ten thousand miles
Topic: 2004
i cant tell you anything or maybe i dont want to
because when i start to theres nothing you can do
and theres nothing that you want to say
i bet you want to push me away
and you dont understand

more than ten thousand miles away
that's how it feels thats how it is
so i shouldn't really worry today
but thats how it feels thats how it is

sometimes you reach inside of me and tear me apart
you dont even realize its you who has my heart
so tonight i have decicided to do something else
something other than getting lost in myself
and you dont understand

more than ten thousand miles away
thats how it feels thats how it is
so i shouldnt really worry today
but thats how it feels thats how it is

could you even bring yourself to wipe away my tears?
can you stand in front of me and make everything clear?
because i'm searching for something new
and at first it thought it was you
but your the same, your just as old
and my world is starting to unfold

more than ten thousand miles away
thats how it feels thats how it is
so i shouldnt really worry today
but thats how it feels thats how it is

Me
Topic: 2004
It always feels like I'm the only one
Who feels this used and this dumb
Sometimes I wanna destroy the sun
and let myself feel cold and numb

I wanna break out, I wanna scream
But it never sounds as good
I wanna lay down and go to sleep
and never wake up like I should

I frusterate myself all of the time
There's never a moment thats okay
I'm getting sick of myself
and the stupid good times
And I'm tired of the good days

I wanna break out, I wanna scream
But it never sounds as good
I wanna lay down and go to sleep
And never wake up like I should

I wanna cry but my tears won't pour
I wanna die and not live anymore
I'm biting myself and the pain is a relief
Because now there's nothing left for me to beleive

I'm that dark shadow on your wall
And I'm just as scared as you are
Will you stand with me as the rain falls
Because I'm just as scared as you are

Don't you wanna break out and scream?
Nothing in this world seems good
Don't you wanna lay down and go to sleep
And never wake up like they say you should

Never let you go
Topic: 2004
I am so stupid stupid stupid
Do you realise how crazy i am?
And i am falling falling falling
Do you really even give a damn
But i know you do
Yes i know you do
And that is why...

I love you so
And I'll never never never
let you go

You are the one who cared
When I thought everything was gone
And you were always there
When I thought that I was wrong

So please tell me tell me tell me
If everything will be the same
I just need to know, know, know
Because I really feel so lame
But I know you will
Yes i know you will
And that is why...

I'm feeling FAKE
and I know nothing is true
I'll let you go
I never loved you so..

Not in
Topic: 2004
Pushing these palms against my head
and clawing at this desk
I'm so over ridden by all of this shit
I'm so under stated, I created the itch
I'm pushing so fucking hard
and making so much fucking mistakes
I'm just erasing it all so hard
I'm making everything that I can't take

I will throw all of this into your face
And mess it up even more, just for you
Figure it out before I leave this place
Just give me something to do

I'm not in for this fucking shit
Don't screw with me or you'll get worse
You'll get everything I know
you'll get all of my fucking words
So say it or I'll spray this
I can't understand any of it
But maybe you will so say it
Cause if you don't
I'll fuckin cut it.

I wanna waste your time, I wanna use your time
I want to take it all and make it rhyme
I wanna break these fingers and all of the pressure contained
I wanna take back all of my pain that I've previously drained
Cause all of this hate and hurt is everything I love
I don't care about the fucking god that sits above

Just be happy, just be glad, just be okay
Be relieved I'm not saying anything that I should say
Be anonymous for all the fucking things that'll make you pay
Bite all of this, I've got a disease, I hope your pleased
cause your giving me this itch, I'm not in for this shit
I'm definately not in for this fucking shit.

What i always need
Topic: 2004
Please
I'm drifting away
I would like to cry
And waste my time
They expect so much of me
When
I'm screaming
Will you hear me
Will you save me
Or just stare
I'll blink my tears away

Falling is so much better
Than to stay on my feet
Falling is so much better
I'll never get what I always need

Listen
To the desperate cries
The unreal lies
And slowly start to die
Fake
Pictures on my wall
I hope they fall
Because I've already lost it all

Falling is so much better
Than to stay on my feet
Falling is so much better
I'll never get what I always need

What happened to my light
Who will help me fight
The memories I never had
It makes me fade and it makes me sad
To know....

So sober
Topic: 2005
Your drunk so tell me that you love me
cause i know that you would
like i know that you do
so tell me, and we'll drink this night away
until tomorrow, another painful day..

