hiya peoples! this is my new site and well you have wait till I can get everything together to even think about saying anything bad about it.. aighty..? anyways.. I'm out peoples... much love
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Signed,
. · . - Jáÿ J - . · .
1/27/02
Today I went to my nana's to spend the day with my gurly Lianne and well she made me cry =tear= but wes all good.. she is writting a letter to Josh for me cause I'm not doing so good with out him. yesturday I was at my Grammies and I was playing deer hunter 5 and I was chaseing a bear and well he turned on me and started to chase me.. I was frecking out like he was gonna come through the screen... I thought he was gonna eat me.. =giggles= but anyways peoples I must be going cause my mama is mad that I ain't been sleeping and she caught me on here at 3:00 am this morning.. so she really dun want me plus I got homework up the butt... lates everyone..
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. · . - Jáÿ J - . · .
1/30/02
okay peoples I think it is coming along nicey and I dun care what you all think about it cause I love it. A lot better than my other crap site. And you gotta love the backgrounds.. =does alittle dance= but anyways peoples I'm out cause I'm at home with my brother sicker than a dog. love ya all lates
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. · . - Jáÿ J - . · .
look at what I can do Žá¢¶{ Žáþ I know the Z code... I think I might even do those codes for you loving people too... =huggies= love ya's!
2/4/02
Okay Jenn needs to cover some major shit here. Scott (my eX) told me the other day that he wanted to go out with me and was giving me the eyes and shit and then told me he wanted to do me. He even screamed it out in front of everyone. I was like "what the fuck?" =raises an eye brow= he didn't think nothing of it. But today he made THE biggest and I mean BIGGEST mistake. Cristy Kristi. One name for the all of it. Stupidest person I have ever met. She and him are now going out. Everyone knows how much I hate that fricker ricker! And well he did it to piss me off and kissed right in front of me. I was so pissed I was gonna kick the snit right out of her. I hate it when people do that. Plus she has gotten me into so much snit lately it ain't funny. I have been to the principal's office for like three school days about her. I'm a "gang banger" so I'm told by Mrs. P . It makes me mad to cause she told me I needed to chose my friends better I was like EXCUSE ME? and she told me I was gonna get a two day out of school if I am even near a fight. I swear I was gonna hit her so hard. And then when my "friend" James told me to be nice to her I was like excuse me? I think not. He was like shut up and then Scott called me a bitch I was like "you need to shut the fuck up right now" and he started to laugh. I wanted to just rip his big ears off... =growls= everything makes me so mad lately. [ not the mention what I read on Lianne's Site] hun please stop writting things about me on your site if you are mad or not. that makes me mad to and I'm about to blow from what I read. But I ain't gonna say nothing although if you have disowened me and dun care then why do you talk to me now? I ain't saying nothing and I ain't ragging on no one. but that tips my to the point. You wanna bring it hun go a head you know I'll kick your butt =giggles= anyways people I gotta blow off some steam. Lates. =po0fers=
. · . - Jáÿ J - . · .
2/5/02
Today I had a freacked up day. I had a bad day at school like always... what's new? but then I came home after I went shopping in B-town which was okay but everyone was looking at me cause I was wearing my bandana like tupac towards the front to the left... and they did it at school too. Like always, anyways I came home and got on here. Robbie was suppous to get on and talk to me but never did and that made me mad. Everyone today has been ignoring me. They always do that though. =shrugz= so it isn't anything new. But then my friend Nick tells me that he doesn't care anymore about anything. and he started ragging on himself I can't take it when peoples do that to themself. My friend Chris and Drew did the same thing and I can't talk to them when they are like that not at all. They are so un easy to talk to and no matter what you say to them, they dun care. It's like you dun want my help then freck you. But anyways I feel like shit right now cause three of my close friends and well my really really close friend Nick aren't talking to me. =shrugz= I guess though I ain't got a worse life so whatever lates everyone.
