Well, I enrolled in a two year college which I'm taking by mail. I did it only to please my parents and I actually wanted to study in "Early ChildHood Ed" because I love working with kids. Anyways, ever since my grandpa pasted away last month it tore me apart and I didn't want to go on with my papers and stuff it's hard because I want a better future for myself and well, it's just crazy for me. Instead of seeing what life offers in front of my door step I'm in my room just thinking about my pain and heart ache it sounds really lame but it's just unexplainable for me to say. I don't have alot of time left because it's alot of work and I have four semesters with alot of work lol.