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"I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked, dragging themselves throught the negro streets at dawn looking for an angry fix, angelheaded hipsters burning for the ancient heavenly connection to the starry dynamo in the machinery of night, who poverty and tatters and hollow-eyed and high sat up smoking in the supernatural darkness of cold-water flats floating across the tops of cities," -excerpt from Howl- Allen Ginsberg Memories of a dream of everyone I know in a hotel swimming pool Vaguely step into my world My eyes are closed And in this aqua glow I see you in the corner And we share this dream tonight And all of my friends Were in the swimming pool Floating in the midst of an amber sky I wont Breathe without you I wont Try to make it If you’re not here I’ve never been there Vaguely keep inside my world Because you’re fading And I can barely see you Bring your head above the water And wipe your hair from your face And surface in my arms surface -shawnS eve r u D jane be jane you're better that way not when you're trying imitating something you think you saw jane be jane and if sometimes that might drive them away let them stay there you don't need them anyway you're worried there might not be anything at all inside but that you're worried should tell you that's not right don't try to see yourself the way that others do it's no use you're worried there might not be anything at all inside but that you're worried should tell you that's not right you've had it harder than anyone could know so hard to let it go but it's your life and you can decorate it as you like beneath the paint and armour in your eyes the truth still shines jane be jane jane be jane -ben folds five WANDER THIS WORLD-The tar in the street starts to melt from the heat And the sweats runnin' down from my hair I walked 20 miles and I'm dragging my feet And I'll walk 20 more I don't care And I'll wander this world, wander this world Wander this world, wander this world all alone I'm like a ghost some people can't see Others drive by and stare A shadow that drifts by the side of the road It's like I'm not even there And I'll wander this world, wander this world Wander this world, wander this world all alone Well I've never been part of the game The life that I live is my own All that I know is that I was born To wander this world all alone, all alone Some people are born with their lives all laid out And all their success is assured Some people work hard all their lives for nothin' They take it and don't say a word They don't say a word Sometimes it's like I don't even exist Even God has lost track of my soul Why else would he leave me out here like this To wander this world all alone And I'll wander this world, wander this world Wander this world, wander this world all alone _--Jonny Lang\ Inspiration has yet to find me I’m here all alone Sitting in this truck stop café Drinking rancid milk As I gaze across the room I look into your eyes Then I look away Cuz I’m scared of things that you might say So indirectly, what the sign says Welcome to sunnydale As I sit in my room In this small town I’m just a small boy Thinking of you Seems like as I walk the streets And say hello to everyone I know And everyone that I would like for you to meet Sooner or later you’ll realize You belong in sunnydale Welcome to sunnydale So don’t stop dreaming Cuz in the end you’ll find your way And if it’s not here with me In sunnydale I hope you find it somewhere So indirectly, what the sign says Welcome to sunnydale -shawnS eve r u D this next song is one of the best songs of all time, and the best jimi hendrix song ever,. castles made of sand,. Castles made of sand Down the street you can hear her scream "you're a disgrace" As she slams the door in his drunken face And now he stands outside And all the neighbours start to gossip and drool He cries "Oh, girl you must be mad, What happened to the sweet love you and me had?" Against the door he leans and starts a scene, And his tears fall and burn the garden green And so castles made of sand fall in the sea, eventually A little indian brave before he was ten, Played wargames in the woods with his indian friends And he built up a dream that when he grew up He would be a fearless warrior indian chief Many moons past and more the dream grew strong until Tomorrow he would sing his first warsong and fight his first battle But something went wrong, surprise attack killed him in his sleep that night And so castles made of sand melts into the sea, eventually There was a young girl, whos heart was a frown 'Cause she was crippled for life, and she couldn't speak a sound And she wished and prayed she could stop living, So she decided to die She drew her wheelchair to the edge of the shore And to her legs she smiled "you won't hurt me no more" But then a sight she'd never seen made her jump and say "look a golden winged ship is passing my way" And it really didn't have to stop, it just kept on going... And so castles made of sand slips into the sea, eventually ok,. so yesterday,. wow,. lot of people at amc30,. i saw christy and will anderson,. and destaney and grace and april, and mike and jon and kip again,. and a bunch of soph. kids, and a lot of other people i knew from other places,. oh yeahh,. and clarissa barrios. cant forget her,. ha,. and jessica dende,.hmm,. wow,. that was exciting,. hmm,. no wait it wasnt really. janis joplin is so cool,. i should put a picture of her up on this sometime,. hmm,. either her of britney spears,. or both,. hmm,.decisions, decisions,. ok, i think that's all. bye. If you have ever felt that you have loved someone, break it off. If you have ever tried to make things work, dont. If live was meant to be lived with such painstaken sorrow,. i'm sorry, because if i dont live, then nothing stops, and it's at the end of your life, when you realize if you've made a difference in anyone's life,. would more than 2 and a half people attend my funeral? probably not,. so i have to wait,.. hmm,. janis joplin's lyrics arent very positive.. they depress me,. dont ever try to tame me,. dont ever try to break me down, cuz if you do, you'll change yourself and be stuck somewhere in new mexico, without hopes of another day, and i'll say, when did you ask for me to stay? and you'll have to say never. and that'll be all. the world will go on, and i'll be left in this truckstop cafe without you. |