Much love
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-me-
2/6/02
Hey guys-
well today I got snit from everyone once again for making a state ment. But yeah hmm I was standing in the halls like I always do and I was talking to Andrea. This really hott guy that goes to our school. And well this gurl that I hang out with Katie pooplis. She came up and started talking to Andrea and then when he said he had to go she asked him if she could have a hug. She does this to everyone. I was like "Kaite do you HAVE to hug everyone?" she told me "no but he is a cutie" I was like "gurl you ask everyone to hug you.. you think you are all that and more. well sorry to bust your bubble but you isn't" and she got mad and I walked up to some guy I didn't even know and asked them if I could have a hug and then I told him I was Katie. Everyone was laughing I was just like =growls= GAWD... She really annoys me. She always complains about everything and everyone.. Always picking on them and they are people she likes. She tells me I pick on her a lot and when I called her a hippacrit she had a frecking fit. I was like shut up. And our school ain't good enough for her. never will be cause she can't talk to her "friends" meets and gurl at the bolling alley that has gone out with her ex boyfriend and they think that they are gonna kick his butt. I was like okay whatever you guys are lame. she does it for everyone and well never has yet. =rolls my eyes= anyways I'ma out peoples. =po0fers=
-me-
2/7/02
Today: well today was okay I guess although I haven't been talking to the K-K-K word.. who I was talking about before. So I carried around my coodie gun and shot everyone. I think it was cute and some other people did. some were like quit that just cause they was with there boyfriends. Sorry I ain't got no one to impress in that school. 0o0o0 and me and my Matt Matt are talking. And well Scott wanted to hug me today and I was like umm no.. and then well the rest of my day was pretty good. I'm out! lates
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-me-
2/9/02
Hey peoples today I went slidding it was so frecking cool! ummm V DAY is comming up and I ain't to happy cause I dun think I'll hear or see from someone maybe his name is Josh... But yeah I guess he is back from FL and will prolly send me a letter.. anyways I gotta go cause his sis is here.. lates
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-me-
2/10/02
heya peoples. I have been doing some thinking, some things that I need aren't here. Like Josh I miss him a lot. But like I dunno if he is ever gonna come home to me. And I dun think he'll forgive me for what I have done to him. And well he is back in Vermont =dances= but I dunno if he will write back to me prolly to my cousin telling her that he never wants to hear from me again and not to call his sis or mom. =shrugz= and if that is to happen to tell you the truth I ain't sure if I can live like that. You know what I mean? that is gonna hurt me. I would rather not hear from him. And then get a phone call and have him yell at me. Or come to my house and beat the snit out of me. Prolly that's what would happen. =shrugz= I dunno what to do anymore. I mean a lot of people like me a lot on here, like Robbie, and "nick" I ain't so sure. it could be like he said and he is just tired but I ain't sure. So yeah. I dunno. my life is really confusing but anyways people I'm out right now. To do nothing cause like no one is talking to me like always. No one signs my guest book. No one is prolly even reading this. No one calls me, damn no one emails me. freck I'm messed. Anyways I'm out to do nothing seeing how I have done all my homework to the "best" of my ablitty =giggles= umm yeah sure! =po0fers=
-me-
2/11/02
Today betrayed once again.. how nice hun? Katelyn is so dumb... I dun really wanna talk about why I'm mad at her but ummm My best friend Liza... well she has been hanging out with this girl named Jill... And I mean it's cool with me cause she is way cooler than me. But they way I ask her to do something she says no then the next minute she asks her to do the same thing only them two though. So if she wanna be like that then freck her.. I'm waiting for some peoples to get there butts on though. so if I have more to add I will later. Oh I added a song/poem to the poems part that I wrote. Anyways lates. =po0fers=
-me-
2/12/02
