lalala i love this song. ANYWAY today was EXCITING. *snore* i went to class. ivania and i didnt feel like staying so we just dropped off our homework and went home haha. yeah. this drunken baffoon of a man got into an argument with this preacher guy who always goes on my busses. i wanted to kick the drunken baffoon in the testicles. anyway, yeah i spoke to karla and then we went to the movies to see Red Dragon. and i paid for my ticket and concessions with nickels. bwahaha! :) that movie is so weird. in my opinion, it has a strong Norman Bates vibe to it. but i liked it. i wanna see the ring. i might go with my mom tomorrow to the sneak preview. because we're cinema geeks. well i am. she just likes scary movies haha i should be asleep. i have to wake up early to clean. blah. anyway. my mom found this nice house in PSN thats for rent. we're gonna see it tomorrow. i hope we get it. :o/ we'll live there for one year and then hopefully my moms credit will be better enough by then to buy a house of our own. gar. i'm so bored. and sleepy. so i'm gonna go haha.
my sessy miami accent makes dex squeel in that naughty way. haha. lamer.
i'm bad again tonight. i get worse everyday.. i dont want to sleep. ever. again. i had some bad nightmares last night. i want to stay here so badly, but everything that encompasses me is telling me that we have to get out. i'm listening to music that i love. songs ive heard a million times. but i feel uncomfortable listening to them. i feel like i dont belong here anymore. i feel like i'm lost. like i dont have a home anymore. my moms on the phone yelling at debbie. we were so naive. we did everything wrong. we did everything in order to get HIM away faster. and we ended up hurting ourselves in the long run. and we're paying for it all now. he still has this huge hold on us, and we cant shake it. its been 2 years now. 2 years this month and we're still not away from it all. i dont know what to do. there is nothing i can do. i just keep listening to the music, hoping that i'll feel like myself again. i feel dead.
anyway. erm.. yeah. professor neal postponed our monologues until the 21st. THANK YOU, GOD. hah. maybe i should actually like.. you know.. practice? gar. i have so much crap to do these next couple of weeks. ...nothing of which i can remember right now. wooooonderful. hah.
10-16 see play one for acting??? 10-21 ok. C&C essays due. 10-21acting midterm. uh... i dont know when the hell my math midterm is. i dont even think my professor knows when my math midterm is. ..mans not too bright. *sigh* 10-25 HALLOWEEN HORROR NIGHTS XII! heee! this is like.. all i'm living for at this point hah. 10-31 sociology midterm. *snore*
Lightning crashes, a new mother cries her placenta falls to the floor The angel opens her eyes the confusion sets in before the doctor can even close the door Lightning Crashes, an old mother dies her intentions fall to the floor the angel closes her eyes the confusion that was hers, belongs now, to the baby down the hall
Oh now feel it comin back again like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind forces pullin' from the center of the Earth again I can feel it
Lightning Crashes, a new mother cries this moment she's been waiting for The angel opens her eyes Pale blue colored iris, presents the sun and puts the glory out to hide, hide
Oh now feel it comin back again like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind forces pullin' from the center of the Earth again I can feel it
lalala i have a headacheeee! hah this weekend i bought myself a new bookbag. i hate messanger bags. well actually i dont, i just dont like to use them excessively. so i bought myself a cute light blue mossimo backpack. WOO. i also bought monsters inc. which is the cutest thing in the whole wide world. so i can take that off my wishlist now. haha :)
anyway. today was.. interesting? yeah anyway. english was blah. i did manage to finish all my homework in time hah. i turned in my paper and sat through half an hour of a "When to use COMMAS!" lecture. SO enthralling. yeah then after that we got into groups for our collaborative c&c essays. that should be LOADS of fun. **note to self: due 10/21** k so anyway. yeah after that i went to acting. i DID MEMORIZE MY MONOLOGUE, DAMNIT. and then i managed to blank out on stage. ah. the sweet taste of utter humiliation. hah anyway, when they gave me feedback, the people in my class told me that i did well, but i have to actually.. erm.. remember my lines? yeah and stop speaking so quickly. i dont know whats wrong with people. i dont talk fast. they think slowly. hmph. then after that i decided to stay at school until i finished every problem of my math homework, which i'd still not even started hah. and know what? i actually did it. i'm so proud of myself. hee! now i can actually go to sleep and not worry about any evil homework coming back to haunt me. on the "family" front, i still hate my dad. i kinda hope he dies. A LOT. that silly bitch. anyway...