And now for a little scene-
I get my license in four days, I have off from school tomorrow to go to St. Joe's and I have National Honor Society Inductions tonight. Fun times...well anyway, I think I'm gonna get going now. ::Stands up, tips hat, slowly pivots on his left foot counterclockwise. Walks out the door into a setting sun::

And then I went too far.
I really need to stop overthinking. It's been nothing but trouble for 16 years and 360 days(yes, I'm almost there). And then stuff like today...I think I just want to apologize to Danielle for everything and for nothing just so things feel justified.
I also think I should apologize to Sam, who I've really been self-centered with. You're the kind of girl that I really want to listen to, but I'm too caught up in myself. I think today is gonna be my apology day, for everything I've done and everything I will do.
On a high note, well, there really isn't a high note. I've come to find that a Gatorade after a march is the best tasting thing in the world. Uphill four mile marches, woo!

I didn't see that one coming
Today, I tried to prove a point to Dani. I reckoned she was too short to be hit by one of the locker top things. The door had about an inch over her head as she winced cause she thinks that she's tall. I guess I applied too much to it when I tried on myself, because I ended up with it slamming into the side of my head. I later discovered some blood, so that was a great way to start the day. Add in my speech to my class, well, I got mixed results. Fowler said it was terrible, Owad too, but that's not saying much. I got praise from several people throughout the day, a lot of them just can't vote for Benson, and no one could even see Meelu behind the podium. We'll see how it goes. I started talking to Noon again this week, but haven't talked to Sam in a while, so I guess that's my natural trade off, though at this point, I think it's more important to talk to Sam cause Jess is leavin for college and all. I talk to Dani every day, so if I missed that, things would feel off. Thank god we're still talkin so my life seems ok.

Draining....
I've gotten to a point when I just want to work off all my energy and sleep. Life is just so...boring that I don't care to go through the routine anymore. Let's look at my day- I wake up at the same time, take a shower at the same time, eat the same breakfast at the same time, brush my teeth at the same time, use the toilet at the same time, go to school at the same time. I then walk around the halls for the same amount of time with Ant and Brad, then sit through AP Euro for the same amount of time. Then I meet Dani in the halls at the same time and go to my locker for the same books every day. Getting the picture? Do I want excitement or something? Hell no, that'd be terrible. I'd end up in the military or something and I'd go die in the desert. Boy would that be crappy, but sure exciting! All in all, I always end up talking to Dani, so is that good or bad?

Now that everything's done, seems like things should go back to normal. No more reports, no more projects, no more anything. I'm free to do what I want to, ie nothing. As usual, I've got large amounts of guilt at the moment. I haven't worked on Kamil's dragon, nor did I attend the Republican expose last night. I'm a terrible person, and I can't deny it. Just look at the fact that I've had to give Dani apology flowers so she can check every time I have to say that I'm sorry. Self-value has raised a bit, but I think I got too cocky and am comfortable with feeling bad at the moment.

Today is just one of those days...I'm slowly draining myself to nothing. There's no need for an explanation, there was no confrontation. There was just that deep down feeling that something wasn't right, that I'm not where I'm supposed to be. Maybe it's just guilt, that I didn't do what I should have. Maybe it's anxiety for something that I've forgotten, or could it be that today just isn't my day? What seemed to be a perfectly good day has ended with me feeling terrible and ready to just run out the door for a while, returning when I'm finally ready to return. Trying to explain this all to Dani has made me realize that I never want to try to explain this to Dani again. This isn't really the sort of thing you talk about I suppose, it doesn't lend itself well to explanation. Thanks anyway for listening Dani, I appreciate it.

Almost there...
I have, officially, one final paper to do for this year. The RAF in the Second World War, shouldn't be too bad. It's a shame that I've put it off for so long. Oh yeh, I have a spare copy of my story that was born with it's back upside down, so I'm dumping it on Dani(as will every other printing error). Poor Dani, she's going through a tough time and I keep pickin on her with that sorta stuff. I'm sorry Danielle.

So Freakin Hot Out...
The heat is pissin me off. The good news is I'm done with my AP tests. The bad news is I still need to write a report and make a poster board for my independent study. I did get outta school early today, but I ended up going back for the hell of it. I figured I'd get to see Dani and I did, we went to her house to study precalc. And by study I mean we talked for an hour and a half, so it was more fun, but it was talking to Dani, so that kinda evens things out...heh, you know I'm just kidding. But we coulda gone to the beach, only Kamil didn't bring his car, so that kinda sucked. But I suppose it worked out in the end.

Inactivity will be my downfall
Tonight I've come to realize how much I hate not having things done. I'm sitting here, thinking about all the stuff that I didn't do, and I'm just pissed about it. How did I get so far behind? I honestly don't know. I figure things will end up working out for me in the end, hopefully.

And the intentions are still not doing me well
Found out today that Rich is going to DC this weekend, so it's just gonna be Sam, Chris, and myself, but that's not that bad of a thing...the fact that I don't have a ride, however, screws things up. I don't want to bother my parents about it, it feels weird. Anyway, I'm totally behind in all my work, I'm only doing 4 campaign posters because I'm lazy, and I'm stuck talking to Danielle of all people...Wow, My life is sad (And I'm not kidding Dani...or am I?) I had to save another quote for her, that's like...a hundred so far because I'm just that witty.