He leaned against the door and tried to calm down the erratic
beating in his heart. It was just
Justin, after all. The boy he loved. The boy he needed.
Sighing, he pushed himself off of the door and walked slowly into the room, eyes
adjusting to the darkness.
Just like Justin to have all the shades pulled at one o’clock in the
afternoon, Josh thought, a smile crossing his face.
He looked to the bed and saw Justin tangled up in the blankets, his shirtless
back slightly visible. His body was
trembling slightly, and Josh heard a tiny sob from the bed.
He winced at the sound, hating to hear his baby boy cry. Taking
a step towards the bed, he took a deep breath and sat down.
Justin jumped and sniffed, rolling onto his side, his eyes widening at the sight
of Josh.
“J-josh?” he stammered, tears trickling down his cheeks.
Josh nodded and smiled, brushing a stray curl out of Justin’s face. “Hey,”
he whispered, keeping his fingers in Justin’s hair.
“Do you hate me?” Justin whispered, his voice cracking.
Josh’s face dropped in horror and he scrambled to lay his body next to
Justin’s, wrapping a comforting arm around Justin’s waist.
“God baby, no, I could never ever hate you,” Josh said, rubbing small
circles on Justin’s back.
“But…you…saw me…” Justin said, trying desperately to get the words
out.
“That doesn’t matter Just. I was an idiot. I didn’t listen to you, I
didn’t believe that you really loved me…I’m so sorry, baby,” he said,
pressing his lips to Justin’s forehead in a gentle kiss.
Justin reached out of Josh, sliding his arms around the older boy and pulling
him closer. “I would never do
that to you, baby…I love you so much…”
“What did he do to you, Justin? You have to tell me what he did to you,”
Josh said, bracing himself for the worst. The thought of anyone else’s hands
on this beautiful boy’s body made him shudder.
Justin took a deep breath and snuggled closer to Josh, his breath tickling
Josh’s neck. “I don’t think he did anything, baby…I don’t…he
didn’t rape me…I would have known…I think…I think he just…” he
took a deep breath to keep his voice from cracking. “I think he just touched
me.”
“I’ll kill him, Justin.”
“Josh, no! Please, just…please, I don’t want anyone to get hurt, I just
want to be with you, that’s all I want…please…”
“Fine,” Josh said, kissing Justin’s curls. “I’ll just have Joey do
it.”
Justin giggled and tickled Josh’s side playfully. “As long as you’re not the one getting in fights, baby. I
don’t want your beautiful face to get hurt.”
Josh felt a blush creep up his cheeks, and he grinned. The
smile faded when he remembered how he’d treated Justin.
“What’s wrong, Josh?” Justin asked, frowning.
Josh ran his fingers over Justin’s brow, smoothing the creases away. “I’m
sorry, Justin. God, I’m sorry for how I acted…”
Justin reached up and let his fingers dance along Josh’s jaw line. “I
forgive you, baby…because I know what it must have looked like…”
“You were begging me to let you explain, Justin…and I just walked out…I’m
so sorry…”
“Josh,” Justin said, cupping Josh’s face in his hands. “Listen to me, ok?
It. Doesn’t. Matter. As long as
I’m with you, as long as you’re with me, it doesn’t matter. All that
matters is that we’re together, like it should be.”
Justin’s hand found Josh’s under the covers and he linked their fingers,
squeezing Josh’s hand tightly.
“I love you,” Josh whispered, lips seeking out Justin’s.
“I love you too,” Justin mumbled into the kiss, reaching his hand around
Josh’s neck to pull him closer.
Josh slid his hand to Justin’s bare stomach, fingers barely touching the soft
skin around Justin’s navel.
Justin’s breath hitched and he sighed into Josh’s mouth, his tongue seeking
out the one of his lover.
“Josh…” he whispered, pulling away from the kiss.
“Mm hmm?” Josh mumbled, covering Justin’s jaw with kisses.
“Josh, stop,” Justin said, and Josh pulled away, confused.
“What’s wrong, baby?”
Justin couldn’t help but grin at the worrisome look on Josh’s face. He
caressed Josh’s cheek and kissed him lightly. “Nothing’s wrong, baby…I
just…I want…” His cheeks
reddened and he looked down, suddenly embarrassed.
“What is it, Just?” Josh said, fighting the grin that tugged at the corners
of his mouth. Because he knew what Justin wanted, and his embarrassment was
adorable.
“I…can we…”
“Where did this shy little boy come from, baby? I kinda like it,” he said,
pinching Justin’s ass lightly.
Justin jumped, then smiled and put his mouth over Josh’s ear. “I want to
make love you to.”
Josh’s cock jumped in his pants when Justin’s tongue snaked out to lick his
ear. “Justin…” he whispered
before Justin’s mouth covered his again.
When Josh opened his eyes, he was naked, and he couldn’t quite figure out how
he got that way, but he didn’t care. Because
Justin was straddling him. And Justin was naked. And Justin was—
“GOD Justin…so good…” he gasped as Justin pressed inside him, setting a
slow rhythm, kissing Josh’s chest, shoulders, neck.
“Josh…so tight baby…god…so good…love you…” Justin muttered, his
pace quickening, his thrusts getting harder. He
slid a hand down Josh’s chest, past his stomach, and wrapped his hand around
Josh’s throbbing cock.
“Fuck Justin…yes…” Josh panted, rolling his head from side to side.
“Josh…can’t…hold out…”
“It’s ok, Just…come on baby…”
Beads of sweat dripped down Justin’s face as he squeezed his eyes shut and,
with one last thrust, screamed Josh’s name as he came.
Josh was soon to follow, and Justin collapsed on top of him, their breathing
labored.
“I love you, “ they said at the same time, then smiling at each other.
The shrill ring of the phone caused them both to jump, and Justin reached over
to answer it.
“Hello?”
“Justin, it’s Joe. Is Josh with you?”
“Yeah, he is, and if you’re going to—“
“Justin, I’m not. I just need to talk to him.”
Justin sighed and handed the phone to Josh, who looked at him quizzically.
“Hello?”
“Josh, man, it’s Joe. We need to talk.”