well-well-well, look what was in my comment box today:
<<"#2. May 30 2002, 04:25 pm
well first off ask your mom why i'm not going to prom and maybe she'll give you a straight answer. next what do you truly know about my family i mean really you don't know that much. my mother might give me stuff but maybe that's because of the fact that she is proud of what i've accomplished and chooses to reward me. and while you might have had trouble with your father for two years you have no idea what my childhood was like before you met me. and finally i gave you time but it has been a month and i am truly fed up with this crap and don't talk about other people being "two-faced" because you see i also read your journal and what you said about me ( i.e. about how i'm the most boring,sarcastic,pessimistic bitch you have ever met) was ten times worse than anything i said about you when this whole issue started
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oh cry me a river. i actually had the decency to take down the post i wrote after only a day because i didnt want to hurt her feelings. and even then, the only reason i even wrote it was because of what she wrote about me and karla. and even after i told her how much it bothered me, she still left it up. so give me a break. secondly, i may have called her boring, sarcastic, and pessimistic (which are all very true-to-life descriptions, by the way), but i never did call her the B-word, because i dont use that word. and i also have that post documented, so as much as she would say that i'm lying and whatever, i have the proof. and by the way, i did ask my mother why she wasnt going. she told me her mommy said she didnt want her to. wah, wah, wah. see, unlike her, i actually talk to my mother and give her the REAL story rather than some hyped-up, exaggerrated mockery of the truth. and know what? i spend a whole lot more than just two years having problems with my father. those two years i described in that post were just the two years i spend WITHOUT my father. i had sixteen years of misery with him before that. and i highly doubt if they were any better than gricel's oh-so-traumatic childhood. i can practically drown in the sobs. *rolls eyes* shes reached all-new levels of stupidity. ah well. i'm not gonna let it bring me down anymore. its just not worth it. so yes, this post is gonna be the last time that i mention that little brat because as of now, she is dead. :) *skips off*
heeee. one more day till prom. and one more day till my mommy comes home from orlando. and exactly fourteen days till graduation. and exactly.. erm.. sixteen days till my cruise with the tojar clan. yay! hah i brought my pretty laptop to karla's house today. we watched CKY3 and i showed her the sims. the... alex and karla sims. hah. the alex sim only likes to sit in the love-tub for hours on end. boring boring. her dad ordered chinese food and i was attacking karla with the duck sauce. and her brother and sister were annoying her with me and it was like.. woo! heeh. then we practiced "dancing" for prom. rather, we imitated the karla sim doing strange dances in front of the radio. :) quite amusing. hah my mommy comes home tomorrow. i'm glad. i miss her. shes not supposed to leave me!! i'm allowed to leave her (like for my cruise and debate trips and things) but shes always supposed to stay here with me forever and ever and never do things for herself. ..kidding. sheez. ah. yes. so i'm baffled as to what to do after prom. i think i'm gonna end up by myself. all alone. le sigh. but if i do, i'm going to take full advantage of the amenities and pamper myself because dambit, i paid my fifty six dollars and i plan to make use of them!! hah. a bunch of people are going to club 609 on coconut grove. karen and i are trying to find rides there. hey! maybe we can take a cab! yes. i hate cabs though. **20 minutes later** nevermind. blah we'll probably just watch movies or something. it'll still be fun though. we'll figure something out. :)
gricel decided not to go to after-prom. i was upset because karla and i never intended for her not to go, and its kinda crappy and stupid that she decided to be all melodramatic about it. i wrote her an email telling her that, but now that i think about it, i'm glad shes not going. i'm glad for SO many reasons that i'm gonna talk about in this post because you know what? she has no problem telling people about me and talking badly about me, and now i'm gonna tell her exactly why i'm angry and if it hurts her feelings.. well, then she'll know how i feel.
