My Notes

This is where all the notes about my little lost world will go.
First note 3 November 2003: I love Lucas and Lucas loves me. How can anybody love me? I really don't understand. But, he still loves me. That's all I really care about. I'm glad he loves me. We've only been going out for, uh, 1 1/2 days. Wow! That's a record! 1 1/2 days and he says he loves me.
Second Note 12 November 2003: He really doesn't love me. He just said he did. Why? Because he's a jerk. That's why. Oh, yeah. I'm avaible now. I won't go out with any guys older than 12 and no younger guys than 13. good luck finding me.
Third Note 21 November 2003: I was thinking of cheating on Anthony until I relized, Anthony was the only guy this year who has actually liked me for I am and doesn't care who my friends are or what I do. All he cares about is that I'm pretty and cool to him. Nobody has ever treated me like he has. It's been 1 week, 2 days. That's a long time. Last time it was 2 weeks, exactly. It's been about 4 weeks since last time. I had some bad relationships in-between. Anthony has helped me get over them. I am so glad I have Anthony by my side. He will help me, nobody what kind of trouble I'm in. He'll keep me out of trouble. He'll never desert me. I've lied to him, yet he still trusts me. I won't ever cheat on Anthony now that I relize that I love him. He's so adorable and cute. He's so nice to me. He will even let me play football. Lucas believed I shouldn't play football. Sean thought I was completely clueless about football. Enoch didn't even know I wanted to play football. Adam thought that if I played football, I shouldn't be his girlfriend. I'm glad I'm Anthony's now. I'm glad I'm free. I'm glad he likes me.
Fourth Note 29 November 2003: I never really love Anthony. I then cheated on him the next day with a more popular guy. He broke up with me on Monday and so did Matt, the guy I was cheating with. I haven't had a boyfriend for 5 days and I'm actually happy. I don't want right now, only if they ask me out will I say yes. I have finally found myself: Weird Spikey. It's my new name. That's what my layout site will be called. It'll be different from my diary, finally. I just have to find the right host. I wish I could. I need help. I need help badly.
Fifth Note 22 November 2003: Today, Lucky, my teddy bear, turned 6 years old. I know what you must be thinking. "This girl must be crazy. She knows her own teddy bear's birthday. Her teddy bear HAS a birthday." I'm not crazy. I'm not parnoid either. Let's change the subject. I love Sean, and he think he still likes me. I had a dream last night where I was holding hands with Sean. When he was holding my hand, I was warm. Once he took his hand out of mine, I got cold instinely. I've got to go. See ya. I love Sean (Lord of Agony).

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