I spent way too much time now feeling sorry for myself for no goddamn reason. I think maybe I've been depressed, but I don't know why. I wonder if its because I'm just in a rut, not with Aaron, I know thats what everyone will think. No, I think this one is in myself, and involving no one else. I'm so excited about school, because I'll be doing something new and different, and I've always loved any kind of change. Maybe I've been frustrated because I haven't had a lot of change lately. I mean, I'm married and I don't work, I live in the same little area I've always lived in...I'm by no means saying that its bad, as a matter of fact, I'm happy with all of it...I'm just overdue for a little bit of action I suppose. Oh man, and I'm really torn up about this whole weight thing. I'm going to have to do something to change it. I've pretty much quit eating bad foods, now I just need to get some exercise. I'd like to go work out at Beuchanans, but JEN hasn't joined with me yet, and I really don't want to do it myself. I'm such a frickin whiner. I hate myself. Not really....well maybe sometimes. Mostly I'm pretty cool though, haha. OK, I'm off to go do something constructive.....lalala