Today proved my life sucks. First off I got Katelyn the little fricker ricker that betrayed me. Now I got my "best Friend" Liza that is blowing me off.. well it has been like this. Then this morning I Marie came up to me and told me that Liza hates my guts and never wants to talk to me again. And we have alittle book that we write in.. well she twore it apart. In School I had a frecking pot leaf drawn in there. I mean she told one teacher and I would be done for. I mean what the hell did I do to her? nothing at all. Maybe I ignored her a couple of times. But that was because of my home life and wasn't talking to anyone. I mean god. Sorry I ain't Mrs. Perky all the time. I mean why get mad at me? When I need her the most? I have like 2 people I talk to. In a school of like 300. And people say I'm cool. I'm too much of a bitch. Josh doesn't want me back officialy. =pouts= And well with the whole Liza thing. If anyone should be mad it should be me. I ain't the one who blew her off for nothing. What did she do? She wasn't even a best friend when I really needed her. I told her stuff and she went and told eveyone. She made everyone think I was a playa. And well she was just never there. But I loved her a lot. She was there sometimes. When I was in trouble and left.. It was to her house that I went. I have a lot of good memories with her. I want her to know that I ain't really mad just disapointed. I ask again what did I do? Robbie wants to go back out with me. I said no. I dunno what to do about my life. I mean look at my poem I wrote. I'm really getting to the point. I can't tell my mom cause she is prolly gonna send me to another god damn skrink. So anyways people I know I dun have any friends and peoples aren't even reading this. I'm gonna go do my homework... listen to the sappy songs. I mean damn I didn't even work in math class.. I sat with my head down cryin. and I dun give a snit if people think low of me. But I also was so imbaressed today. I can't believe I'm going to school tomorrow. lates everyone =po0fers=
-me-
2-16-02
heya- how was everyone's Valentines day? Mine was sucky. so yeah. I talked to Kayleigh the other day and Josh was home. He was yelling at me in the back ground saying all these names.. And he likes hates me. Won't even talk to me. everyone told me I shoulda called him before I left. I mean I shouldn't have to. I put up with all his snit and when I do something wrong it isn't okay. But if he doesn't understand what I would do for him then ta fuck with him. Not like I can find anyone around here that is good enough for me. But still. I ain't going with no one cause I wanna be there incase he wants me back. People are telling me I dun wanna be with him if he is gonna blow up like that. But like no one knows what he is like when we are together.. alone. I love him and no one can change that and it hurts people can't just tell him that. I couldn't even call him. I mean look at all the shit I go through everyday just so I can be with him. If he can't relize that then that is his problem seeing how he was the one who wanted to spend the rest of his life with me. And asked me to marry him. I mean freck.. My friend Krys told me that she is gonna kill herself and she is leaving everything to me of hers with a few execptions, and that I will hear from someone. =cries= I have three things I need to do for her if she does go. This week is like so totally not good for me.. but I really have to be going I'm watching the FAST AND THE FURIOUS! yeah man.. I watched Bambi last night too =smiles= love ya all.. =huggies= lates =po0fers=
-me-
2/17/02
yippie I found out today that Josh really really really really really really really really really really really really hates me. get the picture? But anyways whatever happends with that happens and that's that.. I dunno what to talk about.. I have been talking to Kris a lot lately.. I enjoy talking to him. Peoples are like never on anymore.. gotta like call them to get their asses on.. I ran out of calling cards.. DAMNIT but anyways I'm like waiting my butt off for some peoples to show me there sites.. people that are better at them then me.. =nodz= but anyways I'm out cause I'ma talking to marcish... lates everyone
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-me-
2/18/02
Today: I stayed home from School cause well my mom this morning came in and asked me if I wanted to go to school... who in their right minds wouldn't pass that up? Well I didn't so I have been watching Jaw Breaker, I Still Know What You Did Last Summer, And Urban Ledgends.. all quiet good may I add... Anyways.. I'm still waiting from Josh.. =shrugz= Who thinks I should give up? =raises my hand= I dunno what to do about him no more. Nick / Tyler I dunno what to do about him neither. He is being really weird lately... I mean he got on last night and called me a loser.. And thinks it's okay because he "loves" me. I mean I ain't gonna stand for that shit when I have other things to do... When all I am is ignored.. Or get called a bitch loser... whatever the heck you wanna call me. oh yeah did I mention that I poured paint ALL the way down Katie's back? And tells everyone I'm the one who