March 23, 2003
Whoa, its been awhile. Since the last time not much has happened. I just got done with spring break and I'm more tired now then I was before (little to no sleep every nite!). No new guy updates. School still sucks. Been to a few interesting parties and shows. I saw Fall Out Boy and Keepsake. Both totally amazing. The bassist for FOB was totally checking me out! He was pretty obvious, he was whispering to the singer and pointing at me. At a recent party, I was offered both pot and yellow jackets. I'm not really sure what yellowjackets are.. (just so ya know, I don't do drugs) I'm planning on getting a laptop. Also, hopefully soon my boy troubles will be over. I'm trying to get the chance to see The Ring with him! Maybe tomorrow. We'll see..
January 30th, 2003
I havent written in awhile because I started school this week. I have a dyslexic lawyer for a teacher, thats not going so well. I have the same teacher for two classes in a row and its soooooo boring! Art doesnt seem to bad. There is an emo looking boy in there! Dont normally see them on campus or even in town! lol. My boy seems to be very odd lately. He sleeps a lot. Sunday he initiated conversation with me. After awhile I told him i should go to bed and he asked why, and i said because i start school. He said i didnt need sleep, so I went you just want me to stay online so you have someone to talk to rite? And he goes, yah because im lonely. and then jk?. Then why did i put the "?"? It was odd. And then tuesday nite i stopped by his house but he didnt answer the door so I left him a post it note. He got it taht nite, apparently he fell asleep. But then how did he get my note? I need to ask him about that. I stopped over there yesterday too but he didnt answer the door, it didnt sound like he was there. (Normally I can hear the tv while in the hall) Now my best friend is also having guy troubles and shes thinking about dumping her boy. Which makes me extremely happy because hes an ass. I dont come rite out and tell her that though! I try and be supportive because i know her situation. OK well thats it for now!
January 22nd, 2003
Last nite I stopped by the apartment of the guy i like. He didnt answer his door and i ran away when i heard familiar voices coming in. (It was someone i used to work with that happened to be there, not at my guys apartment, another one) So, I called and left him a voice message and he has yet to call or talk to me in any form. I kinda wanted to talk to him before i started school (monday, ahhh!) but Im not sure if thatll be possible! My friend doesnt know how her relationship with evil boy is going. Shes thinking they might break up and Im hoping they do. Once school starts, I think she'll get even more frustrated with the relationship and itll end! (not that i want her to get dumped, but she can do WAY better!) Im thinking of doing something bad. I want to go visit a guy friend and um, have fun with him because i know his girlfriend knows he wants me, so yah that would be super duper bad! I also have decided on my top 3 hottest guys: Steve of NFG, Matt Skiba, and Steve of PWTs. Im pretty sure that covers it, Kris Roe is in a very close 4th! hehe. My friends and I were discussing this and i couldnt think of anyone, but I think those 3 are it, for now!
January 20th, 2003
Blah, work was very boring. I sat in front of a computer ALL day. I put in wedding logs, which means I put in Brides Name, phone number, coat style, # in party, wedding date, employee number, invites, assoc. earnings, type of show, and email. And let me tell you, some of our sales people in the stores are as dumb as a box of rocks! And most of them can not write either! I left my purse in my desk, so i didnt do anything tonite, because i had no money or a drivers license. I really hate what this guy is doing to my best friend but she doesnt see it. Every time i talk to her she talks about him and he sounds like such a jerk!!!!!! Why cant she see what a butt he is?? grrrr, hopefully soon. No update on my boy (or lack of boy). I was kind of waiting for him to come online, so that I could talk to him, but it doesnt look as if hes coiming back! Oh well, maybe some other time... until next time!
January 19th, 2003
So, Saturday was kinda boring. Umm, I went shopping, got some argyle socks. Some sunglasses, and DVD's. New Found Glory and JEW. I wanted Sugarcult but it wasn't in the case, it was sliding around. Chilled at perkins for a bit. I made a new menu item, lol. It was a hit in the kitchen. Its the chocolate chipper minus the ice cream and with pb choc. chip cookie instead. So basically, the cookie, hot fudge, and whip cream...
Sunday I worked at a bridal show. That was pretty fun. Got to try some goodies and see some people I know. Saw my boys (technically my lack of boys) bestfriend and his fiance. I slightly streaked my hair "tempted peach" or strawberry blonde, its kinda visible, but my scalp is oragne! lol. My bestfriend is psuedo in a fight with her boy. Shes going over there tonite, and Im kinda hoping they break up. (as evil as that sounds, I do have my reasons, I just cant tell her them. She wouldnt believe me anyways. I think hes messing her and leading her around etc...)So, now Im just working on my page, wondering if I should IM my boy, or leave it in his hands. Im gonna leave it up to him, since i normally IM him.
January 17, 2002
So, this new year, hasnt been all its cracked up to be. It seems like nothing has gone rite. Im still chasing after the same guy, I can't stand my best friends boyfriend. And I wonder if she considers me her best friend because the other day she said I was a "close friend", but did not say best. So, what else has gone wrong? Oh the two weekends that were supposed to be the last fun i have before I return to school, have both been ruined.
Ok, the story behind not liking my best friends boyfriend... Well, last Saturday nite we all went to The Warehouse to support our friends band. Well, before his band played the boyfriend decides to tell me hes not attracted to me. ??? Fine by me, Im not attracted to him either. Then he proceeds to tell me that I'm EMO. I dont label myself, but yah i do tend more towards emo/punk then pop punk, hardcore, and just plain old punk. Then he proceeds to tell me that Emo girls are unatractive, androgynous, and they all look exactly the same and its a good thing i dont wear emo glasses because they look horrible on girls. Now, at the time I tried to play it off, for the sake of not ruining the show. Well, later i talked to my friend about it, so she in turn talks to him about and hes like well it was a joke. Well, it was the 3rd time i hung out with him! Im sorry, but you shouldnt be making fun of the way someone looks if you dont know whats going to offend them! Well, a few days later I was at Perkins with another friend. And i see some friends walk in and then i see him. One guy starts walking over and the boyfriend follows. So we are all talking and he goes, so i hear you hate me? And i responded with, i never said that (cuz i didnt). Hes like well you dont like me. (uhhh, duh!) He then asks me if I know what androgynous means. so i say yes and then he asks me to give him the definition. so i do. (and i HATE, absolutly HATE it when people asume i dont know "big" words, i may be blonde, but im not stupid!!!!!!) So, he goes its not a bad thing. So my friend responds with, well its not quite a compliment either! And hes like, you have tits! (grabs himself) So i look down and go Oh really? Is that what those are? I didnt know! And then hes like so you hate me? And i say no, i just have a strong dislike for you. And he walks away.
Also, this weekend i was supposed to go to madison, but my friends pips burst in her building, so thats out. And next weekend I was supposed to see alkaline trio in mnpls, but the tour was cancelled. So all my fun before school is done. I get to sit at home, stare at the wall, and cry myself to sleep at nite.
Ok, so now i wanna talk about my boy. Well, hes not quite mine, but we can pretend. See, he may have a girlfriend, but hes never mentioned her to me, ever. We talk alot, sometimes hang out. He seems to be interested, but one can never know. I plan on talking to him soon. Heres what i want to say, or something similar:
"I like you, and most of the time, you seem to like me too. I think that if you like me, you should kiss me. If you dont like me, just tell me."
Because it has become obvious to me that i really like him and care for him. There have been two main things that have shown me this. One, I had a dream where i told him the above idea and he responded with, "I really like you, but my current girlfriend is safe, with you I think Id get hurt because i like you too much." Two, I got angry at him when I found out he wasnt going to school this semester. He plans to go in the summer and fall to another school and didnt want to waste money on classes that wouldnt transfer. I understand this, but I want him to go to school and become something. So these events have scared me. They have shown me the depths of my emotions. Im afraid to talk to him, but I know i have to..
Heres some older stuff from another page:
February 10,2002
I hate my job. No, not really. Just on Sundays. Why do peope expect me to drop everything and help them,yet when I ask for help I get "oh yah sure..." and than no one ever comes to help me? I don't quite get people. I don't think I ever will. but it's ok, because I just go home and sleep and/or listen to music and forget them.