ok, first off. when gricel first started her little shrine-to-herself website, she had a blog on it with a disclaimer that read "if you know me personally, dont read it". yeah well come on. if its really so private, you shouldnt be posting it on the internet. and being a curious person, i read it anyway. sue me. anyway, there was an entry in there from the summertime. last summer, i had to stay for two and a half weeks at gricel's house because my mother almost died from a potassium deficiency. so anyway, the post i read was saying something like that i'm so immature and all i wanna do is play play play and blahblah. and that she and her mom had to take me all the way to my house evry day so i could take care of my dogs and what not. she basically bashed me to my face in that post. i never said anything about it because obviously i wasnt supposed to be reading it. but shoot me, i did. and i was really hurt. i did NOT want to be there in the first place. my mother MADE me stay there because i was only 17 years old and i couldnt be at my house by myself. last time my mother got sick like that, my father tried to get custody of me becuase she was in the hospital and there was no one taking care of me at my house. thats why my mom made me stay at gricel's house, even though i pleaded with her to change her mind. anyway, since then, this entire year has been one big whine fest from gricel. shes never happy with anything, shes always depressed, she never appreciates anything. its sick and it brings me down and i dont want to be around that anymore. so when the catastrophe that was gradnite occured, i guess i kind of used it as a catalyst to let out all of my frustrations. ive gotten into fits like these with karla before. many, many times before actually. and all that happens is that for a week or two we just dont talk to eachother and thats that. thats what i asked gricel for. just some time to cool down, but instead of letting me cool down, she started chit-chatting to people at school, to people on the internet.. about me. she doesnt know ANYTHING about me. today, i found this on some site:
"Ok so what do you do when your "best-friend" completely blows an issue out of proportion? I am miserable because of this girl and I'm going to have to spend an entire night with her. Apparently she thinks she doesn't "really" know me (or anyone else for that matter)because she lives in this perfect little world she has created for herself and has never taken any of us seriously until our ideas have come into conflict with hers I am so confused and everyone else just says well you won't have to see her after graduation which for them might be so but not for me since we'll be going to the same college "
she wrote that about me. SHE wrote that about ME. now this is just the straw that breaks the camels back. this is just the end of everything that was our friendship. how DARE she even claim that i live in some perfect little world. she knows nothing. she has reached a WHOLE new level of stupidity with that crap. this girl lives in some little hole in the wall apartment. her mom makes like... zip money, and she gets EVERYTHING she wants. the second she looks at something, her mom already has her pocketbook out. she doesnt even appreciate half the crap her mom does for her and she has the nerve to say that i live in some perfect little world. oh yes, this is how perfect my world is: for sixteen years i dreaded coming home to a father who i never knew was gonna love me or hate me for the day. sometimes i would come home with good news.. get an A on a test... win an award... etc etc, and he would ignore me. as if i werent even speaking to him. he'd just sit on the couch, turn on the tv, and disregard anything i had to say. sometimes, he was like a big brother, a half-way decent guy. he'd play board games with me and take me to grand prix to ride the go-karts. but sometimes -- most of the time -- he was a monster. he once jumped on top of me and started scratching off a flower that i'd drawn on my hand. i still have the scars. so finally, after sixteen years of misery for me and thirty years of misery for my poor mother living with him, we threw him out, and thats really when the devil in him came out. he destroyed so many things in my house, the AC, the plumbing, the dishwasher/garbage disposal, the bathroom, the lights in the garage. he just destroyed it all siltently while we were asleep, fearing that he'd break our doors down and kill us or something. so when we finally got the restraining order, he'd sneak to the house and do things. he slashed my mothers tires. and when we put him in jail, it just got worse. to keep us safe, my mother moved some guy she met off the internet into my house. he turned out to be even worse than my father, but in different ways. emotionally, he treated me even worse than my father. he'd often call me selfish and cold hearted and he once told me that i shouldnt even bother praying at night because i didnt deserve for God to listen to me. the only difference between he and my father was about $50,000 a year. my mother almost died in april of 2001. she had a gangrenous (SP) hernia that became so infected that she had kidney failure. she nearly died. and when she came home, she stayed in bed literally for two months, nearly dying again in june because of a potassium deficieny. that whole time, my father was giving us NO money, and my mother had no money coming in because she couldnt work. for six months we had hardly any money in the bank. they nearly took our house because we couldnt pay the mortgage. there was no food in the house and my mother was too sick to drive me anyplace. so with whatever amount of money we could muster up, i would take my book bag and walk in 90 degree weather to the supermarket to buy something to eat. i did this every day for a month and a half. finally, when my mom got better and we had a little more money, he started trying to take our house. this is where we live. we have no place else to go, and hes trying to take our house. we cant move anyplace else because we dont have enough money to move. all the houses here are over $150,000, when theyre smaller than the one we live in, and we cant move into an apartment because we have dogs. My father will NOT let us stay here because he wants to make us as miserable as possible. i start college next august and i dont even have a car. just to buy me a car for school is going to be another huge mission. we could ask my father, but he basically believes that i'm a demon and he has no intention of ever seeing me again.
so yes, thats my perfect fricken world. my life is ABSOLUTELY PERFECT!
how. dare. she. say that i live in a perfect world. the only person i have in my life is my mother. gricel has a big family who all give her whatever the heck she wants because shes a spoiled fricken brat. i only have my mother. i have only ever had my mother. i dont have any family besides her, and we struggle ever day just to get by, and she dares tro say that i live in a perfect world.
well you know what, gricel? thats it. you're a horrible excuse for a friend and i'm sorry i ever called you one. i'm sorry i didnt see you as you are until now. maybe i could have made a better use of my high school years rather than hang out with you. i hope youre very happy. you dont even know the can of worms you've opened. but i suppose you will soon. dont even bother trying to salvage this friendship. you've killed any hope.
its amazing. i have finally come to a realization. everything is clear and now i understand. now before i begin this post (which is really an IM between my friend Red, and i), i'm gonna have to intro with Blink 182's "Whats my age again?" (**note: this will probably be a long post. but its pertinent to my life right now, and must be addressed**)
Whats My Age Again? -- Blink 182 I took her out it was Friday night I wore cologne to get the feeling right we started making out and she took off my pants but then I turned on the TV
And that's about the time that she walked away from me nobody likes you when you're 23 and are still more amused by TV shows what the hell is a.d.d.? my friends say I should act my age what's my age again? what's my age again?
