So tired
Mood:  crushed out
Topic: Random
Evening, How are you?
Well today, I feel like crap. My day was alright enough, nothing big happened that should have made me feel so crappy, I guess it's just all the little things that add up. My new classes started today, they're gonna be just fine, I hope. I got seventy two on my geography exam, not bad at all, if I do say so myself. Im quite happy with that mark.
I dont know, I just... I guess If you want me to be honest, I feel like I've done something to make my "friends" treat me differently. Like I said, just little things. Today, I was looking forward to going to a class cause my friend said she'd sit with me, and save me a seat, and when I got there, the seats around her were filled, and I was even told that the seat I did sit in was "for someone else." I don't know, it was just ... Blah. and right now, I really really miss my friends from Jamaica, no, I'm not gonna beat around the bush, I'm honest here. I miss them so much that it hurts sometimes. Well, Alot of the time, ok? And it's even harder when I can't get through on the phones. And right now, my hands are really cold, and that's making me ... sad... i guess. I dont like bieng sad. But that's how I feel today. It's dark outside, kinda like reflecting how I feel. I listened to Metallica for the first time in a long long while today, mabye that made me more depressed. It's very possible.
And there's also the stress adding up of what the hell im going to do with my life. TO be honest, I havent got a clue, but these are my three options right now.
1) Get a job as a flight attendant with West Jet, move to Calgary. (Really really want this one)
2) Stick around, go to cap, waste a year deciding what to take (that's my second choice, duh)
3) Go for a year at CBC (Mmmmm mabye not?)
and there's also the stress of ... just everything in general. Work, School, YOUTH GROUP!
Speaking of that, I dont know what to do about that anymore. I go, and I feel just ... dissapointed, and to be honest, every time I go, I get more and more depressed. I walk in the sanctuary on a wednday night, and, without even looking, I know where people will be sitting. Whit will be in her usual spot, with mabye one other person in the bench beside her. Tabs, Lindsey, And all them, they'll be across the aisle, no doubt with Kirstie, who hasn't said a word to me for the past two months, almost. Marianne will be in the row behind kirstie, all the grade 11 and 12 guys and girls, "the popular ones" will be in the back two rows, talking to each other.
*sigh* you know, I havent got much else to say. Hope you are feeling better than I am. Later for now. Oh, and for the last time, would you please post a comment if you are reading this, cause if No one does, Im not gonna continue updating.
Just takes a second. Thanks
Ash

"I hold my breath
As this life starts to take it's toll
I hide behind a smile
As this perfect plan unfolds
But, oh, God
I feel I've been lied to
Lost all faith
In the things I have believed"

