Hey lisa, I don't know I just decided to make this to just let you know how much I love you. turn your phone sideways lol its much easier to read and looks cooler :p. I know this super corny too you, probably even worse than the letter i sent, but suck it up princess, its a little sweet right? lol  I really hate that you've been hurt by so many people in your life, and its horrible because of the person you are you don't deserve that. I know your happy being single and not have to worry about anything because well after being hurt over and over who wouldn't?  I also know that your happier with me then you are single, there just isn't anyway I can see it otherwise, I can see it in your eyes, and feel it when you held me. . Im so crazy about you. There really isn't much I can say I haven't already. You already know how I feel about us. I dunno a part of me just hurts so much and feels like almost everything you said was a lie, but I know its not a lie, its just easier to accept you not wanting us if it were. 


I just miss you so much, this sucks. For me to say this only dating you well not that long 6 or 7 months probably doesn't sound real too you. im being honest tho it is, I was with my other ex for much longer and didn't love her near as much as I do you. Mainly because I can see and feel how much you loved me.. There's no way that wasn't real.   I was SOO sure of us working that I let you in completely and never thought about us ending. Maybe I should of been guarded a bit more but in order for you to see and show how much I love you that's what I had to do.  I also believe you deserved to have all of me, and for me not to hold back was hard but it was what I wanted you to feel and see  just how strong my love was and is for you. . I don't have ONE single bad memory of us together you know its an amazing feeling ive never had before. I know you felt It too, maybe not to the same extent but you did. 


Pretty much gonnna create a time machine, go back,  find you date you before your anyone,    never hurt you , and be happy together, forever. mmmmkay? mkay sounds good to me too. 

 

Even when you fuck with me im not gonna lie sometimes I get mad then I see you laugh or smile and I just think god I love her . like when I stepped on your stupid ass hair thing . that HURT!  seriously that hurt a lot but seeing you laugh I didn't even care after. or when you snore lol usually snoring pisses me off but with you I don't mind at all, mostly cuase I like being awake to enjoy every second I can get with you.  I cant be mad at you and im not so don't say sorry, its not your fault, I just wanted you to take a chance on me because in the end you always get fucked over until you find the one person who wouldn't (ME!).



Still can't believe I licked your  peroid blood... Even worse I liked it :|

 


For the record I didn't use THAT much more strength when we wrestled in the end compared to the start ;p. What was that you called me?  puss puss was it?  ;p

 

" I used to be happy being single, but now I cant picture it any other way"

" I love being with you"

" I love you more than you think I do. Ur amazing and im glad you asked me out"

" I love you more"

" I could stay in bed with you all day"

" im crazy about you ryan"

" murr"

" funny story "  :p

 

now I know you told me about you getting scared and pushing me away , but you also told me these things too, and I know you meant them. It took a lot for me to let you in. If you let me in I promise you wont regret it. I love you so much. if there is even a one percent chance I can be with you I want to take it because that's how much I love you, I know we can be happy. If you knew how much I really loved you, you wouldn't have to worry about being hurt or losing me or anything because im insanely in love with you . if not well at least ill know I tried because I know im  not gonna get over you, ill just eventually learn to live with the feeling.I know your probably annoyed with me talking about this and almost begging you to,,  reconsider, Its just hard to give up on someone i love so much and i know loves me back, im a fighter, and i always will be, i wanna fight for you. 


 I love you lisa. Your amazing.  And no matter what happens I will ALWAYS be there for you.  It bothers me that you think I could ever hurt you,  because I know for fact I wouldn't.  I can't Change how you think but that is 100% the truth. I'd hate for you to not be happy. And for sure wouldn't wanna be the reason for it. .  if your sad and just want an ice cream or a hut dog lol,  ill bring it for you (don't use that card to often tho, you need a good reason ! )  Or if you wanna hang out and not talk, whatever it is , I will be. Im sure your minds made up and nothing i can do will change it. at least when you miss me you can read this and maybe smile. I took the ONLY picture of me smiling besides that other one just for you :p





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OH it fits !!!  on one arm anyways. :P


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I love you Lisa Rae.....


I MISS YOU SO MUCH



I can't lie... I think it's ridiculous... I have to lose you.. I'm bitter  as fuck... I always will be.. And ya... It's a flaw... I hate losing ppl.... I'm not gonna change it about me... Cuz... Well..... Why would I...  It's how I was brought up..... Peroid... Always will be.. And blah blah blah... 


 I just hope you remember me.  Not. as some loser ex..... But . As someone who Gave you the real thing. .. I know it wasn't good enough... It was real.. Tho..



When u date again... Or if your dating now... Give the guy...a chance girl...... You might find everything you want..... . Sure.. You don't.... NEED...  anything.... But you might get everything you want and more.... 


It's pretty easy to see how amazing you are.. No idoits gonna mess that up.. Trust me...they won't.unless there a retard.. 



  1. .. I'm delusional thinking that some how were friends or... Anything... Since you somtimes read this.. Lol... You want nothing to do with. Me.. And even tho I don't understand... I also.. Do respect that.. I've leared so much  from you.. Well about relationships anyways...  let's be honest,  I got the brains of this operation ;p.  Lol jk. But I'm gonna use it all in my next girlfriend... Or hopefully I just get a baba. ;p



Have  a good Xmas and new year.. 


Xoxxoxo.  


I. Miss Ya. 


all I can say is thanks for the memories. 


  1. I wanted this to turn to hate...maybe I'm too stubborn for that.. To see... The reality... But I don't care.. Fuck everyone else.. I really do... From the bottom of my heart want you to be happy.... Sure I'd wanna see it.. Since I wont.. I'll pretend you are... You gave me so much motivation to be better.. And for. I'm thankful. 


Crack a Heineken  for Me sometime girl.. Who we kidding you anit drinking no Heineken.. Maybe have a sip of bambino.... Instead lol  ;p 





                                                        Love Ryan