2/18/03---well now, my first rant.... what to rant on... what to rant.....How about life in general. Life sucks, paraphrasing a person by the name of Liz put in her site- "Life is like a thong, it always rides up yo ass." that sums up life. I need to be clean, and safe, if only for one persons sake. not mine either. When it boiles down, i just wanna be hugged. i'm not always the hardcore, "beat you up" kinda guy everyone liks i am. Nor am i the testoteron filled, thinks with his balls kinda guy either. You can call me a softie... but then, why do the girls (and guys for that matter) come up to me for advice?
03/01/03- well its 12:20 AM, and i have just gotten back from a fight, i hate fighting i really do. But when you whole life has been played out in front of you, and it isn't a very pleasent site (no i won't be telling you people, that shit stays locked up) you tend to want to hurt something.
So ive got linkin park on the brain, and i walk up to my friends house, at around 11:45 at night. and of course i dun knock or anything, i goto his window and crawl in, thats why we got ladders attached to our rooms, that we can pull down, so we can do this. I wake him up and tell him the situation, and yeah, we go outside, and pick up padded PVC pipe. we fight like this regularly with armor on, because even with the padding it hurts. instead tonight, we only had on helmet. still i got a nasty blow to the head, im sure it'll show up latter on today. but yeah, im bruised, im battered, but i feel better
3/4/03 Well now, im confused... imma put it out there now, im Pro-Choice. I mean, if you won't let a woman choose what happenes to her body, you take away a key basic freedom. I mean, think about it. the arguments of "Its Murder!" or "its wrong" or even "what if that child would have grown up to be something wonderful?" dont really stand up to a close look. The murder thing, killing a dear for its food is murder, putting a dog to sleep could be considered murder, if you want to include everything thats the taking of life as murder. The fetus, is not self sufficient, it is co-dependant on the mother for life. in a way, it could be considered a parasite. It leeches off the mothers digestive system to survive, and if the mother is malnurished, the baby takes all of it.
Then theres the "what if it would have become something great?" argument. Most abortions are from people that shouldn't give birth, like teens. Teens, when giving birth have a higher risk of birthing a under-developed teen. Yes sometimes, more than likely even, they turn out alright, but would you want to impress something of that magnitude on a teen? i mean, Hell, if you want the kid, you want the kid, and thats your choice, but leave my choice alone. the kid'll prolly turn out alright, but if a family cannot support the child, then it shouldn't have it.
I know a lot of my friends hate my veiws, but see- im not a christian, or a Jew, or a muslim. Im not sure what i am, but see, all this pro-life stems from our Puritan heritage. but where is the separation of church and state? i mean, a hell of a lot of churches are pressuring government to give in to their demands. I got one thing to say to them. FUCK OFF!
4/14/03-(sung to the tune of for hes a jolly good fellow)- for im a jolly good fuck up, for im a jolly good fuck up, for im a joly god fuuuuUUUUUCK UP! annnnd nobody will deny.
5/10/03- im not the one worth it. i give up, its not as if im aprecciated IRL.... hell barely anybody comes to my god damn web site. im an O/L personality. i cant hold a conversation for very long outside of the net..... im a nobody off the comp.
11/5/03- GOD FUCKING DAMMIT ALL OF MY SHIT IS GONE!!!!! all my work from the past year and 11th grade, is gone- my disks have become corrupted... and i never had a backup..... im screwed... all of my best work were on those disks.... im screwed...
