Heaven and Hell? Two places that I have always wondered about. Are they real? Many people believe that they both existes, but why? Why do they think that a god can decide if you're going to live in eternal bliss, or eternal misery. Where is proof that these places really exists? And if people have "proof" is the "proof" real?

Both my parents grew up faithful christians and are still faithful christians. But why put so much time and effort into something that people hundreds of years ago could have just made up. Then all that time would have been wasted. When my parents took me to church on Sundays and Wednesdays it wasn't much fun for me as a kid. I had to listen to stories that when given any thought would show that they weren't true. But the people told me that the stories were true. Lies was what I thought.

At church I also heard people talk about how Jews were evil and anyone who didn't believe in God and Jesus would burn in Hell. Just another story to me. Now I realize that there's a lot of bigotry against other religions. But aren't Christians taught to love everyone?

As I grew up my feelings and thoughts about christianity grew stronger. When I told my parents that I no longer wanted to go to church they told me I would go to Hell if I said things like that. "I don't believe in Hell", I told them.

Well as time went by they furthered themselves away from me and I to them. I moved out when I was eighteen and came up to Dogan. I went to college, worked small jobs, and graduated. Then I meet the beautiful Anne. She lived a couple of apartments down from mine. Everyday we sat at the bus bench and talked about things of interest. She'd usually have something opposite to say of what I had said. But she opened up my view on somethings and I to her.

So I asked her to lunch one day. Since then we've been meeting everyday. Infact we now live together, me 21, her 20. She's really great and everything but there is one thing, she is a Christian. I certainly don't have a problem, but she does. She just wants me to come to church with her. But it's my choice, right? And I don't want to do something that I don't have to do, and something that I don't believe in.

But maybe I am wrong. Maybe there is a place called Heaven. A place where there is no pain and suffering, no fear and stress. Where you can pick and eat fruits that are so tender and ripe, and the taste is the greatest you will ever taste. You will find your loved ones and from then on you can truly express how your heart feels for them. You and other beautiful beings like you will rome, with no rush what so ever, around cities that will take any eternity to describe. You watch ethereal angels glide so easily through the clouds above you and ponder about their beauty. You will never again feel threatened because everyone loves each other. And every creature, thing, and plant glows with a radiant aura. With colors that humans on Earth have not seen yet. Maybe this place called Heaven does exsist.

And maybe there is a place called Hell. A place that every mortal man, woman, and child should fear. A place where the sun is replaced with firey pits that will keep the heat way past any that we have ever known. Every sly, decieving, dirty, rotten, low-life-peice-of-shit-soul goes to this place to be tortured by demons for an eternatity. Water is a myth in this desert land where there is a constant moaning that could drive anyone to the brink of sanity. If you are to meet anyone you knew in your formal life, beware because they could be a trick that will only further you pain and torture. In Hell there is no happiness and love, no one to trust and no one to save you from this eternatity of life renching hatered and pain. Maybe this place called Hell does exsist.

But whose to say that I'm wrong and there right when there's not really any proof? Whose to say that Hindu's are wrong? Maybe they're the one's that are worshiping that true religion. Maybe when you die you do just come back to Earth over and over till you reach a state of peace that is so great that you go to a new place with beings of great peace. Or maybe Native-Americans have been the right one's all this time. Maybe when we die we become one with the Earth and Mother Nature. Whose to say they're wrong?