February 11, 2002
School was definatly interesting. I swear I know more about computers than my IS (information systems) professor. I almost fell asleep, like last Monday! Than I listend to some emo and hardcore punk rawk. Ohhh, yah and I totally checked out a guy who kinda resembled Gabe from Midtown. And almost fell out of my chair while doing it... See, he was sitting behind me in the student center like place. Yah, fun times. Too bad he didn't have blue hair...cuz blue=yummy. Watch SLC Punk to see why.

WEEKEND!!! Feb 15-16-17 2002
Well, where do I start?? My best friend came ome from college! yea! So we hung out. She got her bottom navel pierced and I went with, which was a big step for me cuz Im deathly afraid of needles. Also, we went swinging! Our park finally got its swings back. (They went MIA for quite sometime this summer...) hmmm, I went to Perkins and got some funy kids glasses that cut out your side view and all you can see is like your pupils. I did not see the guy I like... It was sad. Work on Saturday was ok, but Sunday SUCKED! Don't talk to me about being a team player. I ALWAYS help people out but whenevr I ask for help they all say 'yah sure, we'll help' but the thing is no one ever helps me so dont EVER tell me Im not a team player! So, some kid spills pop so I tell a manager and ask to send maitnence to the spot, he tells me to get a mop. I said I dont have time to mop. Thats why we have a maintenence department. And than I walked away. Soon enough the manager himself came to mop it up. Its about time... And thats about the extent of my weekend. Ohhhhhhhh, I bought a new STD cd. fun fun times... 'Till tomorrow!

February 18, 2002
I got a new camera today so I can take pictures at shows! Yea! No more disposable cameras for me! I also bought a Dean Koontz book, but who knows when I'll have time to read it. I will prolly try to read for about a 1/2 hour before bed. I have 2 tests tomorrow, but Im not to worried about Accounting, but econ has me a bit worried. I got an 80 out of 100 on my math test. A lot of it was stupid little mistakes! grrrrr... My rental units are leaving tomorrow for a week. Which makes me happy, Im soooo sick of them. Countdown to Showoff: 5 days (its the 23rd, at nite!)

February 19, 2002
Well, econ test prolly didnt go so well. Acconting, piece of cake! Woohooo! I know that stuff like the back of my hand! I now have enough stamps to get a free sub at subway (with purchase of med pop) So thats exciting....yaaaaaaaah..... I won't bore you with how much work SUCKED. Im starting to really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really hate it their. Im thinking about quiting. But not really. I would like to but it would not b a helpful/good thing to do. I feel like crying today! grrrrrrr.... hopefully tomorrow will better. Countdown to Showoff: 4 Days!!!!!!

February 20, 2002
Well today was just your average day. I went to school, boring. I had to take my car in. Theres something wrong with the gas guage. They need to order a part, so it wont get fixed for like another week and a half. I need a hair cut. Its getting shaggy. I also made a very important discovery. I am so totally over someone! I can now say "What the hell was I thinking when I liked him??". So its all good i can officialy move on, to his friend... Days to Showoff:3 Days!! I want to get a Showof hoodie that day!