Death...Life....Everything

Now, a subject that I can relate to...death, or better said, Dying. Almost everyone has been through some sort or pain at one point or another. I mean, lets be honest, it's something we can all relate to.
This is how I feel:
We are all dying, we are all a part of it, the cycle. Sometimes, we die internally, emotionally, or sadly, physically. The others have time to be reborn, or live again, but the last one, Physically, that's the end. Maybe you'll be back...but your personality...what makes you YOU will be destroyed for at least a little while. I used to want to be remembered, maybe even be famous, not anymore.
I don't want to hurt anyone when I die. I just want to die, in any faction, and live in that misery, without causing anyone else any pain at all. I kinda don't want to be remembered, cause I know how I feel about those I've loved and lost to death...I don't want anyone to have to live with that, to have myself matter.
Then why this page you may ask?
I'll tell you why.
I want to be understood....by chance, it would be nice by someone that cares. I want to, at least, while I'm alive, to be known. I want to let myself, and others around me, feel comfortable with me, who I am, and understand why I feel the ways I do. Maybe this is a little narsasistic...but I have motives other then self love here, it's more the love for those around me that I don't want to hurt. I want them to be able to check up on me, and see that I'm still as crazy as they remember...
Goodnight.