Then later on, on the drive home I called her mom from a pay phone I said I was the cops and your husband's in jail this state looks down on sodomy
And that's about the time that [w]itch hung up on me nobody likes you when you're 23 and are still more amused by prank phone calls what the hell is caller ID? my friends say I should act my age what's my age again? what's my age again?
And that's about the time she walked away from me nobody likes you when you're 23 and you still act like you're in Freshman year what the hell is wrong with me? my friends say I should act my age what's my age again? what's my age again?
That's about the time she broke up with me no one should take themselves so seriously with many years ahead to fall in line why would you wish that on me? I never want to act my age what's my age again? what's my age again?
What's my age again?
ok... here we go.
CelissE 13: i have a question for you: do you feel that you've matured or grown up in any way since your freshman year of high school? for example, do you still find the old jokes funny etc etc Fyerfly21: Yes. Very much. Fyerfly21: Why? Hm. Let me think. CelissE 13: because ive just come to a shocking realization as to why i hate all my friends (well.. most of my friends) this year Fyerfly21: Hee. That happened mutually between most of my friends and me. I didn't find getting plastered and smoking amusing like they did, so I didn't get invited anywhere. CelissE 13: eh. thats not really my problem. thats just mostly why i dont get along with 75% of my school. but my "friends" arent into that anyway. not that i know of anyway. and i dont really know much about most of them anymore. so yeah CelissE 13: but anyway yes. i was listening to enema of the state, because i'm doing chores and need something to keep me awake that isnt caffeine, and whats my age again came on. and i hadnt heard that song in about 78 years Fyerfly21: Well, that's specifics, for me. I mean, we just grew apart in terms of what we were. So, yeah. CelissE 13: anyway, so i;m listening to it, and i realize its the fricken story of my life CelissE 13: i've not matured since... erm.. i was 14. i said when i was fourteen that i wanted to stay fourteen and never get older, because that year was so fun, and apparently i did without even realizing it CelissE 13: so now all my stupid friends are old and mature and either extremely sexually frustrated or holier than thou, and i'm still fourteen years old CelissE 13: so that must be why i hate them all Fyerfly21: Um. Are you me? CelissE 13: because they grew out of everything. they got old and boring. and i've still got the mentality of an 8th grader. CelissE 13: i think i may be, yes Fyerfly21: Hehe. :) I feel that way, but obviously, not in the same way. It's weird. I feel like I've changed, and matured, but everyone else is miles ahead of me. CelissE 13: i mean, ive changed in SOME ways. like for example, ive gotten more serious about schooling and my future career etc, but in terms of friendship and my relations with people, ive stayed in the exact same spot for four years CelissE 13: i'm still morally opposed to sex, ive never had any kind of boyfriend, ive never even been on a date, and i have no desire to because all that crap is no fun. in terms of friendship, i still laugh at the same jokes, i still beat on my friends, i still do the same things i did when i was fourteen. Fyerfly21: Well, of course. People change. We constantly have things entering our heads, changing how we think about things in life, so it's inevitable. CelissE 13: i'm eighteen years old. and i act like i'm fourteen. now either theyre doing something wrong, or i am. CelissE 13: but if being mature will make me into what my "friends" have all become, i'd rather stay fourteen forever CelissE 13: i dont know. i'm just... amazed. it all just unclouded in celisse's head now Fyerfly21: Being mature doesn't mean obsessing about getting sex or becoming haughty. CelissE 13: ((it does for them)) Fyerfly21: I really don't know what maturity is though. Fyerfly21: Well, if it's how they've changed, then yes. CelissE 13: yes what? Fyerfly21: Yes, maturity does mean obsessing about getting some and becoming haughty to your friends, then. Fyerfly21: That's what I meant. :) CelissE 13: :) CelissE 13: in a lot of ways i see myself as almost more mature than they are. but in completely different ways. like i think i'm more mature when it comes to my future. i know what i want to do and i have known since i was about eleven. theyre all still treading water. i'm already right there. but in my sense of humor its different. CelissE 13: dude. its seriously like i havent grown up at all CelissE 13: its just that all this didnt hit me until just. now. Fyerfly21: Weird how things happen, huh? CelissE 13: its like, the gates of heaven have opened and the angels are singing and telling me what happened thats created such a gap between my friends and i. CelissE 13: that is, if you consider blink 182 running around naked to be angelic Fyerfly21: Hee. Well, whatever triggers thoughts! CelissE 13: haha CelissE 13: i even know what line it was that hit me: "nobody likes you when you are twenty-three and still act like youre in freshman year" CelissE 13: maybe thats why theyve stopped liking me. i dont know. i still do act like i'm in freshman year. i still think thats farts and butts and poo is funny. that mooning fort lauderdale and talking about "horses" and all that is funny. that beating up people and annoying them and yelling "QUACK" is funny. that singing opera obnoxiously and listening to songs about underwear and walking around talking about pantyhose of the millenium and buttpuffs is funny. my friends dont anymore. i mean, half of them are so concerned with looking good in front of people that theyve forgotten whats fun and whats dumb. the other half is so relationship deprived that they'd do anything with legs at this point. its just not fun anymore. i mean, gricel doesnt even smile anymore. if i saw her smile, like a genuine tenth grade FCAT smile, with teeth and everything, i think i'd drop dead on the floor. i dont know. people DO change i guess. and i havent. and its not like they can say that theyve changed because so much has happened to them and blahblahblah because trust me, ive gone through more of a life-shock in the past two years than i have in my whole life, and tried and true, i am still a fourteen year old maniac in an eighteen year olds body. i just think thats it then. this is it. this is why i've grown apart from so many of my friends. and it doesnt even bother me at this point. if being mature and growing up will make me into what they've become, i'd rather stay fourteen.
