Well I'm honestly not sure. I'm not sure what drew me to D/s or Dominance and submission. I guess for me, trust has always been a big issue in my life. To be able to put my trust in someone and consenually allow myself to be dominated is a big deal. As a witch, I'm taught that my will is my most important tool. As a human, I realize that sometimes giving up your will to that of another is the ultimate gift you can offer someone.
But what I was looking for wasn't S&M. Yes, that can be a part of it, but it wasn't what drove me. What I was looking for was someone in whom I could entrust myself, and who would be willing to mold me into the kind of person that I desired to be, but couldn't be on my own.
To that end, I have been collared, and belong to my Master. But its far more than a sexual relationship. I am required to keep a journal, and do other assignments and tasks. I have a 3 month plan for improving myself that is reviewed at the end of each quarter. If I fail to do an assignment, I am punished for it.
While there are a lot of resources out there, this is one I like The Beginners Guide to Dominance and Submission.
If you're interested in reading about me and my life, you can check my Live Journal. A lot of what I write is not necessarily about my life as a submissive, but I think it all relates because innately, that's what I am.
You'll find that unless you have a LJ account and are on my friends list, you may not be able to read everything, but if you're not too creepy, and you want to be added as my friend, drop me an email and we'll chat.
Kelly's Journal