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Please let this work.

September 15, 2011 An appeal from the author

I want this to work. I want this to help and heal me. There's a quote I wish to paraphrase: "For beautiful lips say nothing unkind". This is the mantra I wish to follow. Hopefully, it will cleanse me of the sickness I feel day in and out. The sickness of envy and excuses and irrational wastefulness.

Rational adjective

1. agreeable to reason; reasonable; sensible: a rational plan for economic development.
2. having or exercising reason, sound judgment, or good sense: a calm and rational negotiator.
3. being in or characterized by full possession of one's reason; sane; lucid: The patient appeared perfectly rational.
4. endowed with the faculty of reason: rational beings.
5. of, pertaining to, or constituting reasoning powers: the rational faculty.

So I need a rational plan. For how to live. For how to be. Is planning causing me to feel stress? Should I abandon any plan but only strive to live through everything mindfully and rationally? Can I be happy in only pursuing this one large aspect of my life rather than palpably improving so many of the deficiencies I perceive? Don't I need some form of documentation and active goal-setting for all the sections of my life that are subpar?

Anything's worth a try, I suppose.

No plan, just mindfulness.