DEWDROPS Verily, love is death, and death is life to come. Man returneth not again; the stream floweth not uphill; the old life is no more; there is a new life that is not his. Yet that life is of his very essence; it is more He than all that he calls He. In the silence of a dewdrop is every tendency of his soul, and of his mind, and of his body; it is the Quintessence and the Elixir of his being. Therein are the forces that made him and his father and his father's father before him. This is the Dew of Immortality. Let this go free, even as It will; thou art not its master, but the vehicle of It.( Aliester Crowley)
Appeased
Hollowed eyes filled with uncirtain hope;
In infinite tears,I run for I cannot cope.
Aura stained by rains of my ebony tears;
The angel you will become,the angel i loved for years.
Lingering despair,breathless surrender;
I close my eyes and painfully render.
And it is me that death does appease;
No longer foreboded my heart is at ease.
In my awakened moments I seek truth and light;
My soul kissed by heavenly grace and it repels my fright.
Your voice a lullabye,kisses my being ;
and the beauty of calm is so very freeing.
Escaped silence, the touch of a whisper within my grasp,
A shining recollection of you and I am no longer alone.
Breath my name
Darkness fell to pale my face and left shadows in your eyes Whispered sounds of dying time;I heard your breathless sighs Open arms awaited you with tainted grace Clouded memories lament your coming but caressed your face Touched by a whisper,the sun falls to low and I shiver from the cold Gentle winds kissed my face but your loves no longer told If only you could see the thorns behind my eyes;Taste my tears Your soul would embrace me and would kiss away my fears For within my face is pain so near,it screams till lips are blue Silent dreams of clouded skies and wished your words were true Please feel my fear and taste of my pain As your love would soothe me as would falling rain Close your eyes and see the light for tommorrow will be never Hide the sun from distant hearts and hold on to them forever Frozen hands chilled me and left me with a tainted heart Ebony sky jeweled with lost souls wisk me to a reverie where never will we part Angels blacked wings dust away my fear yet still I feel the same And i will forever await you ,till you finally breathe my name
~BEGUILE~
I cried tonight for an aura devoid of emotion Hushed breath,hollow core looking for devotion Rage overwhelmed him and his glare struck me with their rays Eyes once beautiful now absent , and in the cold he lays Stardust falls leaving a mask of perfection on his face but tears still fall and gloom remains floating into space He reaches for me but I pull away ,for my feelings are now unknown Forlorn dreams and memories leave the deceit etched in stone His hollow gaze swallowed me and I can hear my mute screams Falling through the vastness of his despair I see his tainted dreams Shrouded emotion cloaked in shadowed skys,leaving nothing but fated notion and I invite the black waters that soak my skin washing away all emotion Now standing in the dark,his eyes search my lips for a smile and a smile he recieved but my eyes whispered complete beguile Who are you? he asked and I tried to reply but I couldnt utter a single word all he recieved was a sigh I'm a stranger to him now, a void in his heart and the look on my face whispered to him that I was a stranger right from the start.
PAIN
I saw you through the pouring rainFace painted black to mask your painNo love for thyself ,lost soul in the crowd You no longer hear the music your voice is so loud Lost in my silent grove I call to you Shadowed heart waiting for light;a love so true Crystal prisms in your eyes leave me blind And I reach for skyclad thoughts,for I know it's what I need to find But darkness overtakes me and I huddle in the cold Wait for words to save me, words no longer told Crimson tears fall, coloring my pale face And I abide in my sorrow kept in my silent place Hidden away from tainted hearts ,searching for a dream A dream for tomorrow, but will forever remain unseen Bound by sadness, In darkness I lumber Hearing your screams through the loudest of thunder You are an empty shell that no longer feels Asking me for forgivness, making faithless deals Hidden away in your heart lies a book of dread And I taste of your pain for that book I have read Dark thoughts consume me, picking at my heart And whispers unknown lurr me to part Away from you ,A soul unknown Leaving you helpless and so alone So closer and closer the time comes when all love is gone and my heart runs Clouds of promise drift by hiding the sun And darkness laughs because he knows theres no where left to run So I throw away the hope once felt For fate has spoken,the cards been dealt.
GOODBYE
Lost and alone I wait for you, midnight whispers that havent come true Skyclad words come from purest of souls; clock ticks ,ticks,then the bell tolls.. ForlornEbony dreams take me away ; I have been fated on this very day Sullen kisses from heaven above ;with or without you I give you my love Coldness comes and cold tears seep; tears scar my face as I silently weep Black angel hovers , whispers dont cry; I'll let go of you now for this is goodbye
FREEDOM
It was her that fate captured and bound
Quiet cold listened for what could never be found
Shackled by despair but surrender she will never
Rage cut the silence and her heart it would sever
Red moon of ebony embrace granted her a reverie
An illusion of grace that only she could see
Belief of freedom,heart now void of hope and fear
Shadowed innocence sighed as she cried a single tear
Hushed screams and all dispair is lost
Peace of mind found but at the highest of cost
Death no longer the sole oblivion
Heart of grace and freedom was given
HATE
Trying to control my thoughts,I overflow with hate and anger for you
I slap your face with unkind words,what else was there left to do
You sicken me leaving me breathless and weak
And you stare at my face but cant find the hurt that you seek
I am overwhelmed with rage and I look to god for relief
but relief wont come for I have lost all my belief
Twisted thoughts enter my mind when I think of you
And harsh words are spoken when its you i'm talking to
You are the sin behind my eyes ; the darkness in my heart
So get the fuck away from me before you fall apart
You bring out the worst in me and it tears me apart
discovering this side of me ,a side with no heart
so read this and know ive thrown you out of my life
your actions and words will never be aloud to cause me any more strife