made her leave our school.. Bull s|nit.. I may have been some of it but not all of it. Coodey Gun yes was mine.. But please tell me how I poured paint down Katie's back when I wouldn't even come near her? She needs to get her s|nit together. Having people come up to me that I have been friends with all my life... telling me I'm being a female dog to her.. BITE ME PLEASE... that is like THE saddest thing ever.. She has to have everyone's pitty too... Dun forget to hug her on your way out the door.. =smiles= but me.. the name is Jennifer Russell or ruffly J-E-N-N-I-F-E-R- R-U-S-S-E-L-L So whenever you have a problem.. tell them all I did it. okay? I'm the type of person that will beat anyone up... yes if I have a good enough frecking reason... DUH... And I do not bang people all the time. I have done stuff yes but not everyday after school.. I love Josh why would I do something like that? Please tell me that NOW... But anyways I'm sick =fake lil smile with a fake lil cough= I gots ta go now.. =smiles= lates everyone I'll talk to you later.. =po0fers=
[·-· Jáÿ J·-·]
2/22/02
okay peoples are seriously gonna get their asses kicked. I'ma take on like 20 big mother fuckers. I can't stand people running their mouths.. and well Jimmy Shaw some mother fucker shoved my friend Erine when he was after his brother Jordie and well I love them peoples big time. And Jimmy's Girl friend is gonna get her ass kicked too... by me cause I can't stand the bitch. But anyways I like didn't have Gym today and they wouldn't let us go anywhere so we stay out in the halls.. And well Kiah if you are reading this I LOVE YOU... we are moving to a new school they built for us after vaca and well they now have a dress code and we can't have soda or candy or anything in there.. We are even assigned fucking STAIRS!! and no hats neither I was like this is BULLSHIT! anyways I must be going cause well I have to braid my hair in cornrows cause I have to go someplace tonight. =smiles= lates everyone! =po0fers=
[·-·| Jáÿ J |·-·]
2/24/02
Tigger Tigger Woods ya'll! =giggles= anyways me is wondering where the heck Tyler is.. well All I have to say is thanks for blocking me. Robbie dunno why you mad at me.. I know you like me a lot.. yeah and that's something you mad for a chose and well not mine. I like someone a lot right now and well he knows who he is. anyways I must be going seeing how it takes me like 5 hours to get on and then there is nothing to do. Plus I'm on Vacation all this week =dances= so I'm happy. Anyways yeah I'm out like I said.. lates =po0fers=
Love Always,
[·-·| Jáÿ J |·-·]
2/25/01
Hey peoples I got some new shit on here and there is some cool stuff too.. I even worked on shaping it up some.. and I gotta >?< why does V think his page is better than mine? =raises an eye brow= IT ISN'T.. =giggles= oh well whatever he wants to think. hmm I got new pics of people on here too.. so cheak it out.. lates everyone.. oh well there is a link on the shoutouts page see if you can find it.. =giggles= lates =po0fers=
[·-·| Jáÿ J |·-·]
2/26/02
o0o0o0o peoples I be likeing my site hows about ya'll now I don't have school this week and the net is being a dick face and won't lemme on... =pouts= oh well... anyways I haven't talked to Kris in like days... so if you be reading this hun.. I MISS YOU! =giggles= oh well.. Thanks Vernon for singing my book.. : oS I know I'm a stuck up prep and boy I like the new lay out DUN CHANGE IT... Pray to God for me.. How Church lately? Anyways.. hmm I went shopping wit my bitch Marie and wes saw BOBBYLEE and Justin A.. I love them both.. Bobby is my ex boyfriend Crit and Michael's brother.. coolies huh? He is lil sweet heart.. although I think he is older than me either that or I'm like a couple months older than him.Justin is my buddie.. we used to write and stuff and then I would see him on the weekends.. I wrote a poem about him to.. I mean letter's through the mail and see each other every weekend? lil weird huh? But anyways I had fun today.. Missing a lot of you peoples.. And Ivy I love you.. I talked to you the other day and I was the only one who knew it was her.. And Lianne you best be writting in that god damn Book... Tyler you best be adding me on your list again... or fucking unblocking me which ever.. I think him and Apes have me on block.. haven't talked to either of them for like two weeks.. But whatever they dun wanna talk to me fiine see if I care? Anyways.. I say anyways to much.. hmm KRIS UPDATE YOUR FRECKING SITE... =smiles= so I love ya all much.. And you all I should let know right now.. that you are all beautiful... cause other wise you wouldn't be on my site.. =grins= and if you isn't well then send me your frecking ass pic.. =big smile= lates everyone =po0fers=
[·-·| Jáÿ J |·-·]
SOON TO BE HERE!!!!!!
