And another...
Mood:  down
Topic: Mirror Image
I see an old guy today, walkin' smilin', seems content. Worn out brown shoes, paper bag with wine bottle potruding, two or three days beard on his jowel, I see myself, I laugh.

Monday,Aug 15,2005
Mood:  not sure
I wanted to start this blog on a monday, I try to start things on monday, as if that will make it more legit or something. Hell, i dunno. Anyway, i like the idea of a blog, although the word "blog" is kinda stupid, dont you think?
Anyway, my life is in real chaos right now so i thought id kinda keep a record of how things are goin, i may need it.
I just got my divorce started a few weeks back, even though we been split for a coupla years. I initiated the damn thing and soon regretted it. Not cuz i wanna be married, I dont. But I did like kinda hanging on to her by my fingernails, I got control issues.
I started using again, of course. I aint never gonna be able to stop for good. The best I ever done is down right embarrassing. I have a degree in chemical dependency, for gods sake, and I have witnessed first hand what it does to people and families, and I cant stop. Almost thirty goddamn years of shootin dope. Hopelessly addicted. For the love of God man.