well.. thats it i guess. i'm done for the night. thanks for reading, if anyone is i mean. teehee. celisse. who is fourteen.
tuck me into where it's freezing tuck me into bed with snakes tuck me in with the tarantulas i wanna let em in my mouth and down my throat to lay their eggs tuck me into where there's bleeding where it spills out of the walls onto the floor tuck me into where your best friend's apologies amount to **** they always did for ever more i pour out onto the floor like liquid white from fallen glass nothing to cry over my skin went sour long ago it knew it had nowhere else to go tuck me into where i'm falling where i can feel the heat rise underneath my wings and all the fallen angels in hell will tuck me away from you take me away from everything tuck me into where there's dying tuck me in with flames and tuck me in with flies maybe then you will appreciate your only friend with maggots in her eyes or as ashes in the sky i pour out onto the floor like liquid white from fallen glass nothing to cry over my skin went sour long ago it knew it had no place left to go i pour out onto the floor like liquid white from fallen glass nothing to cry over my skin went sour long ago it knew it had no place left to go
HAH i'm fricken bored. i think i start every post like that. ...well its usually true, dambit.
to do list for tomorrow: drop off my film (WHICH HAS STILL NOT BEEN DEVELOPED BECAUSE THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS ONE HOUR PHOTO IN MIAMI-DADE COUNTY!!!) go to davids bridal and pick up my dress. and my shoes. and my scarf. and my fricken purse too. erm.. there was more, i swear. oh yeah.. head to the mall and buy a necklace to match the tennis bracelet i'm wearing to prom. i'll explain later :) hrm.. oh yeah. go to the car place and look at cars. woo! although i thought we were gonna get that cute neon from that guy in that place but i guess not. le shrug. anyway. yes. i was running around the house yesterday wearing my gloves and this nice diamond (hah, cubic zirconia) bracelet. it looks so pretty. actually, it looks fake like whoa, but dude, its a cubic zirconia tennis bracelet, its not supposed to look real. bwahwhahahaahah yeah. so tomorrow i'm gonna go to the mall and buy a matching necklace. i went yesterday and raided walgreens and bought a bunch of crap. i'm doing my own fakkkkkeeeee nails for prom. the ones i bought are really pretty. theyre clear at the bottom and a pinkish color at the top with flowers and a little stick on gemmy thing on the index and pinky nails. pretty pretty. i also bought some false lashes, but i probably wont wear them because they look too ostentatious for me. hah. for prom, i'm gonna do this hair that sarah michelle gellar wore to the teen choice 2000 awards. yeah. but my waves are gonna be a bit fuller since hers were kinda blah-ish. hee. grah, karla and i are gonna rock out hah. we're gonna look cooooool. and neither one of us is going to wear those pathetic feather boa things that certain people are obsessed with. hee. okie. off like a prom dress. hah!
"...sometimes i'm old enough to keep routines, sometimes i'm child enough to scream..."
lala bored like whoa. yeah my mom and i were supposed to go out today, but shes sitting in her room probably SLEEPING now! gah! i hung out at karla's yesterday. i hadnt been there in a while. her house seemed different. i thought this table that shes had since the beginning of time was new, so yes, i hadnt been there in a while :) selena hasnt called. that dope. ah well. bored bored bored. so bored. sooooo bored. grah. my doggies are foolish creatures who sing and dance the night away. ...its true. if i keep listening to this song, i'm going to fall asleep too. WOO i figured out how to do my hair for prom. teehee. but i'm not gonna say yet. bwaHAH! :) I'M FRICKEN BORED! ahh. maybe i should work on my website. its coming out quite nicely. i neet to put in one more script, and then align the iframe background more correctly, and then it'll be set. yay :) hah my mom just walked into my room and told me that shes been waiting for me to get ready. that shes been ready for an hour and a half. LIES! I THOUGHT SHE WAS ASLEEP! that meano. she does it to annoy me. grrrrrr. ok. off i go!
