This is not me...

Anger... rage... pissed off... mad... steamed... frustrated... bitter... short fused... out-of-control... they all mean the same thing to me. I've been told to take my time with this one. It's something I have to be careful about. Since I was a kid, I've been told this; I'm not to let any of the above words take over me, cause it leads to hurt and pain.
Well...
I say f@#k that. I mean this, I'm angry right now, and I don't know why. I havn't been angry in a long, long time. Not like this, not this bad. I've been pretty much a push over all my life, not wanting to step on anyone's toes that I don't have to, and not invading anyone's space without first apologizing for it.
No more. Never again. I will not be hurt again. I will not allow anyone to do this to me again. I will not feel like I do now again if I have to swallow all my anger until I pop. I'm sick of it... I'm sick of it all.
I'm not a puppet, not a yo-yo, not a thing that can be told to feel bad for something that I had nothing to do with.
I think that I'm not that bad a person. I breathe like you, I think like you, or some variant there of, I walk, I talk. I'm you with a different body and idea's, but the same damn ingredients. So, why, why does it have to be a dominant over submissive life? why? Why does someone have the right to tell me to feel some way or another, or yell at me for doing something I didn't do. I don't get it! For christs sake people, find out the goddamn truth before you try and plant guilt on someone, on anyone.
Just because you have an idea, DOESN'T make it true.
I'm done now. But from now on, I won't be the same. I may seem it, but, I'm not. Not to the person that this is meant for. No more, you broke it.
As a note, if you think it's you, and you're reading this, it's probually not you. The person who pissed me off this much doesn't even care if I'm alive or dead. she never has.
Goodnight, and I'm sorry to anyone innocent that may have read this. I'm not a good person, and I know that. Sorry if I had mislead you on that.