You can't imagine...

I would like to go...just bear with me...
In your minds eye, please allow the curtain to unfold. Rather then seeing the darkness that you see when you close your eyes, allow your mind to see a stunning nebula in space. The reds, the twilights, the inbetweens, bouncing quietly through space. Their background that of a black sheet draped over a light with million's on hole's punctured through it, making a tapesty of destruction.
In that mind's eye, allow you to explore, see what you wish, see what you want, what you want to hold. See a face of a loved one, there with you, watching you as you move along with them. Maybe a smile, maybe a scared expression, you are there. Maybe it's scary, the idea of drifting with no control, almost like falling forward. Maybe it's a rush, the idea of letting the space hold you close and emprace you the way it wishes. Just allow whatever emotion you wish to entrap you, to hold you. It's something that when you open your eyes, you don't remember, but it was there. It was a heaven, a small bliss, or worse, a nightmare.

Sadly, there is no instructions for this, or me. I felt like writing it, cause it was how I felt. Like I was just drifting...lost...but there non the less.I felt scared, then alone, then with someone. It was the oddest emotion I've woken up to. I don't understand it anymore then you probually do.
If this worries you, please don't let it. This is the most mellow I've felt since... I can't remember when. I'm not sad, not happy... I'm just kinda me. I don't care anymore, yet have the weight of the world it seems....
Goodnight again....may the rest be of that, a rest.