2001-2002 in review. and other stuff too. hah that rhymed!
hah ive come to the conclusion that this year has sucked. but its also rocked. its sucked in the way that i now see my "friends" as they really are, and i'm actually happy to not see them again after graduation. its rocked in the way that ive made new friends and the old ones dont really matter much anymore. ive adopted the attitude of "yeah well it was good while it lasted now lets move on." karla's really the only old friend that ive kept this year. but ive also become better friends with lisa and karen, and some of the loser boys, and other people too. i made friends with the debate club kids this year, which is something i hadnt done in two years of debate club with ms. rodriguez. being trapped in a hotel with them for four days helped i guess. :) i still stand by my word that i wasnt serious when i told walter to jump in that pool. :) i even consider gayvis to be a friend on some level or another. :) even if she did make a stupid comment in my yearbook. that dope. academically, this has been my best year since elementary school. i finally realized that in order to do well, i actually have to do... homework? yes. in terms of the fun-level, this has been a great year, regardless of the "friend" factor. ive had more fun this year than i had in my sophomore and junior years combined. prom is gonna be great, regardless what the parentals think what with the gricel issue. they figure since we're not speaking to eachother, being stuck in a hotel room with her for an evening is gonna ruin the mood. i see it this way: if i dont want to talk to her, i wont, and thats that. no one, it doesnt matter who it is or how long ive known them or what this situation is, no one is going to ruin my prom night. graduation is gonna be blargh. so boring. but i think i might be sad. not for the typical reasons though. i regret the fact that i didnt take advantage of my years in high school, that i didnt do more things, that i let myself become friends with people who turned out to be completely different than i thought. i regret the fact that i slacked off for so long, and didnt graduate with the honors that i could have earned. i regret a lot of things, but still, the overall experience has been a good one. i'm impatiently waiting day by day for the cruise i'm going on with karla. should be FUN FUN FUN! sipping my pina colada by the pool. lalala gonna be great! :) and to be truthful, i'm really looking forward to college. i think i really can do well, and i know that i'll have a better time in college than in high school. i'm thinking of moving on campus for my sophomore year. that should be great. well, thats been my year. now onto my day:
great day great day. called selena. she called me back twice! but i was away from my cell so i only got a voice mail :) its good to know shes still fricken alive! maybe after graduation, karla and i could meet up with her. should be great. the trio back together after so long. alex fixed the floating head. he still thinks leet is alive. LEET IS DEAD, PEOPLE, DEAD DEAD DEAD!!! jackies brother hurt my arm. i think i may kill him. laughed at albert again today. hes a nice guy, but so easy to laugh at. :) hrm.. went to karla's class instead of tv. production. i DID go to tv production. well actually, i stood in the doorway, asked fernandez if i really needed to be there, and he said no, so off i was. :) twas fun, dude. gonna get my pics developed tomorrow. i got some great ones this time. :) now my arm hurts and i'm tired so i'm gonna get gone like whoa! peace out, homie g. hah!
ten minutes to downtown, is ten minutes too far, when my friends all say i'm crazy. maybe i'm being selfish. maybe i'm just scared. dont be gone when i get home i need you there.
bwah i love the get up kids. i bought Something to Write Home About at the virgin megastore in downtown disney when i went with karla there for new years. funfun that place is great. i met this cool guy who knew about CKY. he was fun.
i dont know why i'm talking about something that happened fricken 5 months ago, but whatever.
we got our yearbooks today. theyre so purty. my half-page came out really nice. i dont like my yearbook picture though. my mom chose it and its ugly like whoa! hah mari was upset because they put the wrong picture for her. she liked the one better where she was drunk. >shrug< whatever floats, yo.
i got my prom dress altered. and i bought a different scarf and different gloves and a pair of nice comfy shoes. whee! i'm gonna look cool like whoa! i dont know what hair i should have though. i wanna dye my hair back to regular brown and throw in some highlights but that will take for. ever. so yeah no. i'm just gonna re-do the red crap. and let that be the end of it. maybe i wont even re-do the red. even though everyone liked it (well not everyone, but everyone who mattered heh). MY MOM WILL NOT GET OFF AOL. GET OFF GET OFF GET OFF! SHE WONT! GRAH! teehee. DUDE alex fricken left a floating head on a page of my yearbook. he started signing, but then he went to go get pizza and never finished. so all i have is a floating head which i'm assuming is himself. grah. floating head floating head. now people are frightened of my yearbook. or at least that page. or at least i'm frightened by it. hah its the end of the year (well, almost), and i'm gonna be free soon! free! freeeeee! FREEEEEEEEEEE! then, cruise time! woo! woo like whoa! hahahaahhha be off with me! celisse like whoa!
