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Here is philosophy stuff I came up with after an intense hallucinogenic experience.

On Chaos:

1. All patterns have inevitable flaws in them-the unconquerable tiny element of chaos. This tiny element cannot be predicted or understood. The ratio between the pattern and the flaw will be referred to as "The Broken Ratio," and it applies to many situations on various levels.
2. All chaos, on a large enough scale, produces design, seemingly at random. Design born of chaos is more profound than design born of intention. The best example of this is nature.
3. Everything in this relation can be looked at as a metaphor for everything else, a microcosm or macrocosm. Example: A classroom environment can be applicable as a metaphor for human nature under a dictatorship. Mainstream music can be compared to politics-Boy Bands/Pop = Republicans, Rap/Rock = Democrats (they're both corporate and greedy, but democrats maintain a more "alternative" image).
4. Infinite answers/"truth" can be found in any object/situation with the proper insight and recognition of the context. Microcosms of a society follow the same designs as the society. Often the results are different due to a different circumstances and the element of chaos, but it can teach much about nature and truth.
5. The Broken Ratio is also the ratio between a large amount of the fairly neutral element to a small amount of something potent. Examples: more empty space in a room than objects, more water in the sea than fish, more "doing nothing" than action on a day-to-day basis, constant slow calorie burning in the human body to the spurts of large intake at meals, the fact that the vast majority of the earth is just dirt, but the "substance" (life, mountains, water) is only the very surface, etc.
6. Empty space is to substance as order is to chaos.
7. The "negative" element of anything seems to be more potent. It is easier to destroy something than to create. It is easier to ruin a day than to perk one up. A negative number multiplied by a positive number is a negative number.
8. Positive is to negative, as empty space is to substance, as order is to chaos. This is the Broken Ratio. Another example: neutrality to extremism.
9. Imagine logic/reality or any aspect/situation of it, graphed on a chart. To visualize it on a paper in the usual sense would be assuming that reality is two dimensional. There is a third dimension, the part of the graph that rises up off the paper at whatever point logic graphed it at. This is the element of chaos, the flaw in every pattern, the part that cannot be predicted. Without this third element we would be totally predictable and function as clockwork. Child + education + unknown variable = educated child +/- unknown variable. The third element/unknown variable is what keeps all educated children from being the same, and all situations from being the same. It is nature, which contrasts with man-made order.
10. Thus, I have concluded that this third dimension, this chaos, is the life force. For lack of a better word, this is the soul, or God. Not a singular thinking being, but a profound, impossible to comprehend, third axis to the X and Y axis that perpetuate all change, decay, exceptions to common sense and logic, absurdity, extremism, etc.
11. It makes perfect sense that "God" be an unthinking entity, because thinking is flawed, and reality is flawed. There is never an absolute good or bad. Therefore, the only way to be a fair god is to be truly random. But, this random-ness transcends thinking by far, creating profound things. This is, of course, a paradox, which is why it must be true.
12. We are made of the stuff of "God," but are paradoxically separate, thinking entities, or so we seem. Entropy, the natural tendency of everything to fall apart, takes up eventually back to being a tiny part of this huge ball of energy: nature/god/chaos. This one-ness could be considered enlightenment. It would not be heaven or hell because it is total peace. One ceases to exist as a separate being, but not the life that one is manifesting. Matter cannot be created or destroyed. Only the stuff made up of it can. Much like legos.
13. The Broken Ratio of lots of empty space to a little substance appears in everything. Between our atoms is empty space. We ourselves, and all matter, are mostly empty space. And yet the substance that is the minority is potent enough to overpower the space and make it seem non-existent.
14. Matter is neither created nor destroyed. Thus, in a way reincarnation is true, but in another, more literal way, it is not. We are not separate enough to have separate souls, but rather we are made up of life-matter, energy, which is eternal. You may take different forms but you eventually disperse and parts of you form into different things.
15. We are little pieces of a giant, single "soul," most of which is not partaking in "life" at the moment.
16. Ratio: Total Soul/Energy to Soul/Energy that is in the forms of separate living things.