3/1/02
What up peoples? Me bored as fuck as always. Tryin to get on the mother fucking internet right now but it is being a fagget so what more can I do? I think I'ma be off this for awhile. I spend more time tryin to get on then I actually get to spend on it. And I need to spend more time wit people my age. Not this fucking comp. I ain't sayin it gonna be like this. But Jenn ain't got all the time in the world. I'm wasting away. I wanna do things. Plus Josh will be home within a couple of months. Like maybe 4 or 5. But still... That isn't as bad as a whole year more. I mean hell I dunno what you peoples be thinking about my site.. But I love it. Alot better than I ever thought I could do. And now that that is done I got other things to do. I mean hell shit man My Brother doesn't even think of me as a sister. And well None you people like me on here. And even if ya did.. ( I'm talking Guys ) ain't nothing that will happen. I ain't going no where to see no one. I stay here. They come to me. But what can I say. It's nothing real. As for my friends ( Juls, Kathy, Kali, peoples ect..) thanks for being there for me. I will be on sometimes.. Just not as much. You peoples see how much I haven't been on lately? =shrugz= but ya know. Damn I gotta work on my rep. Fucking sucks right now. I got maybe one friend. And that would have to be Marie. So I got some working to do. And as for the people I gotta deal wit next week.. That's just what I do. Fuck I got another thing to deal wit too. Katelyn Button. All up in her shit. Josh came home last weekend or what the fuck ever.. And he went over to her house. And of course his best friend is her brother.. Well he went into her and she jumped up ( which she had her boyfriend there, which she knew I liked and said she wouldn't go for him and did. ) And was macin on Josh. Lil' bitch! She knows how much I care about his ass. But she has to fucking piss me off. And when I talk to Josh I'ma have a talking to him. I mean What The Fuck? What was he doing in her ROOM? I know he went over to have a chat wit Her mom and dad but still... NO ROOM! He can't go in my room =coughs= but he can go into her room. Damnit. But ya'll ain't reading this shit and if ya are... SORRY FOR BORIN YOU! I dun mean to. But if ya dun wanna hear it DUN FUCKING LISTEN! =giggles= I'm out peoples. Love ya'll
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- Jenn -
3/21/02
Recap:
Hey ya'll sorry I haven't updated this mother fucker (as if any of ya fuckers care?) but hmm I have been at home sitting here fucking around doing nothing.. having Marie over every other night... it's all good... hmmm Josh I was told has been playing me the last three weeks and I haven't heard from him until yesturday.. he'll be home every weekend now... or starting April. I dunno if he still loves me or not and well I gave myself a tattoo with his name... well JC and a square around it with a cross it looks very nice it isn't really all that shitty or as bad as you would think it was. I wanted to tell all of you that I won't be on a lot cause well I think I told you but I will again... I need to work on School =laughs= and work on getting some friends here I have a total of TWO right now... I'm so fucking cool huh? but hmm My internet is a fag too and it takes me forever.. so if you wanna tell me something or something email me I would love to hear from you.. if ya aren't a fag and you know that I dun wanna hear from ya... lates everyone.. I just thought I should tell you all that yes I am alive! Even though I wish I wasn't.. love ya! lates
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Love ya!
Jennifer AKA JAY J
AKA ..[-| G.I.J. |-]..
Hey- Guess what all you niggaz I'm back.. This is gonna be a lot better... All I got to say is I'm the happiest I have been in a long time.. I know I haven't been on this in awhile but I'm sorry.. All my peoples hate me now.. and well I'm sorry for that too.. I told people that I wasn't gonna be on much.. now no one will talk to me.. But whatever whose problem is that? oh yeah and that message in my guestbook is so cool Lianne.. You know I love you.. heh.. we's all know it was you.. can't hide it can we.. She seems to talk to me to all of her friends.. And me.. I could care less.. I do it on here cause I love doing this shit.. It is fun.. so fuck her whatever the fuck she thinks she is.. she thinks she is better than me and she ain't so she needs to get over it.. I'm sorry that I'm Josh's Fiannce' now but you need to get over it... We all know you want him.. And you can't say he is ugly cause you haven't seen him Marie has and she thinks he is pretty fucking hott.. Now as for your people.. That she likes they are fucking gross all of them. So if I ain't her family it doesn't bother me.. I love this shit.. Don't have to listen to her annoying fucking voice coping me all the fucking time and being a complete idiot.. Anyways peoples I have some shit to clean up on this piece of shit.. lates peoples..
