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Saturday, November 23, 2002

"i just wanna feel real again
feel the home that i live in
cause ive got too much life
running through my veins
going to waste."



sheez. i just had a heart attack thinking that blogger had somehow deleted all my blogs. i wouldnt have minded actually, since i never use two of them, but THIS ONE?! SDKGHSD *SOB*
haha luckily everything is ok. whee.



Monday, November 18, 2002

i am SOSOSOSOSOSOCOLD!!
it is like.. 2 degrees outside.
seriously.
my bedroom smells like sun. sosopretty.
i left the window open all afternoon since it was cool out. so now it has that nice sunny outside smell.
i love that.
I WILL MISS YOU, ROOM! *SOB*
i keep my computer on my dresser, and my dresser has a mirror. so when i'm at my computer, i'm constantly seeing my room behind me. and it looks so empty and desolate.
i put all my stuffed aminoles in a big big big big trashbag to take with me, and now my room looks so lonely haha. like "DDGHFSGHKGS WHERE DID MY LITTLE PEOPLE WHO ARE ALWAYS WATCHING ME GO?!"
ok.
so we are moving........ wednesday.
but that could change. since they tell us somethig different every single day.
MY FEET ARE COLD SOMEONE BUY ME SNOW BOOTS PLEASE?!

kbye!



Thursday, November 14, 2002

oh. my. GOSH!
my bedroom is in a state of emergency.
do you hear that?!
STATE. OF. EMERGENCY!
i have stuff thrown EVERYWHERE!
all i managed to pack today were my books and my little figurines and breakables.
i dont know how i'm ever gonna be finished by the time we're set to move.
i spent an HOUR removing glow in the dark stars from my bedroom ceiling and walls.
SIXTY STARS. STUCK ON A POPCORN CEILING. WITH STICKY-TAC!
IT HURT. A LOT.
it is SOSOSOSOSO dusty in here!
whats worse is that i have a presentation tomorrow that i'm gonna have to rush to finish tomorrow on the bus.
tomorrow i'm DEFINITELY packing up my stuffed animals. i'm gonna need like 4 boxes for that!
and my closet?
*faints*
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO! *SOB*



Saturday, November 09, 2002

i.
am.
so.
bored.
kill. me. now.

here is the schedule i want (after only changing it about 5782394572 times within the past few hours)


Monday and Wednesday

9:30 - 10:45 Literary Analysis with London (the same professor i have now. shes not particularly enthralling but shes easy and she gives me good grades :D )
11 - 12:15 Intro to Hospitality Management with Cole at the encouragement of Caroline :)

Tuesday and Thursday

9:30 10:45 Human Bio with Roller
(Only Thursday) 11-1:45 - Human Bio Lab

Friday

9:30 - 12:15 Intro to Microcomputers with Akache

yeah so i broke my vow to never take a friday class again. but whatever. its an easy class, i'd rather have classes 5 days a week than have them late in the day. i took classes for 5 days a week for.. oh gee.. 15 years?! its not gonna kill me.
i am also only taking thirteen credits again. oh well. i'll make it up during the summer. i bleeding well hope.
haha

**celisse



Thursday, November 07, 2002

eh. i feel a bit better now.
my bouts of depression generally only last a few hours.
i go and find something to break and then i feel better.
the only time i was depressed for a while was when rick was living here. I was depressed the entire seven months. i hate him even more than i hate my father. and thats a lot.
we got the money for my school. my mom hocked two of her diamonds and a tennis bracelet.
we're upset about it but we have until february to get them back. so thats a relief.
the living room is filled with boxes. the great packing adventure begins tomorrow.
my task for the day will be to build every single one of those damn boxes and then start finding stuff in the garage that belongs to us.
hah. i managed to move one of these HUGE barrels in the garage. it was filled with cassettes. i managed to move it from on top of another HUGE BARREL filled with cassettes without breaking an old monochrome monitor. ..or my back haha.
celisse is SOSO STRONG! *flexes*
hah today was so nice. the weather was PERFECT. i got to wear my pretty sweatshirt for the first time since i got it :D
i also got green hi-lighter on it. (doh!)
did i just say "doh!"?
kill. me. now.
i love this weather. i went outside to play with the doggies for a bit because it was so nice and cool out. hee! i think baby thinks i'm another dog. that dumb mutt. if he tries to bite me ONE MORE TIME i'mma have to go ape-ass on him.
anyway. hah. someone came knocking on the door tonight. we saw police lights through the window and freaked out.
my mom and i SO thought that it was the cops telling me that my dad was pretty damn dead.
to which we would have done a bit of a jig.
but it was fed ex. haha. to drop off MORE boxes. the police lights were coming from a couple houses over. :D
i need to start deciding what to pack first from my room.
*looks at over-flooded toybox*
yup.. thats first. haha

haha i'm registering my ass a domain within the next month.
and its name is SO MUCH SESSIER THAN ANY OF YOU. haha

we're gonna have a big house-warming party.
COMMENT IF YOU WANNA BE INVITED.
AND BECAUSE I NEVER GET COMMENTS. HEE! :)

