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| 1550 hrs IST, 1st March, 2000 |
| I stood next to the window... looking out. I had come here to find something. Hope dies. I still have not found it. If only I knew what I was looking for.... Its not the thought of failure in the quest the makes me unhappy. Its the knowledge that I have to seek that fills me with joy. |
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| 1630 hrs IST, 2nd April, 2000 |
| The motion of the train lulled me into a disturbed slumber. There would be times like these. It has to stop. I cannot go on like this. |
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| 0025 hrs IST, 7th April, 2000 |
| What is life? Why am I here? |
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| 2200 hrs IST, 14th April, 2000 |
| I can think. I can act on those thoughts. I can produce. I have a choice - live or die. Maybe thats what differentiates man and animal... animals choose to live, man chooses to die. |
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| 0300 hrs IST, 30th April, 2000 |
When you are willing to renderIs anyone listening? |
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| 1726 hrs IST, 5th May, 2000 |
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While you lie around and play, Wild on the warm and far away The days keep scribbling themselves here In random lines of gray |
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| 2300 hrs IST, 8th May, 2000 |
| Friend. |
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| 0052 hrs IST, 9th May, 2000 |
| I quit. That shall be my revenge. Life... are you listening? |
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| 1806 hrs IST, 10th May, 2000 |
| Kid. |
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| 0041 hrs IST, 10th May, 2000 |
| All those feelings coming back again. Like the roll of thunder chasing the wind. I can feel it. |
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| 1931 hrs IST, 12th May, 2000 |
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Where do I belong? Not to the people I live amongst. Nor to the city I live in. The people I leave behind or the people I meet. Nor the life I have left behind. Trivialities... funny how they are so important. The sun shines through the window. A beautiful day. Nothing better to do than commit hara kiri. Estranged. |
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| 2040 hrs IST, 12th May, 2000 |
| ... and life goes on. |
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| 2308 hrs IST, 12th May, 2000 |
| Lost in the crowd. For once the spectator. The energy of my thoughts lose themselves in the mass of humanity. A load lifted off me. Then it is back to where I began. |
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| 2310 hrs IST, 12th May, 2000 |
| The answer to the question is, "Yes... I am". How facile! |
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| 2326 hrs IST, 12th May, 2000 |
| You took everything. You took everything from me. Happy? |
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| 2048 hrs IST, 17th May, 2000 |
| Loser. |
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| 0022 hrs IST, 21st May, 2000 |
| All that mattered was US. Now its ME! That was then, this is now. |
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| 1900 hrs IST, 21st May, 2000 |
| Hate. The solution. This is going to be another ball game altogether. |
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| 0955 hrs IST, 22nd May, 2000 |
| Parasites. |
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| 1800 hrs IST, 22nd July, 2000 |
| You have a long way to go! We all have a long way to go! It never stops. |
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| 2346 hrs IST, 4th December, 2000 |
| A thousand faces ... which one is mine? |
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| 1748 hrs IST, 10th December, 2000 |
| Enjoy the company and leave ... without letting me know. |
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| 2105 hrs IST, 12th December, 2000 |
| thou shall not have a god. |
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| 2117 hrs IST, 12th December, 2000 |
| There are times like these. Liar! Its always like this. |
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| 1045 hrs IST, 26th December, 2000 |
| Cynic. |
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| 1300 hrs IST, 26th December, 2000 |
| Wishing it was. You look lost in time. Obviously logic and rationality dont count. |
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| 0337 hrs IST, 06th January, 2001 |
| Get a life. |
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| 2040 hrs IST, 15th March, 2002 |
| Wallow in paranoia. But maybe I am right. And I am losing. |
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| 1800 hrs HKT, 10th May, 2002 |
| You dont have time. Decide. |
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| 1353 hrs HKT, 11th May, 2002 |
| But who? |
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