God??..??

Ok...well...let's not get serious...too much.
I'm not one to claim existence, or deny it, and have it matter, but this is my opinion. I have found that no matter how many times I fight the urges in my head, I'm having a hard time talking about this subject. Now, God, as a matter, could very well exist...just not to me. I find that placing my faith into something that was created a long time ago through sweet, blood, and sacrifice would be a valet effort...but I can't get past my own ego (as ironic as that sounds) and buy into an religion or belief system of a God.
This is my reasoning of existence...
How many times in life are we alone? How many times have people been hurt, or are hurt, and feel the need to end their lives...alone. Sadly, a lot. However, I refuse to believe that I'm just living worm food. I don't find myself so important that I have to kill myself just because it is not going right. I don't effect the world that much where my life should matter that much. Now, to get back to the God subject...I would like to believe that we are all climbing a ladder, not of creatures, but of intellectualness. We all have to go through it, and we al live out some form or another of life. (I have to thank my friend Nick for this belief. It is all his, and I am beginning to incorporate it into my own.) We all have to be the kid who kills himself, we all have to be the genius, we all have to be the Leader of whatever society...it just rotates until complete and you've covered all the bases.
To shorten this up to one line...or two...I believe that we all have to become the final level, and we are all masters of our own creation. It's up to you to make the most of your life, no one else. It's just the evolution factor that we need to complete to become fully aware of our entire potential. That's all. No god, only us. (yes, I'm aware I may end up in a nasty place for this, but, that's my choice.)