Silently Screaming

I can't eat
I can't sleep
I just want to drop to the floor and fall into that eternal sleep
No more bullsh*t
No more lies
No more dark nights full of unheard cries
No more pain
No more tears
What a waste of 20 years
Get the sh*t away from me
Go to hell
Why do you hear when I speak softly?
But never when I yell?
I’ve only been screaming for help for the past 8 years
And now you say you never saw it
Never heard my cries
What the hell do you call this mess I’ve gotten into?
Normal teenage sh*t?
Normal rage and hate?
This is what you call normal?
Wanting to die everyday
Thinkin’ of ways to end it all
Wondering how much it would hurt to make my brains paint the wall
Wondering if the blood would get your attention
Maybe then, only then you'll see all the sh*t I said
Help me I’m crashing
Falling
I see no other way out
No way up
This has to be the end
It’s gotta stop
Right now
Right here
No more giving it another year
No more “one last chance’’
I’m through dancin’ this dance
Ring around the friggen roses
Pockets full of posies?
Hell no
Razor blades and notes I made
Tear stained face and blood-covered clothes
All that's left, all that's known
Goodbye to you, fvck you all
Go away now, let me Rest In Peace
Don’t act like you never saw it coming
Like the signs weren't there
Just turn your back like you always did