**celisse



i dont feel well. i want to break something again.
i broke a glass three weeks ago. i just threw it on the floor because i was so angry.
then i, of course, regretted it since later i was walking around barefoot and got a peice of glass stuck in my heel. :o/
i just wanna go into that garage, find something of his.. something big.. and smash the hell out of it with a hammer. ..break his records. every single one of them. burn his books. tear his whole damn world apart.
we went to court yesterday. yeah because he tried to get the restraining order removed.
my mom missed work. i missed school.
he didnt even show up.
we just.. sat there for an hour. and he didnt even show up.
his school called us. they said he didnt come to work. and he didnt call.
they called again today with the same story.
he's doing this on purpose. he's trying to keep us prisoners in this house. if he's no where to be found, he cant possibly sign the papers, can he? yeah. he's doing it on purpose.
we got a letter from the home owners association today.
when i first read it i thought it was pretty funny, since in Sociology today we were talking about communities and their rules and guidelines etc etc. The letter said that the color of our house wasnt registered in their holy bible of house colors, and that we'd have to paint it.
good Lord, the house is beige and teal. teal or aqua or some crap. the color of the florida marlins. its PRETTY. and all these other houses on our street are painted the same way.
i called my mom to tell her. i thought it would be a good laugh. until i found out that she already knew. the HOA (army of assholes) basically told her that we cant sell our house until we paint it.
and they tell us this.. a week before we sign the closing papers?
we've already started packing and these ASSHOLES are telling us that we cant sell until our house colors abide by their stupid rules?!
we're at the end of our lines, my mother and i.
we have NO. MONEY.
i'm supposed to register for the spring semester this weekend but i cant because i dont have the three hundred dollars i owe the school.
how the hell are we supposed to afford to paint the house when we cant even afford to pay my school?
i dont know what to do.
you can bet your ass that my father is the one behind this.
the best thing for everyone would be for him to just DIE. die and get it over with.
then our problems would be over. for once and for all. finally.



Tuesday, November 05, 2002

haha thanks to Tori from [ .rara avis reciews. ] for the review!
haha unfortunately, it took kinda long and i COMPLETELY forgot that i'd applied for a review, so i have no idea what layout it was that she reviewed.
either way, THANKS, TORI! :)

Details:

[x] Link back [ Did you link us from your site? ] 10/10
- Yep right where you said it would be
[x] Splash - [ Is it neat and organized? Does it give a good first impression? Can i find where to enter easily? ] 9/10
- Very nice. Simple and neat. Very nice and gives a good clean impression of the rest of the site. Having the requirements was a nice touch as well
[x] Layout - [ Is it unique, and different, with stunning graphix, does everything match or is it cluttered ] 8/10
- I like the colors and everything matched really nicely. I really enjoyed everything I saw on the layout. It was a little big, and the layout style wasn't too unique though. Try playing around with some different frames for a new look
[x] Originality - [ Is it orginal or does it look like everyother site out there? ] 7/10
- your layout wasn't that orginal, and the content wasn't too different. I did like the navigation though I thought that was unique. Try adding some of your own content
[x] Content - [ Would the content keep me there for a little while? ] 8/10
- You had a good amount of content. There wasn't that much that was orginal and there wasn't much for the visitor. Try adding more for the visitor it makes people want to stay longer
[x] 'Wow Factor' - [ Does your site give the viewer a wow affect that makes them want to come back? ] 7/10
- Not a huge wow, but it was pretty nice. Try editing your graphics more and aligning stuff differently for a larger effect.
[x] Loading time - [ Did it load fast? ] 10/10
- Fast!
[x] Navagation - [ Was it easy to find? ] 10/10
- Very nice and unique too!
[x] Errors - [ One point for every error found ] 10/10
- Didn't see any ^-^
[x] Overall - [ Did I leave the site with a want to come back? Did it make an overall impression on me? ] 8/10
- Very nice. I really visiting your site. I would be back to check on layout updates adn to see if there is any new content.

Comments: Sorry the review took so long. I have been swampmed! But I really loved visiting your site. It was awesome.

Total Score: 87/100 = B+



Friday, November 01, 2002

haha its November First, which means that its time for me to start making my Christmas List(s) haha!

Memorex Teleball 2.4GHz with Caller ID #PH2400

haha. i'm a phone addict and this is the cutest thing in the world. plus, it would look great with my new room. muahahaha :)

Memorex Videoball TV #TV1300 by Memorex

hee! ive had the same television literally.. my whole life. and i love it to death but its already older than i am and is breaking. *sob*
so i want this because its cuuuute and matches the phone! haha and its small, and i hate huge stuff that takes up space in my room so this is a good thing. whee!

bwahah i also want Clinique's Happy, that ive wanted FOREVER AND EVER
and Victoria's Secret Heavenly or something. whatever it smells good. bwahah.

and i also want to get my fricken laptop fixed, because its a sessy bish and i miss using it. *sob*

haha :)