda suck. Hopefully Rich, Chris, Sam, and I can all get together this weekend to hang out in Princeton.

Vote Progressive on May 25th
I had meant to post about my campaign for Steinert School Board Rep earlier in the week, but ended up having some difficulties. In summary, I'm running as a Progressive, against Tom Benson (the other candidate I'm not even counting as an opponent). I had intended to write a scathing piece about Benson and what he stood for, but I don't have the energy to right now. I'll try to soon. I also need to finish an editorial for the NJ TARS website.

And then I pass out...
Finally got done that damn GT report on my independent study. Now all I have to do is finish chapter 3 and start chapter 4.

All the work I never did...
Well, again I've put off all my essays for another day. I'm almost ready to say the hell with it all. I need to write a GT paper in less than a week, though I think I should be able to get that done. The AP Euro paper looks like it may never get off the ground...haha, because it's on the RAF(Damn You Luftewaffe!). The story wasn't touched at all, and I'm sad about that. But that's how life is, so I'll get over it.