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ALiVE


Wednesday, October 30, 2002
i love this song.
"I'm Okay" - Christina Aguilera
i generally hate christina aguilera.
i mean really a lot. i completely dislike this woman. shes a skank with less than no style. in my opinion anyway haha.
but yes this song is really pretty and is one of my new favorites.
plus, it reminds me of my dad :o/

i hate him.



Monday, October 28, 2002
your hand on his arm
the hay stack charm around your neck
strung out and thin
calling some friend trying to cash some check
he's acting dumb
that's what you've come to expect
needle in the hay
needle in the hay
needle in the hay
needle in the hay
he's wearing yr clothes
head down to toes a reaction to you
you say you know what he did
but you idiot kid
you don't have a clue
sometimes they just get caught in the eye
you're pulling him through
needle in the hay
needle in the hay
needle in the hay
needle in the hay
now on the bus
nearly touching this dirty retreat
falling out 6th and powell a dead sweat in my teeth
gonna walk walk walk
four more blocks plus the one in my brain
down downstairs to the man
he's gonna make it all OK
i can't beat myself
i can't beat myself
and i don't want to talk
i'm taking the cure so i can be quiet
whenever i want
so leave me alone
you ought to be proud that i'm getting good marks
needle in the hay
needle in the hay
needle in the hay
needle in the hay

elliot smith - needle in the hay



much love to Opal from Adorkable for adding me to the Adorkablog! :D <333


HEE!
i got a BIG FAT DOUBLE A on the paper i wrote at the very last minute.
OH I'M SO SESSY.
haha
life is good right now. <333

COMMENT IF YOU LOVE ME.
BECAUSE I NEVER GET ANY COMMENTS
AND IT MAKES ME VERY SAD
AND I DONT EVEN THINK ANYONE IS READING THIS RIGHT NOW
SO I'M JUST GONNA SHUT UP NOW.
KTHNXBYE! :D

**celisse



Monday, October 21, 2002
larrigans, LARRIGANS!!

5 days till halloween horror nights, yo.
my moms a stupid blitch. she promised me she'd take my to walgreens to get my mousse because my hair is in a sad state. but did she take me? NO! why? oh. gee. BECAUSE SHES A LAZY ASS!
ok.
i didnt go to acting. because i had to write a paper for english and i literally procrastinated until the VERY LAST MINUTE. i was up till 6:30am writing that crap paper and i only got a half hour of sleep, so i left after english class.
which i later found out was really stupid because we had a quiz in acting that i cant make up. gar. i asked professor neal if theres something i can do to make it up, but he hasnt answered yet.
hah now i have to write an essay about Marvins Room, which i saw at south campus yesterday afternoon and send it to Professor Neal before midnight.
i really should get to work. *sigh*

**celisse



Saturday, October 19, 2002
bahaha.
i saw fright night last night. thats such a great movie. brings back little-kid memories. :)
and i just watched nightmare on elm street. it feels like 1987. bahaha.
haha and i saw beetlejuice too.
and i was real bored and downloaded all this music from fright night. heeee! chris sarandon makes a scary vampire. he also makes me quite uncomfortable. not as uncomfortable as Jack Nicolson, though. because that guy is SATAN.
i downloaded new CKY. its awesome.
i cant wait to get the CD.

EVERYBODY MUST GO OUT AND BUY "INFILTRATE, DESTROY, REBUILD" BY CKY. IN STORES NOW!

i love the CKY. hee!

**celisse



Friday, October 18, 2002
romantic kisser



You Are A Romantic Kisser!


You'll only kiss if the mood is right and if you think you are falling in love.

Some may say you're old fashioned, but when you kiss, you see stars!

One kiss from you, and anyone will be hooked forever.



How Do *You* Kiss?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva



gr.
i wish i didnt have to sleep ever at all. all i ever have is bad dreams :(
i should know by now never to take naps in the late afternoon. *sigh*
anyway, i'm actually reading "Wicked" haha. its taken me long enough. i'm actually over half way through with it in just a few days. 2 hours a day on a bus really gives me a lot of reading time. hah. i've grown fond of Elphaba (aka the wicked witch of the west haha), and i'm sure i'll be all sad at the end of the book with her demise.
who knew that book was actually good? i sure didnt. as was evident by my total avoidance of it all summer.

school was boring today. i chose my classes for next semester. anyone wanna tell me if theyre any good?