Love Always,
~Jennifer~
5/12/02
Sup ya'll? otay I'll say sorry about that guest book entry that was Kris.. not Lianne so yeah sorry about that.. soon ta be singel I'm like the coolest not.. but hey.. anyways I have been talking to Robbie a lot.. yeah! I have new shouts.. on my friends page there is shouts to internet peoples and hmm new pics on Murders page shit like that.. so cheak out everything if ya can cause I have new shit all over the place.. new poem.. and a hated list.. cheak that bitch out.. yeaps so I'm out peoples.. lates..!
Jay J
5/23/02
Sup peoples? Yeah if ya'll don't know I ain't with Joshie anymore and I have been getting a whole bunch of shit.. I'll write more about it later though cause I gots to go to Moe ville... lates peoples...
Jáÿ J
5/26/02
Sup People? Okay so I have time now I'll write. As ya'll know me and Joshua face aren't together no more. He called monday night and we fought for 45 mins. He is in touch with reality ( psf ) like I said, " When this happen? A week ago? Two days ago? 5 mins ago? Come on tell me! " But I'm just a smart ass. I got smarts. ( cause I get A's and B's ) I don't even use that word. Smarts? Who does? Oh yeah he dun want no more Elementary shit neither... So if you are 14 don't even think about it... But you can try if you are 12... it's all good then. =looks around= ain't no one here in elementary.. Atleast not me.. That's where Josh should be but hey what the hell he ain't.. And I'm a hoochie mama.. I dun even wear hoochie clothes... grr.. But I called him a slut so it's all good. oh yeah and he thinks he is black and a thug but I told him good to where he dun think that shit no more. So he regrets getting with me and everything although I was the best thing that ever happened to him.. he told me that he didn't wanna put up with my shit and I told him that I didn't need his shit.. no more talky, letters, calls, period... :( but anyways moving on.. I might be going out with this really hott guy named Joe... And I haven't been getting along with Katelyn that bitch that calls me Jenny baby. She dyed her hair the same fucking color as mine... =raws= she bugs me... Although she ain't intimidated by me... she dun know who she fucking with! ( like in "o" ) <--- good movie... anyways.. yeah I think I'ma download some shit so I'll go and do that and work on this some more... you wanna know what is hard to find on the net? PICTURES OF RODGER RABBIT!!! Grr he is so hott... patty cake... I did a prank on a website that had a pic of Jessica rabbit that was a sucky drawing and I pretended I was Rodger... heh ask Lianne it is the funniest shit ever... anyways Jenn is out for now... lates peoples..
Jáÿ J
5/27/02
Sup ya'll? Guess what is comming out tomorrow..! eminem's new album.. I love Eminem, and it's hard to say this but just awhile ago I was saying how stupid he was and lame cause he hasn't had fuck out lately.. But it's all changed now.. I got Amanda comming over today. along wif Michael and my Aunt Darline and Alisha... We's gonna go swimming in the river and go for a LONG walk... ( ewwie that is my teacher's name ) But yeah anyways I was wearing these pants that I have to Moe Ville and they said Josh on them... =tear= Okay wanna know what pissed me off? I'll tell you... I filled out this really long survey last night around 1:00 am and the fucker deleted... I was pissed... But anyways peoples I'm out and I think I'ma I dunno don't ask me... But hey I got a >?< if anyone reads this shit... will someone do a search for me so I can get some pictures of Rodger Rabbit... Cause he is soo hott... Then just send it to my email... Ya'll know it if you don't it's on the front page.. thankies peoples.. lates..
Love Always,
Jáÿ J
5/29/02
hey ya what ya'll been up to? Well I got a new boyfriend and yeah I have gone out with him before.. he is a lil cutie.. I got a letter from Josh today too :( it's too much for me peoples.. I dunno what to do anymore.. life is too much. I have some shit on here I have to do... Lianne we's all tight and shit now huh? DAMN STRAIGHT.. well atleast how I look at it.. LOOK AT THE NEW EMINEM PAGE.. on the celb page.. look at his name and there is a link on the name.. go to please... lates peoples I'm out for now..
