A Dreadful Day For Me

Today is the Fifteenth day of the Eleventh month of the Two-Thousand-Third year A.D. Today is Casey's funreal. It's at two o'clock today. My brother will be there, I hope. You see, my brother ain't really my brother. He's my best friend who more like a brother than a friend. Although everybody says we look like a cute couple, if I go out with him, it'll be going out with my own brother. That would be just digusting. I had a dream lsat night about Sean, my ex-boyfriend. He was like a brother because we were at this carnival. They had monkeys for sale. I wanted to look at them, but then I saw them and I said to Sean, "I don't want to. They're too scary." He didn't make me, but he really wanted to. I thank him for that. I wish he would talk to me even more than he does because I just want to be friends with him. He said he was cheating on me the whole time we were going out, but I don't believe him. At the begening of the year, Sean hated me. I was chasing him one day--don't ask--when I told him how I felt about him--he was hot. I told him and nobody believed me. When I asked him out and he said yes, it was such a shock for me. The same thing about Lucas. Ever since I first saw him, I thought he was hot. One day I told my friend, James, how I felt about Lucas and he asked him out for me because I couldn't do it by myself. On his way to ISS (in school susupension), he bumped in to me "on accident" and that's when he said yes. Noone would believe me when I said that I was going out with Lucas. They said he wanted something out of me. But, knowing Lucas, he never lied to me. He never did. Until he made Sean break up with me for him. That was really pathetic because this dude has gone through many fights, including getting a pole smashed into his face, but he couldn't break up with me by myself. It is so weird because this guy, I thought, always was so cool until I relized that I was way to cool for him. I don't like wimps. I like guys who can actually be my friend, even after the break-up, like my current boyfriend, Anthony. This dude waited a whole month to ask me out. Usually guys ask me out right away. This dude waited. I hate my love life. It's the only life I have, I'm afraid. I've got to go. Bye, see ya.

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