flippergirl99: i shall go to sleep now CelissE 13: GOOD! GO! CelissE 13: DREAM OF FLUTTERING BUTTOCKS! flippergirl99: good night sleep tight in your tighty whities CelissE 13: freak flippergirl99: oh yes...the fluttering buttcks...yes! flippergirl99: YES! CelissE 13: freeeak
lalala i'm so bored. hah ode to boredom. i think i may glue my eyelids together. wow that was from a long time ago :) like fricken 8th grade and crap. or maybe earlier. i dont remember heh grah today is all that is crap. its so yucky outside. i ususally like this weather, but not today. i wanna go to the beach. i cant wait till afterprom. i woke up to a huge thunderclap and ran outside to make sure baby was ok. so i brought him inside so he wouldnt be scared. silly dog. grah. so bored so bored. heh i have nothing to do. well i could work on my site i guess. the new layout is really pretty. but yeah i cant figure out a certain script and i dont feel like fiddling around with it for hours on end. hah. ok. bored now. gonna go. byebye agh! thunder! *hides*
KARLA WANTS ALEX'S BUTT. SHE WANTS TO RUB IT AND SHE WANTS HIM TO GIVE HER A LAP DANCE BECAUSE SHE IS A HORNY MONKEY!! SHE SAYS "COME TO ME, OH ALEX'S BUTTOCKS. FLUTTER TO ME, YOU ROUND CHEEKS OF DESIRE! BE MINE, BE MINE!"
hah i had a belated birthday dinner at the olive garden with karla tonight. i love that place. the food is always so yummy. i had lasagne and karla had.. mannicotti i think. and then she embarrassed me muchly by telling the people it was my birthday and we got a really yummy chocolate cake with a candle that SHE blew out. that little jerk. then we went to the mall and roamed around for a bit. she bought some shoes for the cruise. i cant wait i cant wait! :) we talked very much about prom.. erm... "stuff" hah :) grah prom is gonna be fun i think. :) all in all my 18th birthday was kinda poopy, but my belated birthday was pretty fun :) yay! pablo is a strange boy. he sang me the happy birthday song. but i was deaf today so i just heard the muffled happy birthday song. william is a wussy wussy who prances in pink tights. take THAT, you glarey eyed wimp! *hides*
lalala so bored so bored. i'm 10 percent lesbian. karla is 20 percent lesbian. Christina is 30 percent lesbian. bwhaha today was soooooooo boring. all we've been doing is watching movies. school has been one big nap for the past week. afterschool was fun though. vanessa, karen, karla, jackies brother, alex and i were playing with some stupid little paper ball. and we all sucked. and i fell over on something. and i was laughing so hard. it was one of those moments where you make such a complete ass of yourself that you're too busy laughing at yourself to care. haha it was fun :) jackies brother ruptured his anus. dont ask. his words, not mine. hes a weird fricken kid. i love afterschool. this year has been the best afterschool year since 9th grade. ninth grade was the better year in total though. blah. people have made this year suck-ah. hah! ok. bored bored bored. golden girls is on. i love this show. its sooooo cool. hah! :) ok i'm going to sleep now. karla says *fart*. byebye!
lalala boring day. we started watching Monty Python and the Holy Grail in english class today. that movie is funny. :) the losers in my class didnt get it though. grah. they dont get anything that involves actual thinking. i dont like them. poop. yes. second hour was boring. lala karla did a presentation. i almost slept through it. then we sang stupid songs obnoxiously. yup. hip, hip. erm.. third hour, we watched the second half of.. that crap movie with those people and that thing... erm... Wuthering Heights! that one. sheez. what a snore. i wrote a note to Christina that said: "I have a message for YOU from the UNDERWORLD: 'you may find a genie if you rub me like a lamp, but do it with yout tongue in case your tonsils start to cramp. What're you gonna do with all the love, you're hiding in your underpants?!'" she passed it around. very strange. mad about you is a funny show :) ok anyway, yeah. 4th hour was uneventful. we played trivia for bravobucks. i got one. i forgot the stupid question i answered. OH YES. it was "What is the name of Dick and Jane's dog?" the answer was spot. no one knew it. i thought everyone had to read those dumb books when they were little. "see spot run. run, spot, run." grah. 5th hour was also uneventful. i helped gayvis grade some booklets. her sophomores are weird kids. 6th hour was (per usual) nap time. and then we discussed our upcoming project. and fernandez tried to split up our group which is just NOT happening. i cant deal with the other losers in my class. its either: the "gangsta" losers or the posers. i'd rather be with my little group of unclassifiable people. grah. so take that, fernandez! bringer of doom! i'm so bored. ah yes. after school karla and i sang more obnoxious songs. then alex, jackies brother, and i discussed crap 80's shows. i LOVE jem and the holograms! dambit they should bring that show back!! i also took a picture of william wearing karla's glasses. he looked so nerdcore. it was funny. i have seven pictures left. then i can finally develop them! gah! and theres news. news i cant discuss. because i'm sworn to secrecy. but it will all unfold on prom night i suppose. :) (KAREN, IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU!) hah ok. i'm leaving now. byebye