Jáÿ J
6/7/02
sup ya'll? I'm graduating this week! on wendseday.. the dance after I'm going to go with Joe... woohooo he is nice looking... he is really nice too.. I like him a lot.. But I dun think his parents like me too much cause of his sis. so he might not be able to go... I dunno I really like him.. I have all year but he was afraid that I would dump him for someone older.. I was like hell naw not when he is that good looking.. I should be getting some pics of me and him on here I hope Li will scan them for me.. he is a lil cutie.. a lil sweet heart too.I care alot for him.. and I ain't gonna rush him into anything he doesn't want cause he hasn't seemed to wanna do anything with me.. =shrugz= maybe I ain't what he wants.. he drew me a really nice picture.. it is cute.. just like him.. anyways... yeah Josh is trying to get back with me and I'm like FUCK YOU... gawd he is starting to get annoying... I wish he would leave me the fuck alone.. wooohooo I took my roger rabbit towel to the beach today... yeaps I did... oh wells I'm gonna get going cause I think I'm gonna faint I can't think about Joe to long he is too much for me... lates..
Love Always,
ME
6/9/02
Sup y'all? Guess what? I miss Joe... :( I've been thinking about him a lot. I dunno if he has though. :S it makes me think. He is so sexy you just wanna hold him. And he is so sweet that you just wanna be with him all the time. And with Josh and his normal dick head self.. well I would rather not talk to that piece of shit. And I have told him that too.. So anyways I have two feild trips that I really don't wanna go on cause I wanna spend time with Joe.. aww man I miss him.. what the fuck am I suppose to do this summer? grr this shit is so confussing. Anyways peoples laters!
Love Always,
Jay J
6/19/02
Hey- sup?nothing much here. I'm with Joesph Chester Tricou... I love him a lot... he is really goood looking. We went to my step up dance after my graduation. I'm rich from it. $45! I get to go shopping tomorrow... YEAH! I also went to dinner with Joe friday night for his birthday... had fun if you know what I mean?! ;) I might be going to his baseball game. It's gonna be fun. Me and Marie and Damien and Marie's mom went to see Scooby Doo on Monday Night.. it is a really good movie but anyways I'm out... lates peoples..Joe is suppose to call me.. laters..
Jay J
6/27/02
Wassup ya'll? Nothing much here. I have tons of new pictures of Celbrities... I even have some others that I made with some program on here. And yes I just found out how to use it. so anyways... I think I have been letting this thing go to waste. I have a very boring life.. I always say.. If you ain't got nothing to do then you have every opertinity to do everything you are asked to do. I dunno what that has anything to do with anything but hey. I have been sitting here chillin' with Marie and sometimes talking to Lianne and Joe and that's about it. On the weekends I go to my Nana's and Grumpy's camp... We ( li and I ) have fun there. I saw my friend Marky Mark there ( ernie ). But anyways I have no clue what to talk about... so I'm out... laters peoples...
-. Jಠÿ J .-
7/13/02
Wazzup?
Not to much here. Bored off my ass to tell you the truth. Just got back from camp today. I tried to call Joesph and he wasn't home. But who knows if he called or not cause I went to Amanda's house. She is moving down here to Johnson at the end of the month. Watch out Lamoille. Umm I got home and went through my shit cause I'm bored cause Re Re is in N.C. for one month... I'm gonna fucking die. Anyways.. ya'll lied to me... I am fat... even the peoples at camp thought so.. Yeah I was ready to leave like the second day. I felt so left out and I wasn't myself. I kept thinking about killing myself and shit. I almost did it a couple of times. But umm we went to petracliffs and my friend Bess fell from about 10 feet in the air really quick cause of peter puffa. So that night we ate and out and went shopping and then we went to the ER.. It was fun though cause a bunch of us went shopping for the food the next day and me and Jake were talking about the cart how it says the NO NO NO and then the YES... and Bobby was standing on the end of the cart and it was tipping ( which is one of the nos ) and I said " that's a no no it says it right here" and pointed to the thing and Jacob fell to the floor laughing... it was really funny... for like 30 mins he carried on about it. Then the rest of the week. We went to quechies gourge.. or how ever you spell it... and the raptors center. Ben and Jerry's factory, apline slide ( where Jake flipped the cart and almost hit me from the other track ), up mount Filine, Wes went state park hopping... like old people go bar hopping... I told Kim ( leader ) That "well those are older peoples and they like to go