Tempratures Rising
Mood:  loud
Topic: Random
Hey-lo people. Whats new? well, just to let you know, the concert was absoloutely amazing, though Im sure that you have already heard all about it. First, Sara came out and sang this song with Delerium, it was cool. Then, Delerium played a few songs, which was good, the lead singer lady was good. I asked the people who were sitting beside me who she was, cause I didnt know, and they were like "isnt that Avril Lavigne?" And i was like.. NO! But they didnt believe me, oh well. Ok, so then Chantal Kreviazuk played some songs, including "Blue: and "In this Life". Then Raine Maida came onto the stage, and he and Chantal sang "Running to Stand still" which was really well done. The song "Running to stand still", originally off of U2's "The Joshua Tree" album was quite a suprise, but without doubt, they pulled it off quite nicely. Then they sang "Bridge over Troubled water" and "Innocent" which was amazing. I was quite moved. OK, then Sum 41 came out onto the stage, which wasnt so bad, they did a good job, they held the crowds attention. They even dissed Bush, which, I dont think should have been brought into the night, but it's all good. We Shrugged it off, and enjoyed the rest of their performance. THEN, Ok, the suprise guest came out. You'll never guess who it was. Well, im sure you already know, so I'll hop right to it. Robin Williams. As he was introuduced, it was a shocked moment of silence before the screams and cheers errupted. Im not even kidding you, he was only there for like, five minutes, but the energy was insane after that. imagine, we saw robin williams! He was good, he introduced the next band as "every young mans fantasy, THE BARE NAKED LADIES"
it was kinda funny. So then they played a bunch of songs, Like "if i had a million dollars, it's all been done" and much more. Guess what, they even did THE CHICKEN DANCE! They had everyone in GM Place doing the chicken dance in perfect harmony with them. IT was so funny to see. Ok, then Avril Lavigne came onstage, looking as Un-punk as I've ever seen her, but gorgeous all the same. She was alright, but really off key the whole time, which sucked for her. At one point, I was just sitting there, and was like, Ok, Avril, Play my song, play my song, and guess what? She did, it was great. She played Nobodys home, and did a good job, just her and the guitar. It was really nice. Then, This little choir with drums sang the song that usually goes "Soon and very soon, we are gonna see the king" but instead of saying that, they sang "soon and very soon, we are gonna change the world"
and they did a good job. They dropped some hot beats too, it was great stuff.
Then the moment we had all been waiting for. Sara McLauchlan. Not only was she absoloutely Gorgeous (just for you mike), her voice blew everyone away. She Sang Fallen, Hold on, And a few others, finally ending with Angel. (Naturally) It sure was beautiful. Then Everyone (except Robin Williams!) came back onto the stage, and finished off with "I shall be released" and "Hey Jude"..
It was quite the good concert, I had a really good time, even if I was a bit tired by the end of it.
Not only was it alot of fun, together, it raised over 2 million dollars for Tsunami Releif. Good on ya, Vancouver.
So yeah, Yesterday was Sunday, I worked all day, and around 4:30, Sean called and was like.. Can you babysit tonight? And I was like, umm what time?
"when can you be here?" he asked. That was great, so I just packed up my stuff and went, had a bit of a relaxer, it was nice. Im headed there tonight too, so thats a bit of money in the pocket, it's good. Plus, I really missed the kids too. They got back around 8pm, which was really early, and unexpected. So then I went over to Tricias, where we all sat around upstairs chatting, Jim Complaining mostly, and telling us how much Sara McLauchlan sucked. Beleive me, I had something to say about that, Me and MJ. Ha ha, we didnt let him get away with that comment. So a good time was had by all. And today, I got up around eight, and went to go get a coffee before my first provincial exam. It was no big deal, I think i did alright. I finished in good time, with fifteen minutes to spare. Then I went on an errand for mom, got her some table cloth thing, and had some lunch at Pizza hut with Tricia. It was good fun. So now, here I am, getting ready to bbsit for Sean again tonight, wishing you the most awesome of afternoons.
Love you all!
love forever: Shle
xoxo

"Deeper than the ocean
And wider than any sea
You make me feel high like heaven
Its more than a dream come true
To me your like the sun brightening my day
Happy ending of any story
With an angles glow You bring my soul Joy"
Nina Sky, "Tempratures Rising"

Can you feel the beat?
Mood:  mischievious
Topic: Random
Good afternoon, whats up homies? WELL, Im in a super good mood, I just had a totally relaxing day, which was wicked-cool. I woke up around nine-thirty, because the phone was ringing off the hook. But by the time I had gotten to the phone, guess what? It stopped ringing. Suprise, suprise. Then, I lay down for another half an hour, until I got interrupted by the phone again, but this time, it was my daddy. He wanted me to drive to the superstore, and meet him there, so we could go and run some errands together. So meet him I did, we went, first, to delbrook to measure some windows, and then found our way to Cap mall to pick up our tickets for tonights concert. As we stepped out of wal-mart into the main mall, a sign for the "PSYCHIC FAIR" caught my eye. Meters away from it, was a table, at which sat three young people. From behind, I could recognize only one, because she sat on an angle to the table, so I saw her face. It was Samantha, and, laughing to myself, I assumed she had something to do with the psychic fair. So I walked around to the front of the table, ready to say hello, and then I recognized the other two youths at her side. It was Woody and Bobby! Then, I realized that there is no chance in this world that Woody and Bobby would have anything to do with that. it turns out that they were doing some ... umm, whats it called, anyways, they were publicizing this concert for Charity, for Urban Bridge. So They asked me to also help advertize for it! So here it is, guys, free web advertisement. The concert is Sunday, February 20th, 2005, from seven pm, to nine thirty, at north shore alliance church. The cost is seven bucks at the door. here's the worst part! NO DRINKING OR DRUGS! I mean, what kind of concert is this gonna be if we cant be high? Woody, of course agreed with me, as he shrugged his shoulders, shaking his head.
"We were gonna play hammed," he admitted, "until these rules were put into place"
SO YEAH! for those of you who wil be in province for this event, I strongly suggest that you go for it! My dad and I are gonna go, so it's gonna be great.
I suggest you try to fit into your calendar, it looks like a good show. Plus, Woody and Bobby are gonna play, so yeah!
After that little chat, dad and I headed to ticketmaster, got our tix, and then chilled for a bit around the mall. I went and bought some rings at Ardene (or was it claires?) cause i thought my fingers could use sprucing up. Plus, I was bored.
SO YEAH! Then, we came home, and watched the movie Men of Honor, and Dad didnt even fall asleep! he must've liked it. Thanks to Aunt betty for buying it for me at christmas!
SO now, we're just heading out to the concert, Im wishing you the best of evenings, hope it's great!
Love you all
love forever: Shle
xoxo