lalala i'm so bored. check me out, i'm writing this post on my brand new notebook which is cooooooooool! i would have said "soooooooooooooooooo cool!!!" but its not that cool. i mean, its damb cool, but not sooooo cool with multiple Os and stuff. first off, its not the same thing as the one we ordered. i dont know why. its only 13 gig, not 30. and it doesnt have a dvd player, just a cd rom. the dvd comes seperately. and i was so excited to be able to finally play Alice. that is, until i found out that stupid windows XP screws over the game. i hate windows xp. it is all the crap that everyone says it is. oh well. i still like my comp. :) i need to stop playing with it and remember its only for school, but its just so much fun!!! teehee ok. everyone send me money to buy me my car. teeeheeeeeee haahahahahaha. dev and i started this long stupid thread. but now everyones posting in it and blargh. we wanted to ANNOY people, not have them join in. whatever, i dont like stupid aria. shes a major whore. she doesnt like me i think. and i dont care because she sucks! hahaahhahah! and shes dense too. woo! okie. i'm leaving now. goodnight. :)
YAAAAAAAAAAAY my computers coming tomorrrroooowwww!!! yayayayaya! teehee taahaa. i'm so bored. and happy. and i went lovely shopping. and bwahahahahahahahaha i'm going on a cruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuise and bwahahaha i'm going to prooooooooooooom and bwahah i'm going to graaaaaaaaaduate! YAY FOR CELISSE! :)
Gah i havent heard this song in about 67 years. I used to have this album when i was younger. Listened to it fricken religiously. I was a strange little 8th grader. Sha, then my walkman ate it. Le sigh.
Grah i'm working on this crap project for ms. cerra's class. i. hate. that. class. it sucks to the suckiest level of suck, like whoa. Its this big stupid college/career report peice on Boston of crap thing. i'm doing mine University/Film. i was gonna do Johnson & Wales/Hospitality Management, but dude, some chick got J&W instead (I turned in my paper before she did, i KNOW i did!) but whatever. i was really really hyper yesterday and was headbanging around the house and now my neck hurts. i'm such a geek :) ooh! ooh! great news! i nearly forgot! for some reason, my mom decided to get me a notebook. like.. a computer notebook, genius. erm it is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cool!!! like whoa! like double whoa with knobs, yo (HAH pulled them all out for that one, baby!)! Its an IBM R30. she got herself an IBM T21. and let me tell you the mission she went through for this crap: She calls me today and is like "Hey guess what! the've got these notebooks for auction and i got you one for only a thousand bucks. It goes for about 3000 usually. this is so great!" about an hour later, i call her to find out where the hell she is and she says "oh no oh no oh no i made a biiiiiiiiig boo boo! erm... i'll be home soon *click*". yes, mom. leave me in the dark. whatever. so finally she gets home and tells me what happened: "well.. i was bidding on it. and.. then.. i accidently bought two more." "WHAT?!" "i spent three thousand dollars?" "WHAT!" "oh shut up, i'm gonna fix it." so anyway, yes, she accidentally bought three computers, because she won all three of the auctions. she managed to talk to someone, and she can cancel the two she doesnt want, but shes decided to keep two of them, which is ridiculous since we dont have a million bux to spend, but shes dead set on it. whatever. i'm not objecting, but dude, i never asked for it either. more great news: i'm going on a cruise with karla the weekend after graduation. its a royal caribbean cruise line ship and i'm gonna have tooooo much fricken fun. :) i'm paying half of my own way, and her mom is paying the other half for me as a graduation present (THANKS KARLA'S MOM. AND MY MOM TOO!) hah. great day great day.
ok look at my comp info :) :
-30 GB HD -DVD/CD-ROM -56K Modem -NIC -13.3 TFT -Windows 2000 ...and a bunch of other nifty fricken stuff. i'm so excited. :)
ugh people are stupid. and sick. and my eyeball has just abducted my contact lens. gah! went to see spiderman with karla tonight. it was... interesting. heh. her dad farted a lot. and i dropped the contents of my purse onto the lovely movie theatre floor. i found everything though, so thats good. the movie was pretty good. i liked the newspaper editor guy. he was cool. he was like... a male version of myself.. 30 years from now. heee :)
we made new jokes: -the flappy-armed wave -"hey baby, wanna go to the virtual pizza parlor? meet me at papajohns.com" (i'm such a jerk. i'm a damb cool jerk. muahaha)
hah. ive decided to be not-shy around boys any longer. yes! because.. i'm celisse! and i am the coolest of the cool! and i can talk to boys without falling over or doing something stupid. yes i can yes i can yes i can. i think i can. maybe i can. one day i will. hah! i will.. tomorrow! tomorrow, i will. help. can you tell i'm bored? if you cant, heres the newsflash: I'M BORED! lalala. i'm sleepy. goodbye now.
