Lost....

It comes to this 'simple' idea:
We are not merely part of life, we are life. We are the ones who control fate, because we made it. Fate doesn’t control us, but merely, we control it. You are who you are because that's what you have chosen. No blame, no dancing around the subject, you are what is the product of your capacity to handle life as it was given to you.
I found out that a lot of people I know blame who they are and how they feel on their parents, friends, teachers and siblings. Not themselves. Granted, I'm guilty of this in the past, but I won't allow myself that luxury anymore. I'm who I am because I let myself become this way, and I can change that, slowly, through time if I so wish. If I'm not given the chance to repent by those I've wronged, it's my fault to have placed them in that spot, but it's also their immatureness that won't allow them to realize that a change or a difference was made for THEM.
I suppose I'm just tired, and maybe even a little sick, of having my faults rubbed in my face while more destructive faults of the "rock" throwers go unchecked. I think it's time as a person, that I at least, stop picking out others faults, and not the uncontrollable affect me, but to better myself by knowing that I am able to step back. A fresh look never hurt anyone, and I'm not the only one to have ever sinned or done something wrong... heh... I feel like a preacher. And then god said to Moses... nah, not funny. Anyhow, point is, I just want to be a better person, it may take me a while, but I'm trying. I know whom I need now, and whom I don't. I know what I want, and how I need to get there. And no one, or nothing, will stand in my way. Thanks.
Carry on.... Goodnight.