Suicide

I see the flesh tear,
Feel the burning pain,
A tear drops down my cheek,
As I realise I’m doing it again,
After everyone I promised,
I still go on and on,
I don’t wanna do it no more,
But it feels like the only way out,
I don’t wanna go through this no more,
But I cant see past this pain,
And at least when I’m hurting,
I can feel I’m still alive,
At least when I do it,
People sit up n notice,
At least that way,
I’m not totally ignored,
But I’m gonna have these scars forever,
Memories always gonna stay,
Tormenting me of my childhood,
Refusing to go away,
And so I lay this to rest,
And maybe myself soon too,
Cuz without the one you love,
Is there anything left for you? -----------------------------
True denial, am I suicidal?
As my pain mounts up
I really can't tell anymore
Now I am
I'm left by myself,
Fed up by thoughts
Will there be someone here to listen?
Self destructive, or call it what you want
Self deception, I do it time and time again
Can't put my life on hold
I need to catch my breath
Self destructive, or call it what you want,
Self deception, I do it time and time again
Halls of emptiness, filled up with my mistakes
Still rejected, all that's left is lonelines

All for you-
I was so happy when you asked me out, I loved being with you every minute without a doubt.
It felt so perfect, you always made me smile, we seemed like a cute couple, I thought it would last awhile.
I thought everything was going great, I didn't think anything was wrong, I thought I had the perfect relationship, I thought for once it would last long.
Until you called me one afternoon and these were the words you said, "I think we should break-up, I think we should just be friends."
When you said these words to me, the only thing I could do was cry,
You told me there was the future, but it was all a lie.
I'm gonna do something so stupid, and it's all because of you, I need to get out of here, and there's only one thing left to do.
I don't know why I choose to do this to myself, it's just the right thing to do, and I don't want any help.
I'm not gonna tell anyone, because I don't want them to be afraid, I'm gonna miss everyone, but I just can't seem to stay.
Now the pills are in my hand, and in the other is a knife, It's time for me to leave, the time just seems so right.
I took the pills and stabbed myself with the knife, this is all because of you that I choose to take my own life.
My time is slowly ending and I don't want anyone to worry, everything is starting to spin, everything is getting blurry.
I'm getting really dizzy, and I can't open my eyes, see if you had just stayed with me I would still be alive…