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i had no idea that the images in YOU werent working. i could see them fine. so i fixed that up. I'm working on a new ALiVE so keep checking back, people. All in all, great advice and i will be taking some of it. Thanks, Louise! :)
hah i had so much fun afterschool yesterday. i dont know why but dude ive been like.. happier these past couple of days. i dont know. anyway, in debate, i was really bored and wanted to do something to bother Gayvis, so i stole a whole bunch of her rubberbands (since i'm banned from her desk but never listen anyway) and linked them up together (according to elizabeth and amy in tv prod, it was 80 to be exact heh... why are you looking at me that way? i was bored... STOP STARING AT ME!!!), yeah anyway, so alex wanted to stretch it really really far and snap it at people. but that didnt work. it kept just hitting me. so then someone came up with the idea to use the damb thing as a jumping rope. so karen and i started swinging it and told alex to jump in. and that created a crowd, and there was this HUGE crowd in front of the school jumping rope with a really long link of rubberbands! it was so... strange. like people who would never ever in a million years talk to eachother were there jumping. hah it was cool. :) jackies brother tried to jump but he fell really hard right on his butt and i felt bad but was laughing soooo hard :) grah then i came home and spent my friday night talking to karla about nothing. and making funny noises on the computer. (hie hoe, hie hoe.) hahahahahahahahh oh and i got my camera! yaaay! and my backyard has grass! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! it looks so purty. and the dogs are like "woo! green stuff! lets roll around in it!" :)
Jackie emailed me about a big misunderstanding about gradnite. i'm glad she did. we got stuff cleared up and now its ok. her email seemed really sincere. gricel's didnt. and i'm not just saying that either. jackies email really seemed like she was upset about what happened, and she wanted to make it better. gricels seemed more like "let me just write whatever so i can get her off my back." maybe i'm wrong, but thats sure what it seemed like to me. oh well. gricel's surely got better things to do than worry about her friends. no biggie. either way, i'm glad jackie and i got our issues resolved. thats one more person to invite to Halloween Horror Nights 2002, what karla and i have dubbed "What Gradnite SHOULD Have Been" :)
...shes so stupid... one month, ten days, 16 hours and 38 minutes until graduation.
william is a funny little glare-y eyed person. karla was telling me that whats going on lights up his life or something. that can mean one of two things: 1. hes eeeeviiiilllll or 2. he hasnt got a very exciting life.
hah i attacked alex with eyeshadow today. HES A WOMAN, A WOMAN I SAY! and jackies brother got angry that i was literally trying to drag him around so he tried to knock me over on top of alex, and then proceeded to jump on and nearly kill me when i stole his quarter. hes a strange sophomore. hes just upset because alex is a homewrecker and broke his heart. bwahaha. and karla is a lesbian seagull. and who was that guy, karla? he was nice. i think. who the hell was he?! LESBIAN SEAGULL! hah karla thought i made that up. that silly wench. alex and jackies brother were singing lesbian seagull. it was very funny. and scary. but mostly funny. here comes johnny with his pecker in his hand, he's a one-balled man, and he's off to the rodeooooo. *dies laughing*
well i think this is the end. i cant take any more of this BS. its frustrating me to no end. its really not worth it, with only 5 weeks left of school. so thats it. no more. unfortunately, nothing can be done until after prom. boo. but after that, so long. hah! :) i guess i dont care much. maybe that makes me cruel, but ive never denied being cruel. it makes life more interesting to see people in pain. :) hrm. on the plus side, i'm getting my waaaay cool camera tomorrow! or.. tonight? erm.. sometime within the next 24 hours. teehee :) and ms davis was doing a lot better today than she was yesterday. she looked as if she'd been crying yesterday but today she turned class into an Aerobic Workout. hah. i took some pictures of her with her troupe. i'll get them scanned and put up when i develop them. funfunfun :)
oh. my. gosh. i am so sickened that.. i'm like gonna barf or something. yeah. i'd say what i was sickened by... but.. uh... i cant. cuz like... yeah.. then i'd get in trouble with people i think. so yeah. i'm just gonna say.. ew. and uhm.. yeah. i'm literally like.. ill. its sick. sick sick sick. it could not be any sicker if it were maggots. maggots with... slime. and... goo and stuff. ugh the audacity of some people is bleeding amazing. how do you just keep something like that from someone? gr. ugh i'm keeping a list of people i wont keep in touch with after graduation. i cant wait to graduate. no more of this sick.... stuff. karla is relatively normal. i like that about her. yes. shes relatively normal and now the only good friend i have that is relatively normal. so there. be happy karla!