and want to go.... we on the other hand don't wanna!! " it was really boring I had been to all the places before... But I had fun cause of some of the peoples... like Jake, Bess, and Heather. Anyways I talked to Josh the other weekend... I'm hoping he'll call me tonight too.. We talked for a 1 and a 1/2 and I told him that I still loved him and that it was hard for me.. He told me he would kill to have me back... Anything.. And asked me if he would ever have a chance with me again. And that he would walk out of school next year if he sees me and Joe hugging and shit in the halls... I was like aww how sweet... But it's like how do you know if he is lieing or not.. he also told me that Liaeather. Anyways I talked to Josh the other weekend... I'm hoping he'll call me tonight too.. We talked for a 1 and a 1/2 and I told him that I still loved him and that it was hard for me.. He told me he would kill to have me back... Anything.. And asked me if he would ever have a chance with me again. And that he would walk out of school next year if he sees me and Joe hugging and shit in the halls... I was like aww how sweet... But it's like how do you know if he is lieing or not.. he also told me that Liaeather. Anyways I talked to Josh the other weekend... I'm hoping he'll call me tonight too.. We talked for a 1 and a 1/2 and I told him that I still loved him and thather day at camp when Re was over and I was in the cannoe with Amanda. I ain't a wanna be of her.. I dun try to be. But once again you is a copy cat too... damn I wish people would watch what they say.. I ain't said nothing about what you do Lianne so why do that? Conversation like everyone else does it for? it's a little stupid if you ask me.. I know Amber and Amanda hate me so what... there is nothing I can do to get them back I haven't had them for two years and I know it.. Ain't nothing I can do.. In fact there ain't nothing I can do about anything. So why try. I'm fat, ugly, have a total of two friends and two guys that are madly in love with me. A life I hate.. I don't like being home... I hate my home life. People got it ruffer than me I know but hey... I can't handle shit like this. I despretly need someone there all the time for me... I have A.D.D. I need someone or else I'ma flip shit and kill someone. more than likely myself. These meds ain't working for me... And plus I hate myself for what I'm doing right now.. babbling on about my shitty life.. I wish I could shut the hell up and let things be the way they are and I dunno just save you people from my horrible life.. So Lianne I ain't mad at you... I can say it one more time... I AIN'T MAD AT YOU... Just disipointed you would do that. But anyways I'm out..lates peoples.. I'll get back to this whenever I have the time or want to cause this one is pretty fucking long if you ask me... Byes..
Jß J
7/14/02
What up? Not too much here. I went to my grandfathers camp today and went seadooing with my cousin Jamie.. we all had funn although I was bored off my ass... Lianne wasn't there and I was by myself.. So Lianne's ma took me for a paddle boat ride. ummm then I went to my grammies to see Amber and Amanda. We were there for a total of like 5 mins I was like great... what a waste of time if you ask me. I got home and got on here and fixed some shit on here and up loaded these new pics that I got from Lianne... she scanned them for me so I will have a new place for them. I'll add it when I'm done. I talked to Josh last night for like 2 and a 1/2 hours. He told me he loved me and didn't wanna fuck up Joe and mine's relationship. I told him I was sorry and he asked me for what because he should be the one who was sorry cause he fucked up. And I said I was sorry for being a bitch and he said he was sorry for being an ass hole. I told him I wanted to see him and he started flipping out. he was like Really?! he was so over tired. I love talking to him though. He is my everything. We fought about what to talk about half the time though. But it's all good. Anyways I talked to Marie. =dances= I love her so much. She is like my sissy. She is bored without me and wants to come back and she has only been out of Vermont for 4 days. I guess it is really cold there and she has been wearing pants all the time. And she hates it cause she loves to wear shorts. So.. yeah.. I told her it was like 90 today and she was like fuck you. Anyways I gotta go.. I'm waiting to hear from Josh. I prolly won't but oh wells. You know he is gonna drop like that when he knows he has me. He'll be like oh well I have her so I can treat her like shit. Or if he doesn't get me by the time he gets out in 5 weeks he'll find someone different although he says he won't.At school he is gonna find another woman though. But anyways yeah I said I had to go... so there. Lates.