P.S. The musical tidbit for the day is dedicated to my good friend, Rayon, who called me and had this playing in the background, which, suprised me, and made my day none the less. Oh, and sorry this is so short, but I gotsta go see Avril, Sara, Chantal, Sum 41 and more! Have a gooder!

"Oh Move your body girl
Makes the fellas go
The way you ride it girl
Makes the fellas go, oh
Can you feel the beat within my heart
Can't you see my love shine through the dark
Can't you see that you must be a part
Of that beat in my heart"

living in Wonderland like my name was Alice
Mood:  silly
Howdy cowpolks! Whats the good word? Well, the good word here is that I'm alive. Last night, I got bored, so I went to the movie store and rented a movie called "Soul Plane". It was quite hot, stupid though it was. I dont reccomend it for people who dont think Snoop Dogg is hot, ha ha, which will be about 99% of you. Oh well, what can you do?
Anyways, it was about this guy who didnt like other airlines, so he started one of his own, and it turned out to be quite the adventure. The plane was pimped out, man, it was purple velvet on the outside, with spinners and everything! IT even had dice in the mirror! And Snoop Dogg was the Pilot, but he passed about halfway through the flight, 'cause he didnt like heights, and he had never flown a plane before. It was so funny! But like I said, really stupid too.
I also rented this movie called "From Hell" which I havent watched yet, it's a Johnny Depp movie, set in the timeframe of Jack the Ripper, so it's bound to be a gooder. Anyways, I woke up this morning, at like nine thirty, far too early if you ask me. From there, I chilled around the house for a bit, then, I went to sears to pick up some stuff for my dad, which took forever! Then, I came home, and left again to go get some postcards laminated so they wouldn't die. And then I came home, and spent about an hour on the phone. I tend to do that alot lately. But it's all in good fun.
ANNNNNND So now, we're up to this point. Im about to go get ready for work now, which should proove to be interesting, IM not sure who I'm working with tonight, but hopefully everything will be cris. I havent got much else to say, I just felt the need to update because.. I just did. So I hope you have great nights, Love you all!
Love Forever: Shle
xoxo

"When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today
And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today
Tomorrow it may change"

Today is the greatest
Mood:  a-ok
GUESS WHAT? Im in a good mood! Can you tell? Well, the day started off very insane-ly early! I woke up at six, then decided not to take a shower till after work, cause I knew I'd end up stinking like subway anyways, and I didnt want that. So I slept for another fourty minutes, then got up, got dressed, and went to work, where everyting was cris, there was a grand total of like, seven customers from eight am to like, 11 pm, in which I did all my work, then managed an hour of studying. It was grand. Then I went home, showered, and went to the school, where I ran into Whitney, who was having .. like, a study party in the biology room! Im not even joking, there was even popcorn and timbits! I wish I was as creative as that, then again, it would mean I'd have to study, and .. Im not too into that. Then, I had my geography exam, which I went into with a calm additude, and I'm fairly sure that I aced it. It was the easiest exam I've ever sat through, it took me one hour and twenty minutes. Then, I went home, and ended up running a couple of errands for mom, in preperation for supper tonight, and then came back, and got some absoloutely awesome news! Diago can come back! Now, for those of you who are confused as to what the heck i'm talking about, Diago is Tricias Stepfather, who was trying to get permission to come into Canada to live with them! I havent seen him in over six months, and I probably wouldn't have seen him for another six if he had not been accepted! Im so excited! SO CONGRATULATIONS!
I called Tina to say that, and Talked to them for a good few minutes, Diago and Tina are both quite excited, it was good to talk to them! :D
SO YEAH! Now, It's eleven minutes after five in the evening, and I'm gettin ready to go pick up Jeremiah for some good old fashioned mexican dinner going down here. Im not sure exactly how to get to Maplewood Farm, but I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually. HA HA, WOW IM IN SUCH A GOOD MOOD!
And so tomorrow, I'm sleeping in, Friday through tuesday I have no school, save for my english exam on monday, which will be a breeze. You know me, English is no problem mon!
SO YEAH! Im gonna go pick up JZ, have a great Night, love you all! Sorry this isnt too long, but.. meh! HAVE A WONDERFUL NIGHT!
Love forever: Shle
xoxoxo