I'm sorry that i'm worth nothing
I can't help it if I live in this screen
I'm sorry that your falling out
you dont understand whut i mean

I'm sorry that you feel it more
I can't push away my feelings today
I'm sorry that I don't feel at all
you never knew whut it was like for me

Your stoned so tell me how you feel
cause i know that you would
like i know that you do
so tell me, and we'll smoke this night away
until tomorrow, another painful day..

Not so easy
Topic: 2004
Every day just seems the same here
I keep wishing I was back home.. in my room
Every day wishing there'd be no fears
And everything would seem good and new
But instead I'm found here on the floor
Trying to hide my scars and blood
Just hidden behind the door
Where no one can see me..
Where no one.. cares

Smiles come like the wind and the rain
Fake as happiness, covering the pain
It's not so easy to pretend
It's not so easy for this to end..

Trying to change the way I think
I keep wishing to be someone else
Trying hard not to fall and sink
But I can't love anybody, not even myself
Cause if anybody really wanted to know
They'd try to understand just for me
But instead I watch people come and go
They pass by my door
Where no one can see me..
Where no one.. cares

Smiles come like the wind and the rain
Fake as happiness, covering the pain
It's not so easy to pretend
It's not so easy for this to end...

Now I'm sitting here, holding the knife
Trying to live on with my life
I know this is all wrong
But I don't know where I belong..

You're real
Topic: 2004
Your spinning around and around
Twisting and turning, then you fall on ground
That's your wonderful stand-fall routine
And they destroyed your perfect scene
Why is everyone being so mean?
Why is everyone crushing your dream?

Their disgusted with you cause your real
And because they can't feel what you feel
Your genuine inside, your one of a kind
Your different and your hard to find

So all they do is push you down
And help you back up but only to steal your crown
This isn't fair, its not a game
It's not your fault your not the same
Their only jealous, they dont hate you
Cause what did you ever do?

Their disgusted with you cause your real
And because they can't feel what you feel
Your genuine inside, your one of a kind
Your different and your hard to find

But your not alone cause I'm like you too
I can do the things you do
They don't matter, their only fake
They don't give, they only take
So just stay true, nothing wrong with you
Cause I know how it feels too

Their disgusted with you cause your real
And because they can't feel what you feel
Your geunine inside, your one of a kind
Your different and your hard to find

It's not normal
Topic: 2004
Walking through dreams that I am trying to forget
And they are making me regret,
things that I have done and said
I'm finding my thoughts and I, dead.
Your on the inside, I'm on the outside.

Running through the future while it all passes by
And I'm trying to forget this lie
that I've told too many times to you
I find myself with nothing to do.
Your on the inside, I'm on the outside.

And everything inside that I'm erasing
is everything I've always been chasing.
The stupid things I have to say
To keep it all from going away.
The wishes that I dream about
Won't ever be coming out
so just listen to my complaining
and try and stop me from explaining.

If it's all inside my head, then help me get it out
Cause you'll never really know what I'm all about
The words that I write down, the lines that wait in inside
Are always waiting to fall, their tired, they always hide.
But..
your on the inside, I'm on the outside.

Lyndon [November 4]
Topic: 2004
We'll play a never ending game
That's wrong and unknown and unamed
You make a bloody line and I will too
And we'll pass the knife back and forth
It'll be all we're ever gonna do..
It's how far we're gonna get, not us anymore.

I don't know why I'm crying
I don't know if it's cause you did it
Or if it's cause of how much it hurt..
Well I don't know why I'm trying
I don't know if it's cause I'm lonely
and cause I feel like fucking dirt?
You'll always be everything
You'll always be nothing..
Equalize and equal me and you too.

Don't you know that I was exactly like you?
I did everything your doing and I still do
I know how you feel and I know it's shit
It feels like your drowning in your own spit
But please, don't go that far, not at all..
cause once you do, you know it's me who'll fall..

I don't know why I'm crying
I don't know if it's cause you did it
Or if it's cause of how much it hurt..
Well I don't know why I'm trying
I don't know if it's cause I'm lonely
and cause I feel like fucking dirt?
You'll always be everything
You'll always be nothing..
Equalize and equal me and you too.

I always wished that I met somebody like you
But now I don't know how to deal with it, what to do..
I know how much it hurts, it's fucking hell
But I hope and if he's listening, I pray..
I just hope the sickness will pass and get to me
Before it gets to you..
I hope your well.

Well maybe I don't understand anything at all
Maybe you think I'm someone pushing til you fall
I don't know what you think and I guess I never will
I just hope I can be your cure for whatever's making you ill.