17. Body and soul are one. One's "soul" is the atoms one is made up of. Truth/Paradox: Science IS Religion. Therefore "Soul" and "God" and Chaos and Nature are the same thing. This thing is energy. At death, having your cells, or soul, spread across the energy, losing your separate identity and connecting to a bigger, unthinking one. This is much like the Hindu belief, except with the belief that "soul" acts as matter does.
18. Extremes create the opposite extreme. An oppressive police state creates rebellion and vice versa.
19. Nothing is absolute. Everything is in a state of constant flux, including "truth." The flux is subtle and inconsistent. Every statement and rule has an exception. The exception to this rule is this rule, which has no exception. (Paradox= Truth. HaHa.)
20. All truth is a paradox in one way or another.
21. Chaos theory says (and proves) that there is never really more than one of anything, because nothing can be recreated. Two cans of coke are actually very different on a microscopic level as well as many other levels. There are six billion human faces on Earth with the same placement and quantities of facial features, and yet no two faces are alike. Paradox.
22. Here's the contradiction to Chaos theory: Electrons make up all matter that can never be the same or repeat itself. Yet, electrons themselves are all exactly the same, in a way that nothing else is. They do not age, they cannot be marked, they cannot be told apart, they even act exactly alike.
23. Thus, the conformity of electrons forms the substance of the utter chaos that is matter. This matter is nature, or chaos, which creates unthinking, random, yet paradoxically profound and complex design: trees, animals, etc. Man, born of chaos, creates an order, government, which is beset with inevitable chaos: corruption.
24. People cannot be wholly good or evil. Nothing is that neat or that binary. What varies between the people that commit "good" or "evil" acts are circumstances, justifications, and the unknown element we will never understand: chaos. Most often, evil is committed in the name of good, and the perpetrator is ignorant to the evil of his actions. He only sees his side, and justifies his actions to himself in some way. Often the evil is out of blind faith, especially to an institution. All people are capable of incredible "good" or "evil." Paradoxically, much of the worst evil is self-righteous, ie The Crusades, The Spanish Inquisition, Missionaries, etc.
25. Because nothing is always true, no rules can be universal. Individuals are nature/chaos and Institutions are order.
26. People have a human element that cannot be truly cruel without great self-justification or dire circumstances are both. BUT, in a large group, everyone can be cruel and no one takes the blame, because everyone is merely a guiltless, insignificant part of an evil group. Examples: Nazis, corporations, soldiers in war, government officials, even people who perpetuate things like eating meat. Thus people cannot be evil, but institutions can. Institutions take away the human element and personal responsibility.
27. Christianity tries to oppress the natural side of man, because nature is chaotic and hard to control. The sins are different aspects of our nature that don't have to do with morality: lust, pride, sloth, gluttony, greed, wrath, envy. Christianity believes that the true nature of man is evil, and that suppression of instincts through guilt, ignorance, and blind faith will lead to virtue. It also believes that people will not be good unless they have consequences to fear, because their nature is chaotic and chaos is evil. I disagree. I think human beings can have compassion without the fear of consequences.
28. It seems obvious to me that "God" would not being a thinking entity that resembles man, because Order and Chaos are opposite ideas, Nature being chaos, and order being man. The order is striving to make existence a two-dimensional graph that ignores the life-force, chaos, and that is flawed. It is flawed because perfect order cannot be created or perpetuated by things born of chaos with a chaotic nature.
29. For the most part, trying to fight anything by opposition is detrimental. This includes fighting the instinct to fight something by opposition.
30. Most things perpetuate themselves. If I look weird and miserable, its because people treat me that way, because I seemed that way, because I felt like that, because of my environment, etc.
31. Logic, like everything else, has its flaws and contradictions. Miracles have happened for every religion, and none of them can be absolute, only truth. The third dimension, although random, I think is effected somewhat by "the will" and other forms of energy. The Broken Ratio applies to Logic: Logical Reality to Random Flaws in reality/miracles/ghosts/magic/whatever.
32. The will, when not confused by self-hatred, self-deception, or force, is powerful. I believe it can have some effect on the third dimension/unknown variable.

ELABORATION ON THE BROKEN RATIO:

Pattern to Flaw, Filler to Substance, Masses to Leaders, Good to Evil,

THE ETHER:
The ether is the space between. The chaos in the air. Paradoxically, there is much substance and energy in empty space.