"Something in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life"
Chantal Kreviazuk

Two in one day!?
Mood:  energetic
Topic: Random
Wow, can you believe it? Two entries in one day? ! ? ! It's almost insane, just almost. Just on the verge of it. Well, I was reading the post from earlier today, I figured someone had to, then I realized that it is totally random and useless. Ha ha. Kinda like me! So this update will probably be just as random and useless as the other one, but I feel like updating. When really, I should be studying.
So today was fairly easy, I went to school, half an hour early accidental, cause it was an ethos day, and since I was so early, I decided to work on my project for Info Tech, so that I wouldnt have to go to the class later. So I finished it, then went to geogrpahy, which was another waste of time, 'cause Mr. Earl just talked about nothing in particular. Though, I did find out that I got 44/50 on my 3D Model, which is alot better than what I expected. Then, I had another half an hour break, where I wandered around aimlessly, passing the Bio class which I would have been sitting in, were it not for my decision to drop it. As usual, Mrs. Valli was droning on about nothing in particular. Sorry to Whitney, who still has to deal with it. ;)
So yeah. Then, I had english class, where Mrs. Sandberg talked for a bit about the exam, and how she thought we'd all do great, and she handed back our personal philosophy, on which I got 88/100, which isn't bad, either. It's definately an A!
She told me as I left that she thought I'd do great on the original composition, so I'm alright with that, mon.
After school let out, I walked home, then went out with my mom. First, we went to rikis urban diner for lunch, which, all in all, was kinda gross and overpriced. Then, we went to Wal-Mart, where we both got a bit too excited for something that isn't happening for another 158 days. Yeah, I'm talking about Jamaica. My mom bought me a new bathing suit, and a suitcase! NO JOKE! Then I was like, ok, in a few weeks, I'll get some summer clothes. Then mom goes, "Now is the time to get it!" so I bought another bathing suit (I couldn't resist, the one mom got was all colorful, and so I bought a black one, same style) I also got like 5 tank tops, and two wrap-around things for my waist, one black, one white. I can't remember what they're called, but I really like them alot. They're quite hot, if you ask me. Anyways, Then we decided to get the heck out of there, before I spent all my money. Then, a friend of mine came over to the house, and chilled with me while I attempted to clean my room. Then, we went up to parkgate to get a pizza, and we went into subway to buy a cookie, where I was asked to open the store tomorrow. So I have to be there for like, seven AM, until like, 12. I have no problem with that, it's just more moola in my pocket, but then my problem is that I have no cramming time, which is why I should be studying right now.
But, as I opened my book about 15 minutes ago, and sat there to read through my notes, I couldn't concentrate on them. Now, it could have been one of three things. It could have been the Elephant man CD playing quietly in the background. And Im serious, it was quiet! It could have been the scent of pizza from the other room. It could have been .. I just didnt want to study. I vote for number three! What say you? AYE!
So today, I finally got ahold of Rayon to let him to know that I was going to come to Jamaica. I called, and he answered "Yo, wh'appen star?"
I guess he has caller ID or something. Anyways, then I proceeded to ask him what he was doing on July fifth at 1:15 in the afternoon, and when he said "nothing at all"
I asked him if he wanted to take a drive to Mo Bay to see me ! And then he got all excited, and we talked for about 30 minutes about .. random things, where I was gonna stay, and what we were gonna do, so yeah!
It was dope. It was good to talk to him, 'cause I haven't talked to him in a long while. Yeah. So there. Hey, I wonder when spring break is this year. Cause Im just gonna get as many hours as I possibly can, so that I can have some money! I need to ask my boss about that, or just be like, hey, this is spring break, give me as many hours as you possibly can, pretty pretty please? Oh yeah, I should probably tell him when Im gone this summer too, though, knowing him, he won't care till a week before I leave. That's the kind of boss he is, it's super dope. He's so flexible, he doesnt care if you want time off, just so long as you tell him. It's super cool. He's a really nice guy too, which is one of the reasons I love working at subway. This, by far, is one of the best jobs I've ever had, just because of the people that I work with, because I like them alot, they're fun to be around, most of them work hard, and also.. I love subway, so it's great working somewhere where I love what I do.
It's especially great, 'cause I know about 80% of the people who walk through the door, and it's good fun to be able to talk to them..
SOOO YEAH! Wow, I'm just having a great day today, isn't that fun? You know, I havent even told any of my extended family that I'm going away this summer, I've got to figure out a way to do that without endangering the well bieng of me or my parents (for letting me go) I can picture it now...
"HOW COULD YOU LET HER GO THERE AGAIN? AND ALONE FOR GOODNESS SAKES, ARE YOU CRAZY?"
blah blah blah. One person whom I know won't freak is my uncle steve, he'll simply give me a baseball glove. Ha ha ha, inside joke. But you probably get it anyways.
SO yeah, I really really should go study, Cause now the pre-exam jitters are starting to sink in. I need to go read about karst topography, apline and continental glaciation, ocean stuff, ect...
BLAH!
Have a beautiful Night, A great day tomorrow, I love you all!
Love forever: Shle
xoxo