literay analysis
myth, ritual, and mysticism
music appreciation
stellar astronomy + lab
intro. to microcomputers.

haha. good news: lyrana is ALIVE, ALIVE, ALIVE!!!! *cackles maniacally*
bad news: i think dex is stalking me :(

**celisse



Thursday, October 17, 2002
bahaha 8 days until HHN. hee!
celisse = geek? but of course, dahling.

anyway, yes i thought this was relevant. something i posted on one of my message boards in reply to the question:

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"What do you want to happen to your body after you die?"

well i'm immortal so...
yeah. but i guess in the rare event that my immortality is stolen away from me by some gnome of satan and i happen to die..

i want to be mummified.
and put in a coffin made out of solid gold. with diamonds. and emeralds. and opals because theyre pretty.
and then i want my coffin placed in a museum, inside of a glass box with all these pretty colored lights shining on it, like the birdbath in my neighbors front yard, yes. and then everyone will come and admire me and say "wow. that was celisse. she was a deity. well... you know, until some gnome of satan stole her immortality. yeah that really sucked. she had great hair."

yes. thats what i want.

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bahaha. i'm hyper and bored. so there you go.
TO ANYONE READING THIS OUT THERE IN THE WORLD:
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO HAPPEN TO YOUR BODY AFTER YOU DIE?! COMMENT AND ANSWER! hah.

*takes a much-needed nap*

**celisse



Monday, October 14, 2002
CelissE: haha i missed talking to you about stupid celisse stuff. everytime i get online i'm like "dude. i should im devon" but then you go on away or something or i'm busy being stupid elsewhere.
Devon: yeah ... damn school and shit.
CelissE: yeah really. damn dogs and.. uh.. stuff.
CelissE: I HAVE NO LIFE I MUST BE SAVED
Devon: hahaha!!
CelissE: oh i'm glad my patheticness brings you such amusement :)
Devon: it truly does.
CelissE: oh yes, i should become a comedienne and bring world-wide amusement to people at the expense of my own pride. le sigh.
CelissE: or i should have my own morning show on the radio! yes! like like like like... butt news! but bigger, and badder, with more butts!

BUTT NEWS, COMING SOON TO A RADIO NEAR YOU!
hahahahaha

**celisse



Friday, October 11, 2002
lalala i love this song.
ANYWAY
today was EXCITING. *snore*
i went to class.
ivania and i didnt feel like staying so we just dropped off our homework and went home haha.
yeah. this drunken baffoon of a man got into an argument with this preacher guy who always goes on my busses. i wanted to kick the drunken baffoon in the testicles.
anyway, yeah i spoke to karla and then we went to the movies to see Red Dragon.
and i paid for my ticket and concessions with nickels. bwahaha! :)
that movie is so weird. in my opinion, it has a strong Norman Bates vibe to it. but i liked it.
i wanna see the ring. i might go with my mom tomorrow to the sneak preview. because we're cinema geeks.
well i am. she just likes scary movies haha
i should be asleep. i have to wake up early to clean. blah.
anyway. my mom found this nice house in PSN thats for rent.
we're gonna see it tomorrow. i hope we get it. :o/
we'll live there for one year and then hopefully my moms credit will be better enough by then to buy a house of our own. gar.
i'm so bored.
and sleepy. so i'm gonna go haha.

my sessy miami accent makes dex squeel in that naughty way.
haha. lamer.

sweet dreams, kids.

**celisse



Wednesday, October 09, 2002
i'm bad again tonight. i get worse everyday..
i dont want to sleep. ever. again.
i had some bad nightmares last night. i want to stay here so badly, but everything that encompasses me is telling me that we have to get out.
i'm listening to music that i love. songs ive heard a million times. but i feel uncomfortable listening to them.
i feel like i dont belong here anymore. i feel like i'm lost. like i dont have a home anymore.
my moms on the phone yelling at debbie.
we were so naive. we did everything wrong. we did everything in order to get HIM away faster. and we ended up hurting ourselves in the long run. and we're paying for it all now.
he still has this huge hold on us, and we cant shake it.
its been 2 years now. 2 years this month and we're still not away from it all.
i dont know what to do. there is nothing i can do.
i just keep listening to the music, hoping that i'll feel like myself again.
i feel dead.


i'm dying.

i need to get back into "CELISSE IS THE COOLEST PERSON IN THE WORLD, EVERYONE SHOULD BOW DOWN AND WORSHIP HER" mode.
because its true and all.
yup.



well i'm doing better today.

