You take my breath away
You lift me skyward
Hold me
Once more
I lean upon you
I need to find you
You keep me live again
I want my razor
I'm thirsty
For blood
You keep me up at night
I'll do that for you
Waiting
To see...if
If I, I can bleed for you
I will bleed for you
These are the lips you kissed
My lips are rotting
All from
Your lies
But I'm lost without you
I depend upon you
You are the face I need
You are the trust I heed
I'd do anything to numb
I'll leave a frostbit story
But the fire on my thumb
Keeps me from purgatory
Where's my nirvana?
I think it's in hell.
And with the razor, curse the skin.
Or with a tiny safety pin,
Release the horror from within
Tranquility is finally mine!
"Not again, though," I opine.
Secrets dark crawl up my spine:
If you hold the blade just right,
Abandon love; abandon fright,
Push and slice with all your might,
You'll fade away, into the night...
I set my love for you ablaze
Surround you with this fire
My lies fall through within your gaze
But still lives my desire
I tear my heart ten thousand times
To prove self hate abounds
I beg you to stay here with me, but
The final closed door sounds
It's all my fault.
But just one little wish
Yeah, one little hope
The breath of a lover'd
Cut the noose from my throat
And we all have one lover,
So I've got to have mine
In a cloud made of ashes
That's where he hides
Running out of time
Running out of class
Here, consume my pain:
Tears I've cried into a wine glass
Eat of all my horror
Drink of all my solitude
Wash yourself in purity
And spit upon my soul food
I won't take your time
I won't take your day
I could never guess that I'd
Take your breath away...
Accusing
Staring
Challenging
Scoffing
I turn from their hatred,
And walk toward the light
In circles, as hellfire
Consumes me
Shunning
Destroying
Rejecting
Burning
I cry out for mercy
As I slowly dissolve into one of them.
And the wounds grow more powerful and
Dominate me
Looming
Screaming
Dying
Bleeding
The black shadowed figures
Chant and bellow as the fire burns.
Death is near, and they are looming,
Mocking me
Attacking
Fearing
Slipping
Breaking
I reach for the hand of light
Laughter pushes me toward the sky
But the deceitful hand
Drops me
Stealing
Envying
Lying
Falling
Silently, a gnarled, white finger beckons me
I step forward. My last breaths fill my lungs
The hand reaches for my throat. My heart
Betrays me
Deceiving
Drowning
Cheating
Chilling
I fight the hand to its death
The sweat trickles from my brow
This is a fight I cannot win. The hand
Chokes me
Struggling
Hating
Confusing
Cursing
Here I lie on the floor
You have failed. I have failed.
My soul is lost. Forever it will burn.
And once again, I am alone.
Forever. Finally.
Eternal damnation follows me to the grave.
Passion spun past dancing toes
Hidden moonlight no one knows
Faded hearts ablaze for lies
Lack forgiveness by last good-byes
Beauty lost within deep hate
Letting go perpetuates
Broken hearts frozen in time
Perfect smiles pretend I'm fine
A single breath slinks past my face
I'd rather die than fall from grace
Take a chance to chase the sun
Crying out for anyone
The clock stops, energy stills
I am killed.
My adoration
For you has shown me
Why dire anticipation leaves me
Helpless and lonely
If you have to go
Don't say goodbye
Just kiss me and I'll know
I'm perfect in your eyes
I think I've lost this child
You carry me a while
This energy I feel
Is it real?
You're my ticket to freedom,
My sacred escape
Whatever I become
I'll always be your bait
Wind it stings my ears
Run escape my fears
Silently, I say a prayer
But no one hears
My fears
Frosty cramps my feet
Trudging on, I meet
Clouds of snowflakes taste so sweet,
Then I greet
Defeat
Kissing my rusted knife on my pillow
Breathing inside this aquatic orb
Discovering soon my zippers will know
I will start to love them more
Rubberbands and shattered glasses
Falling down I bang my head
Rather than blend with the masses
I'll fondle this pair of scissors instead