The musical tidbit for the day is Dedicated to my mom, 'cause she's super cool, and I love her tons!

"And when you need me
I'll be there for you always
I'll be there your whole life through
I'll be there this I promise you, Mamma
I'll be your beacon through the darkest nights
I'll be the wings that guide your broken flight
I'll be your shelter through the raging storm
And I will love you 'till forever comes"
- Celine Dion

Here I am
Mood:  cheeky
Topic: Random
HEY GUESS WHAT? Im at school, isn't that fun? So instead of working, or studying, or something worthwhile, I have instead decided to update my blog. So here I am. Whats going on? Whitney has just decided not to study for english, which is just as productive as what im doing! "Stupid Exams" she says. Ha ha, Wow, im really really hyper today, so yeah. So last night, I spent like twenty five minutes on the phone with some random who was in Toronto, working for Air Canada. So yeah, I booked a ticket for JAMAICA!
I'm leaving on July fourth at 11:45 pm, then, Arriving in Toronto at 7:15, chillen there for like three hours, then heading to JAMAICA ! I arrive there at 1:15pm, hopefully Rayon will be there to pick me up, and BLAH! WoW, You wouldn't believe how friggen excited I was last night, I was bouncing off the walls, and I tried to call people, but noone was home! *sigh*
Then Whitney Called me while she was driving down the highway, which worried me, CAUSE THATS DANGEROUS! Ha ha ha, can't you just see Whintey driving down the highway with a cell phone on her ... ear..... i guess... chattin away.. hey, I dont even know where she was coming from! And you know what, while she was changing lanes, she stopped talking to me for a second! Arg, i was so hurt.
So this is quite random, yes? ? ?
So today is an ethos day, I have an exam tomorrow, which I have not even begun to study for. I think it's about geography, Im not 100% sure. Something like that. Ok, so then I have thursday, friday, saturday, AND sunday off (School) Till my english provincial on Monday, which I was just told that I will do very well on, by my English teacher.
Oh, Whitney just left, on the pretense of studying. Yeah right. Oh, and by the way, her brother is quite the hottie. Ha ha ha. Now I just got my project marked my Mr. Bell, which is dope, cause that means I can leave this class! So now, im going to go home, and have some lunch, and CHILL!
Love to you all,
Love Forever: Shle

"Lean on me, when you're not strong,
and I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on,
For, It wont be long, 'till I'm gonna need,
Somebody to lean on, I just might
have a problem, that You'd understand,
we all need somebody to lean on
Lean on me."