..i'm completely lying, but we'll pretend.

anyway. erm.. yeah. professor neal postponed our monologues until the 21st.
THANK YOU, GOD. hah. maybe i should actually like.. you know.. practice?
gar. i have so much crap to do these next couple of weeks.
...nothing of which i can remember right now. wooooonderful. hah.

10-16 see play one for acting???
10-21 ok. C&C essays due.
10-21acting midterm.
uh... i dont know when the hell my math midterm is.
i dont even think my professor knows when my math midterm is.
..mans not too bright. *sigh*
10-25 HALLOWEEN HORROR NIGHTS XII! heee! this is like.. all i'm living for at this point hah.
10-31 sociology midterm. *snore*

**celisse



Tuesday, October 08, 2002
my home is being stolen away from me.
i think we're gonna move to homestead.
i hate my dad.
i want everything to disappear.


Lightning crashes, a new mother cries
her placenta falls to the floor
The angel opens her eyes
the confusion sets in
before the doctor can even close the door
Lightning Crashes, an old mother dies
her intentions fall to the floor
the angel closes her eyes
the confusion that was hers,
belongs now, to the baby down the hall

Oh now feel it comin back again
like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind
forces pullin' from the center of the Earth again
I can feel it

Lightning Crashes, a new mother cries
this moment she's been waiting for
The angel opens her eyes
Pale blue colored iris, presents the sun
and puts the glory out to hide, hide

Oh now feel it comin back again
like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind
forces pullin' from the center of the Earth again
I can feel it

Live -- Lightning Crashes



Monday, October 07, 2002
lalala
i have a headacheeee!
hah this weekend i bought myself a new bookbag. i hate messanger bags. well actually i dont, i just dont like to use them excessively. so i bought myself a cute light blue mossimo backpack. WOO.
i also bought monsters inc. which is the cutest thing in the whole wide world. so i can take that off my wishlist now. haha :)

anyway. today was.. interesting?
yeah anyway. english was blah. i did manage to finish all my homework in time hah. i turned in my paper and sat through half an hour of a "When to use COMMAS!" lecture. SO enthralling. yeah then after that we got into groups for our collaborative c&c essays. that should be LOADS of fun.
**note to self: due 10/21**
k so anyway.
yeah after that i went to acting. i DID MEMORIZE MY MONOLOGUE, DAMNIT.
and then i managed to blank out on stage.
ah. the sweet taste of utter humiliation.
hah anyway, when they gave me feedback, the people in my class told me that i did well, but i have to actually.. erm.. remember my lines? yeah and stop speaking so quickly.
i dont know whats wrong with people. i dont talk fast.
they think slowly.
hmph.
then after that i decided to stay at school until i finished every problem of my math homework, which i'd still not even started hah.
and know what? i actually did it.
i'm so proud of myself. hee! now i can actually go to sleep and not worry about any evil homework coming back to haunt me.
on the "family" front, i still hate my dad. i kinda hope he dies. A LOT.
that silly bitch.
anyway...

18 DAYS TO HALLOWEEN HORROR NIGHTS! heeee!

KBYE!
**celisse



Saturday, October 05, 2002
i cut my hair again yesterday.
not anything extravagant hah.
actually its the same cut i got last time.
I LIKE IT, DAMN YOU.
its so sessy.
its enough to drive someone to drink.
*toast*
TO CELISSE'S SESSY HAIR!

muthah fluckahs!



my dad...
is a HUGE BITCH!!!

that is all.



Friday, October 04, 2002
the jerry springer show makes me physically ill...

**celisse



Thursday, October 03, 2002
WOOOHOOO
i finally finished v.3 of ALiVE, The Taste of Ink.
i actually really like this layout haha. whee!
anyway, my freshman experience teacher called me this afternoon to tell me that class was cancelled. thank God, i hate that class. so i have tomorrow free. yaaaaay!
hah thats a really good thing actually. i have a million lbs of homework to do.

TO DO FOR SCHOOL THIS WEEKEND:
001. Write a three-four page Comparison and Contrast essay for english. due monday.
002. Memorize my monologue for acting that i havent even looked at by monday.
003. do about a gabillion math problems (actually, all of the problems in ch. 3. GAR!) by tuesday.

argh i hate homework.
ah well. SO WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE LAYOUT?! haha :)

22 DAYS TILL HALLOWEEN HORROR NIGHTS!!!

**celisse