..Dreams that won't come

Main Entry: 1dream
Pronunciation: 'drEm
Function: noun
Usage: often attributive
Etymology: Middle English dreem, from Old English drEam noise, joy, and Old Norse draumr dream; akin to Old High German troum dream
Date: 13th century
1 : a series of thoughts, images, or emotions occurring during sleep -- compare REM SLEEP
2 : an experience of waking life having the characteristics of a dream: as a : a visionary creation of the imagination : DAYDREAM b : a state of mind marked by abstraction or release from reality : REVERIE c : an object seen in a dreamlike state : VISION
3 : something notable for its beauty, excellence, or enjoyable quality “the new car is a dream to operate”
4 a : a strongly desired goal or purpose “a dream of becoming president” b : something that fully satisfies a wish : IDEAL “a meal that was a gourmet's dream”

Main Entry: night·mare
Pronunciation: 'nIt-"mar, -"mer
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English, from 1night + 1mare
Date: 14th century
1 : an evil spirit formerly thought to oppress people during sleep
2 : a frightening dream that usually awakens the sleeper
3 : something (as an experience, situation, or object) having the monstrous character of a nightmare or producing a feeling of anxiety or terror

I’m haunted by the second, and miss the first. In life, to me anyhow, things are not as casual when sleeping, as I would like them to be. In fact, haunting is just an easier and more acceptable ideal for my “sleeping” habits. If I’m lucky, it starts normal and ends sadly. Or, starts sadly and ends with just blackness. And I remember all of it. Every last detail. It’s sad to me to have to think about them, but I do, all the time. And it’s never going away, I know that now.

I guess things are just that simple, dreams and nightmares. There are there definitions. They are true to me, as this computer I’m looking into. They’re almost real things, tangible I mean, and someday, I hope to write what they are. But, I’m not that strong yet. --Night kiddies.